// My Illusions*
Monday, October 12, 2009
Sometimes you just wonder what are you missing in life?
It's like sometimes you are missing something in life. I always feel that way and I keep wondering - "What am I missing?"
As a human, you feel sad, you feel happy, you feel angry, you feel... Let's just say AS A HUMAN, WE ALL HAVE FEELINGS.
Having said that, we tend to be selfish at times too. Then again, are you aware of it? Sometimes it takes a while before you realise or even YOU MIGHT EVEN BE AWARE OF IT.
In life, there's always a lot of obstacles. You know sometimes it seems like it's a never ending one. Pfft! Oh well, that's life. However, SOMETIMES IT GETS SOOOOOOO IRRITATING. I really don't understand WHY. WHY are some people are "USELESS" - Only good at find trouble with people (tsk! no life!), WHY are some people so annoying? WHY must we upset, sad, angry etc etc etc. Ok, well I guess that's PART OF BEING HUMAN. The art of emotions and feelings - To feel and to experience it, so as to bring more life in your life. (Grr! Whatever your defination might be)
When I'm typing this, I never mean that I AM A GOOD, ANGELIC, PURE INNOCENT PERSON WHO IS 100% SIN-FREE. I'm just like everyone else. I'm only human - A mere human. I'm aware I do say that "I'm a good girl" in my previous entries (if you've read it before) but I don't mean myself as an angel-kind of person.
What I mean is that... I don't really consider myself as a rebel or someone who gets into trouble with the law.
Grr! It is so frustrating at times. Oh why, oh why... I am sad - Sad that I'm becoming monster-like at times. I get ANGRY, I get UPSET and it's like I feel I at times have full of vengeance. *sigh* That is so bad. I'm so sorry. I don't want to feel this way and yes I know you'll say - Self-control but come on, sometimes it's so difficult to do so. Hmm? Ok, maybe I just have too much anger in me.
Alright, I'm sorry. Maybe I am beginning to be a little selfish lately. Have I? Well, just in case if I HAVE then I'd like to apologise. I'm sorry for being selfish and I'm also sorry if I have been very 'unstable' at times. 'Unstable' as in... Randomly changing mood/mood-swing?
I'm disappointed with myself at times. Like seriously.
I'd like to apologise with some of my comments earlier on (previous post). I'm sorry. I know it's not right to blame god. I was very mad and sad earlier on and I didn't really mean to say that.
Alright, I'm not going to think of that. Got to take my mind off it.
Peace out~
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠7:46:00 pm♠
// D: Illusionist

+ Diane
+ Anne, Ashley Kid, Silencer-D, D-Illusionist
+ 0ctober 4th 1990
+ Libra
+ Single and swinging, not looking - Likes making new friends
+ Mixed
(Chinese, Malay, Peranakan, Indonesian)
+ Park View Primary School (1997 - 2002)
+ Hai Sing Catholic School  (2003 - 2006)
+ ITE College East (Info-Comm Technology; 2007 - 2008)
+ Currently: Singapore Polytechnic (Digital Media)
BLUE IS THE COLOUR
// What does your sleeping position says about you?
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What Your Sleeping Position Says
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You are calm and rational person with a good deal of balance in your life.
Friends consider you to be kind, caring, and truly loyal.
You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.
Open to the world, you are not afraid to be yourself.
If you don't get enough sleep, you are: Able to cope
It's hard to sleep next to you because: You're a bed hog
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// What's your love type
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Your Love Type: ISFJ
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The Nurturer
In love, you are quietly intense, devoted, and tend too hold on too long.
For you, sex is a way to get closer - and a way to take care of your partner.
Overall, you are altruistic and eager to please your sweetie.
However, you tend to also be non-confrontational and secretly frustrated with relationship issues.
Best matches: ESTP or ESFP
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// Are you too picky when it comes to men?
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You Are Picky When it Counts
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Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well.
But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right
You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating.
You probably have quite a few great guys you can date!
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// What kind of sexy girl are you?
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You Are Fun Sexy
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You're funny, quirky, cute, and sassy.
Guys always have a great time with you, and that alone is sexy.
You've got an upbeat, optimistic spirit that totally shines through.
Any guy would be crazy to turn you down!
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// What kind of girl are you?
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You are a Brainy Girl!
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Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.
You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.
For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.
A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!
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// Are you spoiled?
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You Are 24% Spoiled
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You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head.
You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.
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// What flavour Pocky are you?
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You Are Flan Pocky
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Your attitude: modern and offbeat
East meets west... sweet meets salty.
You're a pro at bringing unusual combos together!
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// Could you be violent?
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There's a Chance You Could Be Violent
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Overall, you're a pretty chill person - and you have a good handle on your emotions.
Sometimes your anger gets the best of you, and end up regretting how you act.
Try to curb your temper more often. It only has to get out of control once to do some damage.
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// Speed test
95 words Speed test