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Saturday, July 29, 2006

Sometimes to see someone might change your point of view,whereas at times you feel it's better that way.

Whatever the reason is,whatever the situation is... We're still humans. We have feelings.

Mostly girls are known as the emotional ones but I know some guys can be quite emotional too. Hmm? I don't know if it's a good thing or bad but to me,it's kinda "gay-ish" in a way.

Ok,let me go straight to the point. Emotional? To me,it's more like you're a softie. I prefer the sensible type than a real softie. Well? I don't know about my friends but I know some of friends prefer those rough kind of guy.

Hmm? I prefer someone who is sensible. Someone who is discipline,has a good sense of humor and fun to hang out with. I hate guys who likes to abuse others. We should abuse them! Muahahaha!

What you do to others,others must do the same to you too. In other words,retribution.

Well? We all have feelings but guys that are too emotional is more like a girl to me. He can be emotional but too emotional,one word - gay.

No offence but that's how I feel about it. I don't mind if a guy is emotional. Well? We all have feelings right? I understand that but if too emotional? My god. Are you a girl or what? Then again,it's just my opinion.

Feel free to disagree if you want but that's how I think about it.

Maybe to some you'll be like,"Is there such thing?"

Well? There is. Not only they are really really very and I mean very very emotional,they're also sensitive and worst of all they cry!

I can't believe they cry. Ok,even big boys cry too but not to that extend where a bit of things you cry. That's more like a crybaby or some say that's what girls usually do.

Well? It's not true. I don't cry that often. Hidden tears? Hmm? Maybe at times,yes but if I do cry - It means the pain that I'm going through or the phrase that I'm going through is really painful and it's unbearable.

Well? I don't know but I feel that they should learn how to at least try not to be "extremely" emotional. Even some might say I'm emotional but I'm not like that! At least,at times I still can take it and I don't cry! Sensitive? Maybe at times.

Oh well... It's just that I feel that there's so many types of people in this world. All sorts of character and it sort of fascinates me in a way. It's more like a live television except without a remote control.

Sometimes when I've got nothing much to do,I'll just sit and relax and look around at my surroundings. It's nice to observe others. Ho ho! Don't get me wrong. Not in a pervertic way!

I mean... Just look at what others are doing and how they react. I feel that you'll learn a thing or two. Well? At least to me. Study their body language and the expression on their faces. Sometimes it can be quite funny and it sort of makes me laugh. Oh but not in a sarcastic way. I mean it in a good way.

Life experience. You can learn a thing or two or least understand situations. I was just mentioning to Xiaoqiang (Angie) yesterday (Friday) when I had lunch with her. She may think that I'm up to no good or something but no,I mean it in a good way. Ok,to make it short - Learning from others.

Sounds better? Hmm... To learn from others is a good thing. That way,you'll grow to be a better and stronger person than you're already are.

I would still like to learn more. To speak the truth,I have to overcome my shyness. I may not appear as shy but actually deep down inside me - I'm actually shy! It's not that I'm snobbish. Well? Maybe some might have that impression. It's just that I don't know how to react in or during certain situations.

I really would like to improve on that area. Hmm? Whereas at times I'm a little more of the outgoing type.

Oh well... Yawns! My god. It's 4.11AM! Gosh!

Time flies very fast. My my my. Alright,I'm better be going.

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See you in dreamland!

*Oh yes,another thing - Happy Birthday to Jiayi!*

Peace out.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠4:12:00 am♠

Friday, July 28, 2006

No promises,no promises - No Promisesssssssss...

Yes,I'm simply addicted to the song. I've been listening to it for more than 10 times today. Actually - playing the video. Shayne Ward looks kind of hot in a way. =D

Hmm? I don't know why or how but I simply love the song. I have no idea why too! LOL. Maybe it's nice? Well,it is! Well,at least to me.

Darn. I sort of feel a little unwell. I hope I'll be better soon. I'm just afraid of getting sick. It isn't the right time to fall sick. I want to stay healthy! Hmm? If that's the case, - I will be well! I will be well!

I'm sure I'll be fine by tomorrow. Very sure that I will. =D I wasn't feeling like this this morning,only felt it in the evening. That's why I took a nap. I was acually not feeling good but still fine but decided to take a nap till 8.30PM.

Had my dinner at 9PM just now. Oh my. I really think I have to stop listening to "No Promises" because I'm really addicted to it. It's like the whole day I've been listening to it. I guess I should be listening to other songs.

Anyway,was reading my previous blog entries,that is when I first started blogging. Oh my. It was horrible in a way. I'm so glad that I've improved so much in the way of writing and yes,no short forms anymore. I mean - SMS language.

I used to have a habit of typing it that way but no,I just feel that it isn't right. That's why I stopped using it already. It's been quite sometime I've been writing it in standard English which I also think is a good practice.

I think I have to practice my speech. It seems like I'm not the me that I'm supposed to be. In a way,I do have so trouble with speeches at times. I mean the words to use. At times,I'm ok and am doing fine but at times I just can't seem to get the right words out of my mouth.

Seems like writing it is better than speaking it out. Weird huh? Ok,I have to be good in both areas. I can't be good at one and not care about the other. I have to be good at both and am able to use it without any doubts.

