Anyway,some of my friends has started working I guess and I'm like not? My mother disallows me. Now I'm thinking of ways to earn some cash. I remembered doing this survey as I was really bored and a month or two later,I received a cheque of... $8.
Hmm? So $8 may not be something "wow" but imagine,just one survey. Isn't it amazing? Oh well... Let's drop the subject for now.
Currently,I'm just surfing the net. I really don't know what to do at times. At times I feel like reading whereas on the other hand,I feel like surfing the net. Arghhhhh! I'm simply bored? Would you say that?
Maybe not. I don't think I'm that bored. It's just that I'm unsure of what to do.
Thought of putting up my graduation night pictures that I took with my friends but it seems that I always have trouble uploading them. That is WHY I SELDOM UPLOAD PICTURES IN MY BLOG ENTRIES. It's not that I don't want to but I always encounter this problem each time I upload it.
Oh well... I'm off now.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠10:29:00 pm♠
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
It's 3.15AM. Was watching football earlier on but somehow while watching Manchester United's match I felt sleepy but by the time I started using the computer,it seems I'm not sleepy.
Well? At least,not yet.
Currently,I'm just surfing the net. Thinking how will it be like but I tell myself,Barcelona is a good team,I won't be surprised if they beat Chelsea but of course,I'll definitely be upset and disappointed if should that happen.
It would be great if Chelsea won. I'm hoping that Chelsea wins. The sad thing is that Petr Cech (Chelsea's first choice goalkeeper) may be out for a year. Oh my! How horrible!
Carlo Cudicini's fine. His injury wasn't as bad as Petr Cech so I guess he may play Saturday's match against Portsmouth. My my my. It's really not a good news for Chelsea but I hope they'll get through it. Anyway,their team spirit on Saturday against Reading has shown it and proved that they are a team that cares for each other.
Ok,I'm not saying other team doesn't care about their teammates. In fact,they do but all I'm saying is that,Chelsea's team spirit is there. John Terry was a good role model. That's a nice sight from the Chelsea and England captain.
Anyway,let's just hope that things will be fine for them.
Yawns. Starting to feel tired again. Like I was saying,was just surfing the net. Hmm... I don't understand how people fall very fast. Ok,I may have had been in that kind of situation before but in a way,I feel it's still immature.
It's like people go steady. They'll be like,"I miss you!" - "I love you!" Well? You know that kind of stuff and when they break up,they'll cry and stuff like that and for all you know... Once come another,they'll go back to square one with the "I love you" thing.
I think that's sick. Well,that's just my opinion. If it's me,I won't do such stuff. Yes,we all have feelings and sometimes it can't be helped. I understand that but well? At least try not to overboard and it's like teenagers going steady at a young age.
Do you think they are mature enough? As young as 11! Oh my. I still feel that they're immature. I won't rush just to get one. For what? All this is just a short-term relationship. I don't like short-term relationship.
I'm somebody who prefers long-term relationship. A lasting one and not just some kind of infatuation thing or more of a "temporary" kind. Or should I use the terms "puppy love"?
I'm not saying it's wrong but that's just my point of view. Oh yes,another thing is that... Guys! Guys are more of the flirty one. They break up and for all you know - They found a replacement! Ok,to be fair,some girls are also like that.
My my my. I wonder what are they thinking. Yes,you move on but that fast? Even I find it hard to forget a person. Four years and I'm glad I finally learn how to forget. Though I would say not totally but I guess I'll get over it soon.
I'm no angel. Nor would I say I'm a devil. Still,I still think I'm a faithful person. Even if some people might think I'm a bit of a player type. Still,I think I am a faithful person. If I really fall for someone,I would really give my whole heart to that person.
I would be so into the person but of course if the other person is someone who goes too far. Definitely,I'll have to make it halt. Sometimes to look at such things,I wonder why people allow others to "explore" them.
If you know what I mean. Even if you really like that person a lot,you shouldn't be doing that. It's not because if didn't want to means you don't love them. It's more of self-respect. Do you respect yourself?
WE cannot let others take advantage. If we feel that it's not right,stand firm. Well,this is how I feel about the issue. It's such a pity that girls are always the victims. Yet,I cannot understand why they do such things. Ok,maybe some were really forced to but can't be everyone forced right?
Anyway,it's your choice. It's either a yes or a no. If a guy disrespects you,I think you should give him a tight slap. If his really into you,I'm sure he'll respect your decisions.
