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Monday, December 31, 2007

THIS IS MY 281st ENTRY. My my my. Time flies.

HELLO 2007! Yes, it is still 2007. I cannot believe this is the last day of 2007! 2007 has been fantastic actually. Of course, along the way I encounter some hiccups. The usual up and down in life.

A rollercoaster ride I would say. The things that we encounter everyday is always a challenge. I guess we have to be up for it. It sure can be tiring and sometimes frustrating.

Life is always full of surprises and challenges but we have to overcome the obstacle with our strength.

Well? I was looking at all the pictures of this year and I was kind of occupied earlier on. Now? Well, I just want to take a break - So that's why I am blogging!
This will be my last entry of the year and I want to reflect about my year.

2007 - The year I got admitted to ITE College East. I remember the first day of school was quite a nervous one. I am a shy person but on the first day, I try to stay calm and cool.

I feel awkward actually. Especially the first week of school. I WAS AN ALIEN TO THE SCHOOL.

Time flies and I cannot believe it!

Gosh. Tomorrow will be 2008! You know, 2006 seems like few weeks or months ago and 2007 seems like it is just few days ago. Yes, I am missing the days in Secondary school. Of course, not the ones that makes me bad or those that I do not wish to remember! ...BUT the ones that makes me smile and I simply miss that feeling.

What can I say? Life has to go on, we have to move on... Things change, and so do people. Things like that are out of hands and we cannot design it or rather program it to suit our needs or lifestyle.

Everyday is a new day and a challenge awaits you. Determination is very important. It plays a part in your life.

Anyway, LET ME CONFESS. This will be the last time and last day of 2007, so... Let me speak out.

I definitely love my drama club very much. I am glad to have such nice people around. I think my class PL0701B is not that bad. Whatever people might say or whatever things that happened, all I can say is that I am quite pleased with the class that I am in.

I miss Jose Mourinho. Yes, a bit off topic (Football). Jose Mourinho is a very entertaining person to watch. He always have something to say and to have people like him it makes the world in a way - Colourful.

Love him or hate him. I am a fan of Jose Mourinho. Not only that, he is a very good coach.

Manchester United fans are getting cocky. I wish they could just shut. Ok, no offence but I am not saying all Manchester United fans are like that.

Ok, let me make it simple then. I dislike rival teams. Oops. Ok, that is not right. Hmm? Ok, I guess that is all I have to say. Better not add on any further (regarding football).

2007, I also make new friends. Yes, you get the idea. New school = new friends. Do not get me wrong, I never forget my all my other friends!

I MEET AMELIA (also known as: Aliveman, PRO) in 2007. Sadly, she transferred school later on in 2007.

HOWEVER, I still have a bestie! That is... NURAFIQAH! Yes, Fiqah - My good pal. I am glad to have a friend like her. Never did I regret making friends with her. People may misunderstood us and think that sometimes we are "quarelling" or things like that. You know what? That is how we talk at times.

It may appear like we are arguing but that is how we joke. I just do not know how to describe the feeling. I am just pleased with almost everything this year.

2006 was not a bad year for me. I do have hard times when some boys in class were really idiotic but, looking on the brighter side... It was quite a good one somehow.

I guess, you have to look on the brighter side in life. Things are not as bad as you think they are.

I MUST ADMIT that when Chelsea lost the title to Manchester United - My heart ache.

Then again, Chelsea beat Manchester United in the FA Cup final - Which somehow makes me feel that it is not as bad as I think.

OVERALL, 2007 has been a fantastic year for me. I finally got to watch plays. The last time I got to watch a play at the theatre would be like in 2003 - The Phantom Cat.

ANYWAY, THANK YOU everyone for everything that you have done. I want to thank everyone who has helped me in 2007. I just could not describe this in words. It really is a fabulous year. Lots of fun and also hardwork!

5 MEMORABLE THINGS IN 2007
#1 - Performing my drama play in November.
#2 - Watching performance such as: "Gin and Tonic & The Passing Train" and "The King and I" musical.
#3 - Community Fiesta - Took a picture with Ben Yeo.
#4 - Met Vincent Ng and he said "Hi!"
#5 - To have a friend like Fiqah. (I hope she's happy with her boyfriend!)

