Then again,I would prefer a win. Anyway,that's not all. SUNDAY - Manchester United vs Chelsea. Oh dear. Oh my. Will I be watching? I just don't want to be disappointed but then again,I'm curious to know who wins or it's going to be a DRAW which I somehow think it might be.
Hmm... If it's against MANCHESTER UNITED,definitely a win would make me happy but even if it's a draw,it isn't that bad. If it's a loss... Well? What do you think I'll be like? Definitely disappointed and sad. A draw for me I predict.
Ok,who likes to lose? Ask Jose Mourinho and see what he'll say. I bet he say the same that he doesn't like to lose. I envy him. He has a strong character which stands out.
Alright,moving on now. My brother got his results back and goodie. I'm simply happy for him. Way to go bro! I remembered scolding him and sort of criticise him before his prelims and also before PSLE saying "If you continue to be lazy,you'll fail Maths for sure."
OF COURSE,I didn't mean it. I wanted him to prove me wrong and yes,he did so. Overall was quite pleased with him as he has improved but I believe he is able to do even better. Oh,maybe one thing he is still uncapable of... Keeping secrets.
Sheesh. I still couldn't trust him with secrets. You tell him secrets,he sort of likes to tell or keep forgetting that it's a "secret". Whereas he,himself can be secretive. Alright,I can be secretive at times too.
Anyway,he is really happy. My dad brought us out to eat dinner. Yum yum! As usual,he wants Chicken Chop and I want... FISH & CHIPS! Hmmmm... Food. Ahhhh... Yes,I love food. Their delicious.
Ok,let's not talk about food. I can be addictive to Fish & Chips. It's like I want more and more of it.
Guess that life is always full of surprises and mysterious. Sometimes I wish life would just be simple and not complicated. It can be tiring because you really have to be very patient and take all the pain that you're going through. What can I say after all? Life's like that. You just got to live with it!
How come people are in love easily? I wonder do they really know what is the meaning of love? Even me,myself don't think that I really know the true meaning to it. It varies to different person and your point of view to it.
Seems like people are more of having infatuation rather than they are in love. I just don't understand why people would be so blind at times. Ok,I was blind. To blind to accept the fact.
It wasn't easy to forget a person. I know I was such a fool. A very foolish one and somehow there's this thought that came to my mind at times,"Do you regret? Isn't it a waste of time?"
Maybe to some 4 years is too long and they won't hold on,they'll move on and regret. I am a foolish person and to some they think I'm a flirt because I would somehow "claim" I like another person but the truth is... NO.
I just want to forget about that person and move on. Maybe I had some infatuation going on but it's just a matter of time. After which,I just couldn't lie to myself because my heart knows it's only him.
It's ridiculous. Regret? Yes,I regret. I regretted that I couldn't prevent myself from falling for him. I wish I didn't fall for him in the first place. *sigh* What am I supposed to do? The feeling is just too strong,I can't resist.
All these while,I sort of lie to myself that I've forgotten about him but the truth is,only my heart knows how I feel. Oh well... No point talking about it already. The past is the past,whereas this is the present so let's look ahead!
I just don't want to fall for anyone at the moment. I am afraid of getting hurt again. I fear of rejection at the same time. I fear of being sad. To think about it,sometimes I simply feel numb. I don't feel anything as I kept telling myself,"Here it goes again" because it isn't the first experiece.
I simply don't understand why some people wants to get married early. Don't you want to travel around the world first or at least go to beautiful countries first and travel a little before settling down?
I won't be rushing to settle down nor would I rush to find a boyfriend. Come on. If you rush and later find out he isn't the right one,what are you going to do? Divorce?
It is a serious matter,when it comes to marriage,it isn't like the usual girlfriend/boyfriend break-up. It's a serious one. Maybe you might not think it's difficult or a problem to you but what if you have children? I just feel that it isn't fair to the child.
Oh yes,one more thing that I notice in some families. They simply love to have a lot of children. That is more than 3. I'm not saying that you can't have more than 3 children but are you able to feed them?
My point is - If you have some financial difficulties,why must you have more kids when you have problems? Come on,pity the kid. As much as a kid means to you,I know that it makes a family but you also have to feed him and provide him an education right? All these needs money.
Well? I don't know if I want to have kids in the future. First of all,I fear of the pain. The pain of giving birth. Secondly,that is if I'm ready.
I wonder how people can give birth several times. Don't they feel pain at all? Ouch. I mean,I'm scared of pain. I remember injuring my arm and leg and my mother was like massaging it and I was screaming!
