Hmm? You know, it kind of makes me smile when I was reading this.


I WAS very upset earlier on but upon reading it, I actually kind of smiled. I feel a little embarrassing somehow. It's like I don't know what was I thinking when I was typing those. It seems like I was just typing as it is, typing it without even considering or thinking twice to what I was typing.


Mm? Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Anyway! I just can't help it but to do something to the picture. Don't blame me! *hides*

Girls go "yay", whereas guys go... "OK". (Sorry!) Simply can't help it...

You know, sometimes I HATE LIFE SO MUCH.


Maybe you might not believe this as I don't think I ever say that but now I'm saying it. I really can't take it. At times I feel so trapt inside. I am often frustrated, often just crying on the inside. It is really tiring.


I'm usually an optimist BUT seriously, everyone has their limits and I just can't take it. It's too painful at times. I just feel that people don't understand you at times. I wonder what's the thing that I've been missing and I think the thing that's been missing in my life is - UNDERSTANDING. I just feel that I am never understood. I just feel that people don't understand. All these years I keep saying that I feel like I'm missing something in my life - It's UNDERSTANDING.

I just never feel that people really understand me. You know, it's very painful. Talk is cheap. People always use their bloody mouth to rant, comment, taunt and things like that BUT they just don't understand the other, or rather - THEY DON'T EVEN BOTHER TO.


As a human, we all have emotions. Maybe some might look at me as someone who is crazy, as most of the time I usually am angry and things like that BUT do they really know who I am?


Who are you to just judge people like that? Ok, I admit sometimes I tend to judge people but I try not to these days.


Seriously, I am so sick and tired when people just think you are this and that. I never really say how I really really feel deep inside but you know what? I already did as I am typing this, and I don't care. I couldn't be bothered. I just don't want to bottle it. I just feel that for once I need to get this out, I need to say how I feel deep inside.


As I'm typing this, I'm actually blasting loud music (which I don't often do) in my earpiece. I am simply so sick and tired. What do people know? What do they care? This world can be so cruel, so unfair... So dark, you don't even know what is real and what isn't. The thought of it is just scary. The next thing you knew, the thing that you thought was for REAL was just an illusion. Your eyes are playing tricks with you, it's giving you false hopes, false beliefs, false understanding.


Deep in my heart that's where all my sorrows, my silent cries and my true soul. ALL I'M ASKING FOR IS - UNDERSTANDING. I never ask for money or anything like that, I just want to be understood. I'm tired of trying to understand people when they don't try and understand me.


OH WELL... I should just go to my favourite place where I can reflect and just not think of anything. I really need to take my mind off whatever is in it.


It's just that... I feel, people should be more sensible at times. The way they behave, the words that comes out... It's really SHIT. What's worst is PEOPLE WITH F-ed up attitudes. Sheesh. That's the worst!


Dangggggg... Peaceeeeeeeee~ I just want to take my mind off it and just not talk about it. So, don't ask why or what. Would appreciate that.