Though I'm actually feeling a little tired,it sure seems somehow it's a fun day.

I reached home at about 10.30PM. Ok,I actually went to 7-Eleven to buy things so I reached home at about 10.30PM. Minus going to the 7-Eleven store it's like about 10.20PM I guess.

Alright,whatever. School's fun today. Oh my. I can't believe I said this! Ok,I just said it. LOL. Oh my. Mind me. I'm talking trash again as I'm feeling restless? Would you say that?

I'm just feeling uncomfortable as I have runny nose and cough. That's pretty bad. Hmm? Flu? Darn. Hate it. Nevermind,spread to others. How's that? Ok,I'm not that mean. Even me,myself hate being sick and it sucks! It's been like a week I guess. Oh my. I can't believe it.

Ok,to be exact - Not really a week but I guess soon it'll be a week. I had this since Monday I think. Boohoo!~ How horrible. It wasn't so serious the first few days but by Wednesday it sort of got worst. Darn. Oh well... Let's not talk about that. However,I must say it's very irritating. Grrrrrr...!!!

Alright,I still haven't talk about what happened in school. Well? School's alright. Like I said today seems fun. Hmm? Maybe because of PE. I mean Sports and Wellness. Sure is fun maybe because I play football? =D

To think about it,it's strange. I remember wanting to play basketball more than football back in Secondary. ...BUT! Things change ever since my last year's class started to play more football as in the whole class.

Maybe back then the thought of guys being rough is in my mind and maybe I'm also lazy. That thought of guys being rough is in my mind because I played with my neighbour and he was like so rough! That's why that's like stuck in my head.

To think about it,I feel that now I'm the aggressive one. I always tackle and I pull their shirt or push them. Oh my. I did that during Sports and Wellness earlier on. What am I? Cannibal? Another Khalid Boulahrouz? Haha.

I haven't been playing for quite awhile so I kind of suck or you would use the terms "sucky" but I try my best to do what I can. As usual,I just feel that everytime I play the ball will at least hit my legs once and yeah,it hit me like twice or thrice and I slipped!

I was tackling and I managed to get the ball but someone managed to get back and I was like trying to tackle it back and the ball hit me if I'm not wrong and oh dear! I slipped. I fell on my bum! It hurts. Ouch!

Oh well... Football is like that. What can I say? Sure is fun and I get so excited playing it. As usual,I would prefer playing as a defender. I don't know why but I just like it. Hmm? Maybe I like JT so much. John Terry that is and also... Philipp LAHM!

Hmm? I guess I wouldn't mind playing as a defensive midfielder either but I don't like being a striker. That's the only position I never play.

Oh my. So much football. LOL.

Mr Saadon was quite nice. Hmm? I don't know why but I just feel that he was just now. I also got to see someone without spectacles and oh my! That person look so different. I was shocked when I see his picture without spectacles! I don't know if I'm seeing wrong things or what but I find that "dumb" picture looks good. LOL.

What am I crazy? Gosh. I can't believe I even told Jelly that his smile is like stuck in my head. Oh my. Well? If I'm crazy,what's the big deal? Ain't no big deal right?

I just love today though yesterday I have this thought that it would be such a long day and oh no! Sports and Wellness is a killer! Well,that's what I thought in the beginning. However,things weren't the way I sort of predicted. It was something unexpected and definitely FUN.

My CCA starts at 4PM today but I feel Faiz and I were way too early. Nobody was there at first and we had to wait for quite awhile but once it starts,oh my! Fun fun fun! Yes,that's all I have to say. All girls except for Faiz. It ended at 6.10PM.

Exchange numbers and yeah,can say I got to know new friends and I think their quite nice. It was somehow fun. Saw Jelly after that. I actually didn't see him,I didn't even notice him as I was busy talking and exchanging numbers with my drama friends and when he called me,I'm quite shocked to see him.

It was a little sad to leave so soon and leave my drama friends behind but Xiaoqiang called and I have to make a move. Walk out of the school with Jelly. Jelly was with Roger and Jia Hao if I'm not wrong.

I actually wanted Jelly to tag along with me. Wanted to ask him but scared it'll be too far for him. He is not living in the east area so I don't want to trouble him. Besides,it's far for him I guess. In the end,Xiaoqiang came along with me.

Finally got some quality time with Xiaoqiang. Well? I mean,we get to chat longer and hang out longer.

Attended James party (BBQ). Gosh! Didn't expect to see Elvin there! Elvin Ng. Haha... My Primary school friend. Oh well... I didn't realise I would stay till like 9.45PM. It was my mum who had to call me and I'm like "Oh no!"

Besides,my mum didn't like me staying too late and she worries a lot of me. Well? There's good and bad. It's how you look at it. If you look at it as bad then I think because you'll feel that you have like curfew but if you look at it as good... Well? Means - You know that your parents care for you very much. =D

How do I look at it as? Hmm... Maybe bad,maybe good. LOL. Alright,good I guess though sometimes I don't like those reminders like "Don't forget!" that kind of stuff.

Hmm? I wonder if James is going to like the gift? I don't often buy that to give as a gift because mostly I would give diary or photo frame. LOL. Oh my. I exposed to secret! Ho ho! I guess it's time I start not to give those already and start giving other items.

Besides,the gift that I bought was sort of last minute as I totally forgot about it. I bought it like yesterday and designed the card today. It's a very simple card but I try to use my creativity. Using as much as possible and also not to make it too messy. I still would prefer to keep it simple.

Oh well... Guess simple is my style. "Simple yet unique" - Haha. My trademark? Hmm...

Yawns. Feeling a little tired. Jelly wants to play his Rakion. What's so great about Rakion? Hmm... I wonder. I don't play Rakion. In fact,I haven't been playing games for quite sometime. Oh dear. "DIANE! Where on earth are you? Where's your entertaiment??"

Yes,yes. I usually talk about entertainment but guess that games aren't in my list. It's not that I don't like. I like playing FIFA street on the PlayStation. I like playing Tekken 5 on the PlayStation. Oh wait,I can also do that on my father's PlayStation Portable (PSP).

Hey,wait a minute. I realise that I actually did play games recently! Mobile phone games. Yes,I was bored and I installed some java games into my mobile phone and I've been like playing "Football Trivia" mostly. Call me a freak if you want but I don't know,football simply interest me. I won't say I'm very good at it but I'm always trying my very best to know and to know more everytime.

