"Years gone by and we grow older as each year passes. People change, things change... Just as I was wondering if I would ever see you again?




There, you appeared right in front of me just like a dream. Without a word, without a smile... Looking at each other, looking surprised. Don't know what to do, leaving just like that. I wished I said "Hi" to you but I did not."






Have you ever kind of miss someone that you know?
Someone that you have been thinking lately and as you forgot about it, he/she appears right in front of you.






I was surprised (or rather - "we" were surprised, assuming he was as he seemed to be surprised by the look on his face). I couldn't believe my eyes. We just kept looking at each other without saying a word.






I just didn't know how to react. It happened really fast and I just couldn't bring my senses together at that moment. I wasn't prepared. It simply came to me just like that - "Bam!" Straight at you, leaving you lost for words and surprised.






I know that I sometimes treated him kind of cold in a way. I remember that I didn't want to mention his name. I remember that I kept denying the fact. I remember we exchanged pens as we used to sit beside each other in class and happened that both of us had the same pen. I remember he somehow makes me smile when I was angry.






Those were days, those were the times. I don't know if he remembers it but I do. Well? That was in the past but I will remember as it's a memory that I want to remember. It puts a smile to my face whenever I look back at such memorable events.






I don't know why I reacted that way back then. At times I sort of give him a cold shoulder and there was once I sort of disliked him in a way and I don't like mentioning his name. I really don't know why I feel that way back then. It was kind of weird I guess but also, there's a reason to it.






Hmm... But I guess you'll have to guess about that reason. HAHA. *grins* Well... What do you think?






Anyway, should I see him again in the near future... Maybe I should talk to him. However, I have to remain calm and cool.






I'm the shy type. Sometimes in certain situations I react awkwardly or rather weirdly if you want to put it that way. Hmm? Maybe some might be debating about it now (About me being a shy type). Yeah, yeah... I know some would be like - "You? SHY? No way!"






I will say this again. I AM, I AM - I AM! I don't seem to be one? Well, I am. Sometimes when I'm too shy, I'll just keep quiet and smile and well... ...... You go and figure that out.






For years I've been trying to overcome that. I don't like that. In fact, I don't like a few things about myself. Well? I won't say that I hate myself. No, I didn't mean that way.






I am no (emo)tional freak. I am a normal human being. I don't like those "EMO" kind of people. Sorry, no offence to anyone.






However, I can be an emotional person. Taking things seriously and I do get angry easily at times but hey, I'm trying to improve as a person. I always feel we can always improve as a person. There's no such thing as I cannot change. Give it a shot at least.






Hmm... It's 4AM now and yeah, I am still awake but am feeling sleepy now. HOWEVER, I just feel like spilling it out as I have a lot of thoughts in my mind. I just simply feel that I must get it out and so... That is why I am blogging!






A new blog skin will be up soon. I just haven't finish the last part of it. I've been kind of busy lately and I am quite occupied. When I'm free, I usually use that time to de-stress myself.






Recently, I had to design (enchance) the Earth Day poster. Sounds easy but it's not as easy as you think!






It takes time and effort. Not forgetting, having a concept and idea to design it, of course!






Hmm? Let me see whatelse... Oh yeah, gotten my Networking Fundamentals results back and should I be happy or what?






Knowing quite a number of people getting 40's, should I be at least be pleased with my marks? Well, I am not pleased. I did not fail nor did I score very high.






I just feel that... Could have done even better. Am I disappointed? Well,ok... I can't say that I guess? I really don't know if that would be a yes or a no. However, I just feel that I could have done better.






It wasn't really very tough. I would say it's moderate. If you read up, you'll be able to pass but if you read and you forget, "Nooooooo!~"





That was how I felt when I was doing some of the questions in the paper. I studied for the test in the eleventh hour and there were some I did not study, was simply just looking through only.






Well, it's over now and I guess I should be anticipating the next one - I want to do even better!






Moving on now and I am feeling less bloated now. Dad called for (McDonalds) delivery just now at midnight. He ordered the $36 bundle. Total: $36 + $3 surcharge = $39.






Anyway, SUPER SUNDAY this weekend. I don't know if I will have the heart to watch the Chelsea match against Arsenal. Even though Chelsea is unbeaten for four years in the league, I fear something might happened.






I am disappointed with my favourite team. I don't fancy Avram Grant as Chelsea manager. I miss Jose Mourinho very much. It was a shock when Jose Mourinho departs. In a way, I was feeling bitter and it somehow broke my heart.






Avram Grant is much quieter than Jose Mourinho. Jose Mourinho is very outspoken and always making headlines in the papers, in the media and all but he's good at getting his tactics right.






Not only that, he is very entertaining and fun to watch. I like the way he celebrates when Chelsea scores. It makes me laugh and I feel confident when he's Chelsea manager.





Hmm? I find Jose Mourinho a charming man. (Well? I know he is old [for me] (45 years old - I'm only about 18) - Could be my dad except that my dad is older than him),some might disagree with me but I find Jose Mourinho, a charming man. He has charisma, he is also an outspoken person. Some might say - arrogant but I don't think that way of him.






As for Grant... Avram Grant? I have lost confidence in him. Actually, I never really have so much confident in him. I was neutral about it since he took over as Chelsea manager but have always been wishing he would not be the permament manager.






Now I have to admit that I have no confidence in him. He makes me worried every now and then with the players he choose and the tactics he uses. It is very obvious that Joe Cole is an important player to Chelsea but he simply loves rotating. If he gets it right, he's pardon but... HE USUALLY GETS IT WRONG!






People talk about entertaining football and all, you know what makes me happy? Getting the results.






You don't have to play beautiful, marvellous, fabulous style of play football.






Hmm... Maybe I shouldn't say that. Given a choice to play beautiful football and not getting the results, and playing decent football that gets you the result... I would pick - Playing decent football that will get you the result.






To me, result is all that matters even if you have to play "not beautiful but decent" style of football. It's not easy to always be playing beautiful football but if you could then be it (meaning to say, getting results!).






I'm not saying play boring football though people often criticise Chelsea for being one.






I don't feel that way about Chelsea. Hmm? Maybe there are times they are super defensive but hey, they are still getting results. There are times when they do play good football too. You know, football is always full of surprises, just like life.






(Are some of you complaing already about me talking about football (again)?)






Don't just think I eat,breathe, sleep and talk football all day. I still do other things and I do keep myself updated in other areas too.






Hmm? Everyone in the house is sleeping except for me. I am the only one awake still. My parents gave me a nickname - "Security Guard"! Saying that I always sleep later than them. Well? My mother usually sleeps early.






My mother would be like - "You and your father are the same. Always using the computer and always sleeping late."






Ok, that's true. Sometimes I wish I have more time but I guess, there must be a limit to everything and with that, I guess I would have to end my entry.






Before I go, I must say that I am playing online games again. Not Maple Story. Cabal this time. Yeah,yeah... I am still a noob. (Noob = "someone new to a certain thing for my instance, mmorpg game like Cabal.")






It was my brother who keep pestering me to play Cabal and I remember saying - "What's so great about it?" I even say I will not play and guess what? A week or so later, I somehow had a change of heart and give it a shot.






God knows what was next... *grins*






Well? I am only a level 14 Force Shielder. I play when I have the time. Anyone play? Hey, add me! Add me! HAHA. Message me if you want to add. I'm not revealing my nickname here.






Alright, I'm off now.
Peace out~