You know she can be so sensitive at times. I wished I stayed in the living room longer watching the television. Once I switched off the television,there it goes. It changes my mood. I am so hurt but you know it's very sad,she'll never realise this. She is an egoist. Thinking about herself first before thinking of how others feel.
That's something she lacked of. She always think people are against her. I don't know why she has such negative thinking. We're two different people. You can go and cry but do you how painful it is? It is too painful for me to accept and sad to say there were some tears flowing down my eyes.
She doesn't know how I feel. It's very painful for me. As much as I love her,sometimes I feel she hurt me a lot but she don't realise it. We may look quite close and I can talk to her almost everything but of course there are some things I prefer keeping to myself.
The thing that I dislike about her is that... She's not too understanding at times. She don't quite like opinions - Well? Only at times but mostly,she always listen to what she feels or how she feels. It's very painful for me. She always say I don't understand her and all but the truth is that I'm always trying my very best to understand others!
THAT'S FACT. What she thinks about it is fiction. I know the person I am.
Can you feel that heart aching? It's terribly painful. She simply say things without thinking at times. Especially when she is all so emotional - She tends to hurt you the most. In fact,she never apologised. I don't remember her apologising for her mistake or anything like that.
It hurts even more like that as even if it's her mistake,she will never admit. She will blame it on the other party. The differences between her and me is that as much as I hate to apologise,somehow at times if I feel guilty or I feel I've made a mistake I'll apologise but not for her. She'll never.
Just how many times must she hurt me this way? I remember blogging in one of entries about the similar situation. Oh why,oh why... It wasn't a bad day for me but if I look at it as bad... Well? That's not right as I had my good moments earlier today so minus this piece of shit,it was good.
Again as I say,misunderstanding. Why can't she be a little more understanding with this kind of situation? At times she can be understanding but at times she is just plain dumb if you look at it that way. Often jump to conclusion and again as I say - This happens.
WHY CAN'T I HAVE PEACE? I really wish to avoid such things as it hurts me a lot. It's so pain when the person you love the most hurts you. I just don't understand why. I know it can be stressful to her at times but can't she just understand me? I wasn't against her earlier on,I just make my point of view of it and she thinks I'm against her.
Wow. It's so crazy. Welcome to the crazy world. Interesting. So many crazy people. Hey! Hello! Let us all be crazy! Woooooooow!
I simply don't understand why. Oh why,oh why... I try to understand but why can't the other party understand how I feel?! WHY! Tell me!
I am just so disappointed. I'm frustrated and at the same time I'm hurt - I'm sad.
Oh well... No use thinking about it. I bet she'll be writing about the event that happened earlier on which she lovesssssssssssss doing so by writing and blah blah blah. If she can write,I can write too. Which is better? Penning it or blogging it? You decide.
Oh well...
Hmm? I haven't been updating for quite awhile. I didn't have the time to do so. However,I have the time to do so now. Holidays are around the corner! It's so soon! Saturday onwards till next month 15th if not wrong.
Just finished my Engineering Essentials class test today. Gosh! Wasn't as difficult as I thought and the question that I asked Amelia and she asked Mr Peter came out! The exact same question!
Nice. He even taught how to do that question and oh boy! Who would expect it to come out? It came out and I'm surprised! The answer is C! I'm sure it's right. He went through that question before we went for our break. How nice. Lucky us.
I have to say that Amelia and I were quite lucky today. First of all,the question that I asked her and then she asked Mr Peter came out. Secondly,our locker isn't locked or taken by anyone. Followed by my umbrella having a little problem but nice. You know why? It doesn't seem to be a problem like what we thought it would be.
Oh yes,not forgetting that we were so close to getting a "fantastic" shower. There's this bus if I am not wrong that passed by and gosh! A huge puddle of water just splashed in front of us. Phew! Oh boy. That was very close. I wonder what if we walked a little faster and that happened. Eeeeewww! I can't imagine how it'll be like.
Hmm? Also,I didn't have to wait for long for the bus to arrive. Hmm? So yeah,it wasn't that bad as I expected. Well? Though whatever happened earlier on,let's look at it this way - It wasn't all so bad after all.