My butt is still a little sore but not too bad. When I slipped earlier on during Sports and Wellness,it was kind of sore but I can't be like rubbing my whole butt right? LOL. That would be so........ Well,you should know.

I just rubbed a little and just continued playing. Same goes for my legs but legs wasn't that bad. At least I don't feel that really pain but I have to say if anything hits you,first reaction to you will be like "Ouch!"

So yeah... That's how I reacted to it but soon after,I just try to enjoy playing football.

I wish there were more girls. I remember tackling Wati. Haha... I was kind of aggressive or maybe way too aggressive. Hmm? I didn't know I can be that aggressive. LOL.

Alright,I've stuff to do now.
Yawnssssssss... Fun fun fun. Yes,FUN is stuck in my head and that's how I'm feeling. Gosh,I sounded more like a little girl.

Ok,peace out!~

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Well? School ends early for me and it's not too tiring as there's only like theory for Engineering Essentials (EES). I somewhat prefer theory. I don't know why. Maybe I'm a theory person I guess.

Yawns. I'm pretty tired I guess. Don't feel like sleeping now but still I guess I won't last long because I'm feel sleepy. Almost doze off and I'm like supposed to call "Zen" but am afraid that I'll not be able to really focus on the conversation. I'll call him later. Besides,I'm going to sleep soon I guess. My eyes are like heavy.

Darns. Tomorrow is THURSDAY! Arghhhhhh... What a long day. Hmm? Soon it'll be Friday. Oh my. That's like so fast!

Last week was Bernie's birthday and also Valentine's day. Oh yes,not forgetting it's also Ping Kee's birthday. Time sure flies very fast.

Friday is James' birthday party. I still haven't decide to go or not as I'm not too sure yet. There's this half telling me to go and there's this other half - I'm not too sure. It's not that my mother disallow me or something. In fact,I've spoken to her about it and she allows me but I'm really not too sure.

I have CCA on that day too. Don't know if it'll be too tiring for me. It's like from 5pm to 7pm. Arghhhhh....

Well? I guess I'll try my very best to try to go. =)

Gosh. I have this habit of disturbing Jelly. Maybe because his bully-able? Haha... Oops. Cute to bully I guess.

Another would be "dumb". Ok,let's not be so mean. Hmm? Ok,the "sweet-addict" or rather "sweet-eater". You know he has that kind of dumb look. It's kind of funny to see his reactions at times. I mean like when Fiqah ask him some questions at times,it simply makes me laugh because of his reaction.

He and BEN-da are Manchester United fans. Booooooo! That's bad. That's pretty lame. LOL.

Darn. No Chelsea supporter in my class. Boohoo! How sad. Nevermind, I will stand firm and support my favourite BLUES no matter what. =D Come on Chelsea,come on CHELSEA!

Aww man. It sucks! Manchester United won. 1 - 0! Booooo. Ryan Giggs free-kick if I am not wrong in the 83rd minute. Darn. If only he hadn't score. Muahahahaha! Oh my. I sound evil.

On the other hand,I am surprised with Arsenal's results. I expect them to win or draw but if possible,a not too bad result but guess what? They lost. PSV won. The dutch team won. Alright,it isn't that bad. 1 - 0 but I was hoping they at least win or draw and lose against Chelsea in the Carling Cup finals. =D

I really really want Chelsea to win tonight's match and also - Carling Cup finals! I just want Arsenal to lose this coming weekend. Just for this weekend and also against Chelsea at the Emirates Stadium. Other than that,I'm neutral about them but if against CHELSEA? Definitely,I want my CHELSEA to win.

Petr Cech is back. John Terry is back. Chelsea has 5 straight clean sheets in the past 5 games. That's good. Hopefully they can extend more clean sheets. I love Petr Cech. His my favourite keeper.

Michael Ballack is back in the squad. All four goalkeepers are well. Cech,Cudicini,Hilario and Hedman. The only injuries are Khalid Boulahrouz,Joe Cole and Ashley Cole.

No Ashley Cole? Well... At least we have Wayne Bridge! I think his good!

No Joe Cole? Well... At least we have Arjen Robben! His fast too.

No Khalid Boulahrouz? Well,let's welcome back the solid central defender - Ricardo Carvalho!

Oh well... I can't believe it's Wednesday. Oh dear,oh my.

Saw Jun Xiang just now in school after lunch. Well? Early lunch that is. Before noon. Had Chicken Chop for lunch. Wanted to eat Fish and Chips but it wasn't ready yet so I had Chicken Chop instead.

I'm still feeling a little full. I just had some snacks just now. I just want to drink more water. I mean... I do drink a lot but I want more. I just feel like drinking more. Gosh. Anyway,water is good for us. It helps to replenish and keeps ourselves hydrated.

Besides,the weather is humid. Gosh. Singapore is always so humid. Grrrrr...
Hmm... Seems like in College East I'm mostly happy and seldom angry but in secondary school,it's a different story. At times I do get angry and at times I feel really really down. You know that kind of mix feelings and sometimes sudden change of mood due to the surroundings or the situation but currently,I don't really get angry that often.

At times I do get a little angry but I can tell you,mostly I feel happy but of course,we're still humans so at times I do feel a little down or stressed up.
What can I say after all? This is life. In short,things are really different and I'm happy to have friends like Fiqah and Amelia. Of course if in secondary school,I have my good pal - Xiaoqiang!

You don't have to know a lot of people in school or stuff like that. The most important thing is be happy and be yourself. Have fun and enjoy and of course work hard and also play hard.

Focus - Work hard - Excel!
Relax - de-stress - Enjoy!

After all,whatever it is,the choice is in your hands. Sometimes it may be confusing and I'm someone who tend to gets confused but at times I stand firm and know what I want.

You just need supportive friends and friends who'll care to listen to you and someone who understands you.

I feel as a friend,we should understand one another and encourage one another when we needed a lift or a boost.

Friends? Well... I would rather have true friends or friends whom I can trust rather than a lot of friends whom you can't trust and are someone who are making use of you.

Which would you prefer?

Well? I still remember my old friends. I'm not somebody who'll forget or just like make use of them just to keep myself company.

