I don't know but sometimes I feel like I'm a failure,sometimes I feel like I'm a loser,sometimes I feel like I'm lousy BUT at times I'll feel great,at times I'll feel good,at times I feel so high up in spirits whereas sometimes I just don't know what I'm feeling.

Mixed feelings? I don't know. Certainly I don't like it. That's one thing for sure and I have to say it's a bad feeling because I don't like the feeling of it.

Seems like today,only some people can make me feel better. One of them would have to be my mother. Maybe listening to Subsonica songs helps too. I'm listening to it at the moment. Seems to sort of make me feel better. I don't know why either. Maybe because I'm listening to one of my favourite songs? "Incantevole".

The song that's playing as background music on my blog. That's the song. "Incantevole".

It's a nice song. I love that song. "Fuori è un mondo fragile......." = Outside it is a fragile world.

Darn. I don't know but I feel like screaming out loud or maybe smash things. I really don't know but whatever it is,I'm trying to keep my cool. I'm quieter than usual.

One thing is for sure... Lee Ying is very irritating. She always think that she's great. I don't know what is up with her. Even small little things she likes to argue. I can't stand that attitude of hers. It makes others sick I tell you.

Oh well... Later!

Friday, December 29, 2006

Xiaoqiang also known as - Angie (That's what people call her at work actually) is my best friend. I sort of miss those days we had fun. It was fun. Oh well... 2006 has been a good year for me. Though there were up and downs and my results sort of slipped and I was shock! Couldn't believe my luck. Kept wondering,why must this happen to me?

It was a little down for me. Sort of a down period for me. I wasn't feeling my best. I think I lost focus for a moment. Thank godness,I regain focus as quickly as possible. Phew~

That regain of focus wasn't all that. I still got 4 for Science but Maths improved. I got 4. Wasn't what I wanted. I wanted at least 2 or 3 for Mathematics. English wasn't what I wanted. I got 2,not 1! Oh well...

The surprised was... N level results! I'm speechless,shock - Stunned? Would you describe it that way? Hmm... I,as usual,feel nervous. Heart racing like the choo-choo train. I feel cold after that. HAHA.

When I get back from my teacher,I am totally speechless. My mind was blank. Didn't know what to expect. When he point to me showing one of the grades that I got,I thought "Oh no!" as I saw a FOUR. That's for Mathematics!

When he said his disappointed,I feel like "gosh! I could have done better". It's only when he said overall good I'm quite pleased actually. I didn't notice my other grades at first.

When I looked at it,I couldn't believe it. Simpy surprised. Yes,I know I did mention about my grades in the earlier entries but I'm just reflecting on it now.

Could have done better for English but it was ok. Pleased with the rest except for Maths but to think about it,it was ok as I didn't have time to finish some questions.

Guess that's about it. Looking back at it and reflecting. What nice memories. I can't believe it's going to be 2007 soon. Oh well,let's just look ahead and I'm sure they'll be obstacles ahead. Obstacles for this year has been handed well. Hopefully,my year will be like this year's. As in - Smooth flowing.

Alright,I've to go now.
Later~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠6:55:00 pm♠

It's THREE minutes to 3AM. Here I am blogging. Well? I simply just decided to blog.

I've got not much to do at the moment. Just hoping that by blogging,I'll feel tired. As in,I'll feel like sleeping. I'm a little tired only but hoping I'll feel tired at the end of this entry.

Anyway,currently just surfing the net and chatting with Bernie and Samson only. Currently only 25 contacts are online. Some are busy and some are away.

Got my results yesterday. Got posted into my first choice. In fact,I only pick two choices. Lucky me. Got into my first choice. Anyway,my mind was like "Come on,6 points! The cut-off points is 12!" but my heart was doing another thing. It wasn't calm. Instead,it was like a choo-choo train.

Full speed ahead! That was how I was feeling.

After checking it out, - "Phew!~" That was how I felt. When I calmed down,I then started thinking. "Why was I feeling that way earlier on?"

I simply couldn't understand why. Oh well... It's over for now.

I feel that December is a good month for me. Ain't that bad. It's nice to have friends to chat with. You can learn something and exchange ideas. Isn't it nice? Oh yes... Thanks to TECHNOLOGY!

Technology is simply great. That's all I can say. MARVELLOUS.

As usual,the pros and the cons. What can I say? In everything,there's always the advantage and the disadvantage. What can we do about it? Unless we can invent something that suits to our needs. As in everything that you can imagine under one. Ain't it great?

How I wonder. If only I have something that's like that. Hmm...? The thing is,what thing would it be? Hmm.......