OK - Today - The release of final year examination results. I cannot sleep last night. In fact, after the Manchester City against Liverpool match, I decided not to go and sleep but instead, continue watching television. Guess what? I watched a Korean drama last night. First time watching Korean drama.

I think the show is called "Feel So Young" or something like that. Well? That is if I can remember correctly. Pardon me if it is the wrong title!

Anyway, I just cannot believe it when I went to check my results. I thought I was seeing things at first! I have to say... I am really pleased with it. I did not expect it actually. You know, they say - "Expect the unexpected".

I guess... That is the icing of the cake. I say goodbye to 2007 on a high note.

"GOODBYE 2007, WELCOME 2008!"

*I will be putting up a new blog skin soon and also a new song for my blog. Soon - A new look for my blog.*

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- With lots of love!

Peace out!~

"God has been kind to me. Grazie! (Thank you)."

// DIANE - 11.47PM
31st December 2007

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:47:00 pm♠

Friday, December 28, 2007

I am going to do something different today. I am not going to be very wordy today. (Though there will be words, however!)

Celebrate and thank god for that as Silencer D is not going to post another wordy entry. Well? At least for today. (BUT IF YOU AREN'T A FOOTBALL FAN, maybe you would like skipping this.)

Though I have been going out these few days, I am trying to make an effort to post and update my blog regularly.

Hopefully, people who reads it or at least occasionally visits my blog will be able to read and not only read but fancy those pictures (trying to post pictures in every entry).

Ok, I am going to cut this short. Short enough? Ok, let us begin now.

THINGS THAT IMPRESSED ME - SCROLL DOWN TO SEE VIDEOS OF WONDER GOALS.

Andriy Shevchenko - So much of newspaper reports and the media saying Andriy Shevchenko is not longer the best player and stuff like that.

However, he impressed me. Ignore the scoreline for the game against Aston Villa which involves three red cards and two penalties.

There was no Frank Lampard and I thought maybe Michael Ballack would be the penalty taker. Instead, it was Andriy Shevchenko.

I have to say, it's his best performance in a Chelsea jersey. Not only did he score the penalty but he scored the second goal which was a beauty. Not forgetting, he assist Alex for the third goal. If he continues this way, I'll be pleased.

A great leader. Am pleased with his performance and leadership qualities. In my opinion, he seemed to try and motivate the other Chelsea players. Hope he continues that way!

Michael Ballack - Another great leader. Back from injury. Make an impact in the game. Pleased with his performance.

Too bad, the game didn't end the way I wanted it to be.

However, looking on the brighter side - Michael Ballack scored and it was a good one.

In the absence of Frank Lampard and the others, and also players going off for the African Cup of Nations - Michael Essien, John Mikel Obi, Salomon Kalou and Didier Drogba, hopefully he would be one who would score goals for Chelsea.

People love to criticise Frank Lampard. Saying he score most of his goal by luck. That is - Deflection. Sometimes, we need a bit of luck but sometimes it is a good one. Like him or not, enjoy the videos!

Gianfranco Zola - Interesting player to watch but sadly, he has retired.

BEST OF THE BEST! (GIANFRANCO ZOLA)

DAVID BECKHAM!

JOE COLE against Sweden (2006 World Cup)

DIDIER DROGBA! (The Drogba magic)

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:44:00 am♠

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Merry Merry Merry Christmas! Oh, I mean... Yo Yo Yo! Merry Christmas! Ok, wait... That doesn't sound right. Hmm...... Ho ho ho! Merry Christmas everyone!

Ok, that sounds better. *grins*

Frankly speaking, it seems Christmas is the time where everyone remembers, whereas BIRTHDAYs, people tend to forget. Hmm? Oh they purposely forget it on purpose? So as to use it as an excuse for not giving presents. Oops!

Ok, I better not go any further about it. Well? That's how I feel but hey, you know... You can't expect everyone to remember everything, right? Human being tend to forget and we have so many things in our mind everytime... So... May you be blessed as you are pardoned. (No hard feelings, I didn't mean anything actually.)

I received so many Christmas messages. My my my. I don't celebrate Christmas, you know? One of those messages was from my cousin. I'm actually surprised.