There were the good moments and the not so good moments. Which would you choose? Definitely you'll for the good moments. That's why I didn't even want to think of the girl whom I hate. I saw her earlier today while waiting for bus service number 359. Didn't expect to see her but well? Take her out of the picutre and the event that happened - Everything seems good.
The Engineering Essentials (EES) test wasn't that difficult. I would say it's a fair paper. I don't want to be over confident and say it's very easy. I believe I'm able to pass but am not sure if I am able to do well or not. That's the thing that worries me. I'm sure everyone can pass but the thing is,I don't know how well I'll fair.
I'm definitely more a theory person. Though I dislike memory work but it seems that if given a choice theory or practical,I am more of a theory person whereby I'm able to do better than practical.
Well? Actually it depends. I remember back then in secondary school for Science,I'm better in theory than practical. That's one of the reason why I managed to get A1 for Science. Just like for Home Economics. The reason why I got A1 is because of theory I believe. I'm not really a cook.
However,for subjects like Computer Applications and Elements of Office Administration - I'm able to do well in both theory and practical. Hmm? Well,it depends on the interest too I guess. However,I feel that certain things no matter how hard I try,I still couldn't master it.
Like they say... Not everyone is born to master everything. There are some things I may excel and there are certain things that I may not excel in.
Whatever it is,trust your heart and follow your dream. If you believe,go for it.
Ok,I better be transfering data to my phone.
D - Signing off now...
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:59:00 pm♠

Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Yawns yawns yawns. In school at the moment.
Was listening to what Mr Peter was teaching earlier on. After that,was surfing the net to read blogs. Haven't been reading friends blogs for quite a while so I did so since I have the time to do so.
Anyway,few minutes ago was kind of frustrated because of "someone". Yes,the same person who made me sort of angry last week. I shall not mention his name but the way he talks is very offensive. Such an idiot. That's all I have to say.
I simply cannot understand why some guys are simply jerks. They simply do not seem to learn.
Oh well... Let us not bother about such idiots and move on. Besides,I have friends who cares and they make me feel better so why should I care about such people? Definitely not worth it. Then again,he makes me hate him. I am beginning to dislike him a lot.
Gosh. I am so worried and nervous. Phase test in two days time!! Gosh!! That's pretty quick! Boohoo! Wonder how I will fair for the test. Hmm? I hope it is something to be proud of and not something disgraceful.
Well? Slow and steady will win the race. My brother is having his school holiday now! Not fair. Then again,it is only for one week. Nevermind,I just have to be patient and wait. Furthermore,mine will be for THREE WEEKS. How great? Muahahaha! Gosh,I sound so evil but well? Nevermind.
I guess sometimes being evil is not too bad. Some may wonder why I say that and think I am crazy but let me tell you why I said that. It is because sometimes you cannot be too nice to certain people. Why should we treat them good when they are so mean and evil towards us?? Come on! We have to fight back and be very cold towards them.
Ok,that's evil enough. I do not encourage people to be that way but I cannot stand the way certain "people" reacted earlier on. I find it offensive. Rude in other words.
Tsk. Some people just do not learn. How many times must they get into trouble before realising that they are digging their own graves?
Oh well... What can I say after all? There all sorts of people. We should not care about these people. They are not worth your time. We should look on the bright side and be happy. I have things to do and concentrate so why bother about such matter? It sure is frustrating but let us look on the greener side of life.
Test test test. More test are waiting ahead of me but I'm sure Amelia will be able to do well as she is quite good at it. I'm envious of her.
Darn. I still have few hours more before I call it a day. My lesson ends at 6PM. I came to school in the morning to attend an extra class conducted by Mr Peter. I went to school with Berwin. Happened that I met him at the bus stop and we went to school together.
I asked him more about his course and if he is enjoying it. Oh boy! He told me more about it and arghhhhh!! I am wondering if I am in the wrong course or what as his course seems even more interesting. Hmm? Or is it that I have interest in those kind of things? Hmm...
Then again,it sure seems exciting. I can imagine myself enjoying if I am in that course.
Oh well... Don't moan about it. Be strong and I will survive.
