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Wednesday, September 26, 2007

I can't believe things could change in a nick of time.

Everything happened so fast and life still has to go on no matter what. I think last week was a mixed week for me. The things that makes me pleased and the things that makes me disappointed and upset.

However, looking on the brighter side... It wasn't too bad but in a way it does make me upset when it's regarding my favourite football team.

In fact, I have posted my draft which I wrote few days ago. Initially, I intend to post but I changed my mind and decided not to. I don't want to talk about it.

It's really so fast and I can't believe it's almost October.

I've yet to memorise all the lines for my drama play and I have to that in two days time! Not forgetting the song too - "One Voice" by Barry Manilow.

Four more days to the end of September and EIGHT MORE DAYS to that SPECIAL DAY. Hmm... Seriously, I wonder how special because it's never really a special that I've always dream of.

There were times whereby my friends and family do make me feel "special" about it. However, it's not the SPECIAL that I've always dream of and I wonder if it'll ever come true.

What I mean by SPECIAL is something unique,unforgetable and memorable. Something that'll makes me go "WOW". Basically things that'll make you feel like you want that day everyday.

I don't think I ever felt that way on that "Special" day yet.

Well... Even though it's just a day but to really feel extra special on that day will definitely be a plus plus. Whatever it is, I don't want to grow up so soon. As you grow older, you'll have more responsibilities!

Talking about feelings and emotions. Let me speak my mind out and let's just be honest. I'm tired at times to always try and look on the brighter side of things and console myself and all.

I'm also human. I have feelings and emotions. I'm just a mere human being. I have no special powers or anything like that.

It's really frustrating when people always assume you are this and that. How irritating can that be? Definitely VERY.

In fact, in the past hour or so, I've been surfing the internet looking at Polytechnic websites.

It does annoys me when someone recently mentioned that I've no intention going to Polytechnic.

That is so wrong. I have been constantly telling myself that - That's what I am aiming for. Says who I have no intention?

The intention is there. The hope is still there. Just that I don't talk about it that often since beginning of this year, that doesn't mean I've given up on it.

To be frank, the reason why I didn't want to talk about it that often is that I want to concentrate on whatever is in hand at the moment.

At times I even talk about it with my mother. Telling her at times I feel like I'm struggling but I still intend to get in to Polytechnic. I'm pretty sure she knows that too.

My good friends should know that too. I know I made a mistake in the past but when I was in Secondary school, I am so determined to make up for my mistakes.

One thing that's certain is that I am still quite determined to do well. However, there are some obstacles that obstructing me. Like they say - "In any situation, there's always a solution."

I'll be working on it.

Hmm... I guess I really like myself very much when I'm as serious as this. Then again, what is life without joy and laughter? In life, you have to enjoy too.

There's always a time whereby you have to be serious and focus, and times whereby you should just relax.

Whatever it is, never let others bring you down. I hate it when people doubt me. It simply makes me want to really prove them wrong.

HUMANS WILL ALWAYS BE HUMANS. God gives you the courage and strength but only you, yourself can determined who and what you want to be. I prefer things to be kept mysterious at times. I guess it's better that way than being all so predictable.

There are certain people who think that I'm so predictable. Then again, who are you to judge people?

Umm... Moving on now. Recently I've been quite addicted to Maksim Mrvica's songs. What a great pianist I've to say.

The first song that I listened was "The Flight Of The Bumblebee" about four years or so. However, recently his name just comes to mind and I decided to look up for it and listen to his songs.

My my my. Who knew I could be addicted to it?

"Nostradamus" - You can feel the energy. I felt that way when I listened to it or you could search for the video at YouTube. My another favourite would have to "Kolibre". "Exodus" is also quite nice.

Maksim - Maksim Mrvica a 32-year-old pianist is a Croatian. I don't recall hearing him speak before. Anyway, he's really cool in my opinion. You can see the passion when he plays the piano. He really plays with his heart. You could like feel it.

I'm always trying to explore different kind of genre and I'm really pleased with it. Really pleased that my mind allowed me to accept different kind of genre into my life.

The reason why I said I am pleased is because there are some friends that I know, they would only stick to a certain music genre and that's it. I don't think it should be that way. Learn and explore other music genre. Appreciate music and you'll definitely enjoy what you're listening.