Anyway, it's one more week to 2008. Gosh. Soon my results will be out! Aww... I'm very afraid. Seriously, I don't know if I'll have the heart to check my results or not. Sheesh.

Ok, let's not talk about it. It makes me worry!

For the time being, I want to rest, relax and enjoy myself. I don't want to stress myself up and get all so worried and tensed.

2008 is fast approaching and soon I'll try to put a new blog skin up too! Oh, not forgetting a new song to go along with it too!

Yes, I am a little sick of listening to my blog song these days. Though it's Linkin Park - "Leave Out All The Rest" which I was at one-time addicted to but hey, you got to give me a break once in a while and I'm pretty sure people who randomly views my blog might feel the same.

Anyway, as 2008 is fast approaching... I actually wished I could freeze time. If only I could turn back time but no. In life, you must keep going and the only direction that you are allowed to go is forward.

Yes, it's tiring - It's insane - It's fast and it's mad but what are you to do about it?

Simple! YOU GOT TO HAVE DETERMINATION AND COURAGE! It's all up there. Uh huh. Up there - Well? You know where. No idea where? YOUR BRAIN! Duh~

A thousand mile, a thousand obstacle... A good sight, a good vision... With power and might - The power is in your hands.

Maybe some might be calling me long-winded and all but hey, I'm just expressing myself. Simply because this is my blog and I'm free to express my thoughts and feelings on it.

Not forgetting, I don't use vulgarities nor did I abuse or insult. So I'm free to do whatever I wish to do.

I was reading a friend of mine blog last night and I came across this entry. I'm sorry if I went over the border but I read it by accident. I have no means to intrude other people's privacy. Well? If that's how you want to put it.

Well, you see... Basically, this friend of mine she typed it in her another blog. I don't know if it's just for her close friends to see or what (I'm not really that close by the way) but I read all those by accident.

There was this paragraph which I kind of agree. To sum it up, I would say - Yes, you should love yourself before loving someone else. If you don't love yourself and you say that you love the other person - Isn't that being unfair?

Unfair as in... Taking away people's happiness. Sure, the other person if he/she is into you, definitely he/she would say I want to make you the happiest person.

However, I look at it this way. If you don't love yourself, or at least - Care for yourself... How are you going to love the other person? It's easy to say you love but I feel people tend to overuse the word.

It's becoming more and more like an ordinary word. (Isn't it sad to see that? It's supposed to be a special word!)

I still admit that I wouldn't dare to say that unless I mean it. (Well, I'll definitely say that to my family. Yes, I know some people might complain that I'm that "Family-first" type of person to the extend I turn down friends invitation to hang out.)

It's funny how the world works but this is reality. Welcome to REALITY!

All and all, I learnt that in life, you cannot be too naive or else people would take advantage of you. You got stand up and fight for your rights. Fighting for your rights doesn't mean you must act defensively or anything like that.

Simply it means - Using your brain to think and work a solution to win your battle. Of course, we humans tend to go ahead without thinking as we always follow our emotions.

Maybe certain things we can be a bit physical but not all situations have to be that way. If we are to be that way, god knows what will happen next.

Ok, maybe it's true that women tend to be more emotional than men. However, that doesn't mean some men aren't emotional. There are some who can be very touchy and emotional.

Frankly, I like my guy to be tough and at the same time sensible - The gentleman kind.

Some people often look at gentleman guys as - "The soft and touchy" type.

That's fiction. Well? At the end of the day, it's your choice. Each and everyone of us would like it their way and we CANNOT force or assume everyone wants it this way or that way. Well, you get the idea.

2007 hasn't been a bad year for me. As usual, the UPs and the DOWNs but overall, it has been quite good for me. Well? As an optimist, I like to look at it in the brighter side rather than the dark, dull side to it. (Well, being an optimist is tough! I need the support at times too, ok! Support as in the determination and courage. Remember I'm not super human!)

Come on~ Colour your world! Spice it up and groove along!

Once in a while you got to de-stress yourself. Pamper yourself. Well? Pampering yourself and de-stressing yourself doesn't mean all the wrong things that you should do. That's not what I mean. What I mean is... Give yourself a pat on the back and treat yourself as a way to reward yourself.

