A reflection of my life, is it good or bad?



Who doesn't like flawless skin? I am missing it. I used to have but as you know, we go through puberty. When I look back at some of my pictures, I then asked myself, where and how did it become like that?



When I was in Primary 5, Primary 6, Secondary 1 it wasn't that bad. Just a few pimples, the ones that will go away after a while. I guess my face got worst when I was in Secondary 2 (2004) but ok, I should be thankful that when I was in Secondary 4 towards the end of the year, it got a little better. Now? Well, compared to last time... It's better I would say. At least these days my pimples don't pop too often. Just once a while but I guess if it's that time of the month it might be a little bit more than usual.



Yesterday, I had this skin analysis and I'm able to see some of my pimples or pimples that are about to appear. Also saw that my skin is a bit pinkish and reddish that's because I have sensitive skin. I have oily skin but I guess the inner one isn't as oily as I thought. Well? Doesn't seem to be that very or should I say "super" oily as I thought it would be. Hmm? Ok, compared to my mother, I had more collagen than her. HAHA.



Ok, what can you expect? She's older and I'm younger. Of course I have more than her. Good to have it but I don't like the fats on my cheeks. Yes, I have fats on my cheeks. Boohoo! (Collagen: Collagen makes skin stronger, thicker and more supple, which is what makes skin smooth, firm and strong - and young looking.)



However, due to imperfections (pimples), my skin doesn't seem that smooth but I can tell you it's soft. *grins* Even though I may have imperfections on my face, I still think my face is quite soft and my skin texture isn't really that rough. Don't think so? Well, you can feel it but with a clean hand! (:



Products that I bought yesterday at Sasa (was being recommended to that product). Boohoo! Heartache. Very costly as it's $52.90 each but they were having promotion.







However, the gel cleanser I guess I could use it for quite a long time. Say probably... 6 months? You don't have to put a lot. Just a 5-cent coin size would do. Usually a cleanser (that I use) would last 2 to 3 months. [You do the math - $52.90/6; still quite costly] The toner may last 3 to 4 months but I may be wrong about it.



Having said that... I lack of one thing. I lack of rest - sleep. Yes, I have a bad habit of sleeping late and get less rest though at times I do have lots of rest. Well, it's very bad. I got to learn to sleep earlier. Yes, earlier. You can't just say "I WANT TO SLEEP EARLY", right? Got to tell yourself to sleep earlier then once you get a hang of it, you'll eventually sleep early. HAHA.



Hmm? To think about it, I don't think that's ever going to happen. It's been part of me. (BUT I hate looking tired at times, it can really show on your face which also makes you look "older" at times.)



When I was young, I was told by my parents that I sleep quite late. Probably between 12AM to 1AM and wakes up at 9 or 10AM the next day. Gosh. My parents went to the doctor and asked them why and the doctor told them that I'm an active kid. Could also be that either parents like to sleep late. Therefore the child's like that. There's good and bad to it. Young kid sleep so late. Oh my. (Blame my dad? Oops. Since he likes to sleep late. Ok, I'm just like him. Sleeps late, always using the computer, can sleep for more than 8 hours or sometimes lack of sleep. Oh god.)



In future if I have a child, I will ensure that my child doesn't follows me. I want my child to be a good kid (Ahem! Just like me. I'm a good girl, ok?) but doesn't want my child to have bad temper (Sadly, I have). It'll be nice if my child in future has some good attributes that's like me. Oops. HAHA. Ok, the only minus point about me back then is that my teachers (Primary 1 to 4) has to call to complain that I'm talkative or that I'm struggling with the Chinese language). Funny thing is that in Secondary, my teacher thinks I'm quiet. Probably, I'm quiet during lessons but during breaks I'm talkative.



I'm always a good girl. (Ahem! Self-praise? Hey, that's fact) *grins* I don't get into trouble and I even got recognition of doing something good when I was in Primary 2 (1998). The principal asked me and my friend to stand in front of the hall and we got praises from the principal. That moment, I was nervous but at the same time, I felt proud of myself. I don't think anyone could remember that (except for Zi Kai [because he was the one doing some "act"] and Jasmine [because she was with me that day and we witness some "act"]).