Hmm... Let me see. Few more days to 2007. Oh my. That's very fast. I think soon,I'll have to have a list of what I want to achieve. Think I should get started soon.

I'm like blogging half way then surfing and while waiting for it to load,I'm blogging. Haha. That's how I do. Multi-tasking! Tada! LOL.

Crap. Haha.

Alright,I think I should end here now. I want to surf. Besides,I need to use the toliet!

Peace out.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:14:00 am♠

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Yawns! Just as I was beginning to type this,I start to feel tired.

Horrible. Anyway,it's been raining since last night. Brrrrr... Feeling kind of chilly. Went to school earlier on to buy my brother's books and uniform. My brother got posted to Hai Sing Catholic School. A school which I'll be officially graduated on 31st December.

I am still considered a Hai Sing Catholic School student for now. Soon... I'll be officially graduated.

Went to school bought his uniform and oh boy,books ran out of stock! Only managed to get half of them. Guess my mother and I will be going to Popular bookstore to get his books that were out of stock.

After purchasing the books,we went off and headed straight to buy lunch. Yum yum! I was kind of hungry actually.

I bought Cheese Fries whereas my mother bought Chicken Rice and Seafood Rice for my dad,and my brother bought Fish and Chips plus two Chicken wings.

We waited for the bus and moments later,to be exact - 15 minutes later the bus arrived. I think the bus driver is new as he drove straight after the bus stop opposite Block 230 (the bus stop at Pasir Ris Crest first bus stop).

The bus was supposed to turn after the first. That is at the traffic junction. Instead,the bus driver went straight till the other two who were assisting him told him that he made a mistake.

It wasn't the first that I experienced that sort of thing but well? What can I say? Human make mistakes. There was another encounter which is similiar to the one I experienced earlier on,and the other - the bus was supposed to have the "T" plate but the driver forgot.

It wasn't my fault! He forgot and like any other day,I'll take the bus without the "T" plate from my school bus stop but that day was different. I was told to alight and a few others. The driver told the other driver at the interchange about it and yeah,it wasn't our fault.

Anyway,anything can happen. Nothing is impossible. Though we humans may thing that some things are impossible. If I were to be honest,there are some things that I think are impossible but well? You'll never know.

I'm simply tired. Was surprised to see some people. Not just anybody but somebody I know that is. Well,what can I say? It's a small world after all.

Just like my mother,who met her cousin earlier on and it's like they've lost contact for quite sometime already. So you see? Get the picture? Well,just using that as an example.

Anyway,it was a smooth flowing day so far. Just nervous. Well? Nervous about tonight's match that is. HAHA. Oh my. I can't believe I'm so into football now. Arghhhh!! I fear of addiction because once I got addicted to something,it's hard for me to go easy on it.

Oh boy. It sure is difficult. Have to remind myself,"RELAX!"

Gosh,I'm yawning again. Ok,I guess I better be going. Take a nap. Take a one hour nap and wake up at 6.30pm. Hmm? Or maybe at 7pm! I guess I really need the nap. I slept at 4.30AM!

I wanted to sleep but while I was channel surfing,I came across this show on channel 5. Perfect. As I was about to switch off the television,this show "Disappearence" just started and it sort of capture my attention. Yes,it caught my attention. So I decided to stay on and watch.

It sure was spooky. It's more of a mystery. Was kind of scared too but well? I just hug pillows. HAHA. Scream? Nah,I did not. I just hug my pilliow very hard if the part is scary or spooky-like kind of scene.

Alright,enough talking.
I better get some rest. I mean,nap!
Later~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠5:30:00 pm♠

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Having sex with a robot?

Would you? Well,there's this article I read in the papers earlier on and I was like "Oh my!". Weeks ago,I was actually telling a friend,"Since robots are able to do anything,who knows in the future it could be more than they're doing at the moment?"

Reading the article gives me a shock because I was actually discussing with a friend,about perverts around and preying on innocent victims. They should actually have a robot to "satisfy" them.

If I am not wrong,they are planning to do so. To those "always feeling high" or in short those horny fellas should actually have that and stop preying on innocent victims. I really pity those victims.

I mean like... What did they do wrong? Tsk. Those who does things like that are simply heartless. You just simply care for yourself. Then again,the robot thing will maybe be available five years from now.

Well? Hopefully,five years from now... Those "fellas" can just do it with the robot. Well,that's your problem. You want to do it as many times as you like,go ahead at least you didn't harm anybody.