I mostly listen to Rock and Pop. I also do listen to R&B, Trance and Electronic. I definitely don't really like Techno. I find it too heavy for my liking therefore I prefer Trance as it's not as heavy as Techno.

Don't get me wrong. There are certain techno songs that are quite ok. Well, in terms of language - It really doesn't matter. As long as I find the music is good, I don't care what language it is.

However, I mostly listen to English songs but I also learn to German (Rammstein), Indonesian (Agnes Monica), Italian (Subsonica), Cheb Mami (Arabic; French), Shakira (Spanish), Utada Hikaru (Japanese), ...and the list goes on should any other artiste interest me.

The bottom line is: Open up - Be open-minded and allow yourself to explore.

Hmm... Ok, I think shall end here for now.
Peace out~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠6:36:00 pm♠

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

I'm just so disappointed that Chelsea drew again.

Oh dear. Oh my... It's a tough week for them. However, I still feel that the linesmen got the decision wrong for the Blackburn game! How many times must the officials rob a team?

That frustrates me the most. It's so irritating. Time and time again they love doing such things. Don't they learn from mistakes? They say - Learn from your mistakes. Yet again, the same thing happens again and again.

When are they going to OPEN THEIR EYES and SAY "HEY, MY MISTAKE!" AND LEARN FROM IT?

Nevermind then. I'm just disappointed that Chelsea drew again. Without Frank Lampard and Didier Drogba - Not forgetting Ricardo Carvalho, Michael Ballack, Claudio Pizarro and Wayne Bridge.

Now... We only have one left-back and he has to work very hard for each game.

Yes - Ashley Cole has to work very hard. Not just for Chelsea but also for ENGLAND.

With Wayne Bridge out, poor Ashley Cole has to go on and on. At least if Wayne Bridge is available, Jose Mourinho may have rotated and Ashley Cole will be able to rest. At least Jose Mourinho is able to rotate between Ferreira and Belletti (if he wants to).

Frank Lampard is CHELSEA's key player. The 20 goals per season midfielder is the core of Chelsea.

Frank Lampard alongside Michael Essien equals to the heart of Chelsea. Ok, Michael Essien doesn't score as many goals as Frank Lampard but don't take anything away from him.

He works hard and makes good tackles. Some would call him the "bison".

I've to admit that ever since the start of the season, Petr Cech hasn't been at his best. I'm a little disappointed with him actually. Nevertheless, I have faith in him. Hopefully he'll be back to his best and when he is at his best, he's hard to beat.

Oh well... I hope they will win against Manchester United this weekend.

I still believe that even without Frank Lampard and Didier Drogba, Chelsea can still score goals.

The question is who can score? I would say - Joe Cole. Laugh for all you want but I think he is a good player. It's just that he hasn't been playing that often. Give him time and when he is at his best, he'll score goals.

Florent Malouda is also capable. Salomon Kalou? Hmm... I am disappointed with his finish. So... There are few players that are capable of scoring goals.

Who says CHELSEA will be nothing with Frank Lampard and Didier Drogba? Go back to few seasons ago when we won the Premiership. Remember who score some important goals.

Definitely Arjen Robben is out of the picture. Though I have to say I miss him because he is one of my favourite player (However, he is injury-prone).

Joe Cole scored some important goals. That's why I mentioned his name. I still have faith in him. He's my favourite player besides Frank Lampard.

Hopefully, he will start to score and who knows? Surprise surprise? Andriy Shevchenko to score? Well, you'll never know.

Oh well...

Hmm... I had my IT Essentials test earlier on and oh boy... I don't know how well I'll do because I didn't memorise the pins!

Arghhhhh... I should learn my lesson. That is to memorise the PINS!

My Digital Communications test there were a few questions that were asking about the PINS and oh boy, I think I only got one or two correct.

However, I am quite surprised that I passed. My class assignment I got 7/10 and my class test, I got 23/30.

I didn't expect that seriously. I thought I would only score about 17/30 but 23? Nice. I'm quite pleased with it.

Hardwork pays? Hmm... I did study for that but I didn't study some of them.

Whatever it is, I should be thankful and pleased with it.

That's not the end, I still have to continue to work hard! Yes, I haven't been what I used to be in secondary school.