Little things can go a long way. Whatever it is, I just want to be who I am and this is who I am. Call it split personalities but the choice is always in your hands to be who you want to be or how you want yourself to behave.

I choose what or how I feel like behaving but still, deep down inside... I am still very much the same person. Now and then. I feel I don't change that much - As in my personality. Well? People change, yes that's true but at least 90% I'm still very much the same person that I was and am.

Alright, before I end my entry. Here are some photos.

Very much addicted to I guess? - Not Liverpool! - Xabi Alonso!

Philipp Lahm! Remember him? The guy who scored the first goal in the FIFA WORLD CUP 2006?

VJ Max; Max Loong! If you watched "After Hours" and MTV Mobbed, you'll remember him.

This is NOW and THEN.

(Top left hand corner: 2006 Picture - Taken at Vivo City, 2006 Picture - Taken in School during Teachers' Day, 2006 Picture - That's with makeup! I had a Post Examination Activity - A Session With Shiseido)

(Second Row on the left: A picture taken in 2006; At Home, A random pose - November 2007, Mirror Reflection also taken in November 2007, My Primary 1 picture [1997] and another random pose taken in 2003.)

(Last row on the left: One of my recent pictures which is after I had my haircut (13th December 2007), Myself, In My Room - Taken in 2006 [Before I cut my fringe], When I was THREE years old if not wrong, Myself, Listening to music using the headphone (Taken before I cut my hair; 5th December 2007) and the last picture was a neoprint back in 2005 if not wrong.)

I miss those days! Boohoo! I wish I could be young forever but there's no such thing of being forever young. Well? Maybe at heart but we grow older each year and that's just sad but hey, look on the bright side.

Enjoy life while you still can and stay out of trouble! Looking at those pictures when I was younger, it somehow makes me smile as back then I was quite innocent and naive.

Ahhhh... Memories of the past, memories of my journey... The journey is not yet over. Looking ahead and moving forward, only then success awaits.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠4:58:00 am♠

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Look who's back! Back again. She's back. Who is she? She's the best, she's the legend... La La LA. Introducing... Silencer D!

HAHA. Alright, I was just trying to start an opening for this entry. That's all.

Anyway, it's finally December and this is my SECOND entry for this month. My my my. Very few entries lately, eh?
SO... BEFORE I REALLY BEGIN, I'LL LIKE TO APOLOGISE IF THIS IS GOING TO BE A VERY LONG ENTRY. Alright, let us begin~

Gosh. Time flies. It's almost end of the year and I already started planning unlike other years where I only plan what I want for next year in the last few days of the year.

I'm quite pleased that I began to plan in advance that is about a week and a half or two. That's the way to go I guess?

Anyway, reflecting back about my year - You know in life, there's always ups and downs. In life, you lose some, you win some. Basically, this world works that way and whatever we have we should actually appreciate it.

I must admit that there were times whereby I would complain and whine but when I later found out that another friend of mine doesn't have what I have.

Upon hearing that when my friend told me, I then realised that I should be thankful for what I have.

I guess sometimes in life, we just don't realise what's in front of us until we later found out and realised that you already have it. The thing that you yearn for is already there around you. You just have to open your eyes and discover it yourself.

I am no angel. I make mistakes and maybe I commit a sin or two but I wouldn't say I am a devil. However, thinking about improving yourself everyday is a good thing as it makes you to be a better person.

A better person than you are today.

I'm sorry if I talk a lot and maybe to some they might find it irritating. Of course there are some things better left unsaid. People always assume that I'm the "tell-it-all" person but actually, they are wrong.

You know, it's always your choice. You always have a decision to pick and make what's yours. However, picking the wrong decision will lead to complications.

Pardon me if I irritated you but I'm someone who likes to talk and express myself. It's hard for me to express myself at times because I feel people aren't interested in what you're going to talk about.

I know and I can sense it at times that there are some people simply pretending to listen to you but as a matter of fact, they aren't.

I don't like going against others. I mostly advice others and give my point of view about how I feel about the situation. Debate? Well, it's healthy to have a debate once a while and of course without using harsh words of course.

We can do so by stating the facts and argue your point as to why you think it is like that and also giving supporting evidence to it to prove your point. It's kind of interesting somehow but if people were to react defensively, use harsh words and all sorts of "god knows what's next" - That's a turn off to me.

One good example would have to be - "Football Focus with John Dykes". That's one my favourite shows. Sure it's football but, you should watch how they carry their debates. The way they discuss it and argue their point. Very professional and definitely - Enjoyable to watch. Thumbs up!

I just don't know how to describe December. Seriously, it has been quite smooth going for me but what was shocking is that - My grandmother passed away.

I don't have any grandparents left. Frankly speaking, I don't know how it feels like to be loved by your grandparents. She passed away on the 6th of December. I never was close with my grandmother but in a way, I admit I was a bit sad though I don't have much reactions to it.

What can I say? It's the circle of life and now I realised that I have to achieve and enjoy whatever I can while I'm still alive.

To think about death, that's really scary. Yes, I am afraid and I still feel I have a lot more to explore in this world. It's a shame that this world is filled with hypocrites, backstabbers, confidence tricksters, immature people, the "nothing better to do" people, racist people and many more.

People say: "God is not fair" but I choose not to look at it that way.

Yes, yes yes! I admit that this world can be unfair and sometimes life seems unfair to you. I was once or rather a few times in a situation whereby I feel this world is so cruel to me. Unfair towards me and it's like I kept wondering to myself - "Where did I go wrong? What did I do?" Maybe we don't see what mistakes you've made at times but I remember thinking to myself "Am I really a bad person?" (The people around makes this world seems unfair because of power and greed, god is fair.)

There and then those questions simply pops up in my mind.

* I am talkative, I talk a lot and I'm loud at times. I have bad temper at times to the extend sometimes I don't realise what I say.

* If I dislike a person, I can be mean towards the person at times. I am stubborn. Rock-headed (and has a heart that's made of steel) if you want to put it that way as I can find it hard to forgive and forget at times. Oh yes, not forgetting lazy.

* Those are the bad points I could list out but other than that. I don't think I'm that bad.

* I am a good listener. Advisor. I'll try to console you and cheer you up when you're feeling down. I'll help whenever I can. I'll entertain you if you're bored. Well? I can be lame at times but sometimes some lame things can make you laugh and to see others laugh somehow makes me smile.

* I know I've been turning friends down but I'll be there when they need me for support or advice or anything like that. I think I'm sensible. I am always trying my best to understand others.

I may not be the best or someone great but I always try to give it my all. I always try to help whenever I can and I really wonder, am I really that horrible?

It seems like people always remembers the mistakes that you've made but not acknowledging on the good deeds and good things that you did. It saddens me. I am human. You cannot assume that I am always so strong.

I have a heart and I have feelings because I am human. I'm just a mere human being and I am not some sort of special human! So, please be considerate. Forgive me if I make mistakes as, in life human make mistakes.

To think about it, I guess sometimes it's better for us to judge. I don't want to go on as some might think I'm trying to brag or promote myself. I just want to be who I am and not faking to be a "wannabe" or anything like that.

I am unique, I am the only one.

Well? I cut my hair recently and I spent $86. $21 for my haircut, $33 for the shampoo and $32 for the spray.

My my my. I have sensitive scalp? I don't really know about that. Thus, I ended up buying it which cost me $33. Kerastase Dermo-Calm shampoo by L'oreal and it's only like 250ml (millilitre)! (Err? Correct spelling, right? Milliliter would be American spelling, whereas millilitre is British English spelling.)

Also bought this hairspray kind of thing which cost me $32. Gosh.

My haircut price is reasonable or rather I should say cheap. Where did I cut it? Heatwave by Monsoon at Marina Square. I guess it's better to go on during weekdays. Probably after 1pm? I went to cut my hair about that time and there weren't too many people. Just a few.

I don't like places where they'll be so many people cutting. I just don't find it comfortable I guess? I prefer somewhere cozy and relaxing.

Hmm? Fiqah said she like my new haircut but when I first stepped out of the salon, I kept wondering if it's going to be weird or not. I somehow find it a bit weird but my mother always tells me that in a few days time, you'll somehow look better.

To be honest, I think it was a little weird but somehow something different I guess as I've been having long hair for quite a while. Guess what? Few days later, I kind of like my fringe and my hair.

Hmm... Well? I didn't cut my hair short as my hair is naturally wavy though at times my hair seems quite straight but there are times it can be wavy and it curls.

I cut my hair to mid-length - Somewhere around the shoulders. I can't really tie my hair up. Well? I can but I would need a lot of clips and it feels funny to tie it up as my hair is much more layered now.

Hmm? Comparing it when I have long hair, I feel it's much easier to tie it up and it looks better. Furthermore, my last haircut layers aren't as much as now.

I guess for the time being, I'll just use my hairband. Thankfully, I bought two when this year when I still have long hair.

One white and the other is a shiny one which is brown in colour. I like both and to think about it, I kind of like wearing hairband now. Maybe it's time I should start wearing it again? The last time I wear that was when I was young and I stopped after that.

Maybe I should find some of my clips to "accessorise" my hair. I used to have some nice clips that my mother bought for me when I was younger but I somehow have misplaced it.

Anyway, to sum things up this year, I think it wasn't that bad. In fact, drama has keep me quite occupied. Gosh! Those wonderful moments. Miss miss miss! Though "someone" replied my tag by saying I'll not be missed! Boohoo!

Ok, I'll try to update as often as I can. I guess I better be going. I'll end my entry here for now. Or else... "Aww man! Expecting me to read such wordy entry?? Arghhhhh! It's driving me nuts!"

Yes, I don't want that to happen.

Oh yes, before I go... League Cup holders - Chelsea knocked Liverpool out of the Carling Cup competition. Peter Crouch got sent off for an ugly challenge on John Obi Mikel.

Chelsea will face Everton in the Semi-finals. Whereas, Arsenal will Tottenham Hotspur.

Hmm? Chelsea and Arsenal in the Finals again? Well, a repeat of last year might happen again but I'm hoping Spurs and Chelsea to be in the finals. Hopefully, Chelsea to win it again! *grins*

Champions League draw: -

Arsenal vs AC Milan (Premier League leaders against the mighty Milan that won the Champions League - Expect a tough one! Go Milan,go! Oops. Sorry Arsenal fans but I fancy Milan.)

Liverpool vs Inter Milan (Hmm? Who should I pick? Well, I'm netural about this. However, it's going to be another tough match! Last year's beaten finalist against the Champions of Italy *Serie A*.)

Lyon vs Manchester United (You know what? It'll be nice if Lyon beat Manchester United but chances are... Manchester United to go through but in football, sometimes the unexpected things happen.)

Last but not least... MY FAVOURITE AND MIGHTY BLUES!

Olympiacos vs Chelsea!

(GO CHELSEA GO!)

Flying high up in the sky,
We keep the blue flag flying high
From Stamford Bridge to Wembley we keep the blue flag flying high!

Hmm? Maybe it should be... "From Stamford Bridge to Moscow, we keep the blue flag flying high!"

Uh huh. The Champions League finals will be held in Moscow, Russia.

Ok... As for now... Go Chelsea, beat Blackburn this weekend!
Alright,I'm off~

Peace out!~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠4:59:00 am♠

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

I don't know but something in me makes me feel sad at times whenever I look back at the past.

It sure is interesting and funny when you look back at those memories. Those days when you were young and naive. All the silly things that you would do or say and how innocent you were. My my my. Times flies.

However, at times when you look back at certain things... It makes you feel like crying. It's like... How do I say this? It's like you'll have mixed feelings when you back at those "not so sweet" memories.

I wouldn't dare say I'm 100% innocent but I'm mostly am.

I'm just human. I make mistakes and all. I've made a lot of mistakes in the past. Somehow, certain things I do regret whereas some things... It's really pointless to regret. Like they say... No point crying over a spilled milk.

Sometimes I ask myself - Where did I go wrong? What's wrong with me? Yes - Questions start popping in my head and I wonder "WHY?"

I've been through things that makes me a better person. Or maybe some may say strong person. Then again, inside this "strong person", it's just a little kid. Whatever it is, I'm still a girl. I'm just a mere human. We are all god's children.

I'm just like a kid. I love being pampered. Of course, I have discipline and I know when to not be a kid. It's frustrating when people judge you blindly. (Need a walking stick?) At the end of the day, I know myself the best.