Well,ok... Like they say "The real thing is better" but I think with this,those hungry for more can just use the robot to "satisfy" them. At least they won't harm anyone. Or at least,they won't even though I still think they'll be some perverts who'll still prey on innocent victims. Tsk,I hate such people.

If you really want the real thing,go to red light districts. Get what I mean? Don't harm innocent victims!

They're simply hungry for more. HELLO! Then what is the internet for? Oops. Ok,I didn't mean anything. It's not like I'm promoting porn. I mean if those who are really so hungry for it,you should know where to search it.

DON'T HARM INNOCENT PEOPLE. I hate those who likes to prey on innocent victims. Such man shouldn't even be respected at all. Come on! Get a hold of yourself.

Ok,I understand that guys can be feeling that way but please,get a hold of yourself. Come on!

Tsk. I just don't know what to say about such people. I just dislike them.

Alright,moving on now...

Rejecting someone indirectly?

I know some of my friends will be very direct and tell the person directly but if it's me,I don't think it's nice to do something like that. I would come up with an excuse or tell how I feel but at the same time rejecting someone indirectly.

Recently,I wrote a poem hoping he'll get it. I just don't want to hurt anyone. That's all. Some friends might consider giving the person a chance but it's just me,if it's me,I just won't.

If I don't have feelings for the person,I would not be with the person. Only if I do have feelings or at least some feelings for that person only then I'll be with that person.

Then again,I don't like short-term relationship. I prefer long-term relationship. Some people are just unsure of their feelings.

Oh well... I guess this kind of things can be complicated.

Hmm... Christmas is coming. Santa's coming to town - Tonight tonight! LOL.

Ok,there'll not be Santa but oh my,it's soon to be NEW YEAR! 2007 is soon! Gosh,guess I should be planning what I want to achieve in 2007 and what I wish to have in 2007.

Alright,enough talking. I've to go now.
Later!~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:03:00 am♠

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Finally it's over.

I'm simply happy. It wasn't what I expected. FOUR 1's but THREE 1's is good enough. I'm very pleased with my Science results as it's been awhile since I last got a 1.

English - 2 [Not what I wanted but it was ok as I made few mistakes in Paper 1.]

Maths - 4

Science - 1

Computer Application - 1

Elements of Office Administration - 1

Chinese - Ungraded

That's the only subject that I don't have any grades.

Oh well... It was good after all. What can I say?

Ms Cindy Soh gave a few pupils $10 for English results. I forgotten about it and seriously,I'm not like "Oh,I want!" that type. If you give,I'll take. That's all and yes,THANK YOU.

I think I'm going to miss her because she's a nice teacher. She's very caring too.
Oh well,time flies very fast. I can't believe I've finally completed my N levels and gotten my results back already. I never thought of this before.

It never cross my mind and I didn't expect that four years would come very soon. I now realise I'll be leaving soon. Next year onwards,I'm no longer a Hai Sing Catholic School student anymore.

I'm hoping to get into one of my choices. Info-communications & Technology or Multimedia Technology? I wonder which one will I get in. Oh well... Both still need Mathematics and my grade for it is 4.

Maths and two other subjects. Maths + Science + CPA/EOA = 6 and their cut-off point is 11 for ICT (Info-communication & Technology).

Alright,let's not talk about it. I'm just excited. That's all.

Currently just listening to "Strade" by Subsonica. Simply love that song. "Strade" means "roads" in English. I came across this Italian band - Subsonica through Chelsea's second choice keeper - Carlo Cudicini's website (www.carlocudicini.co.uk) as the music for that site is "Strade".

I simply got addicted to it. I was addicted but not so overly addicted to it till recently,I'm really really addicted to it. I like the tune of the song. Listening to their other songs are also nice. I find them unique. Rock on! - SUBSONICA!

In fact,the music for my blog currently is one of their songs.

Hmm... I feel like buying their album. Do they sell it? I've not seen any. Maybe I should check HMV out when I'm free. I've been there for quite sometime though I pass by the store but I didn't go inside to check out.

Guess I should be checking it out one of these days.

I thought of getting the Sony Mp3 player. Gosh! It's nice! I really like the design of it. I don't understand why people buy iPod. I would somehow prefer Creative mp3 players to iPods. Maybe because of the name "Apple" that's why they get iPods.

I've read reviews about it and some are complaining of battery life. Well? I'm not very sure about it as I don't own an iPod but I have Creative mp3 player.

Speaking of all these,I wonder what would the world be without technology and gadgets. Call me a gadget freak or a techy (techno) but well? I really like those stuff. I find them interesting.

There are a lot of things that I don't know about the Technology world but to think about it,we should consider ourselves lucky to have all these. If we don't have technology,I guess I won't be here blogging and there won't be a place called "Blogger" or Internet.