Which I wish I am like that! I don't consider myself as super hardworking back then in secondary school but there's this seriousness in me which makes me want to work hard and compete.

However, I haven't been anything like that this year and I'm rather disappointed about it.

I just want to prove that I'm not what some might think because I am determined and I know that I am capable of doing so.

It's just that I lost that momentum but I'm trying to pick it up again and have it a go again.

Now I'm thinking... Was it that long holidays that I had last year that caused me to be like this or what? I have had some difficulties trying to get myself focus in the beginning of the year actually.

It's a different thing now. I feel like I'm getting some pace back now.

Boohoo! I don't know how well I'll fair for my test. I don't know if I could pass or not!

I am confident that there are some questions that I'll get it right but the question that's stuck in my head is...

"How many questions will I get wrong??"

Hur hur hur!

Yawns! I don't know what I'm feeling now. I'm still thinking of the test. =( =) =S Oh dear... It's mixed emotions for me!

Alright, I'm off now.
Peace out~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠4:04:00 pm♠

Monday, September 17, 2007

I hope I'm not on a shopping spree again!

As usual it was family day for me on a Sunday. Bought a white bag from Double Index and shoes from OP.

I hope I won't go on a shopping spree again. I think that's bad but I think I'm someone with discipline. Hmm? I believe I can resist! *grins*

Oh well... Retail therapy! Then again, I've to set limits or else who knows when it's going to stop?

What can I say after all? Girls love shopping!

Hmm... Then again, this is the 21st century and some guys do love shopping too!

It's not that I'm afraid of shopping but I don't want to spend a lot of money.

What I mean is... Spend wisely and treat yourself, pamper yourself once in a while. Not too often or else you'll go broke!

Hmm... Lately, I've been looking at Hair magazines. In fact, it's been about a month or so. I don't know what's with the sudden interest in it. I do have a straightener and the crippler, curler - you know the 7 in 1 one. However, I seldom use it.

In fact, I mostly use the straightener.

Anyway, I just feel that it's a small world after all. Well? Especially in this country! Singapore is small and the interesting part is that... Your friend may know your friend and your friend's friend may know your friend and the list goes on.

Get the situation?

Then this question prompts you - "WHAT MAKES IT INTERESTING AND HOW IS IT POSSIBLE?"

The answer is simple. FRIENDSTER! Well? That's what most people use but of course there are other similar services. Hi-5! Multiply! Bebo! Well? The list goes on...

You know what? I have those! *grins*

However, I guess I mostly log in to my Friendster account frequently, compared to the rest - Which I log in occasionally.

"Boom! Do you want it? Boom! Do you need it? Boom! Let me hear it! Ladies and Gentleman" - Saliva's "Ladies and Gentleman" from their new album.

If you're into rock maybe you could listen to that song. Hmm? That song is not bad. I like their song "Always" from their previous album that's released in 2002.

"Get up, get up... Dance on the celling... Get up, get up... Boy you must be dreaming... Rock on your saviour......" - Jimmy Eat World's "Big Casino".

I personally like that song. Their new single. You should listen to it. "Pain" is one of their songs that I like from their previous album "Futures" and that song is also featured in Tony Hawk's Underground 2.

Whenever I play that game, and it's playing that song... I'm like "Yeah baby yeah!"

"It takes my pain away......"

Hmm... There a few bands which has the same song title - "Pain". Let me see... Jimmy Eat World, Three Days Grace... Err? I can't think of anymore at the moment.

Hmm? Anyone? Hard-Fi? Heard of that band before? I like their song "Suburban Knights". I guess to the extend I put that as my MSN nickname?

"Hear them all singing... We're the ones that you've forgotten, but we will not be denied. Coming out of the shadows... Yeah, yeah we rock the satellites."

If anyone that likes pop, maybe you could listen to Darren Hayes' - "On The Verge Of Something New". I kind of like that song. Or... The Click Five - "Jenny".

Any Enrique fans? Enrique Iglesias new album songs aren't that bad. My favourite song would have to be "On Top Of You". I like his single - "Do You Know (The Ping Pong Song)" and of course, his second single - "Somebody's Me".

For anything else... Listen to Subsonica or Rammstein! Italian band and german band. Simply love them.