Hmm? Best? Ok, maybe certain things I don't see it but I would say I still know who the person I am.

I choose to be who I want to be. It's my choice, it's your choice.

I feel that this year - 2007 - I'm a little different and there's good and bad things. There's certain things that I like and there are certain things that I don't as I don't understand why I've become like that.

What am I talking about? I like myself for controlling my temper. Seems like I'm able to control my temper better and I'm mostly happy this year.

What I don't like is that I've become lazy. I mean I always feel that I am lazy but this time... It's really lazy. I used to be competing with the boys in my class for results in secondary school. It's funny how things work out now.

I'm pretty sure there are people thinking I am dumb. Whatever it is, I don't think that I am. I feel I don't put in as much as effort as I should. Well? Maybe that would be the right choice of words.

I'm not saying that's right. That's wrong. I shouldn't be doing that. I know and I must kick that habit that I adapted this year. I have to start my engines again and start it rolling. Yeah, rolling like you are rolling a dice.

Talking about guys? Well... I'm a little unlucky when it comes to this.

A friend of mine was chatting with me earlier on and was asking me if I found the one. I laughed it off and simply replied: "Nah. For what?"

Responsed was - SHOCK. Yes, shocked. How shocking can that be? I don't think that's shocking. It's not as if I found the one. I can only think that my friend would react shocked if I found the one and not HAVEN'T FOUND.

It's strange at times that there are strange reactions and strange people around.

What am I to say about it? Life works that way. Like it or not, it's simply humans. Yes, humans makes this world filled with love, hatred, dark, colourful - Well? Whatever you want to call it.

Then there was that question. What question?

THE question. "What's your ideal guy then?"

It seems like those guys that I've met before aren't really my ideal guy or at least guys that I may consider. It's pretty sad because those that I came across are mostly the ones that I don't like.

How annoying can that be? VERY! Hur hur hur!

I like someone who knows how to dress. Someone who basically I can talk a lot with. What do I mean by talk? Simply anything under the sun. If you know what I mean by that.

I like someone who understands and likes me for who I am and not what I am. Someone sensible and caring. Honest and hardworking - That's a plus plus actually.

Well? I don't want to go on and on. Just to make it clear those are at least what I would call ideal.

If I were to go on, I would include - Joker, kind of adventureous, someone who has "BRAINS" (as in... Listening to himself and not what his friends say!) - Basically, I can't stand guys who don't have "BRAINS". It'll be nice if he and I share something in common - Be it interest, hobbies or favourite things.

Well? They say it's easy to find that type but you know... It's not as easy as you think. You may think that way but are they able to connect with each other? If the answer is yes, I disagree because not everyone is able to connect with each other.

Some may have a different point of view. Some may do things differently from the other. Basically - have different point of views, interest , and the list goes on!

As for me... I just want to be as good as possible. I'm a chatty person but I'm also shy actually. I can be friendly if you're nice to me. I can be mean if I choose to be and I can be hardworking if I tell myself to be.

ANYWAY... Went out to study with my two friends yesterday. (If you're reading this, you know who you are) Boooooo! I'm very worried. *sigh*

Call it study if you want but ok, at least the sponge can absorb some. After that, went to eat. We couldn't decide what to eat so we wasted time walking around to see what you want to eat. Ended up at the Adidas store at Parco Bugis Junction.

Look around at things for a while before really decide what to eat. Guess what it was? McDonalds! *humming to the tune of it* "I'm loving it!"

WELL... Ok, I apologise for being late ok? HAHA. I know I didn't do that but I'm doing it here. *grins*

Well? Time flies very fast when you're doing something. When you are occupied with things that is but if you aren't then you would feel that 5 minutes is very long.

Well? Alright, I guess it's time for me to go to FantasyLand~

Peace out.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:31:00 am♠

Saturday, December 01, 2007

HAPPY WORLD AIDS DAY!

Don't get me wrong and think I love people getting AIDS and all. In fact, I pity those innocent people who got it because of some irresponsible jerks. (Well? I'm being nice already by refraining myself from using coarse language.)

It's 1st December. I finally got some time to blog. It's been a while since I last blog. My my my. I feel I've been quite occupied this year than any other year. Ok, last year was my N levels so maybe the last few months were a little busy.

