Wanted to blog few days ago but was busy doing other stuff and whenever I log in wanting to update, I simply don't feel like doing so but now I'M TYPING THIS OF COURSE.



What a day. Seriously, I've not feel this angry for quite a while. I AM SIMPLY SO BLOODY ANGRY. (I'm not going to use the F word. Yes, I keep my blog clean.)



It is so annoying. Seriously, the last time I feel soooooooo angry at school was in Secondary school. SOME IDIOT THINK THAT BY SHUTTING DOWN YOUR COMPUTER IS A FUN THING, but you know what? It's freaking annoying. It may seem as a joke but I don't like. It isn't funny.



Forget that. I'm simply very angry but I'm trying to cool myself down. SO PARDON ME AS I WANT TO USE THIS ENTRY TO VENT ALL MY ANGER OUT.



What's even more annoying is that from one STUPID thing it could LEAD TO ANOTHER BLOODY STUPID THING. You know, it simply is so frustrating. I am simply so mad.



Someone you love dearly simply saying hurtful things to you without realising what they say, how do you feel? What if it isn't the first time? It has been going on for like AS LONG AS you CAN REMEMBER. There's too things that I want to voice out but I don't know where and how to begin. Whatever it is, all I can say is... I AM SO SICK AND TIRED.



TALKING ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL, HAVE YOU EVER THINK OF MINE? Yes, we may look like we're always good terms but hey, even so... We still have arguements and all. In life, that is common but what's so frustrating is that THE OTHER PARTY simply don't bloody realise "his/her" own mistake. (I shall not say if it's a him or her, you figure that one out.)



I am not perfect. I do make mistakes. I make mistakes, I make sins just like any human being but I always try to be a good person. So why can't that PERSON just see it? I just want to be acknowledge. To be appreciated. It is so irritating when people don't appreciate you. IS IT THAT DIFFICULT?? I AM NOT ASKING FOR MONEY OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. All I'm asking is just to be appreciated.



Same all problem since I'm young till now. If I can do that, why can't I have that same treatment? So... The world is not fair? OR should I say, HUMANS ARE NEVER FAIR? The greed, the jealousy... The power. Oh dear. *roll eyes*



I am simply sick. I AM SO SICK AND TIRED. I've been keeping all these frustrations for a long time. I simply can't take it. Why do I always have to meet people who I don't wist to meet? What did I do? Where did I go wrong?



I'm not one who goes around and looks for trouble or anyhow offend people for nothing and stuff like that. So, why do I deserve such treatment? I am very disappointed. Probably - "sadden" would be a suitable word.



I'm simply sadden by all these. I have so many things in my mind,in my heart. I'll not forget those things. Hmm? Then again, maybe by not forgetting it makes it even tougher for me.



However, how can I just keep quiet when such things do happen all the time in my life? Ok, I do meet some really nice people along the way in my almost 18 years. I appreciate those nice people as they do leave a mark in my life and I treasure those.



WHAT I CAN'T STAND IS THE "not-so-nice" PEOPLE THAT I MEET OFTEN. It is really annoying. I BLOODY HATE IT. Why can't I just have some peace? All I'm asking for is to be appreciated and some peace. Furthermore, I don't think I am an EVIL person.



Ok, I'm no angel like I mentioned above but to be frank, I just want to stay relax and calm... Happy and simply laidback. However, with all these that I face everytime... It makes it tough for me.



I understand that this is life and life's like that. Life is like a rollercoaster ride and as humans, we have emotions, we have feelings. We can't possibly be HAPPY all the time but certain things that happened, I just don't understand. Tell me what did I do to deserve such treatment?



No, I am not scared. I mean... I am not afraid to stand firm and fight for my rights. Then again, if too much of those, will I be able to hold on to it and stand strong? I keep questioning myself. There are times whereby I feel like I could no longer tolerate it. Then again, to give up? That's really weak (though it's freaking frustrating).



Something that comes to my mind - "ANGER MANAGEMENT".



I've been thinking about it for a few years already. I feel I really need Anger Management. I have bad temper when I get mad. Oh god... It's not that I want to but sometimes it feels like I just can't help it. I, myself hate myself when I'm angry. It's not a nice thing but... Oh well...



Well? You can't change the people living on earth because we are all unique in our ways and we cannot change them (unless you're talking about a robot; program). We all think and act differently. Imagine everyone is indifferent. Oh my. I think I'll go crazy?



*sigh* There's always the good and the bad. Boohoo!



To think about it, I guess it's somewhat pointless because the only person who can change you is yourself. Only you, yourself can determine who you want to be. I admit that I still have a lot of learn. At times I feel awkward and at times I feel like I'm struggling.



I'm still constantly learning everyday. Learning about things, trying to figure out things, constantly questioning myself and wondering why. All I can say is that - Being a teenager is not that simple and being an adult? One word comes to mind: Responsibility. As a human, you have to be responsible for your actions. Ok, not only adults, applies to everyone.



Maybe to some as a kid you won't have responsibilities. Hmm? Quite true but then again, you got to learn about it too. My parents constantly remind me of being a responsible person and I will be a responsible person.



"Dare to do it, dare to admit."



Oh well... What's your take on it? You be the judge, you decide. All these that I typed are just my voice of frustration and my point of view. As a human being, you may choose to digest it or ignore it as you have your own point of view on it.



All I want to say is - CHERISH THE THINGS YOU HAVE. (: