Sheesh. Time flies! Goodness me. *sigh* Sometimes I wish it's slower because it's nice and fun when you're having fun. Well? It wouldn't be nice if you're not having a good time. Hmm... I guess you have to cherish whatever you have and always try to make everyday a memorable one.Seriously,I feel this year is quite a memorable one. I'm loving it. A recap of what's happening during the mid-month of August to the end of August.


On the 18th of August,Saturday I went to catch "Rush Hour 3" with Fiqah. Well? "Someone" didn't inform that he wasn't coming. Oh well... It doesn't matter. In fact,I've already planned to catch it even before the movie was release.


I definitely enjoy the movie and it's worth the money I guess. Simply had a good time.


Then there's the not-so-good part. The part whereby Fiqah had to go off after the movie. That day I was able to go off at 7pm and Fiqah had to go off as she was going to have dinner with her family.


I wanted to stay longer till 7pm. Well? My mum already approves me and I didn't have anything either. Besides, that week was quite a busy week and the only days that I'm free are weekends!

I took my phone and decided to look at my phone book to see who was available. Then there it was... A name came to my mind and so I decided to send a text message to that person. I don't why or how but it sort of came naturally to me.

...So who exactly is this "person"?

HIS NAME IS... "R&B Boy". Ok, that's his nickname. His name is... Bernie.

I was quite pleased to have someone to accompany me and it somehow felt good but don't get the wrong idea. He's such a nice friend. Oh yes - THANK YOU TO HIM.

Met him at about 5.45pm or so. We walked around Plaza Singapura. After awhile, we got a little tired and decided to have our dinner.

Oh boy. It sure was crowded. It was a hard time for us to look for a table. Eventually, we found but it took us quite a while. While eating, we met a schoolmate. Well? Basically, Bernie knows her so they had a conversation. I've seen her before in school. Just that I've never spoken to her before.
Oh well...

Anyway,after dinner, we went to do some window-shopping. Look around and see if anything catches our attention or anything like that but well, not much things caught our attention.

At about 7.10pm we decided to go off.

Took the train back to City Hall then crossover to the other platform to take the train that's heading to Pasir Ris.

The train was crowded. Oh dear. I don't really like crowded trains. Oh well? We just board the train. We talk till we reached Pasir Ris.

I must say that I have to wait for the bus for like 10 to 15 minutes! Boohoo!

Hmm? At least I have company to talk to. HAHA.

I reached home at about 8.05pm or so. My my my. I feel tired. I was sort of lazy to do anything. I just sit down in the living room and watched television for about an hour before I move my butt elsewhere.

Oh well... Too much walking? Hmm... I wonder.

Well, I love that weekend because on the following day - Sunday (19th August 2007), my drama group went to watch "The King and I: Musical".

It wasn't that bad. However, there were a few musical scene whereby I feel like dozing off. Too much musical makes me want to sleep. Oops.

Well? It wasn't my first musical. Hmm? That was the second musical play that I went to watch. The first was "The Phantom Cat". THE PHANTOM CAT - Was kind of interesting but the way they speak aren't clear and I was having a hard time trying to understand. The costumes were nice and interesting. However, the way they speak weren't clear and that's a boo-boo.

I was somehow neutral about it. If it was perfect, I may have enjoyed it and I may have go on and say "MARVELLOUS" but I think I would just give a two and half stars for that.

Alright, back to the topic.

Well... There was a 15 to 20 minutes intermission. I managed to take a picture with Fiqah during the intermission. The play was kind of interesting. I did enjoy some parts but there were parts (Like I've mentioned before; musical parts) were a little long and it sort of makes me want to fall asleep.
Nevertheless, it was somehow amusing and there were parts that I laughed out loud.

After the play, some of us decided to go for dinner, whereas some of them decided to go home.

Fiqah wants to eat Burger King but this time, my decision wasn't the same as her. I wanted to eat Long John Silver.

Fiqah, Shu Min, Hafisa, Daniel, Mr Tony and a few others (I actually can't remember) ate Burger King.

As for me... Chloe's with me! Table for TWO weekend ay?

Well... I actually didn't realise the rest were behind me. They were sitting at the table behind me. Meaning to say that Chloe was facing them as my back faces them.

Oh well... I simply love Long John Silver. I decided to have an add-on. I actually wanted Potato salad but it was out of stock.

Sheesh. Oh well... I got some other stuff. Errr? What's that you call? Potato... Err? I can't remember what you call that.

Anyway, I was definitely enjoying my food.

Oh boy. The queue was long! I was somehow a little frustrated but decided to keep my cool. After a bit of patience,I'm pleased that the other counter is open!

While eating, Fiqah, Daniel and Shu Min came over to see us. They were shocked to see us eating as they had finished their food! Boohoo. Heck it. I just want to enjoy my food and hey, you can't blame us as there was only one counter before that!

After we finished eating, we came over to Burger King to check them out. Sat down a while before Fiqah and I decided to make a move.

I reached home at about 8pm. Coincidence huh? HAHA. Just like the previous night.

Guess what? About an hour later, my dad decided to call for delivery. Guess what? KFC!

My my my. If I had known that my dad would call for delivery, I wouldn't have ate a lot at Long John Silver.

Then again, how can you resist delicious food? Ummm.... Yummy!

It simply turns me on with a "yummy" to it.

I guess it was FOOD FEAST weekend. In fact, a weekend to remember.

Then it was Monday. Boohoo. Monday blues? Hmm... Nothing much. Just the usual.

However, I have to say that, that week onwards it's test test test. In fact, I'll be having test next week and the week after next!

Gosh. I really don't know what to say. I have been quite drained this year. The last time I feel really really drained was last year before my N levels. I dislike that feeling. I'm actually trying my best to reduce the level of stress.

