I received so many Christmas messages. My my my. I don't celebrate Christmas, you know? One of those messages was from my cousin. I'm actually surprised.

Anyway, it's one more week to 2008. Gosh. Soon my results will be out! Aww... I'm very afraid. Seriously, I don't know if I'll have the heart to check my results or not. Sheesh.

Ok, let's not talk about it. It makes me worry!

For the time being, I want to rest, relax and enjoy myself. I don't want to stress myself up and get all so worried and tensed.

2008 is fast approaching and soon I'll try to put a new blog skin up too! Oh, not forgetting a new song to go along with it too!

Yes, I am a little sick of listening to my blog song these days. Though it's Linkin Park - "Leave Out All The Rest" which I was at one-time addicted to but hey, you got to give me a break once in a while and I'm pretty sure people who randomly views my blog might feel the same.

Anyway, as 2008 is fast approaching... I actually wished I could freeze time. If only I could turn back time but no. In life, you must keep going and the only direction that you are allowed to go is forward.

Yes, it's tiring - It's insane - It's fast and it's mad but what are you to do about it?

Simple! YOU GOT TO HAVE DETERMINATION AND COURAGE! It's all up there. Uh huh. Up there - Well? You know where. No idea where? YOUR BRAIN! Duh~

A thousand mile, a thousand obstacle... A good sight, a good vision... With power and might - The power is in your hands.

Maybe some might be calling me long-winded and all but hey, I'm just expressing myself. Simply because this is my blog and I'm free to express my thoughts and feelings on it.

Not forgetting, I don't use vulgarities nor did I abuse or insult. So I'm free to do whatever I wish to do.

I was reading a friend of mine blog last night and I came across this entry. I'm sorry if I went over the border but I read it by accident. I have no means to intrude other people's privacy. Well? If that's how you want to put it.

Well, you see... Basically, this friend of mine she typed it in her another blog. I don't know if it's just for her close friends to see or what (I'm not really that close by the way) but I read all those by accident.

There was this paragraph which I kind of agree. To sum it up, I would say - Yes, you should love yourself before loving someone else. If you don't love yourself and you say that you love the other person - Isn't that being unfair?

Unfair as in... Taking away people's happiness. Sure, the other person if he/she is into you, definitely he/she would say I want to make you the happiest person.

However, I look at it this way. If you don't love yourself, or at least - Care for yourself... How are you going to love the other person? It's easy to say you love but I feel people tend to overuse the word.

It's becoming more and more like an ordinary word. (Isn't it sad to see that? It's supposed to be a special word!)

I still admit that I wouldn't dare to say that unless I mean it. (Well, I'll definitely say that to my family. Yes, I know some people might complain that I'm that "Family-first" type of person to the extend I turn down friends invitation to hang out.)

It's funny how the world works but this is reality. Welcome to REALITY!

All and all, I learnt that in life, you cannot be too naive or else people would take advantage of you. You got stand up and fight for your rights. Fighting for your rights doesn't mean you must act defensively or anything like that.

Simply it means - Using your brain to think and work a solution to win your battle. Of course, we humans tend to go ahead without thinking as we always follow our emotions.

Maybe certain things we can be a bit physical but not all situations have to be that way. If we are to be that way, god knows what will happen next.

Ok, maybe it's true that women tend to be more emotional than men. However, that doesn't mean some men aren't emotional. There are some who can be very touchy and emotional.

Frankly, I like my guy to be tough and at the same time sensible - The gentleman kind.

Some people often look at gentleman guys as - "The soft and touchy" type.

That's fiction. Well? At the end of the day, it's your choice. Each and everyone of us would like it their way and we CANNOT force or assume everyone wants it this way or that way. Well, you get the idea.

2007 hasn't been a bad year for me. As usual, the UPs and the DOWNs but overall, it has been quite good for me. Well? As an optimist, I like to look at it in the brighter side rather than the dark, dull side to it. (Well, being an optimist is tough! I need the support at times too, ok! Support as in the determination and courage. Remember I'm not super human!)

Come on~ Colour your world! Spice it up and groove along!

Once in a while you got to de-stress yourself. Pamper yourself. Well? Pampering yourself and de-stressing yourself doesn't mean all the wrong things that you should do. That's not what I mean. What I mean is... Give yourself a pat on the back and treat yourself as a way to reward yourself.

Little things can go a long way. Whatever it is, I just want to be who I am and this is who I am. Call it split personalities but the choice is always in your hands to be who you want to be or how you want yourself to behave.

I choose what or how I feel like behaving but still, deep down inside... I am still very much the same person. Now and then. I feel I don't change that much - As in my personality. Well? People change, yes that's true but at least 90% I'm still very much the same person that I was and am.

Alright, before I end my entry. Here are some photos.

(Second Row on the left: A picture taken in 2006; At Home, A random pose - November 2007, Mirror Reflection also taken in November 2007, My Primary 1 picture [1997] and another random pose taken in 2003.)

(Last row on the left: One of my recent pictures which is after I had my haircut (13th December 2007), Myself, In My Room - Taken in 2006 [Before I cut my fringe], When I was THREE years old if not wrong, Myself, Listening to music using the headphone (Taken before I cut my hair; 5th December 2007) and the last picture was a neoprint back in 2005 if not wrong.)

I miss those days! Boohoo! I wish I could be young forever but there's no such thing of being forever young. Well? Maybe at heart but we grow older each year and that's just sad but hey, look on the bright side.

Enjoy life while you still can and stay out of trouble! Looking at those pictures when I was younger, it somehow makes me smile as back then I was quite innocent and naive.

Ahhhh... Memories of the past, memories of my journey... The journey is not yet over. Looking ahead and moving forward, only then success awaits.