Any recommendations? I'd love to listen to different genre or even different language songs.

Stars when you shine
You know how I feel
Scent of the pine
You know how
I feel
Yeah freedom is mine
And I know how I feel
It's a new
dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me...
And I'm feeling good

That's one of my favourite songs. Can anyone guess what song is that?

"FEELING GOOD" and what version would that be? JAZZ! I feel the Rock one by Muse isn't as nice as Michael Buble's one.

Michael Buble is still the best. Gosh. Such a nice voice he has. He makes me melt!

...And you know what?

If I don't end now, I won't be feeling good.

And so... It'll be a new dawn and a new day.
Peace out~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:54:00 am♠

Sunday, September 16, 2007

I am tongue-tied when it comes to decisions. Tennis has that technology to see if the ball is out or in. If only football has that goal-line technology!

Hmm... They are working on it at the moment and hopefully by next year it'll be ready.

However, the referee and the assistant referee, linesmen and what have you has to get their the decisions right. It can be frustrating if they didn't do their job proper.

Oh well... After all, they are all humans and humans make mistakes. However, don't they learn from it??

How many times do you see them making the same mistakes over and over again? I lost count of it definitely as it's countless!

Ok, I don't want to talk about it. I'm just wasting my energy.

It's 5.30AM and yes, I am awake. My my my. Owl? Well, that's what my good friend Fiqah calls me.

Hmm... Let me see how many contacts are online at the moment. Umm... Not much. 19 contacts are online currently - 456 offline.

Currently, I'm just blogging! Yes, as you can see these words and... I'm just surfing the net only. Nothing much at the moment. Oh wait. Having one conversation too. Instant messaging (MSN) of course!

Time flies very fast and soon... It'll be holidays! Holidays are great. A time for you to de-stress yourself and relax. However, I'll be having more drama lessons than usual!

About an average of thrice a week. Alright, looking on the bright side... My drama lessons were postponed and it'll resume on the 28th of September.

Tiring? Hmm... Well, it can be at times. However, there's fun too. I understand why we have to have practice thrice a week as our production will be in November.

Oh boy... Time sure do flies very fast huh?

I can't believe it's September and next month - I'll be 17!

I miss those days and those memories. The friends that I made, the experience that I've encountered, the memories that makes me smile and all sort of things that will add a smile to my face.

Then again, of course they'll be obstacles and things like that. Things that makes me sad, angry, upset, disappointed... Well, what have you.

Those are simply sour memories. Tell me who in this planet doesn't have those? We're humans and humans have emotions. Humans have feelings. Please respect others.

I always try to do so and I know how it feels like being hurt or feeling like a loser. Definitely not a nice feeling and those memories? Definitely you would want to banish them as it brings you down.

Umm... But hey! Look on the brighter side. Think of the people that cares for you and the things that makes you smile. The things or people that makes you feel special.

It sure is nice to be pampered. I have to admit that I love being pampered. However, that doesn't mean I'm a spoilt brat or anything like that. I'm not!

In fact, I try to be quite down-to-earth most of the time. I'm not too overly demanding or anything like that.

I consider myself as a sensible person. I usually try to understand how one feels and if they're down, I always tell myself to try to make a point to console them. If I'm unable to, my ears are always ready.

I'm willing to listen as I feel that everyone needs someone to listen to them and to speak your mind out, I just feel it eases.

However, the part that saddens me at times is that I know some people doesn't want to listen to what I have to say even though they claimed that they are listening.

Well... You could sense it. It does saddens me but I tell myself to be patient and look at those people who listens and cares for you.

I mean... Why bother about such people? I dislike being taken advantage. It's like I feel I'm being used! That's not right. I feel that we should be fair.

Well... Advantage is a good thing as it's able to help us. However, we have to be fair. Whatever happened to the win-win situation thing? What's this? Win-lose? Sometimes people are just so self-centered.

You have to be fair. Ok, some might disagree but I just feel that way. Two can play the same game if you want to play that kind of "dirty" games. "Dirty" as in unfair.

If you want to play those games, fine! Be it then. I'll just play along and let's see who will get the last laugh.

Basically, I'm someone who is that "double standard" person.

In other words, if I'm fair - You have to be fair too. If I'm honest, you have to be honest too. Get the picture?

