Test,test and more test. It's driving me nuts but well? I have to endure. As you can see,I haven't been updating frequently during the month of May and this entry may be my last entry for this month.
*sigh* My own computer is still down. I sort of pestered my dad to get me a new computer. It's frustrating as I'm like able to use the computer every once a while. Maybe like a few times per week.
Boo! I'm like so used to being online and using the computer almost EVERYDAY. Well? I'm still able to survive. That's one thing for sure though in the past to me not using the computer for a day is like I've done something wrong or I've lost a battle.
It sure do sound stupid but seriously,I didn't thought that I would be able to "survive" without using the computer for a few days or so. To me back then it seems like a torture.
Ok,that was stupid but hey,that's fact. Hmm... Then again,it was back then so it's in the past,not present.
I'm at the final lap now. It's for me to choose and for me to pick. In other words,everything is in my hands now. In the past few weeks,I had projects to do and goodness,it sure was stressful somehow as I've to like always think about what to do,what's next,how am I going to complete it and all those.
I'm simply glad that I've completed those projects if not it'll be a torture to me as my final examinations will be like next week! I've recently completed my Engineering Essentials project and today,I finished my Visual Basic project. I'm just so glad. This feeling of relieved is definitely a good one.
Do you know how pain it is if I didn't do well?
It feels like I'm a failure. Whatever it is,I have to force myself to be hardworking and just give it my all. It's just another extra mile so why not just give it my best shot?
If I were to do that,who knows I'll get my reward? Just exactly what is my reward? Simple. Getting good Grade Point Average (GPA).
It's at the top of my list as I really want to do well. However,I haven't been at my best serious form yet for this year and that's just very disappointing.
Throughout the year of last year,I was almost excellent I guess. Why do I say almost instead of "definitely" or "100 percent"? The answer is very simple as I didn't do well for my mid-year examination last year.
That was the worst point in my secondary school years. I got position number 11 and people started laughing at me.
Hell yeah. That was the worst point in my secondary school life. People started laughing and started believing they are better than me.
Mocked me but what can I say? If you don't work hard or you lose focus,things won't go your way. Then again,to think they are better than me?
Look at it this way. For the past years I've always been better than them and my position is in the top five position. I'm not bragging,I'm just stating fact. However,I managed to regain focus and make them shut by getting second for N levels.
It's just so hard to convience others. Sometimes I just feel that this world is never fair because of such humans. God is fair but humans are never fair as there are greedy people existing in this world. That alone,you can't change it.
Sometimes I really wonder why do they have to be greedy. Basically,it's all about the power. Why can't they just leave that alone for a while and just think of positive things that could make a difference in this world?
Can't they just like sit back and relax and not think about EVIL THOUGHTS or to be jealous?
It's sickening but what can I say? Life's like that. Sometimes people just don't appreciate you and they don't acknowledge you. It's really sad and I've encountered that several times.
No matter how good you are yet at times people just don't recognise that value of yours. It could bring you down somehow but look at it this way,other people will somehow recognise that someday.
I just got nothing to say as we're all humans and humans are very hard to convience.
Oh well...
I just don't want to say anymore. It's for you to decide then.
Alright,I've to go now.
Peace to you,peace to everyone.
Peace out~
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠9:29:00 pm♠
Friday, May 18, 2007
Back back back! Yes I'm back typing this entry of course and of course updating my blog. It's been a week or so since I last updated it.
I really haven't have much time and also,my room computer is down and I've to use either the one in the living room or the one at the other room. For now,I'm currently use the one in the other room.
It's been a week full of things and events. I have projects and oh boy,I can tell you I'm feeling kind of stressed out this week. Frankly speaking my eyes are always tired and I too feel tired.
However,there's this little bitsy of energy left in me and somehow it may be my "power boaster" that keeps me at a certain level. What I mean is... It keeps me hanging at a certain energy level whereby I could still be hyper.
My Engineering Essentials test is this Monday. Gosh,I finally remember! Oh boy~ Meaning that I have to study!!! Arghhhhh!! I almost forgot about it actually. Phew!~ Thankfully I remembered.
My Engineering Essentials (EES) project is due two weeks from now if not wrong and I'm almost done. Well? 85% done? Can I say that? Hmm... Well?