I appreciate all my friends and it's a nice feeling to have friends. I always remember my friends. Though some friends we may not talk like last time but I can tell you that whatever memories we had,I'll always remember as they're those memories that I don't wish to forget.

Some would way forget everything and start anew. Well,sometimes we should forget and start anew but then again,would you forget someone who have helped you in the past? I wouldn't.

Be it new friends or old friends. To me their equal. I just feel that each and every one of my friends are different and we can learn something from each other. I believe they have something to offer and they too can learn from us. In other words,it's more of like an exchange.

If you're good at this and I'm good at this,we can like learn from one another and together - we'll be a better person.

Isn't that great? I feel it is. I feel everyone has something to offer as we are all different and unique in our own very ways.

Speaking of special,always remember - YOU ARE SPECIAL.
Alright,as for now - I guess I'll end here.

My eyes are heavy! They're telling me something... Can you hear it? Oh no,here comes the bed. They're calling me.

Peace out.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:44:00 pm♠

Thursday, February 15, 2007

I am simply tired.

Had NAPFA test earlier on. It was tiring but who would expect me to feel alright? What I mean is... I wasn't what I expected that I would be. It was a great boast for me I guess. It's like I'm the Diane back then and not the Diane I was last year. LOL.

Anyway,it's over already. Hurray! I can't believe it but it's true.

Hmm? Am I a little tanner now? Hmm... I'm like thinking now. Tanner than I was yesterday. Yawns. It's 10.08PM now. I think I'll sleep early tonight. Well? I am simply tired.

It's kind of chilly here. Hmm... Ahh... What a nice weather to sleep in. Play some soft,relaxing music and light up the room with some dim lights. Ain't that relaxing?

Gosh. Tomorrow is Friday. I can't believe it. Time flies very fast. Darn. Means I have CCA! Drama. 5 to 7pm but have to be there by 4.50pm. Hmm? Guess I'll go home first and rest then at 2pm I'll take a shower then get ready. By - 3.45pm,I guess I have to make a move.

Was listening to the songs that Jelly sent earlier on. Not bad,quite nice. Well? At least to me that is. Love "Frost Bite" the most. =D

Poor thing. Jelly had to run an extra round for his 2.4km run. Tsk.

Hmm... Feel like eating chocolates to de-stress. Well? I was eating chocolates earlier on. I still have somemore. Gosh. What am I? Choco-natic or what? Well? Can't blame me I guess. I'm simply addicted to it.

Gosh. I'm feeling sleepy!! Boohoo! Arghhhh... I guess I'm really very tired.

Then again,though I am feeling tired,I just don't feel like sleeping yet as it'll like end my day for the day. Boo! That's too soon.

HAHA. Alright,I guess I should see how. See how things are and take it as it is.
I think I'll blog another day. I'm sleepy already. Gosh. Sleepy head D. LOL.

Later~
Peace out.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠8:14:00 pm♠

Sunday, February 11, 2007

You lose some,you gain some.

Just finished showering. My dad has to go back to his office but ate lunch with the family earlier on.

Anyway,it's alright if I didn't go out today. I feel kind of lazy anyway. Going back to my secondary school on Wednesday to collect my N level certificate. It's also Bernie's and Ping Kee's birthday and not forgetting it's V-day. Valentine's Day that is.

The following day would be Total Defence Day and also - my NAPFA test! Grrrrr... How horrible. I feel time flies very fast. Friday - CCA again. Guess what? Only five people turned up for drama last Friday. It's a combined school drama and how shocking. Five people turned up!!

Anyway,the teacher seems to be a nice teacher. Though I don't know any but well? It wasn't really that bad. If you have the passion or interest in it,it doesn't matter.

Darn,I sort of miss my secondary school days. I miss disturbing Wang Junyong. Saw him the other day at school and chat with him for a while. I still remember we used to spray water at each other in secondary one and two. Those were the days.

I think his a nice friend. His also hardworking and I remember we used to like brag. HAHA. Well? His like "I get top for Chinese,not like someone - Fail chinese",you know that kind of stuff and I'll be like - "I get top for English,I wonder who's that person who didn't get?" LOL.

Well? We didn't mean anything,we were just like hinting to each other but we're not really serious - Just fooling around.

Maybe to some,they may look at it thinking as if we're arrogant or something but well? We were just teasing,that's all.

Hmm... I saw my former chairman on Friday. Lai Qing Yan - Funny guy but his unpredictable. He and Keith bully my bear. Even pull my teddy bear off. Boo! Tsk. Haha... I'll remember those days. When I look back and think about it,it's kind of funny.

Oh yes,I also saw Ping Kee. His an intelligent boy. He got first for my class in terms of N level results and if I'm not wrong,my teacher said I'm second. I'm quite shocked actually. Again,I'm second - Never first. Ok,I did got first but for subjects not in terms of overall results. Oh well,at least second isn't that bad.

Ping Kee is an intelligent boy. His quite good at Mathematics and Science. Oh yes,not forgetting that Denley is also good at those two subjects. I'm so envious of them. Hmm? I don't like Mathematics. =p

Too bad he is colour-blind! Poor Ping Kee. His a bright student but his kind of playful. Hmm... His quite understanding too. Sometimes I'll talk to him about some stuff and his quite a good listener. I don't recognise him that day! I kept looking but I didn't know it was him! HAHA. Sorry~

Gosh. Those were the days. It was only last year that I realise that time flies super fast.

Well? All we can do now is to look ahead,the past is the past and their just memories but whatever it is,always appreciate what you have and cherish them.

Hurray! Chelsea won. 3 - 0! Darn,Manchester United won too. Booooo!

Iceman - Manchester United supporter. Same as that bear and sweet eater and also my brother.

Was chatting on the phone with "Zen" last night. Didn't realise chat for so long. Chat with him till his phone low battery. Twice that is. I think I chat with him from about 9.30 till about 2AM. Till my ears are like red and pain.

Gosh,poor Zen. Listening to his story,I just pity him. Seriously,he needs to get a life of his own. Breathe the fresh air. Hopefully,he'll breathe fresh air soon.

Anyway,I was watching football too. Too bad,Chelsea match wasn't shown live,so I watched the delayed telecast and watched Newcastle vs Liverpool match live. After Liverpool scored,I decided to switch to the other channel to watch Manchester United's game.

