// My Illusions*
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
It's 3.15AM. Was watching football earlier on but somehow while watching Manchester United's match I felt sleepy but by the time I started using the computer,it seems I'm not sleepy.
Well? At least,not yet.
Currently,I'm just surfing the net. Thinking how will it be like but I tell myself,Barcelona is a good team,I won't be surprised if they beat Chelsea but of course,I'll definitely be upset and disappointed if should that happen.
It would be great if Chelsea won. I'm hoping that Chelsea wins. The sad thing is that Petr Cech (Chelsea's first choice goalkeeper) may be out for a year. Oh my! How horrible!
Carlo Cudicini's fine. His injury wasn't as bad as Petr Cech so I guess he may play Saturday's match against Portsmouth. My my my. It's really not a good news for Chelsea but I hope they'll get through it. Anyway,their team spirit on Saturday against Reading has shown it and proved that they are a team that cares for each other.
Ok,I'm not saying other team doesn't care about their teammates. In fact,they do but all I'm saying is that,Chelsea's team spirit is there. John Terry was a good role model. That's a nice sight from the Chelsea and England captain.
Anyway,let's just hope that things will be fine for them.
Yawns. Starting to feel tired again. Like I was saying,was just surfing the net. Hmm... I don't understand how people fall very fast. Ok,I may have had been in that kind of situation before but in a way,I feel it's still immature.
It's like people go steady. They'll be like,"I miss you!" - "I love you!" Well? You know that kind of stuff and when they break up,they'll cry and stuff like that and for all you know... Once come another,they'll go back to square one with the "I love you" thing.
I think that's sick. Well,that's just my opinion. If it's me,I won't do such stuff. Yes,we all have feelings and sometimes it can't be helped. I understand that but well? At least try not to overboard and it's like teenagers going steady at a young age.
Do you think they are mature enough? As young as 11! Oh my. I still feel that they're immature. I won't rush just to get one. For what? All this is just a short-term relationship. I don't like short-term relationship.
I'm somebody who prefers long-term relationship. A lasting one and not just some kind of infatuation thing or more of a "temporary" kind. Or should I use the terms "puppy love"?
I'm not saying it's wrong but that's just my point of view. Oh yes,another thing is that... Guys! Guys are more of the flirty one. They break up and for all you know - They found a replacement! Ok,to be fair,some girls are also like that.
My my my. I wonder what are they thinking. Yes,you move on but that fast? Even I find it hard to forget a person. Four years and I'm glad I finally learn how to forget. Though I would say not totally but I guess I'll get over it soon.
I'm no angel. Nor would I say I'm a devil. Still,I still think I'm a faithful person. Even if some people might think I'm a bit of a player type. Still,I think I am a faithful person. If I really fall for someone,I would really give my whole heart to that person.
I would be so into the person but of course if the other person is someone who goes too far. Definitely,I'll have to make it halt. Sometimes to look at such things,I wonder why people allow others to "explore" them.
If you know what I mean. Even if you really like that person a lot,you shouldn't be doing that. It's not because if didn't want to means you don't love them. It's more of self-respect. Do you respect yourself?
WE cannot let others take advantage. If we feel that it's not right,stand firm. Well,this is how I feel about the issue. It's such a pity that girls are always the victims. Yet,I cannot understand why they do such things. Ok,maybe some were really forced to but can't be everyone forced right?
Anyway,it's your choice. It's either a yes or a no. If a guy disrespects you,I think you should give him a tight slap. If his really into you,I'm sure he'll respect your decisions.
Oh well... To think about all these. At times it makes me fear of things. I really don't wish to meet a guy who is abusive and impatient. Somebody who doesn't respects you. I really don't wish to meet those kind of people.
What I'm hoping for is somebody who is nice,someone who respects you and understands. I'm not asking for C's or whatsoever. All I just want is somebody who respects and understands you.
Some people or should I say most people would usually look at people by face value and judge them. That's so wrong. Never judge a book by it's cover as you'll never know what kind of content is in it.
I guess it's natural for human beings to react that way. That is why I wish I could understand human beings better or rather read minds! I wish I could.
Oh well... Hopefully those other beings know and are aware of what they are doing and not regret later on.
Ok,as for now. I think I better be off.
Peace out!
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:34:00 am♠