Anyway,I still have my Visual Basic project to do and I'm doing trivia! FOOTBALL TRIVIA!
I want to make it interesting whereby you have a number of questions to answer and they are in different categories. For example: "Premier League","The FA Cup/League Cup", "UEFA Champions League".
Click on any of the button and it'll direct you to the page and have fun!
I'm still considering and thinking how to put a page whereby it could display how many questions you've answered correctly and how long you took to do. I'm still thinking if I should include that and if I am considering it,how do I go about doing it?
That's the question that's stuck in my mind now. Definitely if you're a professional,this little bit of thing doesn't bothers you at all but the thing is - I'm still a beginner who is still [constantly] learning it.
Maybe if you were to talk about other applications maybe I would be better and much comfortable with it as I'm used to it. In other words,mastered the application and knows how the application works.
Oh well... Yawns!
Yes I'm yawning. It's a really good weather at the moment. A time for you to sleep actually. It's chilly and I didn't even switch on the fan! It's windy and thank goodness,I'm wearing long-sleeves.
Hmm... Currently I'm just listening to music - "Thanks For The Memories"; Fallout Boy,surfing the net,typing this of course! and... chatting.
I'm a little addicted to the song "Thanks For The Memories". I like catchy songs actually.
Anyway,to sum it up - I think my weekdays aren't that bad. Just that I feel a little stressed up at times but I think today isn't stressful.
I didn't have Sports and Wellness today. Hmm... Somehow missed not playing football BUT the good thing was we got to go home early! Yeah~ So... What do you think? Good or bad? Hmm...... Well? I don't think it's bad.
I reached home at noon. Ate McDonald's Double Fillet O' Fish Meal for lunch and yum yum! That's nice. Used the computer for a while before going down with my mother to West Plaza to buy lunch for my brother. After that,I went to do some stuff and for all you know - I did get some rest.
What I mean is... I felt asleep for like five to ten minutes before my mother woke me up to say it's 3pm. Got up and went to the toliet straight to take a shower. Had a quick shower then went to change and tada! I'm ready!
Wore my 3/4 brown pants,U2 (Now known as G2000 blu) long-sleeves layered with G2000 blu yellow tee. My yellow tee over the white long-sleeves tee. I haven't been layering for quite awhile and recently I've been layering it and I think it's cool.
With the right colour and right combination - It'll look great!~ *grins*
I definitely have to have my watch. For now,I'm simply in love with my white Adidas watch. It feels good to know that not only it's the new model but also not so many people has the same watch. So far I've only seen a handful of them only and guess what? They're all boys! It's like I'm the only girl to wear it. Well? Based on what I've seen. So far I haven't seen any girl wearing the same watch as me - yet.
"...Because You Are Loved. Don't give up,it's just the world that you have... When you're lost inside out,I'll be there to find you."
Josh Groban's "You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)". That song is simply nice. It's a really nice song.
Cranberries',Dolores O'Riodan has a solo album and her first single "Ordinary Day" is also nice. Got to listen to that song.
Alright back to what I was typing before these above. Hmm... Oh yes,after that I left home for drama. I was actually kind of tired but as usual whenever I attend drama lesson it sort of makes me not think of that tiredness too much. Instead it sort of makes me happy and ease at times.
Lesson ended at about 6.30pm or so. Walked to Simei MRT station with Fiqah and when I was about to go up the escalator I bumped into Faris. The last time I saw him was during Speech Day which was like last month.
Coincidentally,the people that attended Speech Day last month all received the Scholarship including myself. Funny thing was I think I received earlier than my classmates.
Well? I'm sure they are happy too. $1200 is a lot of money and it should be use wisely. Well? Ok,I did pampered myself with some things to pamper me. Hopefully I'm able to continue the achievements that I've been achieving in the past years.
N level was one of my greatest achievement,though I am disappointed with my English as I didn't get 1. I got a 2 instead.
Boohoo!
Anyway,what's past is in the past and I'm quite proud to get 3 ONES. It isn't that bad after all.
Two , Four , One , One, One - 1 ungraded and that is for my Chinese. Though I still feel I could have gotten ONE for English as I've been getting Ones in the past.
Oh well... Let's look ahead!~ Who knows what the future holds?