Darn. Park scored! Boo! So I decided to switch back to the Newcastle game. I was somehow hoping Newcastle to win,not Liverpool and I favour Charlton. Hoping they'll beat Manchester United or a draw is fine with me but drats. They won.

Arjen Robben is back and John Terry! Woohoo! I miss John Terry's header. His header is powerful. His trademark I would say. Anyway,most of his goals were from headers.

He is my favourite player! Simply love JT. Not forgetting,Frank Lampard,Joe Cole,Arjen Robben......... Gosh,the list is long. How about can I say,I like almost the whole Chelsea squad? =D

To see Petr Cech and John Terry back makes me smile even more. I like them.

Wayne Bridge has been outstanding. Michael Essien too. I think Michael Essien is the man of steel. His a solid player. He played alongside John Terry yesterday as a central defender but of course,Michael Essien isn't a defender. He is a midfielder but it seems like he can play anywhere you put him.

Paulo Ferreira played yesterday and he looked good. He has that boyish looks. He sure looks young but if I'm not wrong his like 28 years old. Gosh! Yet,he doesn't look as if his 28 years old. He look younger than his age.

Alright,enough football for now.

Darn. I just can't help talking about it. Some friends of mine are like shocked when they found out that I like football. I guess they'll be thinking I watch it because of the guys.

Maybe it could be because of the guys but you know,whenever I watch it,I feel excited. Sometimes I feel nervous. If I am able to watch,I'll definitely watch. I don't find it boring,I find it exciting. I find it interesting to watch. What I find boring to watch is golf.

I'll feel sad or upset when my favourite team lose but it'll be the opposite if my favourite team wins. Whatever it is,football is unexpected.

Xabi Alonso! I think his hot. Philipp Lahm is cute. Michael Ballack has good looks. Cristiano Ronaldo is quick and quite skilled but diver! =X

Well? There are lots more players but if I were to name you names,I guess I'll name you the England squad players. =D

Joe Cole! His a good player. Frank Lampard is good but sometimes isn't at his best but if he is,his great. Wayne Rooney is good! Michael Owen! Boy wonder. His a good player but too bad,his a little prone to injury. Just like Kieron Dyer. Steven Gerrard is also good. Most people say he is similar to Frank Lampard but I feel they both have some differences.

Oh yes... JOHN TERRY. I love John Terry. Chelsea and England's captain.

Oh well... Moving on now.

Darn,how come I'm unable to install the PC suite. Well? It seems like I'm unable to but I guess it's just slow,that's all.

Alright,I guess I'll end here for now as I feel it's like my computer is starting to slow down a little.

Later~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠5:18:00 pm♠

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Choose to love or to hate? It's your choice.

As for now,I don't wish to hate. I tell myself at the beginning of this year,I don't want to hate but to love. I don't wish to hate. I mean,why hate? Life sure is full of ups and downs but well? I tell myself that this year is a year whereby I have to remain positive and happy.

Hmm? At least 90% of the time. I want to set myself that target. Well? Staying positive is a plus and being happy is a plus plus.

Just look at how many plus plus are there? It sure makes your life much more peaceful and wonderful.

Hmm... I thought of changing my blog song and maybe the skin too. I definitely love this song that's playing on my blog "Incantevole" by Subsonica but I guess it's time for a change. Though it's in Italian but it sure is nice to me. ("Incantevole" means "Charming" in English)

Hmm... I just called KFC delivery. Yum yum. Simply can't wait. Ordered Treasure feast and additional 5 piece winglets. Oh but I'm not paying. My dad is paying for it. He asked me to call,so I called but his paying for it.

Hmm... I think maybe after my meal,I'll have to call Desmond. He asked me to call him at about 8 something and I guess the delivery would take about 45 minutes. Hopefully it's half an hour to 45 minutes,that's what I've been told.

Hmm... I just kind of pity Desmond. Seriously,I think his like too nice. He should put himself first but instead,he put friends or work before him. I think that's kind of sad but his a very loyal friend I guess. Then again,health is more important.

Was like chatting with Des yesterday on the phone for I think about going to three hours. I thought of chatting longer but then I was hungry so had to stop. Too bad.

Well... Was chatting with Desmond and Benjamin earlier on. (Ben = Iceman) LOL. Too bad Des has to leave as he has to go out and Ben is a hardcore Manchester United fan I guess. Always Manchester United. Booooooo... Haha. Reminds me of Ashik. Tsk,that Spain-natic/bear.

Ben is having dinner now. Hmm... Well? Still have "Jelly"! Yeah! Haha. Fun to disturb him. I simply love to disturb him. His quite a nice person but also nice to disturb. =D

I want to pinch "Jelly". No. Bite him. LOL. He was trying to sabotage me just now by not confirming if he is buying the tee or not. Bleah. Wait till I pinch him then he know. Well,ok... He was just kidding.

Being a leader equals to responsibilities. Therefore,like it or not,I still have to do my job. Even if I have to keep reminding them because that's my job to do so.

Hmm... Going to my secondary school this coming Wednesday to collect my N level certificate and I totally forgot it's Valentine's Day and Bernie's birthday! Gosh. Not forgetting that I have NAPFA the following day. Booooooo...

I guess I'm going to meet Xiaoqiang this coming Wednesday. It's been quite a while since I last meet her and I kind of miss her! Hopefully she gets into the course of her choice this time. I hope so.

=) I simply feel good. I feel good when I'm with Fiqah and Amelia. I'll not forget that they even waited for me to finish my Engineering Essentials (EES) test and also when I have duty,they waited for me! Gosh. Such nice friends.

"Jelly" is a nice friend too but also nice to disturb. Des is like too kind. Very loyal to friends too. Ben (Iceman!) - Manchester United sucks! =X Haha. My brother like Manchester United. Not forgetting the bear (Ashik).

I was a little bit down after what happened few days ago but I guess with Fiqah,Amelia... I sort of feel good. Oh yes - Des! He is like always trying his best to help his friends till he like don't care about himself. Gosh. He should start to care about his health and himself.

Anyway,I know how much I score for my EES test and I don't like it. 19 out of 30 but well? It's just first test so I guess I'll work harder. Though I passed but isn't what I wanted. I want at least 25 and above.

Too bad. I'm not P R O. Haha. Leon and Amelia PRO but then,Tze An got 29!! What the... I can't believe it.