I know it isn't really like me because I don't quite like to show my emotions of pain or hurt but gosh,I simply can't stand it already. It's hurting me. I told my mum to go slowly but she didn't care and ouch. Yes,ouch - Pain!
I made noise but I tried my best to tolerate the pain but after sometime I couldn't tolerate till I had to ask my mum stop but she still refuses to. It's only then when I hold her hand trying to make her stop and all she did was to reply,"If you want to get better,you have to bear the pain."
Yikes! Oh well,I just have to bear with it. It happened to me like a few times already but hey,it's great! Within a few days,I feel great. No more pains! Guess in life you have to tolerate too.
You have to tolerate with all sorts of things as there are many obstacles yet to overcome.
Speaking of all sorts of things. I somehow do feel jealous at times. Gosh. I know I'm not that type who gets jealous easily but at times I do feel jealous and I can't believe it either. I actually do get jealous!
Arghhhh... The good thing is,I don't show it. So you won't know if I'm jealous or not. Then again,I think somehow at times you could tell that I am but well... Go figure yourself. I'm not telling how's it like when I feel that way.
Jealous in a good way? Well,at least I'm not like "Oh,I'll get my hands on you soon!" that type. Don't get me wrong and think I'm up to no good. I'm not that kind.
"If it's meant to be yours,it'll be yours." Get what I mean by that?
Hmm... Speaking of being jealous,I somehow like to make people feel jealous at times. Ho ho! Playful me. Hmm? I just want to see how they'll react. Oops! See no evil,hear no evil.
As a girl,I love being pampered but also,I find it hard to trust guys. They are sweet talkers and I'm scared of sweet talkers.
I just want someone whom I can be comfortable with and not sweet talkers because I won't know if their sincere or not. It's better if it's someone who can understands me. Not someone who just wants to make me feel happy for the sake of it.
Darn. I miss that dream that I have the other day. It was so nice! Arghhhhhh!! If only it was real but I'm still wondering who was that person in the dream.
Ga ga ga... Anyway,watched "Casino Royale" yesterday,I would say it's ok. I would rate it 2 and a half stars or maybe 3 out of 5. There were some parts where I didn't quite understand but it was an action packed movie though at times it's a little slow.
Overall,I would say Daniel Craig is somehow cool but if looks? He doesn't have that pretty boy look. Oh yes,I noticed that James Bond movies are always lots of kissing. Haha! Well? It's the truth,don't you agree?
Was watching one of previous James Bond's movie which stars - Roger Moore. I think his hot. Haha... Well? My mum likes him. Hmm? Ok,she can have him. I can have Jude Law. Haha! Wait. Scott Parker! LOL.
What am I? In FantasyLand? Ahhhhhhh! Heck it. Xabi Alonso's injured! Hope he'll recover soon and also - Petr CECH! Petr Cech in action makes it even better. His my favourite keeper!
Alright,I want to go to bed. I'm feeling tired. GOODNIGHT!
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠5:00:00 am♠
Friday, November 17, 2006
Within a week,you could actually learn something. Guess,life is like a jigsaw puzzle. You just got to solve it bit by bit.
You could actually learn something,discover something or pick up a new hobby or interest in something. It's amazing when I think about it at times.
Who say life is BORING and PLAIN? It's actually in your hands. The choice is in your hands. If you say it's boring then I guess you're bored and you're a boring person? No offence but that's what I feel.
Anyway,moving on now... Let's get my entry started. First of all,I couldn't sleep well these few days. Gosh. I don't know why but tell you what,I really hate it. I just want my REST! My SLEEP! Eurghhhh...
I guess I only catch a few hours of sleep only then at 7.15 this morning I've to get up and get ready. Was dragged by my mum. Okay,it wasn't really "drag" but I have to follow her. Hmm... Alright,look on the bright side. It was also my brother's graduation day.
Ain't a bad thing after all huh? Anyway,met Mdm LEE! Yes,my primary school principal and also the current principal of the school - Mrs Goh. It wasn't really that bad. Taken a few pictures with some teachers and Mdm Lee along with the current principal.
I admit I was shy actually. Soon or later,I somehow sort of adopted to it though I felt a little awkward in a way and was still feeling a little shy. IN FACT,I am a shy person in nature!
Ho ho! Yes I am though I know people who knows me might not think that way. I guess it's because I know them and I'm somehow comfortable or used to them. That doesn't mean I'm not shy at all. At times I just feel so confident till I don't even feel shy or something. In short,rather outgoing but mostly,I'm quite shy but I try to hide it.
As usual,I don't wish to show it. I try to make myself comfortable but at times I simply just couldn't. Hmm? Or maybe I need a friend so that I could be well? At least a little comfortable? Oh well,I don't know.