Meaning to say... No computer,no speaker,no internet,no music and the list goes on. Imagine you were many thousand of years ago where "gadgets" were unknown and "technologies" were also unknown. How would the world be?

If it's me,I think I'll be very bored. NO television,NO computer,NO internet... Oh my. I don't know how am I going to survive without all those.

Thanks to technology,we have all those gadgets that makes my life easier. Not just mine but to many billions of people in this world.

It's amazing and fantastic. Simply one word - Powerful.

Happy happy happy!! Gosh. I simply feel happy.

Let me recall what I did last week. It was a good week actually.

Hmm... Oh yes. I visited the zoo. Singapore Zoological Gardens. It was I think my first time. Yes,I did mention that I wanted to go during the first week but it was raining so in the end went to watch "Happy Feet". It was ok. Not that bad. I would rate it 3 out of 5.

Oh yes,after visiting the zoo. At about 7pm after we came home,around 7.30pm - My family went to the Courts megastore. I'm hungry so my father decided to go and eat dinner first at the Megastore.

It was more of a cafeteria kind I would say. Like IKEA? Oh well... It sure was tiring as before that I went to the zoo then to the Megastore. It was tiring but fun. I reached home at about 11pm. My legs were aching as we walked home. It's not that far. It's like two bus stops away only. Took about 15 minutes only.
Anyway,it's a form of exercise!

That was one of a memorable one that I can remember. The other memorable thing was Didier Drogba's goal! It was fantastic. Everton was leading twice. First in the the first half after Khalid Boulahrouz pushed one of the Everton player and a penalty was given.

Chelsea equalised during the second half with a free-kick taken by Michael Ballack. Moments later,Everton were leading again!

Chelsea changed tatics again. Khalid Boulahrouz and Arjen Robben were taken off replacing with Wayne Bridge and Salomon Kalou. Oh yes I forgot. Geremi was taken off too. Andriy Shevchenko was sent on.

It changed the game. It was the ball which Salomon Kalou got and passed to Frank Lampard and bam! Goal! Stand-in Captain for injured John Terry - Frank Lampard equalised! 2 - 2! Besides,equalising for Chelsea,he is now Chelsea's top midfielder scorer for Chelsea with 77. Minutes later,Didier Drogba with a fantastic goal. Chelsea - all 3 points!

Surprisingly,Manchester United lost to West Ham. That's like... Woohoo!~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠7:12:00 pm♠

Sunday, December 17, 2006

I'm scared! I'm nervous! Oh my! How?!

I'm really worried. Tomorrow is results day and I hope I'll pass well! I really want to do well. I'm so scared now. How?! Oh my... I'm starting to get a little panic but I hope I'll be please when I see my results and hopefully they'll be a big smile on my face.

I'm so scareeeedddddd. Arghhhhhh... I just don't know what to say or what to do but to PRAY to god and hope I do well.

2pm is the release of results. Arghhhhh!! Will I survive? I'm so scared! Very nervous. I just hope that by looking at my results I'll feel great about it.

As for now... I am very scared and nervous. My heart is beating fast. Oh boy! Gosh,I never had this feeling for quite a while and now I'm having that kind of feeling again!!

Gosh. Time flies very fast and for all you know in about two and a half weeks or less,it's 2007!!!

Arghhhhhh!!! It sure is fast. I mean - VERY FAST. *sigh* I wonder,how is it going to turn out tomorrow? Will it be good?

The only thing I can do is to pray to god for now and just hope for the best. I simply don't know what or how to describe how I'm feeling now.

Oh god,please help me!

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠4:09:00 pm♠

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Good morninggggggg!

Birds are chipping,the sky is blue and the sun is out. Ahhhh yes. It's weird to see me awake at this hour. Especially in the morning at a time like this! It's 8.40AM now.

Was watching the delayed telecast of Chelsea's match at 6 earlier on and it was the same score as Barcelona. 2 - 0. Chelsea 2 - Levski Sofia 0. I am surprised with the goalscorers today.

I bet most people might be thinking of Didier Drogba,Frank Lampard or maybe Michael Ballack BUT no,it didn't turn out that way. Instead,it was people who I least expected it. Andriy Shevchenko and... SHUAN WRIGHT-PHILLIPS!

I was stunned. I mean,it was shocking to see the people I least expected to score scores but of course,you have to say Andriy Shevchenko is a goal scorer. He is expect that when he arrives at Chelsea he wasn't at his best and it's like Didier Drogba is the on-form striker.