Oh looky. Barcelona fan chat with me. Barca-natic - Kelvin. Haha. Asking me if he can not bring $18. LOL. His not even in my class or is he my members. Haha.

Oh. Barca-natic wants to eat dinner. I'm still like waiting for the delivery. Nevermind,I'll wait. Yum yum. Yummy! =D

LOL. "Jelly" was shocked when I told him his name will be in this entry. Chill dude. Chill~

Maybe later if I'm bored I should call him and disturb him. Hmm... La La LA~ See how. Anyway,he said anything so yeah... Anything means alright. =D

It's Saturday meaning to say... There's football! Hurray! As usual,I want Manchester United to lose but today? Arghhhhh... How to?! They're against Charlton. What the... Sure can win. Boooooo.... If only they were against some other good teams.

I'm not trying to say Charlton are bad but I just feel that Manchester United won't have problem overcoming them but as you know... Football is unexpected so who knows? Hmm...

Chelsea vs Middlesbrough. Come on CHELSEA,come on CHELSEA! Get all 3 points at home! Go! Go!!

Alright,I better be going now. I want to eat already. Yummy! Delivery is here! Hurray!

So... Bite or pinch Jelly? =X [He insist me of putting it as Jelly.]

Ok,I'm off now.
Later~ Peace out.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠8:42:00 pm♠

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

What is up with this world?

It feels funny sometimes. I don't know if I am in the right world as I feel that is world has all sorts of people.

It wasn't my day. This morning when I woke up I just feel very angry because of something but I somehow tell myself to not be angry. I was supposed to have test today but it was postponed to tomorrow.

I was quite happy actually but when I reach home,I was really tired so I just wanted to relax and de-stress myself. Things went wrong when my brother asked for something and it really was a trouble.

After awhile,I just told myself to forget about it but it sure is a pain as I was wondering why is this happening today? I was having a good year till like somewhere around this week whereby it's a little bumpy.

Hmm... Well? Always have to look on the bright side! Even though it may be bumpy,I'll have to keep reminding myself to look on the bright side and I did.

I was really tired and I just wanted to de-stress myself. Besides,I must study again to refresh my memory as there's test tomorrow - Engineering Essentials (EES).

I just don't know what to say. Seriously,sometimes I wonder... How many times do I have to lose a friend? It's like the second time I would say.

I think he misunderstood it. I wasn't really serious. I was just kidding and was actually joking with a friend before that so I wasn't really in a serious mood. Besides,I wanted to de-stress so I just talk whatever and my plan is to de-stress and study later.

I always treat my friends equal. I treasure their friendship and I value everyone but I don't know about others. Well? Different people have different views but it seems it got all mixed up.

I guess this will help...