Oh well... To think about all these. At times it makes me fear of things. I really don't wish to meet a guy who is abusive and impatient. Somebody who doesn't respects you. I really don't wish to meet those kind of people.
What I'm hoping for is somebody who is nice,someone who respects you and understands. I'm not asking for C's or whatsoever. All I just want is somebody who respects and understands you.
Some people or should I say most people would usually look at people by face value and judge them. That's so wrong. Never judge a book by it's cover as you'll never know what kind of content is in it.
I guess it's natural for human beings to react that way. That is why I wish I could understand human beings better or rather read minds! I wish I could.
Oh well... Hopefully those other beings know and are aware of what they are doing and not regret later on.
Ok,as for now. I think I better be off.
Peace out!
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:34:00 am♠
Monday, October 16, 2006
HELLO THERE!
I've not been blogging for quite sometime. The last time I blogged was on my birthday. Today's the 16th. My my my. It's been 12 days since I last blogged.
Anyway,I'm here again! Yes,here to blog!
Hmm... Let me look back at the past week or so and reflect at what has happened in my life.
STARTING WITH 5th of October onwards.
October 5th
A day after my birthday. In the morning,I had Computer Applications paper till about 9.30AM. The paper was ok. Hopefully with my coursework and all,I'm able to get an A! Not just any A. What I mean is to score extremely WELL.
Went over to Angie's (Xiaoqiang) house after that. We studied from 10.15AM to about 1.15PM before packing our things. After which we had done so,we went back to school for our paper. Hmm... Can you believe that we actually really studied for Elements of Office Administration.
I know people will say it's crazy and a waste of time but so happen that we were in the mood to study and I really mean study. We write notes. That's how we study. While writing,we study at the same time. We didn't play any games or whatsoever except to chat and joke and of course,listen to some music.
It was a day where we really sit down for three hours to study the whole book. The papers wasn't a torture to us when we did it. There were only some that we may have forgotten as we concentrated more on certain chapters more but overall,we were able to do with confidence and I think we can pass with colourful colours.
October 6th
The last day of N-levels exams. Went to school early to study with Angie (Xiaoqiang) and Wati. I came half an hour later than them. I actually woke up a little later. That's why I was late. Studied and had a little break in between. Studied till we're supposed to go in the room to settle down.
I think I am able to pass but not sure if I am able to do well. That's my only fear. Anyway,it was over at 4PM. Not only was it the end of N-levels but also that's it. The end of school.
Was really tired after all those but well,it's over.
October 7th
Let me see... What did I do on this day? Hmm... I can't quite remember actually. Oh yes,if not wrong it's Chelsea's match against Aston Villa. It's a draw. Well? I have to say that Aston Villa is a good team under Martin O'Neil.
October 8th
It's Sunday. As usual,family day for me.
October 9th
Just another Monday. Woke up late and stuff like that. Simply me.
October 10th
TUESDAY! Hmm... Let me see... I guess no difference. Still slacking around. Hmm? Was I?
October 11th
Went out with my mother. Was really tired. Disappointed that England lost to Croatia and the second goal was unbelievable! Gary Nevile's back pass to Paul Robinson ended up as an own goal. =( 2 - 0.
October 12th
Stayed home and just relaxing.
October 13th
Graduation Night! How can I forget that day? It was fun. I guess I'll miss my friends. Took pictures! Yeah,brought my Creative Digi-cam. Few even said it's a nice camera. =D
It was really fun. Got to take pictures with Angie and I haven't been taking such stupid photos like that. For instance the toliet roll one. Was just another of my crazy idea when I spotted the toliet roll.
My tie was actually made out of tissue paper! =D It was fun I'd say. I wish there were more of those kind of thing. It was also kind of sad I guess as we'll be going our own ways and start a new chapter.
Everything ended at about 7.05PM. Break fast! Dinner with friends. I guess I'll miss that kind of thing. After that,we took more pictures. It was only at about 8 something then we left school.
If not wrong it was at about 8.15 to 8.25PM. Some went home,whereas some wanted to go and eat. Angie and I went to White Sands for awhile before heading home. We thought of going to Downtown East but changed our minds soon after we were about to head down to Downtown.
That's why we ended up at White Sands! Anyway,we stayed on till about 9.15PM before heading home. I think I'll miss her. We exchanged some words at the interchange before going on our own ways to wait for the bus.