Thinking positively at the moment. In fact,I mostly think positively. Only very few times I think negatively. I guess I am an optimistic person. La La LA... Hmm?
Alright,breathe easy. I am off now.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠2:30:00 pm♠

Monday, March 12, 2007
It's been about 12 days since I last blogged.
It's good to be back blogging and updating. I've just changed my blog's skin few days ago and I don't know if it's alright. ANY COMMENTS?? Feel free to tag to voice out your opinion on my new skin.
Well? Currently,I'm in school. Had lunch earlier on with Amelia,Fiqah and Gladys. I didn't eat my usual - Fish and Chips. Instead,I opted for Chicken Rice today. Am surprised that Amelia ate Chicken Chop.
Anyway,I have not much time to blog for the past two weeks or so. Ok to be exact,like what I mentioned above - 12 days. So many things,so little time? Hmm... Gosh. I think I'm using that quote to often already.
I wanted to change my background song for this blog. However,I encountered some problems while uploading it. Boohoo! That's pretty bad I guess. I definitely love this song that's playing. "Incantevole" by Subsonica but I feel I should change it. Hmm? I thought of putting up "L'errore". Also a song sang by Subsonica.
I've been so addicted to Italian song these few days. Subsonica!! Simply love them. I just feel that I have been listening to their songs over and over again for the past few days. Hmm... Sort of reminds me the other time whereby I listen to Rammstein almost nonstop.
Oh well... There goes again. Should I say that? Hmm...
Let me reflect what I did last week. Hmm? I remember that I bought two pants which actually cost $39 each but I got it for like $32 for both pairs by the way! That was like two days ago when I was at Marina Square shopping.
Hmm... Oh yes. Not forgetting on that day itself I saw Gladys and her sister! Oh god. Guess what? I didn't know their twins. At first I only see her sister which I thought was her but when both turned,I'm like shocked! I thought I was seeing things but no! It was for real.
Oh well... I'm just surprised I guess. Therefore I reacted that way.
Well,well well... Lot of things happened I guess. Had lab test too. Boohoo! Guess what? The stupid computer hang three times!! It's like I finished doing it and it hanged!! Stupid computer. Booooo! That's like the school's computer. Sheesh. I really think they should do something to it. Before it hanged,it was responding very slow.
Thank goodness,I was given a chance to do it the following day which is on Friday. Was so relieved when such things didn't occur again. If not,I think I'll go nuts.
Lot of things to talk about but not too sure where to start. Hmm? I guess I'll keep it to myself this time.
Chelsea drew against Tottenham Hotspurs. It sucks! Should I say that? Hmm... Then again,to think back about it... I think it was a good result as Chelsea made a lot of mistakes and we were fortunate to get back on level terms. If it weren't for that own goal by Michael Essien,I'm sure Chelsea will win the game. Nevertheless,I have to say Michael Essien has been quite solid playing at centre-back but then again,he is a midfielder.
Well? It wasn't that bad. Chelsea were losing in the first half! 3 - 1!! Moment of magic again. Chelsea scored twice in the second half and yeah! 3 - 3! Super Frank [Lampard] did it again and not forgetting - Salomon Kalou!
Well? Guess what? Manchester United drew against Middlesbrough. Only Blackburn and Watford managed to progress. Darn. Replay. Boohoo! Nevermind,I believe CHELSEA will win.
Well? As they say... Football is unpredictable. So yeah... As the saying goes,it's just like the river flowing. Ok,you might not get what I'm trying to say.
Heck! Anyway,I'm a little bored at the moment. I'm trying to find things to do to kill my time. I'm kind of sleepy actually. Hmm? Should I take a nap? Hmm... I wonder.
Alright,I think I better be going. Starting to feel like I can't go on typing already.
Oh well... There'll be a phase test this week! Which is like so soon! Boohoo! Hur hur hur! Arghhhhhh... Oh well... I wish I'll do well. Don't wish - make it happen. Ok,I'll give it my best and I hope I'll be able to do well. Like I mentioned,"So many things,so little time."
Alright,I'm off now.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:07:00 pm♠