(4:33 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
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(4:33 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
never DL songs now
(4:33 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
for fun laughter peace and joy
(4:33 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
everyone loves it
(4:35 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
nw? nah... I dunno Y LimeWire can't start
(4:35 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I only hv Lovelight
(4:35 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
Robbie Williams
(4:35 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
eww
(4:35 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
oh... Rain "In My Bed"
(4:35 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
stupid old man
(4:35 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but dat song nice lah
(4:35 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:35 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
for fun?
(4:35 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
(4:36 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u muz enjoy doin' it
(4:36 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
huh?
(4:36 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:36 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
well
(4:36 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
if ur open minded you will think this way
(4:36 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
haha
(4:36 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
it depends on wad is it
(4:36 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
(4:37 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
but it still depends on the mind
(4:37 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
mayb u might b the 1 screamin' out loud
(4:37 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
=X
(4:37 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
cant be
(4:37 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
since u're always lyk frustrated
(4:37 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
because i didn say I
(4:37 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
let ur anger out
(4:37 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:37 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
don reli feel like right now
(4:37 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
oh
(4:38 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:38 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but I bet if u're doin' it
(4:38 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u'll mk lotza noise
(4:38 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
coz u'll b enjoyin' it?
(4:38 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:38 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
oh wow
(4:38 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
what makes u say so
(4:38 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
people enjoying doesn mean need to make noise
(4:38 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
well? who knwz wad ur mind will b tellin' u
(4:38 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:38 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
hmmm
(4:38 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
oh yeah
(4:38 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
not noise
(4:39 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but u'll b doin' it very fast
(4:39 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
i know myself very well i think
(4:39 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
i'll be doin it very fast
(4:39 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
oh come on
(4:39 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:39 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
mayb?
(4:39 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
in & out
(4:39 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
fast
(4:39 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
no maybe
(4:39 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
or... go deep?
(4:39 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:39 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
i know myself
(4:39 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
Wow u knew quite abit
(4:39 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
see no evil,hear no evil
(4:39 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
wht have u been doin in ITE toilet
(4:40 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
too bad u jus said evil
(4:40 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
hmm.....
(4:40 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I said... see no evil
(4:40 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
hear no evil
(4:40 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
is dere evil? nah
(4:40 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dun see it
(4:40 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:40 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
well
(4:41 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
I assume ur "evil" is referring to Sex and u jus said in out in out deep
(4:41 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
oh... nah
(4:41 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
(4:41 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
if thats not sex it cant be meaning something else right
(4:41 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
don be an angel in disguise
(4:41 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but I'm not dat bad
(4:42 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:42 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I'm still a gd grrl
(4:42 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
(4:42 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
i think those guys who talked to u bout masturbation and stuff must have sucked out all ur innocent-nity
(4:42 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
oh really
(4:42 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:42 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I think mayb dey cyber too
(4:42 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
LOL
(4:43 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
hmm well i guess ur one of the people they cyber with
(4:43 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
nah
(4:43 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dun cyber with them
(4:43 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:43 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u do?
(4:43 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
oh really
(4:43 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:43 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
yeah
(4:43 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
definitely
(4:44 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
than whats those complaints u told me bout guys asking u for sex and stuff
(4:44 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
what have u been doin nobody knows
(4:44 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
ya,coz dey're really disgustin' u knw
(4:44 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
IRC or something
(4:44 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
ur just close minded gal
(4:44 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
dey damn disgustin'... I dun lyk the way dey talk 2 me
(4:44 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
coz dey're lyk despo
(4:44 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u needa open up a lil
(4:44 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
"how about u & me? lyk dat vid? we have sex,want?"
(4:44 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
wth
(4:44 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
den his lyk...
(4:45 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
"love,wanna suck?"
(4:45 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
wth
(4:45 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dun think datz respect
(4:45 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
well
(4:45 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dunno him dat well
(4:45 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its not about respect
(4:45 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
he's jus being rude
(4:45 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
if u donno him that well
(4:45 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
why was he in ur MSN or contacts in the first place
(4:45 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dunno him dat well & his askin' & talkin' abt diz
(4:45 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
added me
(4:45 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
coz most of my frenz r nice ppl
(4:46 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
handful of them r
(4:46 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
perverts
(4:46 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
than u shouldn add him
(4:46 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
than rip those perverts off
(4:46 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
since it doesn make u comfortable
(4:47 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but u C
(4:47 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
those pervs
(4:47 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I wld prefer them 2 b the
(4:47 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
when they're ,dey r better
(4:47 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
don prefer them to be angels
(4:47 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
come on
(4:47 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but when their ,dey talk trash
(4:47 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
ur no angel urself i assume
(4:48 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:48 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but
(4:48 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dun think I'm dat bad
(4:48 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
everyone gets horny gal
(4:48 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I'm still gd
(4:48 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
even Girls getnhorny
(4:48 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
we are teens
(4:48 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u get horny
(4:48 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
not children
(4:48 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u get all wet
(4:48 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:48 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
=X
(4:48 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u too what
(4:48 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
me?
(4:48 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(4:48 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
no gals ever NOT get horny
(4:49 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its normal
(4:49 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dun?
(4:49 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
hahahaha
(4:49 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
no such things
(4:49 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
La La LA
(4:49 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
if guys ever talked to u like that
(4:49 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
it mus have at least aroused u a lil
(4:49 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dunno
(4:49 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dun feel dat way
(4:49 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
because people gets horny easy
(4:49 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
when I'm tired,I dun feel dat way
(4:49 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
not true
(4:50 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
ur jus avoiding the open-ness
(5:02 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
nah
(5:02 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
if u're tired
(5:02 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dun think u'll even 1 2 think of it
(5:02 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
ur mind will b occupied
(5:02 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(5:03 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
on everyone's mind
(5:03 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
sex is like 24/7
(5:03 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
whatever
(5:03 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
anyway not really tired
(5:03 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
24/7?
(5:03 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
not in mine
(5:03 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
adnormal
(5:03 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
nah
(5:03 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
I forgot
(5:03 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
most important thing for me nw
(5:03 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
is to study
(5:03 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
what do you know >
(5:03 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
2mr test
(5:03 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
haha
(5:04 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u knw how 2 fuck all dae?
(5:04 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
=X
(5:04 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u'll b lyk fantasizin'?
(5:04 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
i suppose u wont even have kids in ur future lives
(5:04 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
because ur too decent
(5:04 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
and so damn closed
(5:04 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
nah
(5:04 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
and its really sad
(5:04 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I'll see how
(5:04 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dun think of diz yet
(5:04 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
seriously
(5:04 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
no need to see how
(5:04 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I'm thinkin' of wad I'm supposed 2 do
(5:05 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
coz 2mr I hv test
(5:05 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I'm so tired
(5:05 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
unlyk u
(5:05 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
because ur never in a r/s
(5:05 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
mayb u cld lyk surf porn
(5:05 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
& satisfy urself
(5:05 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u don know how if feels
(5:05 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
hmm
(5:05 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u dun hv 2 get in2 a relationship
(5:05 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
seriously
(5:05 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
Y rush?
(5:05 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
seriously u don need to tell me what to do
(5:05 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dun understand ppl
(5:05 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
wadever
(5:05 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its not abt rushing
(5:05 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I juz feel I'm not ready
(5:05 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
datz all
(5:05 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
of course whatever lah
(5:06 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
Y the hell ppl want this & dat?
(5:06 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
no one is ready
(5:06 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
-_-
(5:06 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I hv way better stuff than diz
(5:06 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
it has nth to do with em
(5:06 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its urself
(5:06 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I hv 2 concentrate on the most important stuff 1st
(5:06 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
because the world is like that
(5:06 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
b4 proceedin' 2 wadever
(5:06 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
Y bother?