However, these days, people aren't thinking that way. All they do is to care about themselves first before anything else.

The thing that spoilts a person is greed. To be greedy isn't a nice thing. It kills that purity in a person!

I don't understand why people have to be greedy. Ok, I guess it's because of the power. They want to be in control.

Tsk tsk.

I just don't feel like respecting this kind of people. You are like their slaves! Umm... Ok, I didn't mean that way. What I mean is like... You are like nothing to them. Why? Simple, because of power.

When they have that power, they are entitled to do anything they desire.

Ok, sometimes you have to have someone to be in charge in certain situations but to be greedy? No way!

Well... I just hope that they are aware of their doings or rather - wrongdoings.

Whatever it is, I'm pretty sure that they are able to distinguish between right and wrong and comprehend their actions.

Sometimes things may seem complicated but actually, all it takes is just a simple logic and that's it.

Just one simple and rational logic, and reason.

What more can I say?

Hmm... Moving on now and this question keeps prompting me again.

WHAT IS LOVE?

Looking at my contacts, dear dear dear... A couple of them seems to be feeling that way. Feeling in love but what exactly is love?

Anyone? Definition please!

I wouldn't dare to say that if I don't mean it. Well, LOVE IS UNIVERSAL but to say "Oh! I love him/her! He's/She's mine... Love you dear", you know that kind of mushy stuff. Do they really know what they're saying?

I'm definitely not against it. I know how it feels like. I've went through that kind of experience and it's natural to have crushes and all but... I feel once you get older, you'll become wiser.

At the moment, I'm just someone who is - Whatever comes my way I deal with it. I don't want to think too much of it.

Enough is enough. A few sour memories and the worst feeling is to get hurt! Yeah... Oh that bleeding heart of mine. Even the plaster can't stop it from bleeding. It hurts badly and it sure do take time to heal.

Then again, it was in the past. I'm over it even though it was a shot through my heart.

Anyway, there are way better stuff than to think of it 24/7.

It's not right to do so. Well? That's how I feel. Feel free to disagree but that's just my opinion.

You're just hurting yourself if you do so. Why hurt yourself? Come on. Love yourself. Pamper yourself. Feel good about yourself and if things aren't going smoothly... Think of those people who cares for you and are always there for you no matter what.

People that like you for who you are as a person and not what you are.

People who likes you for what you are, are simply not worth your time. Ditch them! Spend your time with people who likes you for who you are because they are the ones that cares for you!

All I can say is that... If you feel it's the right time and you're pretty sure of what you're doing - Feel free to go ahead but if you're unsure of what you are doing, I suggest you take your time and reflect about it.

These days... As young as 11 years old - going steady? I feel that's too young!

Well, I have to rights to judge others but all these are just short term relationship which is not my cup of tea.

I'm someone who prefers long term and not short term.

Then again, I guess I shall leave this for you to judge and not go too detail.
All I can say is "Trust your heart, follow your dreams".

Oh yes, I just remembered that I borrowed Frank Lampard's autobiography book two days ago (Friday). It's a thick book but it seems interesting as he's one of my favourite Chelsea players. I miss him! He's a key player for Chelsea.

Actually, I almost forgot that I borrowed that book until I turn to my right. That's where I placed the book and I spotted it! Ahhh... Yes, it reminded me that I borrowed that book - "Totally Frank".

I read his "Super Frank" book. All I can say is... If you're a fan - go for it,if not - Ok, stay away. HAHA. Ok, how's that? Fair and square?

I've been trying to get my hands on his book - "Totally Frank" and great! I was just looking at the shelves and *tada* it was just in front of me.

Of course I quickly grabbed it! I went to check it out the other time on the National Library website, it was on-loan!

Umm... I guess I'm lucky. *grins*

"I should feel so lucky, lucky lucky lucky......" - Kylie Minogue's song.

Alright, I'm off now.
Peace out~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠6:19:00 am♠

Friday, September 14, 2007

BREATHE!

FIRST OF ALL, I'd like to apologise to whoever who called my name earlier today in the library. I'm so sorry. Yes, I was kind of blur just now but I really can't remember who and I don't know who was the person who called me. I hope that person doesn't feel offended.

BREATHE! Ok, it sounded as if I was breathless or I was in some kind of situation where I needed oxygen.