Well? There are ups and downs in life. The downs were really sour I would say and the ups were really a memory to me. It leaves me that "feel good" feeling.



To get 2nd prize in a skit competiion that I acted all by myself (Yes,solo) as the Hansel & Gratel's witch, was really an achievement and I was only in Primary 1 (1997) then. Some people recognised me and it was somewhat a good feeling. I remember when I go to the toilet, there were some girls like "Hey! You're the one acted as the witch right?"



Definitely a feel good feeling. I guess I have to be content with whatever I have. You can't have everything in life. I'm not as if someone very gorgeous or the smartest but I guess I should look on the brighter side.



♥ I'm given a brain - To think, to reflect and to question myself.

♥ I'm given a pair of eyes - To see all the good and bad things in life, to observe things around, to be able to witness all the beautiful moments.

♥ I'm given a pair of ears - To listen to the beautiful sound and music in life, to listen to your melodicious voice.

♥ I'm given a nose - To breathe, to smell the greatness in life.

♥ I'm given a mouth - To voice my opinion, to eat the good food, to kiss and to bless others.


More like poetry-kind (above)? HAHA. Something that comes to mind. The experience in my life simply makes me an even better person and I just want to be a good person. I don't see the reason why I should be "BAD" or a wannabe to be bad.



Being BAD is not my nature. I'm not brought up that way. I know I am not an angel. I sometimes curse and swear using my mouth. Eyeballing others with my eyes and ignoring to what others got to say by "shutting" my ears. Yes, I have bad temper at times. I'm sorry but I'm not perfect and I make mistakes in life, just like you.



However, that doesn't mean I have to go with the flow. I don't like people doing what others are doing. I mean, it's your opinion to say whatever you want and your decision to do things your way but I just feel, you got to have an identity. It's pretty on the eye to see those Japanese girls with their falsies and the contact lens that make their eyes look round and big but if everyone is doing so, it gets a bit tiring.



I as a female, am tired of looking at it. It's pretty I would say but if everyone wants to look the same, then it's boring. Where's that uniqueness? (: I'm sure some of you guys there would criticise me for saying that. Well? So be it. I mean, just think about it.



Looking good definitely is a confidence booster. Who doesn't want to look and feel good? However, what's even more important is the person you are. You have to be humble. Though last time in Secondary, some people that doesn't like me calls me arrogant and all. I'm not like that. I always tell myself to be humble but if act like some kind of big-shot and goes around calling people names (I was patient actually, but if one does that all the time, can you remain that patient?) if one doesn't want to listen to you, I think I should not respect you. Simple - because you didn't respect me, scum.



BUT what can I do about it? This is life and there'll surely have such people around. How idiotic? At times you simply feel like beating such person up. Hmm? What about torture? HAHA! Ok, I don't want to sound sadist but I guess at times it makes you feel like torturing that person and make the person feel the pain slowly. Let that person be in pain (but hey! That person is a pain in the "you know where").



Ok, enough. Don't want to turn into a sadist.



Anyway, here are some videos. Enjoy!~



Lately I've been urging to listen to british boyband Blue songs. Darn. I miss them! Aww... Delicious DUNCAN. Oops~ Hmm? Second on my list would be Lee Ryan and Simon. Then again, Anthony's quite alright too. Ok, they are all quite charming guys. HAHA. Hey, at least I'm being honest. *grins*





"Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word" - Blue featuring [sir] Elton John. I'm kind of hooked to it again. Was hooked to it at one point and now I'm hooked again. Aww...





"All Rise" - Blue ♠ Was a favourite. I remember watching the video on MTV and I like the song.





"Fly By" - Blue (My favourite BLUE song); Ain't Duncan hot in the video? XD





"If You Come Back" - Blue; I like that song too.