Definitely,I'll not forget her as she has been a good friend to me. My mother called and she insist of waiting at the bus stop for me so I told her which bus I'll be taking.
If I were to take 358,it'll be dark and I have to cross the road. It's very quiet over there at night so I decided to wait for 359 to come. In fact,358 came first but I decided not to take but to wait for 359.
It doesn't matter actually as I can take those two buses. Except that if I take 358,I'll alight at the Siglap Seconday School's bus stop and have to cross the road whereas if I take 359,I'll alight at West Plaza's bus stop and just walk up the stairs and walk pass the multi-purpose hall.
Anyway,it was a memorable night. A night to remember.
October 14th
Oh yes. Happy BIRTHDAY To Li Ting! Jonathan! Berwin! A number of friends birthday and was really disappointing because Chelsea's goalkeepers got injured! BOTH!
Petr Cech's injury was really serious. He has to go for surgery. Poor CECH! =( Carlo Cudicini also got a knocked. Both goalkeepers were unconcious and both were sent to the hospital.
Well? Chelsea did won against Reading. 1 - 0 but it was sad that both 1st choice and 2nd choice keepers got injured. It was really sad. My my my. That means it's left with their 3rd choice goalkeeper - Henrique Hilario. I've not seen him in action actually but hopefully he'll be as good as Cudicini and Cech. Hope their Cech and Cudicini are well!
Go Hilario! Now I fear of the game against Barcelona. =( How? I'm sure everybody is expecting Barcelona to win. Should I watch that match or not?
October 15th
YESTERDAY! Hmm... It's Sunday. Like I said,as usual - Family Day! Was out. Saw my ex-schoolmate,Jun Jie. Hmm... Got a new wallet. Almost bought Adidas but it's too plain. I actually couldn't decide which to buy. Adidas,Nike,Converse or OP? Then I came across this Billabong wallet and I kind of like it.
October 16th
TODAY! Well,at home. Woke up at 2.30PM. Oh my. That's late. Slept at 4AM if not wrong. Oh well... I think I better be going. I'll blog when I have to the time.
As for now...
I'm off!
Peace out...
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:59:00 pm♠
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
I'm finally 16! NC-16 here I come!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! =D I was officially 16 at 8.31AM just now. Why 8.31AM? Simple. That's the time when I was born. 4th October 1990,8.31AM and now 4th of October,9PM.
First of all,I am really happy. Today,I feel special and good about myself. My Science paper wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be. It was quite a relieve for me actually. I expected a tough paper but well? It was managable and I should be lucky.
I should appreciate it. I thought I would be dead but thank god,I'm still alive! Hmm? Well,of course I am alive.
Anyway,it wasn't really all that bad. Like I mentioned,I feel good and special.
Yes,it's my birthday but I didn't expect all those. When I mean "those" it actually refers to those wishes that I got. It's not all about presents or whatsoever,it's the thought that counts.
The thought that could make someone feel good about it. It means people care. Or at least it shows that people bothers to take note.
I like Aida's gift very much. Thanks girl! It was really cute. Most of all,I think the note that she wrote was really touching. Looking back at those memories,it really was special and fun.
Not only it was good memories but it was also something special. A special moment. A memory that'll be kept close to my heart everytime.
I'll remember Aida for sure. She is somebody who's always there to support me in whatever or should I say whichever way is possible. She is somebody who used to give me a lot of support and help in primary school and it's amazing that we've known each other for quite sometime already.
Aww... Those were the days. Yes,the carefree days unlike now - Stressful ones.
Anyway,thank you to all my friends! Yes,my classmates wished me "Happy Birthday" and I think that was nice.
Especially Faris. He was one of the first few classmates or was he the first to wish me. Anyway,it was unexpected. Wang Junyong wished me too. Charlynne,Wati... Keith,Jian Hao..... That was what I could remember but there were few others who wished me too.
It was really sweet. It made me smile but of course me on the hand was pretty worried about the Science paper so I didn't waste any of time but to study for it.
Jaclyn was the first to message me last night. I think about 15 to 10 minutes before midnight. Followed by a few others. Jeremy was after Jaclyn if not wrong. This morning,Darlene sent me a text message.
Oh my. I am simply happy. Followed by Pearline! Pearl Harbour!! *Boom!* Oops. Haha... Most of all,my good friends didn't forget my birthday. I'm so touched.