Whatever it is. I AM HERE! YES, it's been about a week and half since I last updated. My my my. I don't have much time to blog I guess?

I guess I can consider myself lucky and for whatever reasons they are... Think of god because he's the greatest.

I had Digital Communications Phase Test yesterday and I almost couldn't finish! Yes, I may be slow but I know where were the test points. However, those wires and equipment weren't kind to me!

One thing for sure was... It was a close shave. I managed to somehow get to the finish line but I guess it was a little bit of a luck along the way.

Anyway, I will be concentrating for my upcoming IT Essentials test which will be on the 19th! Very soon huh?

Well... So far for IT Essentials, things weren't too bad. I'll be revising pretty soon and I guess I've to have some confidence that it'll be alright.

I hate it when I start to panic or feel pressurised as I wouldn't be able to think straight and I always have this fear - WHAT IF IT GOES WRONG?

Then again, I guess in whatever things we do, there are always the PROs and the CONs. Yes - advantages and disadvantages. I guess it's all up to you to decide. The choice is in your hands to make that wise decision.

Anyway, moving on now and lately, I've been actually trying to modify my blog skin then again, I don't have any theme at the moment. My mind is blank currently. When I have some inspiration or ideas, I'll definitely try my best to finish it up.

I can't believe it's almost mid-September! Time flies very fast. Gosh. I'll be 17 years old in about THREE WEEKS TIME!

That actually isn't a good thing. It means you're getting older and older each year! Boohoo! I want to be young for as long as possible. Being young is better than being old. When you're older, you have more responsibilities. YOU ARE LIKE A ROLE MODEL FOR ALL.

What can I say after all? It's the circle of life!

Looking back at the things this year... It wasn't really that bad. Sure, life is like a rollercoaster ride whereby it's up and down at times. However, look on the bright side.

I remember when I first came to ITE in January, I didn't really know anyone from my class. I only know Wan was from the same primary school as me but I never talk to him.

Well... As time flies... Hmm? Well... HAHA. I don't want to say. Actually, I intend to blog about it but I guess not this time. I'll wait till the end of the year and let's see how things change.

Hmm... Few days ago, I watched a classic Chelsea match on Goal TV 2 (Channel 108) of Starhub Digital Cable.

Just because Roman Abramovich bought Chelsea in 2003 - Some people think that Chelsea are just a team of stars and money. That's so wrong.

Some even think I support them because of that. Actually, I wasn't of a hardcore fan back then. I was just a supporter but I don't take things too serious. I used to support Manchester United because of David Beckham (back then when I still like him very much).

Then it was Liverpool because of Michael Owen but things were a little different after that. In fact, when Michael Owen left Liverpool for Real Madrid, I was kind of sad. I didn't like the idea of him going to Real Madrid.

I didn't support any team after that. I was a neutral. In fact, I wasn't so into football back then (though like what I mentioned above, however I'm not like the person I am today!).

I didn't find it interesting back then. I guess I had some influence from my dad. My dad used to love football and it's his entertainment. The funny thing is that... When he stopped watching football, that's when I sort of got a little interested in it and now... Well? I don't have to say - You should know the answer.

It was kind of funny to how I could end up liking Chelsea. It started with Frank Lampard. He caught my eye in Euro 2004 but at that time, I like Michael Owen more.

Ok, I still do like Michael Owen. Yes - Boy wonder. He's really good but he's an injury-prone player. However, you cannot take anything away from him.

40 GOALS FOR ENGLAND! Look at his record and you'll go "WOW".

Well, maybe some might argue that I'm not a loyal supporter for club but you can't blame me right? I mean, back then I wasn't totally into footie but my dad was and now, it's the opposite.

(Oh, my dad supports those two teams. HAHA. So... What are you going to say? I guess I'm going to say my dad influence me? *grins*)

Whatever it is, one thing is certain and that is I really do like the Chelsea squad. People can go on saying because of their money, the players and all sorts of things.

Manchester United and Liverpool are two good clubs but my heart is sticking to Chelsea and I'm quite pleased with it.

I only started watching the English Premier League (now known as Barclays Premier League) two to three years ago. However, team ENGLAND has always been my favourite since 2002. I still support England and will continue to do so.