(5:06 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u just got to like simply live with it
(5:06 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u don have to bother
(5:07 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
nobody bothers
(5:07 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
it just comes
(5:07 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but u see
(5:07 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dun wanna think of it
(5:07 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
juz not time yet
(5:07 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u think of it like everyday
(5:07 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I hv 2 lyk memorise my colour codes
(5:07 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
our brain is like so damn big
(5:08 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
of course when ur studying
(5:08 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but if u're thinkin' of so many things
(5:08 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u won't think of it
(5:08 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its not in ur current position
(5:08 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
mayb when u're done with ur stuff
(5:08 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
den u might think
(5:08 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
but when ur doing other thinfs
(5:08 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but I'm sure
(5:08 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u r thinkin' of it
(5:08 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
24/7
(5:08 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
duh
(5:08 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
everyone thinks of it
(5:08 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its alright what
(5:08 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I knw
(5:08 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but I'm not lyk dat
(5:08 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
as long as it doesn courrput ur mind
(5:08 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
24/7?
(5:08 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
nah
(5:08 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its everyday
(5:09 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
not everyday
(5:09 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
come on
(5:09 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I mean dun tell me u dun hv mood?
(5:09 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
face the truth
(5:09 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
sometimes u'll feel down right
(5:09 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its jus sex gal
(5:09 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
dun tell me when u're down u'll b thinkin' of it
(5:09 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
nth embarrassing
(5:09 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
thats y its 24 / 7
(5:09 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
if its every sex
(5:09 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
*sec
(5:09 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
it will be like 60 / 60 / 24 /7
(5:10 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but if u hv lots of work
(5:10 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u won't hv time
(5:10 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
datz how I feel
(5:10 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but if u tk a break
(5:10 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
are u sure
(5:10 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
& de-stress
(5:10 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u might wanna let loose
(5:10 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but if u hv so many things 2 accomplish
(5:10 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u hv 2 concentrate on gettin' the task done
(5:10 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
dun tell me if ur boss is explain' a major project
(5:10 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
den u'll b thinkin' lyk...
(5:11 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
let's say ur boss is a female
(5:11 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
Ur not a guy
(5:11 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
"I wanna ........" dat kinda
(5:11 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I guess every1 is diff
(5:11 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u cannot assume every1 is the same
(5:11 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
who'll think of it 24/7
(5:11 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
maybe some yes
(5:11 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
everyday
(5:11 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
even phone hv
(5:11 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
com hv
(5:11 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
i'm not assuming
(5:11 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its a majority
(5:12 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but most frenz I knw aren't really lyk everyday
(5:12 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its only sex
(5:12 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
and ur thinking about NO respect
(5:12 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but a lil' teasin' won't harm
(5:12 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
hahaha
(5:12 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
no
(5:12 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
ur thinking abt its an insult
(5:12 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u dun understand the situation
(5:12 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its not like someone is raping u
(5:12 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u knw it's lyk insult
(5:12 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
if he rapes u
(5:12 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
his lyk... I dunno how 2 say diz
(5:12 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
than its no respect
(5:12 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
but if u read those logs
(5:12 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
than its insults
(5:12 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
u'll feel his really so "eeeww"
(5:13 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I dunno him
(5:13 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
nvr met him
(5:13 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
thats couruppted mind
(5:13 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
datz the point
(5:13 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
than block him
(5:13 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I block
(5:13 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
thats the solution
(5:13 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
done
(5:13 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
and delete
(5:13 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I block 3
(5:13 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
full stop
(5:13 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its that fucking simple
(5:13 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
deleted 2
(5:13 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
no...block 5
(5:13 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
delete 2
(5:13 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
what bout the 3rd one
(5:13 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
I juz leave the 3
(5:13 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
datz it
(5:13 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
what could be the reason they are adding u
(5:14 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
leave the 3
(5:14 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
for what reasons
(5:14 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
they're desperate
(5:14 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
datz all
(5:14 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
if takes less than 10 sec to delete em
(5:14 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
desp means their minds are currpted already
(5:14 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
do u like know them or something
(5:15 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
a few is fren'z fren I think
(5:15 PM) «Lovelight» ¤:
den the 2 or 3 say dey got my e-add frm Friendster
(5:15 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
friend friend's doesn mean ur friend
(5:15 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
if u don know them just block them
(5:15 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I mean
(5:15 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
when dey 1st add
(5:15 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
who wld xpect them 2 b lyk dat?
(5:15 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
coz most frenz r nice ppl
(5:15 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
dey dun sound lyk the despo type
(5:16 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
thats because u don see inside
(5:16 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
*sigh*
(5:16 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
nvm
(5:16 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u dun understand the situation
(5:18 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
its lke ur becoming sad
(5:18 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u dunno how I feel
(5:18 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
angry
(5:18 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
and what so ever
(5:18 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u r always angry
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u r always attitude
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
seriously
(5:19 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
i;m not
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u dunno wad u 1
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
yes u r
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
reflect
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
come on dude
(5:19 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
i know what i want
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u dunno wad is ur goal
(5:19 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u reflect on urself
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
1st u want
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
den u regret
(5:19 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
even if i'm
(5:19 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
i show it
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I knw wad I want
(5:19 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u kept thinking so much
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
big fuckin' deal?
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
do I look lyk fuckin' care?
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
it's not as if I always tell u... hey,u knw
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
blah blah blah
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
fk lah
(5:19 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
i think i know myself better than u know me
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
wad is up with u?
(5:19 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
knn
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u wanna find fault izzit
(5:20 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
don knn me
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
1st u ask
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
hv song
(5:20 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u started it first
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I say no
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
basket
(5:20 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u said whats wrong with ma nick
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
wazzup
(5:20 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u don like than its ur problem
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
not wrong
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
ass
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
wad I dun lyk
(5:20 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
ur a friend stealer
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I juz ask only
(5:20 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
and despo for guys
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
wad friend stealer?
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
ass lah u
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I dun steal frenz
(5:20 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
ask what u did
(5:20 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
don ass me
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
Y wld I?
(5:20 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
U STEAL FRIENDS
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
(5:20 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I dun steal friends
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
tell me who I steal
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
TELL ME
(5:21 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
everyone in my class says ur a friend stealer
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
TELL ME
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
who the fuck?
(5:21 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u tried making friends with those like 'Others"
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
every1 in ur class?
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
LOL
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
lame
(5:21 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
don have to lame
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I did not try mkin' frenz with "others"
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
tell me
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
tell me
(5:21 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u started everything
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
explain every damn thing
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
wad started
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
fk lah
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
basket
(5:21 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
u stole people from someone's else friendtsr
(5:21 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
all of her friends
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
who
(5:21 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
tell me
(5:22 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
wad all her frenz?
(5:22 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
tell me
(5:22 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u tell me who
(5:22 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u dun say she she she
(5:22 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
her her her
(5:22 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u tell me

(5:24 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
serene don even know u
(5:24 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
and u tagg her blog
(5:24 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I knw her thru Eadiv
(5:24 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
like ur a close friend like that

(5:25 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
nw u're tellin' me I steal her frenz?
(5:25 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u tell me whoelse
(5:25 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u tell me
(5:25 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
tell me everythg
(5:25 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
dun hide everythg frm u
(5:25 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u tell me nw
(5:25 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
if u can't tk a joke den nxt time I won't bother

5:29 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u dun juz say
(5:29 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
friend stealer
(5:29 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
talk is cheap
(5:29 PM)
You have just sent a Nudge!
(5:29 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
not sure will become bf stealer next time anot
(5:29 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
(5:29 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
(5:29 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I'm nor that kind
(5:29 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
oh ur not a friend stealer
(5:29 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
mind u
(5:29 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
lemme jump for joy

(5:29 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u tell me now
(5:29 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
FRIEND STEALER
(5:29 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
YOU DEFINE THAT
(5:29 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
U TELL ME NOW
(5:30 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
DUN KEEP CHANGININ' SUBJECT
(5:30 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
U TELL ME NOW
(5:30 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
why don u jus block me

5:30 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
u ask
(5:30 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
for song
(5:30 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I say no
(5:30 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
den I say...wazzup with ur nick?
(5:30 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
I was juz askin'
(5:30 PM) «Łòvεïgнτ» ¤:
but such an idiot got it all wrong
(5:31 PM) ± XamXon ± Җ Mus:
we are friends nomore

Ok,I am not so innocent in the converastion but I didn't mean anything at all. I don't know how he sees it as but I was a little like teasing that's all. I didn't mean anything. Besides,a little poke of fun isn't really that harmful right?