That's not all... People also wished me on messenger just now. Gosh.
Danke! (Danke is a german word which means "Thank you")
Received testimonials for Aida and Pearline. My my my. Aida again. =) Haha... Anyway,thank you so much! Merci! (Means "Thank you" in French)
Thanks everyone! Thanks for making my day great. =)
Oh well... Tomorrow's paper is Computer Applications and Elements of Office Administration. I really want my A's badly. Hopefully I get my A's tomorrow.
Sometimes I wish I could turn back time or freeze the time. I am simply so happy today.
Oh well... I'm off now.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠9:15:00 pm♠
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Tell me baby... What's your story?
Currently I'm listening to Red Hot Chilli Peppers "Tell Me Baby". I kind of like that song.
I think I lost 10 marks for just now Maths paper. =( I am so sad but I hope those that I know are correct. I am really disappointed and sad.
Seems like my luck is not high enough for this week. I know some might say "Are you crazy? Depending on luck?"
Well? You need some luck somehow.
I hope tomorrow will be a better day. It's my day! Make my day! Aww... I'm plus one tomorrow.
Oh well... I must do well for tomorrow's paper. SCIENCE!!
I really hope I'll get A!
Oh well... Somehow someone did make me feel better after my Maths paper. I just get a feeling that I'll see him and yeah,my gut instinct is so true.
It's nice to see him but whatever feeling I have,I just can't. Well,you know. Anyway,it sort of makes me happy in a way to see him but I don't think his happy to see me.
Well? I was trying to play it cool and I kept telling myself "Snap out of it!"
I don't know but it's been four years but still I couldn't believe myself either. Then again,to think about it... It's like whoever I (try to) like or whatsoever somehow will soon come to an end and I just couldn't forget that very one.
Yes,back to square one. Recently I'm not sure either. I don't know if I am starting to fall for that younger one but hey,that's imposible.
Then again... Anything's possible but for this instance? I don't think it's possible. I can't lie to myself that I somehow do feel that way still for "you-know-who" but come on.
I keep telling myself "Come on!" It's pointless I guess. I'm a fool. What can I do about it? I just can't help the way I'm feeling. I even have the urge to talk to him just now but no,I held myself back. I would be out of my mind if I do that.
I know it was a knee-jerk comment and some may have this impression of me "Timer" but I was just not thinking straight at that time. Ask my heart and my heart will tell you the answer. There's only one person. I just hate myself for doing that and leaving this impression of a timer.
The truth is... I'm not. =(
Oh well... Let's not talk about that.
I have to concentrate on my SCIENCE paper tomorrow. A1! IF NOT A2!
Come to me A's! I want my A's!! =D Alright,before I go nuts I think I better be off now.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠8:36:00 pm♠
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Sometimes I'm not sure what's in my mind. What do I want? What am I looking for? What are my needs.
It's crazy. Just like this crazy world. So many crazy people with crazy thoughts and a crazy mind.
I am somewhat still angry with whatever happened earlier on but hopefully at the end of this entry I'll feel better. Well? I just hope so.
It's like a nightmare. Living in a nightmare? Tsk. I don't know but everytime when something nice or good happens and when I have this "stupid" thought in mind thinking or hoping this will go on,something not too pleasant as I unexpected occurs.
Arghhhhh!! Why do this always happen?!?!
It's not fair! It's not fair! TOTALLY NOT FAIR!!!
The world is so unfair. Ok,let me make this clear. God is fair but human beings are never fair.
Why? Simple. All sorts of people in this world. Sometimes it makes me wonder what is this world all about. I am still searching for that answer can anybody show me or give me the answer? Anyone? Answer my question??
Yesterday I went out I saw so many people asking for money. One was flag day I guess and the other was people begging for money. I don't know but I just decided to donate. The one that makes me really sad is the one begging for money.
Especially after I donated some money she was like putting her face towards her hands and like bowing to me. Oh my. I didn't know or should I say not sure how to react as I was at the same time sad and felt sorry for them.
All I did was smile and nod my head. She said "Terima kasih" that is "Thank You" in malay.
The sight of it makes me feel sorry for them. Yes,in Singapore we don't see much of it but the other countries I'm sure you'll see them often. I don't know if I'm able to look at it.