+*OK, Italian corner ahead (Ok, some English songs too)*+
Hmm? Remember Eiffel 65? Bloom 06 - REMEMBER THE NAME. Yup, that's the new name. No more Eiffel 65. A new chapter, a new name. Title: "Un'Altra Come Te", from their new album "Crash Test 02".





Hmm? They have an English version too. Guess what? REMEMBER "Blue (Da Ba Dee)"? That famous song in the late 90s; 1999 - 2000. They have a remix version of it. A remake. HAHA. (NOTE: Eiffel 65 - is more of dance,electronic whereas Bloom 06 is more of pop,alternative, electronic; ...and I LIKE.




Tada!~ The remake of it. What's your take on it? I think it's quite alright.





"Blue (Da Ba Dee)" the original one - when they were Eiffel 65.





That's English: "Fall" - Bloom 06 (reminds me of Depeche Mode in a way)



Another English one too.


"Welcome To The Zoo" - Bloom 06 (This one is not bad)





"Here We Are" - Bloom 06



Capello - in Italian is "Hair". Just got to know actually and Cappello is "hat". However I know "vita" means life and "tu" is you. HAHA. There's this Subsonica song with the "Vita" at the front. Makes me remember easily, just like "Tu" and "Strade"? It actually mean roads; "strada" - road. HAHA. Subsonica's "Strade" is one my favourite songs.



And here's Trance,Electronic,Dance - Yeah, baby yeah!~ Trance baby trance!




"In My Memory" - Tiësto





I may have posted this video in my previous entries - but I can't remember if I did. Oh well, heck! Anyway - "Adagio For Strings" (Live), one of my favourite Tiesto songs.





I like this one. "Rain Down On Me" - Tiesto featuring Kane





"Traffic" - Tiesto (May have posted this in my previous entries)





"Human" - Carpark North [Those who played FIFA 07 and FIFA Online 2 might have heard this song]



Ok, before I end, I'll just like to say that Middlesbrough 0 - CHELSEA 5! (Salomon Kalou (2), Juliano Belletti [yet again with another stunner], Frank Lampard and Florent Malouda - Hurray! Come on you BLUES! *grins*)



Alright,
Peace out~ [Boohoo! Tomorrow's Monday! It's back to school again...]

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Who wants to buy The Body Shop products? I'm able to get 20% discount this month as it's my birthday month. If anyone wants to buy, tell me by next week.



Oh well, my SECOND entry for the month of October. Gosh, I haven't been updating my blog regularly these days. My my my. Actually I wanted to blog since last week but was tired. Wanted to blog on Monday but was tired and yesterday, I was busy with other stuff. Hmm? Tired? Probably lazy too. Oops~



Anyway, there's a lot of things that I want to blog lately but I guess I should try and summarise my week so far. (Yeah, the last time I blog was like close to TWO WEEKS. Hmm? Where and how should I start off? (Note: Long entry ahead)



Oh well, here goes...


I'll talk about the highlights then.


Had a raya outing with my classmates (oh,Irsyad extra~ HAHA).


8 October 2008, Wednesday


♠ Went out with my classmates to go visiting. We start off with Naqiah's house. She lives at Bukit Panjang. Very far in my opinion. Hmm? Probably due to the fact that I live in the east so that's why I say that.


♠ She has a cat! Boohoo! I'm afraid of animals and with cats around, oh dear... Somewhat a nightmare for me. I just don't know why I'm afraid of animals. It's been like that since I was young.


♠ Her mother cooked spaghetti. I don't usually fancy spaghetti but I guess once a while I can have some exceptions eh? HAHA. Hmm? Furthermore, it's been a long time since I last ate spaghetti. (:



After that went to Irsyad's house. Ate sausages at his house. Fiqah and I joked about Irsyad looking like Drew Carey.



After which, we went to Adib's house. Aww... Adib's sister Sofia is so cute. HAHA. How sad, she has/had (I don't know if still have) sore eye. Azizah went crazy over his little sister. HAHA. I guess we spend quite a while at Adib's house because some of them wanted to play Xbox.