I remember watching the 2002 FIFA World Cup with my dad. I wasn't so into football but if it's England, I will watch because it's the team that I like.

Michael Owen is my favourite and my dad's favourite too! I remember my dad watching the match and whenever Michael Owen gets the ball, he'll go - "Number 10! Go go go! Number 10!"

Hmm? Ok, so I guess I was influence by my dad.

Michael Owen, David Beckham, Emile Heskey - They were my favourite players in the 2002 World Cup.

Oh yes, not forgetting my brother (a Manchester United fan; Boo! *Oops*) idolise David Bechkam. He likes him so much and he wished he was him!

Anyway... Before I end this entry,I just want to make a point to prove people wrong about Chelsea. Before Roman Abramovich bought Chelsea - Chelsea won a few trophies. Sure, they didn't win the Premiership but at least there is something to show for.

Here are some pictures and these players are with class!

Remember him?

[ He may be short but he's good! ]

[ He scored a goal in the FA Cup finals just 42 seconds! ]

[ Not forgetting - Player-manager! ]

So do you know who is who?

THE FIRST TWO: - Gianfranco Zola (Can say one of my favourite Chelsea players)

THE THIRD ONE: - Roberto di Matteo

LAST BUT NOT LEAST: - Gianluca Vialli (During his time,Chelsea won several trophies. Such as - Cup Winners' Cup, [Two] FA Cup,Community Shield,Super Cup)

...AND WHAT DO THEY HAVE IN COMMON? THEY ARE ALL ITALIAN!

Alright, I shall end here for now.

I WILL UPDATE WHEN I'M FREE!~

Peace out~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:55:00 pm♠

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Life is like a rollercoaster ride. Sometimes it's up, sometimes it's down.

I hate it when it's down and love it when it's up but what can I say after all? This is life. Live with it. However, at times I'm just sick and tired of it. I feel so drained and lost.

Then again, I'm unsure of what or how I feel at times and I'm really sorry for how I reacted at times. If I was a little emotional or not the usual, I'm sorry for the way I acted.

I just couldn't help it at times and sometimes I don't quite realise it until I start to reflect on my actions.

Hmm... Maybe because the anger and sadness gets the better of me. I really can't stand how people could just anyhow judge a person without even knowing the person better.

It's really frustrating and I am upset with that. It has been years that I have to endure and at times, I just couldn't take it anymore. I'm sick of it.

Try considering other people's feelings for once. Those people just don't care. They're really self-centered people. Egoist!

The sad thing is that sometimes people that you know change and who knows that some would be against you? I find that as a surprise. It's a pity that people change. If they change for the better - As in improving themselves to be a better person, it's alright but it's a sickening sight to see them change for the bad.

I am just dumbfounded about it.

People can talk bad about me but I never had that thought of mixing around with bad companies nor do I intend to become rebellious.

I admit that I may be loud and playful. Yes, I know I like to talk but to judge a person that way isn't right.

I can be quiet if I want to or serious. I just depends on the situation itself. If you can't even try to understand me, I think I should just forget about everything and all the memories we had together in the past.

I always treasure my friends and I cherish those moment and memories but like I said, I'm really upset that people change and forget about those happy moments and for all you know, they're against you. That hurts me.

Like "WOW" - What a crazy world. Tsk. So many hypocrites. Maybe that's why I find it hard to trust people till today.

I remember in secondary school whereby Xiaoqiang (Angie) has to bear with me at times when I get kind of emotional or when I tend to get irritated easily. Of course I did apologised to her and I'm really thankful to have a friend like her as she understands.

Of course there are times whereby she's not in the mood and all and as a friend... If she can understand me, I should understand her too and so, I'm cool with it. I really have no regrets knowing her.

We simply love talking nonsense. Mind us, as we tend to laugh like mad at times but hey, laughter is good.

Well... I'm feeling better now. I just don't know what I'm feeling these few days. There's like so many things in mind and sometimes I wonder if I do think too much. A friend of mine told me that yesterday and I kept thinking about it if what he said was true.

Hmm? I guess I shouldn't be thinking too much.

OH YES, I WANT TO APOLOGISE TO MY TWO FRIENDS FOR TURNING THEM DOWN. (Yes, you and you... You know who you are.)