Alright,as for now...
I'm off!~
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:55:00 pm♠
Monday, May 07, 2007
My first entry for the month of May. I'm back!~ It's been a week or so since I last updated my blog.
The Premiership is finally over and it's a cracker. Ok,it hasn't officially ended but Manchester United are 2006/2007 champions. That sucks but ok - They won. Congratulations but CHELSEA will bounce back and will be back next year - STRONGER and BETTER.
Though Manchester United won the title because of last night's match between Arsenal against Chelsea which ended with a draw,I still feel CHELSEA is a good team. Not just good but a strong team.
That's one of the reason why I like Chelsea. It's because of their determination and that never-say-die attitude. Despite all the injuries we still fought hard to get the results and guess what? Chelsea has the most cleansheet.
Some may argue our defence this season is rubbish. Well? Some might say that BUT look at the stats! Stats are evidence and yes - Chelsea has 21 cleansheets. The second best team to have 20 cleansheet is Liverpool.
Well? No matter what they say,I still like CHELSEA and will continue to support them. Some might argue and say they are not the prettiest to watch but we still get results. Ok,sometimes we maybe are but I still like them no matter what.
They played hard and fought very hard. Oh well... I am just so proud of them. They lost this time but their second which isn't that bad. We dominated in the past few years and we were by far the best team I have to say.
Ok - Some may complain why do I use "we". As a Chelsea fan I just prefer to use "we" as it refers to CHELSEA.
Oh well... Moving on now. A change of topic now.
Hmm... Today is the 7th of May. Gosh,it's really very fast. I can't believe time flies very fast. It's almost half of the year already! Arghhhh!!
Had Visual Basic test just now and oh boy it suck! I am going to fail as I can't remember how to go about doing it! Furthermore I didn't bring my thumbdrive. If only I had I could've browse my folders in the thumbdrive before the test so as to refresh my memory.
Boohoohoo... That's just so sad I guess? Let's not think about it.
Whatever it is,I AM GOING TO WORK HARD FOR THE NEXT ONE AND ALSO FOR MY VISUAL BASIC PHASE TEST. That's one thing for sure. Yes Diane,YOU HAVE TO.
Hmm? So far my day has been great today. Not too bad. Ok,I think I shouldn't say that I guess. I should say - It's been good!~
Had lots of fun with Amelia. Basically we laugh a lot and that felt good.
I'm not saying Fiqah is bad or whatsoever. HAHA. Don't get me wrong. She's a good friend too.
School starts at 8.30AM this morning. First lesson was P.I.E. It ended early today as the air-condition wasn't working. It was humid but I don't really feel that. Before that I was perspiring as it was really hot but after I settled down,it didn't feel like that anymore.
Lesson ended at 10AM instead of 11AM so it's like we got 2 hours break. Wow,that's so cool! It really was fantastic to have such breaks.
Had breakfash/lunch. Amelia and I ate Fish and Chips. Whereas Fiqah and Gladys ate Chicken Rice. We took our time to eat. We definitely were enjoying our food and taking our time to do so.
After which we had finished,we decided to go to the Library. Well? What other things can we do? I really don't know except head down to the library. Somewhere that's not hot.
Just browse through those books and simply spent our time trying to occupy ourselves. Well? It wasn't that bad. Well? At least to me.
After that we went for our next class which was - Visual Basic. Hmm? Like what I've mentioned above we had test.
After the test,it was Engineering Essentials class! Boohoo! Well? Ok,it wasn't that bad as it's theory. I think I somehow prefer theory to practical. It depends actually. Certain things I am more of a theory person,whereas sometimes I'm quite good at both.
For example,Elements of Office Administration - I'm good at both practical and theory. I usually score well for both and guess what? IT ISN'T MY FAVOURITE SUBJECT. IT'S A SUBJECT I SOMEHOW DISLIKE AT TIMES BECAUSE I FEEL PRESSURISED AT TIMES.
Hmm? Maybe sometimes being pressurised isn't bad. It somehow makes you feel good. Ok,maybe not good in a certain sense but what I mean is it makes you become a better person. Someone who is even more determined.
Alright,I guess I'll end here for now.
I've to go now.
Peace out~
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠10:32:00 pm♠