Took the train to Fiqah's house. Thank goodness her cat was in her room. *grins* HOWEVER, she brought it out after that. Hur hur! Her cat likes to stare at others. Scary in my opinion as you know... I'm afraid of animals. (Yeah, yeah... Blah blah)



We left her place 5 minutes before 5pm. Took bus to Ali's house. Ali simply has that "dumb,innocent" look. Oops. Well? You should look at his pictures when he was young, a bit different somehow. Well? In my opinion that is. HAHA.



We left his place at about 7.30pm to Azizah's house. (She has a cat too!)



After Azizah's house, we went to Razin's house. Razin's house was a nightmare! 6 CATS! Even though 6 is my favourite number but . . . CATS?? Oh god. I'm afraid of animals. It's like a torture for me to be in his house. I mean, it's ok. I don't mind if the person has cats and all BUT... Stay away from me. I'm ok with looking at it from far, just don't come near me. I've been like that since I was young, what can you expect me to do? Overcome? I wonder if I'll ever succeed.



That was the last nightmare of the day. Thank goodness! Want to know why? Simple. The next house was... "WELCOME TO D CRIB". Yes, the one and only... Diane Q. HAHA! Ok, it was my house. (: [I love my house. Houseeeee,houseeeee, housey! Ok, pardon me for being lame here.]



MY HOUSE DOESN'T HAVE CATS. So yeah, no worry. What a paradise to be at. *evil laughter*



However! I guess there's something that could be a problem to people when at my house. Too many vases, crystal displays, glass displays. (Ok, sorry I can't find the word when typing this, so pardon me and correct me)



By then it was close to 10pm (say 5 to 10 minutes to 10pm) when they reached my house. My mother cooked bee hoon. Yeah, yeah... My mother mostly cook that if my friends come. Seems like Fiqah like my mother's bee hoon. (:



Whatelse can I say? Myself? Of course I love my mother's cooking. (However, my personal favourite would be bee hoon and Lemak gravy [kuah lemak]). Oh, when she boils for me corn (kernel), it's quite delicious too. She'll add some salt and of course, add mayonnaise. *grins* Yes, yes... I simply love it. It's like "heaven".



Ok, my house wasn't the last stop. It was the second last stop. The last stop was at Wan's house. He live near my place. About 5 to 10 minutes walk. We reached his house at about 11pm.


PICTURES ON 8TH OCTOBER


@ Naqiah's house ^










@ Azizah's house ^





WELCOME TO MY CRIB ^ ; As you can see in the background lots of what I mentioned in the entry. (above)








10th October 2008, Friday


Met my drama friends at Pasir Ris interchange for drama raya outing. Had to wait for some others as they came late. Well? Most of them live in the west. As for me, living in Pasir Ris, it wasn't a hard thing to do as it isn't that far.



Anyway, first stop was at Munirah's house. We stayed at her house for quite a while as we had to wait for a few more peeps. By the time we go to the next house, which is... MY HOUSE, it was already close to 1pm.



We left at about 2pm to Aby's house. Thankfully, there's a bus to her place but we have to walk a little. That's where my classmate actually saw me but he didn't call! Instead, he sent me a text message to ask if it was me. Sheesh. How idiotic eh? Need me to mention his name? Oops. HAHA.



Well? We had nuggets and fries at Aby's house and COKE with ice cream. Guess what? There's this "chef" trying to teach me how to cook. HAHA. It's not that I never cook. Ok, I seldom cook as in fry. I'm ok with boiling but to fry? I'm scared because of the oil. Yes, you can laugh if you want. Humph!



Ok, we didn't get to go to many people's house as their parents aren't home or have something on and stuff like that. We only managed to go to a few houses. Ok, to make it short I'll just name who's house we went to.



After Aby's house, we went to Luqman's house at Jurong then Amin's house. However, Fiqah had to go off. Myself and Munirah living in the east also decided to leave. It was about 9.30pm when we make a move.