Things were a little unexpected I guess. When I reached home I got to know that I had to attend to something and that really was unexpected. That's why I won't dare to give a definite answer as I fear that such things would happened.

It happened before and that's why I didn't want to give a definite answer as I fear if such situation would happened again and I didn't want to disappoint them later on.

It may be a little disappointing as I had to turn them down but I'm really sorry about it.

Seriously, it was all unexpected. When I reached home, I was told that I had to attend to something and after which, my dad took the family out for dinner. That was also unexpected.

Wouldn't it better if only I had sixth sense? Hmm... I think it'll be pretty interesting if I have that. Oh well... What a wishful thought.

Anyway, I sort of feel bad about the decision I had to make. I hope they understand my situation. I actually consider of going at first. If not, why would I ask what time?

Then again, I wasn't sure. I am afraid that I would disappoint my friends again as I had it the past because of unexpected situation.

ONCE AGAIN, I'M SORRY THAT I HAVE TO TURN YOU GUYS DOWN AGAIN.

I wonder how or what can I make it up to them.
(If the two of you are reading this, I hope you accept my apology.)

I'm a little bloated. I reached home at about 10.45pm. Thank goodness I brought my jacket with me just now if not I think I would have freeze and become an ICE CUBE!

OK, I won't be an ice cube but definitely I'll be freezing.

I'm feeling better now and I want to keep it this way. I don't intend to revert to what I was earlier on today. I don't know what's on my mind but definitely my mood was up and down. So many things in mind, I guess I worry too much.

Tsk. Stress affects you and what I mean is that... TOO MUCH STRESS AFFECTS YOUR EMOTION AND MOOD. Goodness me. That's not right.

I have been trying to reduce that and anger management, and time management do play a part.

Hmm? I do need more anger management. At times I tend to lose my cool but at times I can be to that extend of being so patient.

Oh well... Sheesh.

Anyway, time flies very fast. I can't believe next week on the 13th of September will be the start of fasting month! It's really fast and I just couldn't believe it myself.

I'm not a perfect person but I always try my very best to do things right. Then again, I do messed up at times and I feel like a loser for that.

What a failure. That thought comes to mind but there's this side of me so determine to get things done right. However, I am just a mere ordinary person and I have no special powers so at times I do feel down and I get so upset for not being able to get it right.

I feel like a fool. Well... At least a fool doesn't harm anyone and never in my life I have any intention to hurt anyone. I feel that's bad to hurt another person. Hmm... Unless the person hurt you, that would be a whole lot of different story.

Sorry may just be a word
Sorry may just be a five letter word
Sorry may seem to be the hardest word
Sorry may seem too simple
Sorry may just be for the sake of it

For whatever that comes out from me
For whatever you think it might be
For whatever you may think of me
I say what I mean
I say how I feel
I say it from the bottom of my heart

Even if it's hard to believe
Even if it's just a five letter word
All I want you to know
All I want you to understand is that...
I am an ordinary human being
A fool
A person who makes mistakes
All I want to say is sorry

Sorry for all the things that I've done
Sorry for all the trouble that I caused
Sorry for everything and anything that I've said before...

That's to everyone I know. I just don't want to offend anyone.

I have to admit that I make a lot of mistakes in the past and I messed things up. I hope with that, you'll try to understand me and forgive me for what I've done in the past. It's complicated at times.

I don't need anything for anyone. What I feel is important are three things - To understand, respecting others and honesty.

Oh it just feels good to express how I really feel. It's like spilling the beans out. I just feel good letting it out. The reason why I said honesty is that, some people aren't honest and like what I've mentioned above - Hypocrites.

I have been sincere and honest in whatever I do and whatever I say but to know someone and that someone you somehow thought you could trust just turn it's back on you. How do you feel about it? It upsets me.

I know I may be a little fragile to certain situations. Call that sensitive if you want but you know what? Enough is enough.

I just feel that nobody should get hurt or feel hurt. WE as humans have the rights to be happy and not sad but that's how life is and I really feel like slapping those people who cause trouble to others. Shame on you!

Well... Alright, I'm off now.

Peace out~

LOVE+PEACE+HARMONY
[ Fight for your rights and never let anyone take advantage of you~ ]

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:57:00 pm♠