Arjen Robben hasn't been scoring any goals this season but he has been quite good but at times it's a little disappointing from him but still,I still like him as a player. I know that he did dive in the past but you have to say,he has the quality in him. One good example of him earlier on was that he slipped and fell but he quickly got up on his feet. You can't say his diving because he isn't.

Hmm? Well? In the past,well... He did but his learning and that's good. Whatever it is,or whatever people or the media might say about him diving and all sorts of stuff,I still think he is a good player. His so energetic and good.

Alright,moving on now. I feel that the game was a good one. Let's give some credit to Levski Sofia. They didn't give up. They played some good football and in the last few minutes. Phew! They almost scored.

Well,it was a good job by Hilario as he kept it at bay with a clean sheet. Besides,he made a good save. Phew! If he didn't,Levski Sofia might have scored. There were a few times where Levski Sofia were somehow pressurising Chelsea players as they got forward and there were a few on-target shots.

It was a fair game. No yellow cards nor red and that's good. No injuries. Overall I'd say good. The referee was fair.

Hmm... Oh well... Two more days to my brother's birthday. He is soon to be 12 years old but sometimes he seemed to act like a big boy in the way that he tend to think of the future.

There were times where he asked me if I got married what would I do? Will I still watch football and stuff like that. There were times where he said this to me... "When we grow up next time,I'll protect you - My sister." I mean... His my younger brother! He? Protect me? Haha. Isn't it supposed to be me to protect him? Which of course I did! I stood up for him for a number of times in fact. Anyway,at the end of the day he is still my own blood and flesh. His my brother!
Speaking of brother,I haven't bought anything for him for his birthday. Oh my.

Yawns? Well,no. I don't feel tired. In fact,I sleep for a few hours only and I can't sleep well! Sheesh Horrible. I just feel so hot that I can't sleep. It's like I slept at about 2AM,woke up at 4AM as I feel hot tried to go back to sleep and I did try to get some sleep but woke up at about 5 and after that I can't get to sleep. I just take some nap then about 5.40AM I woke up again and darn,I can't sleep.

I just lied on the bed till about 6AM. To be exact,5 minutes before 6 as I needed to use the toliet and there after that,I'm here now! Haha.

It's not very me to be awake at this hour. I guess maybe later in the afternoon I'll take a nap and I thought of getting a good rest tonight by not sleeping late. The latest by 2 or 2.30AM I guess. That's somehow early compared to sleeping at 4 or 5AM which I usually do during this holiday.

I wanted to sleep by 1.30AM just now but I was feeling kind of food still as before that I ate KFC's - Ultimate Chicken Meal which consist of a burger,a chicken and popcorn chicken. My brother said I would regret but no. No regrets because I feel full eating it.

Besides,my mum didn't eat the whipped potato finish. She ate half only and gave it to me. The person on the line when I was making my order for the delivery was really nice. Very polite and friendly which somehow makes me feel comfortable talk to.

It's like my 4th or 5th time making an order. I know it's no big deal but usually,I don't do this kind of stuff. Well? What can I say... My family usually have KFC or Canadian Pizza for delivery but that doesn't mean their the only ones.

We've ordered Mcdonald twice if I'm not mistaken. Was it rite pizza or what something but I know we had a pizza order besides Canadian Pizza. Hmm? Oh yes,Pizza Hut too but that was like years.

Oh my. Food. Yum yum! Makes me feel like eating Mcdonalds "Big Breakfast" now. Haha. Alright,I think I shouldn't be talking about those already.

My brother has a hamster (hamsters I mean) now but soon to give away to his friend to take care of it as my mother has been making noise about it as she doesn't like the idea of keeping hamsters.

Well? I'm scared of animals so my opinion about it is - neutral.

Hmm... Let me see how many people are online at the moment. 22 only.

Hmm? None are listening to music. Well? Thought of listening to music. Subsonica!! Wonder what's that? Simple. It's an Italian band. A band that sings the song that's on my blog now. I simply love their song but I love their song "Strade"! Have to be one of my favourite songs but their song "L'odore" isn't that bad.

• The one that's playing on my blog is "Incantevole".

I simply find them unique and their songs are quite nice to listen but I'm not sure to other as this is my point of view.

Anyway,all I have to ahead now is to Arsenal's game! Go CHELSEA GO! Come on BLUES! Do your best!

Oh yes,not forgetting my brothers' birthday party too. Oops. Oh wait. I forgot it's 6 of December already. Arghhhhhh! It means,my brother's birthday is TOMORROW!

Alright,I'm off now.

Peace out.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠9:15:00 am♠