Took bus to Lakeside MRT station to take the train back to Pasir Ris. By then it was close to 11pm. I was feeling a little hungry so decided to drop by White Sands McDonalds to buy a Filet O' Fish meal. Yummy! My favourite. Was actually thinking of McSpicy meal but in the end I got Filet O' Fish.



Picture that was taken on Friday,10 of October. Sorry, I don't have the other pictures that we took.



^ Not falsies, those are my real lashes.




See the shine? Oily skin! Boooooo!

Someone feeling playful, eh? Bun my hair up when taking this picture. I didn't tie my hair when I was out with the rest.



Oh well, it's back to school. Yes, MONDAY 13 of OCTOBER it's back to school. However, nobody turned up for Sports and Wellness. I was actually waiting for Fiqah at Tanah Merah but she was late and Razin was the only one in school. As Fiqah was about to reach, he called me to inform that the lesson was cancelled due to "no-show".



Hmm? My week has been pretty alright so far. Well? As for now that is. (:



Oh well, alright... I'll end here for now. Will update again soon... (:



Peace out~

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

O-C-T-O-B-E-R!



It's finally October and oh boy, time flies very fast! I can't believe it!! Boohoo!



I'm finally 18 (4th October; 8.31AM). How does it feels like being 18? You know it's just a number or should I say age. Doesn't mean 18 equals to ADULT. Nah. I refuse to think so.



I just feel that any day, any time it's always a learning journey. In my point of view, no matter what age you are, there's always something to learn and to reflect about. There is no such thing as "I'm an adult now, I don't have to learn anything."



*BEEP!* That would be just so wrong to do/say so. Well? I guess these days people tend to follow the crowd with the usual quote: "I go with the flow."



Going with the flow doesn't mean you are all the time right.



Anyway, let me just spur all my thoughts before I talked about my birthday and all the other stuff.



DIANE'S THOUGHTS/OPINIONS:

+ People simply love to judge others blindly (Yes I admit sometimes I'm also guilty of it. However, I keep reminding myself not to do that. Did you remind yourself of that?)


+ People underestimates you (Some people think I'm like a girly girl and all that kind of stuff. The truth is, I'm not really like that. I guess at different stages, people judge you differently. In Primary - Often called "Tomboy", In Secondary - "Kind of tomboy" and currently? I'm pretty sure some would be like "Girly girl" or worst still, "Not a girl". That simply puts me off.)


+ I don't understand why I have to meet those guys who simply loves to be better than us girls. Some kind of an ego thing. Should you be better than them in a certain area, they get all so mean and "jealous" and sometimes say nasty things just to make your morale go down. How idiotic can that be?


+ I would love to meet more sensible guys. I don't know but it seems like I always have to encounter such insenisble guys who are simply ... Well? Ok, JERKS.


+ I hate it when a guy thinks highly of himself. How many times must I meet this kind of people? Sometimes you just feel like slapping this type of person. I don't welcome a peacock-like person.


+ Then... There is this type of "overly-sensitive" guys who are kind of scary actually. They're like girls. Definitely worst than me. A little bit get all so touchy and all so mushy. Easily hurt and all. (I'm scared of that kind but ok, I have to accept that there are such people around.)


+ Never judge a book by it's cover. However, guys tend to judge a girl by it's looks. Then again, doesn't mean if they say the girl is pretty I would agree because sometimes they are simply not. Though I don't know why the guy says she's pretty. Probably of that fake lashes and eyeliner, you know like those Japanese girls. (No,I am not jealous. I don't why guys would straightaway say that.)


+ You be friends with people because of who they are. Not because of how they look. (If you be friends with people because of their looks, that's plain stupidity.)


+ Guys simply love to compare. (Ok, those that I know but not all) To be fair, us girls also compare. I admit sometimes I do compare but if you really do like that person a lot (or love), would you mind? I know, I won't be comparing who is better and stuff like that. I mean everyone has their uniqueness.