Everybody just walked pass them. (Them = The old lady and a young girl) Like as if there's nobody. I understand that some may not have the change to donate or give some but well? For those who can afford? Why don't you just donate or give?
I know I couldn't afford to give a large sum but to give a small amount makes me happy.
I guess we all have to appreciate what we have. We should thank god for what we have.
Hmm... Seems like I started cooling down already. Have been surfing the net for the past hour or so and seems like I've calm down.
Gosh... Let's not talk about that already. I don't know how or why I got so emotional and upset.
Anyway,I have been thinking of that person lately. Yes,like in my previous entry - That person I mean.
Oh why do I feel this way? Oh why,oh why... Why do I keep thinking of that person. I still remember the past week when I saw him not smiling,it makes me wonder if his alright. To see him smile,it makes me smile too.
Gosh. Maybe I'm just out of my mind. How can I not know! I mean... People have been telling me that his a flirt type and stuff like that. Yes,I don't like flirts and in a way against them at times but I can't help myself.
Now the thing is... Am I falling for him? It can't be and it's impossible. Hmm... Ok,I did say "Anything's possible,nothing is impossible" but looking the circumstances it really is impossible.
I don't want a one way thing as I had enough of those kind. Me,making the first move? No way! One move and it wasn't the way I expected so... No. I fear something like that will happen.
To think about it,seems like the reason why I fear of this and that is because of what happened before. I guess it must be the unpleasant experience that causes me to be afraid of things and some things were like the things that I used to do or dare doing.
*sigh* I'm so chickened out.
I fear that I'll fall for him. I fall for a guy and I am such a fool. I like him for four years and that's the longest.
The reason why I hate falling for anyone is because it made me look like a fool. There's one humilate me in front of his friends. For two years,I can't believe I was a fool but four years? That makes me even a bigger fool or rather a stupid fool.
Guys are really hard to trust. At times I hate guys a lot. They are such a player. They're sweet talkers. They like to play around with people's feelings. They are such sweet talkers. They hurt you. Some are even worst - A beast.
I'm not saying all guys are like that. It's just that some guys are like that. I can't stand it. Have to say some guys are really nice. Very sweet and all. I am a sucker for it actually.
If his sincere,honest,understanding and someone who treats people with respect... I have nothing to say. Seems like I'll go weak but if the person is the other way round,I'll fight back.
Seems like "Mr.Nice Guy" weakens me. LOL. Hmm? So... Who is that Mr Nice Guy?
Anyway,I believe that girls shouldn't give in too easily to the guys. They may be the stronger ones but we can't let them take advantage. We have to fight for our rights. Stand firm and protest your unhappiness.
Heck them! Just be yourself and express yourself. You don't have to be somebody else to please others. If they don't accept you for who you are,don't bother about them.
Some people calls me meany and stuff like that. Well? I guess you have to know where and when to draw the lines. Some were like "Can you take jokes?"
Definitely I can but it depends. I mean to you it may be a joke but to the other,it isn't so you can't assume that everyone has the same thinking as you.
Yawns yawns yawns. I'm so stressed up. N-Levels starts tomorrow till Friday. I really want my distinctions. I'm so pressurised. I have to sleep early today. I don't want to feel sleepy tomorrow.
I think the latest I'll go to bed will be by midnight then at 5AM I'll wake up to eat my pre-dawn meal and of course! Take vitamins.
I don't usually wake up to eat my pre-dawn meal. I'll usually eat supper then go to sleep till tomorrow. Yesterday supper I ate Egg and plain pratas. I guess for tomorrow till Friday I'll wake up to eat my pre-dawn meal.
Oh well... I should just put everything aside and simply concentrate on my A's. Come on A's,come to me! I want my distinctions.
Come to me!
Peace out...
*Oh yes,HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY TO THOSE CHILDREN!*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠6:18:00 pm♠
I hate everything!
I hate liars. I am so mad right now. Idiot. Who the hell do you think you are? I hate you! You liar!
I hate it when people lie to me. I don't think I can ever trust such liars. Sheesh. Don't ever touch my things. I am so angry to the extend I keep banging things. Arghhhhhh!!!!
Stupid stupid stupid!!!
Simply spoils my mood. Wanted to have a relaxing day as N-levels starts tomorrow but because of this it just spoils everything. It simply makes me want to hate everything.
Arghhhhh!!! I HATE EVERYTHING! Go to hell!
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:44:00 pm♠