Am I really complicated? I don't think I am really that complicated. Wait. Maybe just a little. Or would you say weird? Well,there are some friends who said I'm weird. Ha ha? Am I supposed to laugh at that?
Guess I don't know because what I think about myself may not be what others might think of me. Like they say... Different people think differently OR another saying - Good mind think alike. Or whatever you phrase it.
It's over now. Pretty fast that Park View Primary School is actually 10 years already. I can't believe it somehow because I was the pioneer batch student. The school started in 1997. That was when I was in primary one.
Ahhhhh... Those memories. I rememebered teachers complaining to my mother that I am "talkative". Well? Guess it's true. Once I start to know someone and we become friends,it's then where I'll start to talk more to that person.
Looking at my primary school report book remarks,"Talkative but helpful","Talkative but hardworking" that kind of remarks,it makes me laugh actually.
Amazing. I am talkative! Yet I'm this and that. HAHA! Hey,it's not me saying my ownself or saying that I'm GOOD. It's fact,it's stated in the report book.
All I have to say is... Time flies very fast. Sheesh. Sometimes I feel like turning back time but that's unrealistic and never will we be able to do that. Guess we could only look ahead. AHEAD!!! LOL.
All I could wish for now is to get good results when I get back my results next month. I would be happy if I get at least three distinctions but it would be better if I get four. How I wish. Ok,don't wish. I'll pray that I get at least three distinctions and the rest at least B3 or B4 at the most.
ONE THING'S FOR SURE... I'll fail my Chinese. I suck. Simply am very lousy at it. Silly me. What can I say? Who am I to blame? My parents? Since the day I was born it seems that my parents have been speaking to me in English and did not utter a single Chinese word till I was like in K1.
I still remember I had problems with my Chinese. I've always hated Mother Tongue classes. It simply sucks. I also remember there were some "forcing" me to change to Malay instead of taking Chinese as my Mother Tongue.
As usual,my dad would always want me to take Chinese as he would always say - Chinese must know how to speak Chinese. Tsk. If only my dad wasn't Chinese. How I wish. Aww... Too bad. HIS CHINESE. Can't do anything about it.
So I could only speak very few Chinese words and Malay. It was horrible. Sometimes I wish Chinese class was ENGLISH CLASS! That way,it would be better. Haha. Ok,tell you what when I was in primary school,I always wish Chinese and Maths class would always be English class BUT guess what?
Tough luck girl! Seems like mostly,especially in primary 5 and 6,most of my English class would be MATHS CLASS! Arghhhhh... I remember the nightmare. Yes,nightmare because I hate Maths. I know it's stupid to say that because you still need Maths but I simply dislike it.
It's when I didn't do well for Maths and I started to hate it. I always love English class as I find it interesting and not BORING. Oh yes,not forgetting Social Studies! My favourite subject in primary school. I still remember Mdm Afidah my primary 5 Social Studies teacher. She's a really nice teacher and seems like it makes me like her lesson even more.
I mean... The way she conducts her lesson and alright,maybe I have interest in it. It's way better than Maths I tell you. Though some disagree. I remember when it's Social Studies,some friends would be yawning and go... "BORING!" but I don't think it is. I find it interesting and like I said... Way better than Maths.
To think about it,I realised that I've never sleep in class before in my entire life! Ok,that would be a lie but almost there. I mean... It's almost I've never sleep in class before during lessons. Why did I say almost? Well,in primary 4 Mother Tongue class,I slept in front of the teacher.
LOL. Why? Simple,it's boring and she doesn't care. What's the difference to her if I don't hand in or hand in Chinese assignment. I suck at it. That's why. Oh well... Other than that,I did not sleep in class during lesson. If teacher isn't conducting lessons or free period then yes,I sometimes take a short nap but other that that,NO.
I'm always awake during lessons. Ok,I didn't sleep during lesson but I talk. LOL. How's that? What more do you want to know? I've ever pass message during lesson. Ever eat in class without teacher knowing. Oh my. I've exposed! Haha.
Those were the days but yeah,I did those and I never got caught. Wait. I did... FOR TALKING and LAUGHING OUT LOUD. LOL. Yes,I only got caught for that.
My teachers didnt know I eat in class. Haha. I still remember,my friends and I did that. The queen of good pretending - Meria. I like her. She's good I got to say. I still remember how she did it without making it obvious or whatsoever. It's rather - natural I'd say. You go girl!
Those were the days and I haven't been laughing out loud that often after leaving primary school. My sidekick - Pearline. I would always remember her for making me laugh nonstop. I remember we would always laugh like mad but guess I'm worst. I laugh till I find it hard to stop. The jokes that we joked about. I won't say we're immature with the jokes but rather lame.
