Everything happened so fast and life still has to go on no matter what. I think last week was a mixed week for me. The things that makes me pleased and the things that makes me disappointed and upset.

However, looking on the brighter side... It wasn't too bad but in a way it does make me upset when it's regarding my favourite football team.

In fact, I have posted my draft which I wrote few days ago. Initially, I intend to post but I changed my mind and decided not to. I don't want to talk about it.

It's really so fast and I can't believe it's almost October.

I've yet to memorise all the lines for my drama play and I have to that in two days time! Not forgetting the song too - "One Voice" by Barry Manilow.

Four more days to the end of September and EIGHT MORE DAYS to that SPECIAL DAY. Hmm... Seriously, I wonder how special because it's never really a special that I've always dream of.

There were times whereby my friends and family do make me feel "special" about it. However, it's not the SPECIAL that I've always dream of and I wonder if it'll ever come true.

What I mean by SPECIAL is something unique,unforgetable and memorable. Something that'll makes me go "WOW". Basically things that'll make you feel like you want that day everyday.

I don't think I ever felt that way on that "Special" day yet.

Well... Even though it's just a day but to really feel extra special on that day will definitely be a plus plus. Whatever it is, I don't want to grow up so soon. As you grow older, you'll have more responsibilities!

Talking about feelings and emotions. Let me speak my mind out and let's just be honest. I'm tired at times to always try and look on the brighter side of things and console myself and all.

I'm also human. I have feelings and emotions. I'm just a mere human being. I have no special powers or anything like that.

It's really frustrating when people always assume you are this and that. How irritating can that be? Definitely VERY.

In fact, in the past hour or so, I've been surfing the internet looking at Polytechnic websites.

It does annoys me when someone recently mentioned that I've no intention going to Polytechnic.

That is so wrong. I have been constantly telling myself that - That's what I am aiming for. Says who I have no intention?

The intention is there. The hope is still there. Just that I don't talk about it that often since beginning of this year, that doesn't mean I've given up on it.

To be frank, the reason why I didn't want to talk about it that often is that I want to concentrate on whatever is in hand at the moment.

At times I even talk about it with my mother. Telling her at times I feel like I'm struggling but I still intend to get in to Polytechnic. I'm pretty sure she knows that too.

My good friends should know that too. I know I made a mistake in the past but when I was in Secondary school, I am so determined to make up for my mistakes.

One thing that's certain is that I am still quite determined to do well. However, there are some obstacles that obstructing me. Like they say - "In any situation, there's always a solution."

I'll be working on it.

Hmm... I guess I really like myself very much when I'm as serious as this. Then again, what is life without joy and laughter? In life, you have to enjoy too.

There's always a time whereby you have to be serious and focus, and times whereby you should just relax.

Whatever it is, never let others bring you down. I hate it when people doubt me. It simply makes me want to really prove them wrong.

HUMANS WILL ALWAYS BE HUMANS. God gives you the courage and strength but only you, yourself can determined who and what you want to be. I prefer things to be kept mysterious at times. I guess it's better that way than being all so predictable.

There are certain people who think that I'm so predictable. Then again, who are you to judge people?

Umm... Moving on now. Recently I've been quite addicted to Maksim Mrvica's songs. What a great pianist I've to say.

The first song that I listened was "The Flight Of The Bumblebee" about four years or so. However, recently his name just comes to mind and I decided to look up for it and listen to his songs.

My my my. Who knew I could be addicted to it?

"Nostradamus" - You can feel the energy. I felt that way when I listened to it or you could search for the video at YouTube. My another favourite would have to "Kolibre". "Exodus" is also quite nice.

Maksim - Maksim Mrvica a 32-year-old pianist is a Croatian. I don't recall hearing him speak before. Anyway, he's really cool in my opinion. You can see the passion when he plays the piano. He really plays with his heart. You could like feel it.

I'm always trying to explore different kind of genre and I'm really pleased with it. Really pleased that my mind allowed me to accept different kind of genre into my life.

The reason why I said I am pleased is because there are some friends that I know, they would only stick to a certain music genre and that's it. I don't think it should be that way. Learn and explore other music genre. Appreciate music and you'll definitely enjoy what you're listening.

I mostly listen to Rock and Pop. I also do listen to R&B, Trance and Electronic. I definitely don't really like Techno. I find it too heavy for my liking therefore I prefer Trance as it's not as heavy as Techno.

Don't get me wrong. There are certain techno songs that are quite ok. Well, in terms of language - It really doesn't matter. As long as I find the music is good, I don't care what language it is.

However, I mostly listen to English songs but I also learn to German (Rammstein), Indonesian (Agnes Monica), Italian (Subsonica), Cheb Mami (Arabic; French), Shakira (Spanish), Utada Hikaru (Japanese), ...and the list goes on should any other artiste interest me.

The bottom line is: Open up - Be open-minded and allow yourself to explore.

Hmm... Ok, I think shall end here for now.
Peace out~