+ (Some) People don't think I play sports (or active) and just a wannabe. I enjoyed it when I was younger and I did play sports. Currently I may not be that very sporty but still, I enjoy walking and rollerblading. At least I'm still trying to have an active lifestyle. May not be "very" but at least minimum. I can't stand when people think it's just a "wannabe".


+ To those who doesn't know me that well, I suggest that person to shut their gap. Seriously, I am sick and tired of all those shit. You want to have a proper conversation, come let's have one. Don't just assume I talk nothing but crap.


+ I just feel that sometimes people should look at themselves first before giving comments. If they themselves aren't good enough or better then I suggest they,themselves should slap themselves.


+ I just don't want to be mean. If I have to, that won't be nice but I guess some people you can't give them face because they don't know the meaning of "respect". If one doesn't respect, why should you respect them?


+ I don't why some people are people who can talk about others but others cannot talk about them. If you want to talk bad about others, others can do the same. I hate it when I don't disturb anyone or say anything bad, someone has to do that to me. You think it's funny? Sometimes being patient doesn't do you any good, I guess.


+ Education is important. Especially in Singapore with the standard of living so expensive and Singapore being the FIFTH MOST EXPENSIVE ASIA COUNTRY. However, besides education, as a human you need to have a sense of humanity. Where are all the values gone to?



OH WELL...



Anyway, my birthday this year (4th October; Saturday), just like every other year. Celebrating it with my family. Hmm? Ok, when I was young, my parents would invite neighbours and all to my birthday party and my most memorable birthday was SEVEN YEARS ago whereby I invited my good friends and my schoolmates.



Oh boy. Even though towards the ending was a bit bitter because someone broke my mother's vase but looking it at as an overall thing, it was terrific. Had lots of fun and all. Oh god,block catching. HAHA. Those days of madness can only be a piece of memory as I don't think I would do that now.



It's like we played block catching and we were half silent, half noisy. HAHA. Ok, there are times we were able to control of the noise level but there were times whereby we were simply LOUD which lead to some people doing this to us - "Shhhhh!"



HAHA. Aww... So it's like we went up and down the block from 1st storey to the 16th storey (Oh,I live on the 14th storey). We sort of played "Police and Thief". I'm the police along with some other friends and some were thieves. Then we went to the carpark. (My mother didn't know about this. Had she knew,I think she'll scold)



Yeah, carpark. I know it's dangerous. Boohoo! Can't believe it. HAHA.



Anyway, BACK TO PRESENT DAY - My mother ordered 100 sticks of satay, 2 large pizzas, barbequed chicken wings and also, Indian Rojak. (Sorry,no pictures. My mind was all on the food, forgot to take pictures!)



Yummy! Tell you what, I was bloated on my birthday. Simply had lots of food to eat. Eat and eat and eat. HAHA. Hmm? Ok, after which we headed to Courts Megastore at Tampines.



Hmm? Ok, that's my gift (see picture) and oh dad finally got me a lamp. HAHA. I waited so long for it and oh well... I finally got it. Boohoo~








BROS (pronounced - Br'oz) polycarbonate bottle. Received it in a Takashimaya paperbag. (: Hmm? Means I can alternate my bottles now. HAHA. My current water bottle is still quite brand new actually because I bought my Adidas [sports] water bottle not so long ago. Hmm? Few months back if not wrong.



Anyway, my first week of October I would describe it as "frustrating". Yes, it can be frustrating at times as people tend to frustrate me. How irritating? Sheesh. VERY!


Anyway, I choose to look on the positive. Go away negative energy, bring me positive energy. Hah!~



You know, I wish I was awake just now to save the trouble. I somehow pity someone because she travelled all the way to Choa Chu Kang. If only I was awake, and had I replied her message, would have save her the trouble. - Then again, how am I supposed to know such thing to happen? Totally unexpected but hey girl, don't keep blaming yourself. (: [you know who you are]



"Nei Nostri Luoghi nei e ricordi" - In our places and memories [direct translation of "Nei Nostri Luoghi" by (my favourite Italian band) Subsonica]



Alright~

xoxoxo ♥ // Peace out~