Stress causes me to react at times. I definitely don't want to be like that because at times I just couldn't quite control my temper. Boohoo! That's bad.

I've been trying my best to control since last year or so but to no avail, I just can't get the hang of it. HOWEVER, I think it's a little better than last year.

At least I don't get too angry too often. Unlike in the past.

I hate being angry. I mean... Who likes being angry? I'm sure everyone wants to be happy.

Well... In fact, lately I've been having a lot of mixed feelings. I really don't know what I'm feeling at times. Sometimes I feel happy, sometimes I feel sad and angry.

The anger and sadness is still in there somehow and I can't figure out why.

I usually try to look on the brighter side but at times, I feel I've been weaken. I don't know how long I'm able to go on.

At times I just feel that I really need someone to console me. Ok, maybe to some it sounds like I'm a baby who needs someone to pamper but hey, we need that once in a while.

Sometimes I just don't know how to express myself. It's like, at times I feel that nobody can understand you. People are always judging you and making stupid remarks or comments but they just don't try to make an effort to try understand you.

That's really sad but hey, this is reality and life's like that.

Sheesh. I just don't know what to say. I'm just speechless to it. I understand that everyone's different and everyone has their weakness and their strength. However, I tell myself that I have to try to understand others and try to do my very best to help them whenever possible.

I guess that's why sometimes I feel that I have to try my best to console a friend. I don't know but I'm just that type of person.

If I can't do anything about it, all I can do is to be their listening ear. I guess that's the only way I could help if there aren't anymore ways to help.

I just feel that even by listening, it somehow helps. It may not be big but at least it shows that a friend cares and bothers.

There are times whereby I may throw my temper at certain friends. I'm very sorry if that happened. I just couldn't control at times.

Sometimes too many things are in my head and there are things that I fear of. It's just that - Well? Somehow it's mixed feelings again. I don't know what's in my mind or what am I thinking.

It's simply hard to describe what I'm feeling but at the end of the day, I didn't mean to react that way. I know if I'm at the side of me, I would be seen as "petty" or "serious freak".

There were some people calling me that but if you know me better, I'm actually not that type that you think.

However, I am still trying my best to open up. I am still quite shy, just that many would disagree with me on this but fact is, I am. There are certain things whereby I still hold back and not open up freely as I would want to.

People may then think I'm this and that. Oh well... The usual I guess?

I get irritated at that at times as I find it ridiculous. Like how can you just judge people??

YOU HAVE TO KNOW THE PERSON BETTER BEFORE MAKING STUPID JUDGEMENT.

I wouldn't say I'm very good nor would I say I'm very bad. I guess I'm somewhere in the middle.

As a human being, we all make mistakes. I make mistakes and sometimes I don't realise my mistakes until I reflect or until someone tells me. However, I still have a heart and I still have feelings. I have emotions too.

It's really hard to say at times. It's hard to describe certain situations. Life isn't that easy after all. It takes hardwork! Hardwork and determination.

I am constantly trying to improve myself as a person but sometimes I wonder... How long must I go on like this?

You know there are at times I feel like a failure and that's where I start to go a little emotional. It just comes to me naturally.

It reminds me of how silly and how much of a failure I am. Sometimes I wonder... WHY?

Why do I lose out? You know, it's like the people who are those rebellious type seems to be better than me. It saddens me. Am I that bad? I consider myself as good.

Why do I say that? Despite my temper, I don't think I'm really so bad. I usually try to understand others. I usually lend my listening ears and I have a heart but... The thing is WHY AM I A FAILURE?
Can anyone tell me what do they have and I don't? I am kind of playful. I like to joke and laugh and I just want to be a happy person. I mean, it's your choice.

However,the thing that saddens me is... THAT KIND OF SITUATION.

I lose out twice. I feel like a fool. Whenever I like a person, the person that I know would somehow go steady with the person that I like.

*Sigh* ...And it's like that person knows that I like that person.

Yes, it happened twice and that's why I've always been thinking... Why am I a failure in this department?

I just can't express how I feel towards the person that I like. It's like only my good friends would know how I really feel and only my heart knows.

It's pointless as the person that I like would never understand how I feel.

Well, it's in the past already. However, at times it haunts me.

I guess that's why this year I didn't even want to think of it. In fact, I'm afraid.

I am afraid of getting hurt again. That feeling is just so unpleasant. I really envy those people who can get over it fast.

The thing is... I am someone who finds it hard. If I do like a person very much, I can like that person for a very long time and the longest was about five years. I know it sounds crazy but I just can't help it.

Oh well... It's over and it's in the past.

Then again, I don't know how would I go on like this. I really am still afraid of it. Recently I met a few friends of mine and they were asking me if I was attached.

They thought I was but I told them - No.

They were shocked as they were already but well? It doesn't matters me. They were shocked to hear that answer from me and were wondering why. They told me this "Really? ...But you're not a bad person".

I just told them off - "I have no time for this" and smiled. Actually, I then had some mixed feelings.

I just don't want to think about it. If I do feel a little I would always tell myself NO and yes, that's what I did. I kept reminding myself - No,I can't.

Some think it's a torture but I just don't want to be hurt.

Enough is enough. It took me quite a while to heal.

Oh well... Let's not talk about it.

Well,well well... Life is like a rollercoaster ride. Sometimes it's up,sometimes it's down.

Whatever it is, life has to go on and we have to move on. I just don't wish to grow up so soon as they'll be more responsibilities and I'm worried.

I fear that I can't cope with it. I really want to take things as it is and not rush. No point rushing.
Like they say... "Slow and steady wins the race".

Alright, I'm off now.

Peace out~