Then again, I'm unsure of what or how I feel at times and I'm really sorry for how I reacted at times. If I was a little emotional or not the usual, I'm sorry for the way I acted.

I just couldn't help it at times and sometimes I don't quite realise it until I start to reflect on my actions.

Hmm... Maybe because the anger and sadness gets the better of me. I really can't stand how people could just anyhow judge a person without even knowing the person better.

It's really frustrating and I am upset with that. It has been years that I have to endure and at times, I just couldn't take it anymore. I'm sick of it.

Try considering other people's feelings for once. Those people just don't care. They're really self-centered people. Egoist!

The sad thing is that sometimes people that you know change and who knows that some would be against you? I find that as a surprise. It's a pity that people change. If they change for the better - As in improving themselves to be a better person, it's alright but it's a sickening sight to see them change for the bad.

I am just dumbfounded about it.

People can talk bad about me but I never had that thought of mixing around with bad companies nor do I intend to become rebellious.

I admit that I may be loud and playful. Yes, I know I like to talk but to judge a person that way isn't right.

I can be quiet if I want to or serious. I just depends on the situation itself. If you can't even try to understand me, I think I should just forget about everything and all the memories we had together in the past.

I always treasure my friends and I cherish those moment and memories but like I said, I'm really upset that people change and forget about those happy moments and for all you know, they're against you. That hurts me.

Like "WOW" - What a crazy world. Tsk. So many hypocrites. Maybe that's why I find it hard to trust people till today.

I remember in secondary school whereby Xiaoqiang (Angie) has to bear with me at times when I get kind of emotional or when I tend to get irritated easily. Of course I did apologised to her and I'm really thankful to have a friend like her as she understands.

Of course there are times whereby she's not in the mood and all and as a friend... If she can understand me, I should understand her too and so, I'm cool with it. I really have no regrets knowing her.

We simply love talking nonsense. Mind us, as we tend to laugh like mad at times but hey, laughter is good.

Well... I'm feeling better now. I just don't know what I'm feeling these few days. There's like so many things in mind and sometimes I wonder if I do think too much. A friend of mine told me that yesterday and I kept thinking about it if what he said was true.

Hmm? I guess I shouldn't be thinking too much.

OH YES, I WANT TO APOLOGISE TO MY TWO FRIENDS FOR TURNING THEM DOWN. (Yes, you and you... You know who you are.)

Things were a little unexpected I guess. When I reached home I got to know that I had to attend to something and that really was unexpected. That's why I won't dare to give a definite answer as I fear that such things would happened.

It happened before and that's why I didn't want to give a definite answer as I fear if such situation would happened again and I didn't want to disappoint them later on.

It may be a little disappointing as I had to turn them down but I'm really sorry about it.

Seriously, it was all unexpected. When I reached home, I was told that I had to attend to something and after which, my dad took the family out for dinner. That was also unexpected.

Wouldn't it better if only I had sixth sense? Hmm... I think it'll be pretty interesting if I have that. Oh well... What a wishful thought.

Anyway, I sort of feel bad about the decision I had to make. I hope they understand my situation. I actually consider of going at first. If not, why would I ask what time?

Then again, I wasn't sure. I am afraid that I would disappoint my friends again as I had it the past because of unexpected situation.

ONCE AGAIN, I'M SORRY THAT I HAVE TO TURN YOU GUYS DOWN AGAIN.

I wonder how or what can I make it up to them.
(If the two of you are reading this, I hope you accept my apology.)

I'm a little bloated. I reached home at about 10.45pm. Thank goodness I brought my jacket with me just now if not I think I would have freeze and become an ICE CUBE!

OK, I won't be an ice cube but definitely I'll be freezing.

I'm feeling better now and I want to keep it this way. I don't intend to revert to what I was earlier on today. I don't know what's on my mind but definitely my mood was up and down. So many things in mind, I guess I worry too much.

Tsk. Stress affects you and what I mean is that... TOO MUCH STRESS AFFECTS YOUR EMOTION AND MOOD. Goodness me. That's not right.

I have been trying to reduce that and anger management, and time management do play a part.

Hmm? I do need more anger management. At times I tend to lose my cool but at times I can be to that extend of being so patient.

Oh well... Sheesh.

Anyway, time flies very fast. I can't believe next week on the 13th of September will be the start of fasting month! It's really fast and I just couldn't believe it myself.

I'm not a perfect person but I always try my very best to do things right. Then again, I do messed up at times and I feel like a loser for that.

What a failure. That thought comes to mind but there's this side of me so determine to get things done right. However, I am just a mere ordinary person and I have no special powers so at times I do feel down and I get so upset for not being able to get it right.

I feel like a fool. Well... At least a fool doesn't harm anyone and never in my life I have any intention to hurt anyone. I feel that's bad to hurt another person. Hmm... Unless the person hurt you, that would be a whole lot of different story.

Sorry may just be a word
Sorry may just be a five letter word
Sorry may seem to be the hardest word
Sorry may seem too simple
Sorry may just be for the sake of it

For whatever that comes out from me
For whatever you think it might be
For whatever you may think of me
I say what I mean
I say how I feel
I say it from the bottom of my heart

Even if it's hard to believe
Even if it's just a five letter word
All I want you to know
All I want you to understand is that...
I am an ordinary human being
A fool
A person who makes mistakes
All I want to say is sorry

Sorry for all the things that I've done
Sorry for all the trouble that I caused
Sorry for everything and anything that I've said before...

That's to everyone I know. I just don't want to offend anyone.

I have to admit that I make a lot of mistakes in the past and I messed things up. I hope with that, you'll try to understand me and forgive me for what I've done in the past. It's complicated at times.

I don't need anything for anyone. What I feel is important are three things - To understand, respecting others and honesty.

Oh it just feels good to express how I really feel. It's like spilling the beans out. I just feel good letting it out. The reason why I said honesty is that, some people aren't honest and like what I've mentioned above - Hypocrites.

I have been sincere and honest in whatever I do and whatever I say but to know someone and that someone you somehow thought you could trust just turn it's back on you. How do you feel about it? It upsets me.

I know I may be a little fragile to certain situations. Call that sensitive if you want but you know what? Enough is enough.

I just feel that nobody should get hurt or feel hurt. WE as humans have the rights to be happy and not sad but that's how life is and I really feel like slapping those people who cause trouble to others. Shame on you!

Well... Alright, I'm off now.

Peace out~

LOVE+PEACE+HARMONY
[ Fight for your rights and never let anyone take advantage of you~ ]