I know it's not an easy task but if you put in an effort to try there's difference. Sometimes I'm left sadden as when I think about the sad facts and other matters,it gets me all so in a turmoil.

I am tongue-tied,confused... Frustrated and maybe hurt in certain way. I'm just sadden by that fact that certain people think that I'm always a happy-go-lucky person.

Sheesh. IT'S FRUSTRATING BECAUSE THEY WOULDN'T KNOW WHEN YOU'RE SERIOUS.

Just because I always seem to be happy most of the times doesn't mean I'm all the time happy. Even if I'm sad,does anyone know? Can you tell it? I'm sure you can't quite sure tell as mostly I always seem to be happy.

It's really irritating to see that kind of reaction from others and it's annoying to face such matters. It simply sucks.

I'm still a human. Just that they haven't really seen my true colours yet. Well? Maybe not just yet or maybe some might have already.

Sigh. Yes,as it's bothering me at times.

Nevertheless,I kept telling myself to look on the bright side. It's so annoying to the extend I feel like shutting their mouths and shout [censored]. I simply hate the feeling of it. I guess I like being pampered. Call me a pampered girl but when I'm down or whatsoever,I usually keep it to myself. How long can I go on like this?

I just don't know how long it'll last that way as it's really tiring. I want to be pampered. I love being pampered. OF COURSE,there are times we have to put that aside and be tough but sometimes I really need that kind of treatment so as to make me feel better. It's a not so nice feeling when you're down and let's say nobody bothers. It simply hurts even more and that sucks.

I just feel that this world can be cruel at times. How cruel can it can? How much do we have to suffer? I simply don't understand. If only people could make an effort to try to do something to make this world a slightly better world.

No doubt that they'll always be evil people in this world but if the others that don't fall in that category does their part,at least this world would be a little better. Well? Then again,it's your point of view but if we could do something about it - Wouldn't it be better?

That way - You and me - Us - We all can have a better world and better shape to things. What I mean is... We don't have to have so much hate but more love. Wouldn't it be better? For the benefit of everyone.

Well,it's not as simple as we thought but if we try and put in some effort,who knows?

Oh well... Whatever.

This week has been alright for me. Didn't attend CCA today as I'm really really drained.

I'll be attending CCA next week. Yawns. Today is the first time that I'm really really soooooo late. I walk in at about 8.30AM. That's really really late.

Lesson starts at 8AM actually but gosh,I'm so late. Boohoo!

I am just so lazy today. I don't know what's in my mind. This week especially,I get irritated easily and as some might know I have short temper at times and yeah,I did have those. Boohoo!

That's really bad. Sometimes in life,you don't get what you wish for or what you want. If possible,I would always love to be happy all the time. The laughter and the joy - Ahhhh... It simply makes you feel good.

To be angry,I feel I'd turn into a monster. I just don't care about how I react or what I say. Well? That's actually very bad but I can't help it at times. That's why I never like being angry. I always hope that I'll be happy.

When I'm sad,I'll console myself to look on the brighter side. Though it may be hard at times but I'd try. Then again,with those people always thinking that you're happy-go-lucky type,it's hard to deal with it as they would not be able to know how you're really feeling and that's really sad.

That's just a sad fact and I'm sad about that.

Doesn't mean I'm a worry-free person. I have my fears and worries too. I'm just like any other human being. The thing that leaves me frustrated at times is that - I always try my very best to understand the other party and be their listener if I have to but they won't do the same. They just think like what I've mentioned - This and that.

Too annoying to the extend,sometimes I wish I'm a different species. A speices on my own. A unique one as sometimes I feel humans are hyprocrites.

Maybe to some might think I'm a psycho thinking that way but don't you get sick of people at times because of their such behaviours? How annoying can it get? Definitely - WAY TOO ANNOYING.

Erughhhhhh... To be honest,I definitely love concern from friends and hates it when nobody bothers. Know the truth? That's how I feel. It makes me feel good at times and yes,thank you to those friends who bothers and to those who doesn't - WHATEVER! As simple as that... If I have to be mean,I will and simple,next time I'll give them the same treatment.

Oh well... It doesn't matter.

Let god decide and heard of "retribution" / "karma"?
You got it. Well - That is if you know what I mean by that.

Alright,whatever~
Peace out.