What can I say after all? Being lame can turn out to be funny. LOL. Oh my. At least to me,that's what how I looked at it. We're such goofy people but we had fun. Have to say it was fun.
Hmm... I wonder how is Pearline doing. She must have finished her O level's paper yesterday. She must be chilling now or... PARTYING! Woooooow! Haha. Wish her all the best.
I would like to see good friends doing well. It makes me happy too. Then again,who wouldn't be happy if you do very well? Guess the word won't be happy anymore. It would be FEELING GREAT or... Passed with flying colours.
All this typing make me realise that I actually have lots of things to type about today. La La LA... I'm feeling tired already. Yawns yawns yawns? Hmm... Maybe I should take a nap.
...Well? I'll see how.
These few days also,I've been listening to Italian songs by Subsonica. Their songs aren't that bad quite nice to listen to I kind of liked it though I don't understand Italian. Gosh. "Strade" is one of my favourites and "L'odore".
Maybe someday I'll learn a new language. Either german or italian but on the other hand thought of french and maybe german but well... Let's see how. I somehow would like to learn german because I like RAMMSTEIN! Not forgetting the German football squad!
Lukas PODOLSKI! Philipp LAHM!!
Alright,as for now...
I'm off.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:59:00 pm♠
Friday, November 10, 2006
"...I don't wanna sleep tonight. Dreaming's just a waste of time. When I look at what my life's been coming to... I'm all about lovin' you."
Was that right? Haha. I haven't been listening to Bon Jovi songs for quite sometime and currently I'm listening to their songs from their "Bounce" album. Well,pardon me if I'm wrong with the lines above.
It's been eight days since I last blog here. It's good to listen to Bon Jovi's songs. Currently listening to "Bounce".
"Bounce,bounce... Stand up,shout it out. Bounce,bounce... I play hard,I play to win. Count me out,count in,I'll be back to bounce again......"
Alright,I've change CD already. Currently am listening to their recent album "Have A Nice Day". My favourite song would have to be "I want to be loved". It's so nice! Not forgetting "Dirty Little Secret". I know I've mentioned those earlier in my early entries.
Arghhhh! I really love those songs to bits till I can listen to it over and over again. You go BON JOVI! Some people think that they do not exist already but no! They still do! Muacks!
Oh my. Seems like I've got nuts but seriously,I like their songs. Listen to their lyrics. I simply love it. I think if they keep up with songs something like from their "Have A Nice Day" album,it might attract new fans.
I've been a fan of Bon Jovi for about five years I guess and I won't get tired of them. Listening to their song really makes me feel good. Well,have to say my favourite album is "Crush".
Then again with this,I think this is my second favourite album. I've not listen to their whole range of album but most probably am planning to buy their older albums. Oh well... No matter what,I like their songs. Bon Jovi FOREVER!
Alright,moving on now. Enough said about Bon Jovi. To me,Bon Jovi is always the best.
Oh hey,I've go to go for now. Got to eat some food! Yum yum...
Peace out. Oh yes,CHELSEA!! Mid-week they beat Aston Villa in the Carling Cup, 4 - 0 at home [Stamford Bridge].
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠10:11:00 pm♠
Thursday, November 02, 2006
It was somehow fun in a way yesterday. Went visiting and yes,I've not been blogging for about a week or so. Who cares? I'm here!
Anyway,went visiting yesterday from noon till 10 something. Why 7AM? First,I can't really sleep. Second thing,I was watching Barcelona vs Chelsea match. It's a draw. 2 - 2. Anyway,where was I? Oh yes. The last home was at my house. My friends leave at about 11pm. Gosh,it was one hell of a kind.
I was tired actually. I slept at 7AM in the morning and woke up at 10AM. After that got ready and all then leave home. I was few minutes late meeting Wati. When I arrive,Wati was with her prince. We reached Shana's house at about 12...... Errr? I can't remember the exact time actually.
Anyway,that was the first house we went to. Final destination - MINE.
There were quite a number of happenings and there were mixed feelings at times but it was one unforgettable group. Too bad didn't take any pictures at my house. Anyway,it was late already. My mum sent a few of them to the bus stop.
Despite not taking any pictures at my house,we managed to get a few at Wati's house. Hmm... Am I able to upload the pictures? Let me see if I could.
Yeah! I'm able to! What a rare one. LOL.
Anyway,my mother said Faris was a friendly one. She said that. Oh well,it was nice visiting people's house. Especially it's my first time for each of them.
Oh well... Will continue when I have the time. My computer is start to lag again.
Sheesh.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠10:59:00 pm♠