Anyway, compare it with this year - I guess this year have more stuff happening than the previous.

I have so many things to talk about yet I don't know where to start.

Let me reflect on what did I do during the month of November. Guess I'll just summarised it.

Had my final rehearsal before the big opening day during the first week of November.

The big day was on the 9th of November and finale was on the 10th. Aww... Those memories!

Assignment and class test were also on the list in the month of November. Oh boy... Sure was a busy one.

Oh yes, my contact lens tear too. HAHA. How can I not remember that? My my my. It never happened previously only recently it happened - Which was on the 24th of November.

24th November was also a memorable day for "Frabbit" and "Tiger". (I shall not say out their names but if they are reading this - You know who you are.)

Well? Too bad. I didn't attend the drama outing that day. I went back to school in the morning to attend the Student Counsellor Investiture. I thought I was really late to meet Luqman that day (it was his birthday!) as I sort of overslept!

That was the day my right lens tear! I was actually surprised. I was also having hard time putting it on that morning! Grrrr! How annoying!

Hmm? It was also a day whereby my friends aren't free. I asked a few out by sending a text message but oh dear! They weren't free! Boohoo.

It happens all the time. Whenever I'm free, they're not and whenever they're free - I'm NOT! Boohoo!

Hmm? 26th November was Chloe's birthday. Fiqah and I went to meet her after school. It was also the day where I had my IT Essentials class test!

Well? All I have to say is that... What a month it was and what a year it is! Time flies! It's already December. Oh dear. Soon it'll be 2008!

Ok, enough WORDS. It's time to post pictures. *grins*

Oh yes, I saw Denise Keller yesterday at Orchard (Outside Shaw Centre)! Didn't realise it was her as I was looking at her dress. Only when she was near then I realise it was her as I recognise that voice. Well? She was on the phone by the way.

It's the second time I saw her.

Before we got changed into our costumes.
(Without eyeliner; I think I look better with my fringe!)

Dinner - Before our opening day performance.
I think I don't look good with eyeliner.

Us , Pharaoh (Winson) and Stage Manager (Faizal). We're on standby for the 3PM show.

After finale night. We're so tired!
(Fiqah, Myself and Shu Min)

P E A C E !

The day we bought for Chloe the birthday gift. Sweet dreams, yeah?

Contact lens - Focus Dailies (Astigmatism). I wanted to get Acuvue but I have to wait longer for it but I needed it soon for my drama play so I opted for FOCUS instead. Crystal clear vision!

Jiayi (Secondary Schoolmate; Now in Innova Junior College)and I - Student Counsellor Investiture Day. Student Counsellor from various schools came to my school.

Look who! It's BARNEY! At Marina Square.

Look who? It's Princess Chloe and I. It was her birthday that day.

And... What's her gift?
It's Angelina! Yup. Build-A-Bear bear for her from us (Faiz, Fiqah and Myself). Hope she loves it!

I actually didn't want to spend money but somehow I spent it in the end.
I got the Cassie Rose shower gel (worth $14.90) for free as I signed up for the The Body Shop card yesterday at Paragon.
Oh yes, I got 20% discount on the spot yesterday too.
So... It's 20% off for the Neroli Jasmin Body Lotion and the Spirit of Moonflower perfume oil.

Furthermore, I wanted to restock mine. Guess it's the right time! *grins*

Products that I love! (Especially the Neroli Jasmin Body Lotion and Shower Gel as you can see it's running out soon)

The Spirit of Moonflower. Ahhhh yes! My favourite. I used to use the bath/shower cream. Boo! They discontinued the product!

Actually, I was confused to which should I get actually. I like this and also the limited edition strawberry one.

In the end I had to seek for opinion from the sales person and she recommended me this instead of the limited edition one. She's young, nice and helpful.

I guess sometimes retail therapy does feel good. I bought a few other stuff too. I guess next time I should just leave my NETS card at home. Well? Lots of window-shopping,shopping and walking makes me tired that yesterday I slept quiet early.

Before I go... I would like to add on that - CHELSEA WON! 1 - 0 - Courtesy of Joe Cole.

Alright,I'm off now.

Peace out!~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:49:00 pm♠