I don't know he look at it as but I don't have any intends or whatsoever. I'm just trying to get over with what happened earlier and hopefully,I'll not think about it. That's all. Nothing more,nothing less.

I wonder why he thinks I'm saying it's REALLY HIM. *Sigh* It's difficult to explain but what can I say? I didn't say "We're not friends anymore".

His the one who say and I didn't even say like "Fine" or anything. I just block him and that's it. I don't want it to go further.

I just want to end it. That's all. Besides,I actually wanted to take a nap at about 6pm but things just isn't the way I wanted to be.

I don't know how each individual look at it as and maybe to some to lose a friend is nothing. However,frankly speaking... This is like a nightmare.

I simply don't understand why. I always regard him as one of my good friend and I remember a friend but I can't remember who the person was who mention this to me: "I don't like him. He just sucks."

I always defend him because I don't think he really sucks. Besides,I regard him as one of my good friend but who would expect such things to happen?

It's really tough. Maybe some might not understand. Definitely,I am angry because of what happened. Not only because of this but because of the events that happened earlier today,I just feel frustrated about it.

I think the most painful part would be whereby he said I'm a friend stealer. What did I do to steal friends? Tell me.

If I know someone like let's say through my friend,only then I'll add but to say such things,you know it hurts?

I'm not just saying like just get to know by my friend just like that. As in I have that person in my MSN contact list.

His like telling me I steal his best friend Serene. Come on. I don't steal. Besides,I don't know if she could remember this but I know her through my primary school friend - Eadiv. I still remember him adding her into the conversation and we chat.

Added into my MSN contact and we exchanged numbers but I remember I did not reply her text messages a few times as I totally forgot about it. Coincidentally,my brother wants to use my phone for a few days.

*Sigh* I don't know if she remembers that but I do remember that. That was like in 2003 if not wrong. At that time,Eadiv was still using his reddevil_hulk that email address.

You see,I'm simply shock with what he has to say. Friend stealer. Why must I steal friends? Besides,if I'm not wrong my former secondary school classmate - Wendy knows her. You call that steal? I mean she was my classmate!

Not only friend stealer,boyfriend stealer? Come on. I'm not like that. I have my pride and why must I ruined people's happiness?

Besides,I used to like this guy and this guy is attached with this girl whom I know and she sort of kept apologising to me as she thought like because I like that guy and she was like attached to him.

I told her,"No,nevermind. His yours. Not mine. You don't have to say sorry."

I said that sentence back then in 2002. This was before I like that 5 letter guy.

You call that steal? I don't steal. I won't say I'm that innocent nor would I say I'm bad.

Tell me do I behave like a gangster,drink or smoke? I don't. That's why I don't consider myself as bad nor would I say I'm good. I just joke by saying "I'm good!"

That's what I usually do to my other friends when chatting with them but of course,we're humans - How do you expect everyone to be very good?

Can't I just joke a little? I didn't mean it in any way.

THE FACT IS THAT - I DON'T HAVE ANY INTENTIONS AT ALL!!

Since he wants it that way,what am I supposed to do?

Caroline did that to be before,so I know how it's like going through something which I do not enjoy. Sure,he may jump for joy but have you ever like think or ever wonder what if friends are gone?

Sure,he may be like "No way,my friends will always be with me..."

Well? He may think that way but for me,I'm different. I treasure my friends. You have to appreciate things and yes,I did that. I appreciate the things around me,I appreciate the people around me and I appreciate what god has given me.

What we have today might not last forever. You won't know when it'll be gone. I've been through it,therefore I know how painful it is. 2002 was a painful year for me and it'll be remembered but there are some precious memories too. I guess life's like that.

Remembering my first experience that I went through with Caroline is painful but it's in the past already and she listened to this #####. It was an misunderstanding too.

How many misunderstandings must happen? I knew her for 6 years and I never thought that the friendship would end. It didn't involve her but she listen to this --- !! I can't believe she trusted "her" more and "she's" the type whereby you cannot use her thing but she can use your thing.

I don't know what did she do to make Caroline said that but I heard from a friend that Carol did ask about me when in secondary school. Why ask?! I didn't how much expression that I'm down or what,I just take it as if nothing happened.

Back then,I was even more hot-tempered so I just show a bit of temper but I told myself to not show it all but of course,deep inside me I'm hurt and sad because I and her were really good friends and such things happened because of a girl that we just got to know for two years.

It's just a natural reaction - If you don't like somebody you'll call that person names or even say that person is lousy even though you know that,that person has done something good or great. Well? If his happy with this then let it be. We're humans anyway and I bet he'll be calling be "bitch" now.

Heck,I don't care but all I got to say is that... I will always remember the good times with you but well? I don't think you will be able to remember them.

I'm sure he'll be like "Heck! Who cares?!"

Sure it wasn't much or whatever you might put it as but I remember the times where we send songs,those few times we had lunch,not forgetting on a rainy day whereby you bought cookies.

Sure it might not be anything to him but as a person,I am someone who treasures friendship and good or bad,what can I say? Their memories after all.

I always remember those memories with my friends. Good or bad? Well,their memories but they'll always be remembered. Even if friends forget,at least I remember and that's good enough for me.

What can I say after all? If I've gone through what I've experienced before,I can take this one too.

To lose a friend is a pain but if a person who doesn't even bother? They won't even give much of a thought and just express whatever they feel like.

I was really upset and disappointed just now but well? I'd like to thank Fiqah,Bernie and Desmond.

Bernie was like trying to calm me down,whereas Desmond (my classmate) was like a motivator I guess. Sure he said it's nothing but it sort of make me look on a brighter side. In short - a booster. Whereas Fiqah is like making me smile.

You put them together and you complete it. A motivator,someone who calms people down and someone who'll make you smile. =)

Alright,I guess I better be going now. I have to refresh my memory and revise on my Engineering Essentials (EES). I wonder if the test is going to be tough. Hmm... Well? Like they say,if you never try - you'll never know.

As for now...

I just have to concentrate on what I'm supposed to do - That is to study for my test. About the matter? Well,if he wants to complain to his friends,let it be then. They just don't know what type of person that I am. If they want to have a bad impression on me - Leave it to them then because god knows.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠10:00:00 pm♠