I'm so glad that I've improved a lot. Not only in terms of writing but also in language. Well? I have been using the English language ever since I was young and I've never spoken a single chinese word to my father when I was young. I guess that is why I have problems with the Chinese language.

I only started to pick up a few Chinese words from my father when I was about 5 years old. That's the time where I sort of "discovered" Chinese. I have always been speaking English with my parents and maybe some Malay with my mother but about 98% of the time,I speak English.

I've always hated to study Chinese but what am I supposed to do? My parents were like "Learn malay since you cannot understand Chinese."

They've been saying that or should I say,they used to say that in the past but till today,I'm still taking Chinese. They may say that but I know that my father would never want me to switch to taking Malay as second language.

They call it "Mother Tongue". The problem is when I was young,my parents only speak to me in English. I only know a few words when I was about 5 years old and that's like in K2.

I still remember people often laugh at me and make fun of me because I couldn't speak Chinese nor Malay. I only speak English. I often feel left out in a way because the Chinese mostly hang out with those who are able to speak Chinese and the Malays hang out with those who are able to speak Malay and I could only speak English at that time!

I often complain to my mother but my mother kept telling me not to care. Well? At least she made me feel good. My Chinese teacher always have to call my parents to speak to them because I have problems with my Chinese.

In the beginning,most or should I say all? All of them thought both of my parents are chinese,whereas some think that I am a Malay! My my my. Gosh,can't you see my name?! Look at my surname and tell me if I'm a Malay.

Yes,my mother is a Malay but she's also mixed. My grandmother is a Peranakan and my grandfather has mixed blood. He has some Indonesian blood. That's not all,he still has somemore.

Well? At least I'm able to speak some Chinese and Malay for now. =D Then again,I'm better with my English language.

Yes! Finally,I'm listening to Rock and not to "No Promises". I'm currently listening to Rammstein. German band. Speaking of German,ahhhhhh... Yes yes. LAHM!

Oh my. LAHM again. LOL.

11.21PM now. My my my. I'm supposed to call Xiaoqiang (Angie) earlier on but I was doing something and told her that I would call her at 11 something and my my,it's 11.21PM already yet I still haven't call her.

Ok,I guess after this entry I'll call her. Dang. She didn't reply my text message. She only replied one and missed call me once. She's famous for her "missed calls".

The person who has missed call me the most. I'll never forget. I'll never FORGET!! Haha. Ok,better not get carried away. I sound more like a psycho already.

Hmm? Science test postponed to Monday. It was supposed to be just now but Ms Sherly Lim didn't have the time to set the paper for the test.

My form teacher,Mr James Tan didn't come to school today. My my my. I have quite a number of homework. I guess I've to complete them all tomorrow.

Let me see what do I have to do. Hmm... I have to do my Science 5-year series,English comprehension,finish up my Maths worksheet (I haven't finish the last page) and English - I haven't completed a few questions yet.

Oh boy. Nevermind,I'll try my best to finish up.

Hmm? Sometimes I wonder,why do I find hard to trust guys? It is because they're good pretenders? Sweet talkers and all? I only trust a handful of them. I'm not saying all of them are really all of that but most people I know are like that. Only a handful aren't like that.

I just find it hard to trust people. I mean anybody can talk. Talking is just using words only. Words are only words. People can lie and whatsoever but how true can it be? Only god knows.

If only I could get rid of those evil people in this world,I'll be happy because the world will be peaceful but then again,no matter what you can never get rid of them.

Even with all the powers in the world,you cannot change the world. Human beings are like clocks. Well? If you know what I mean by that.

Alright,I need entertainment! Where's the television? I've not watched any television shows for today. Well? I can go on without television for days or weeks but not computer.

I LOVE THE COMPUTER! Oh wait,plus... INTERNET! =D

Before I get really really too obsess to the computer till I cannot be apart from it (even for a few hours),I better be going.

Till here then!

Peace out.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:35:00 pm♠

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Simply addicted to "No Promises" by Shayne Ward.

"I don't wanna runaway,baby you're the one I need tonight... No promises,baby - Now I need to hold you tight,I just want to die in your arms... Here tonight......"

Yes,yes... I know I've been mentioning about "No Promises" quite a number of times in my entries but I simply can't help it. I simply love that song. One of my favourite songs.

Oh well... I simply don't understand people at times. It's a simple world but yet at times it seems so complicated. Sometimes I just hate guys. Yes - they suck at times. Well? I'm not saying all but well? I have to say that SOME really sucks. They have bad attitude. I hate that.

They think that they're so great and stuff like that but you know what? They stink! Yes,they stink - They have bad attitude. Tsk. Whereas some are quite nice I would say. Same goes for girls. Some girls I simply don't understand why they tend to get jealous easily.

You can say whatever you want but the truth is,I'm not that type of person who gets jealous easily but if I do,I'll never show. Yes,I don't really show it. It's hard to tell if I'm jealous or not but it's a weird feeling if I do get jealous. I also don't know why! LOL.

It was a fine day but if you remove those idiots,it'll be good but whatever it is - Look on the bright side. Sometimes no matter how down you are,you just have to face the world with a smile and say "Hey,look on the bright side".

I simply don't understand human being at times. We all think differently and it's hard to predict or should I say,we can't read their minds and thoughts so we often tend to change our minds often and stuff like that. Hmm? How do I put it as? Should I say clocks? Yes,more of a clock.

People often get sick of it after a period of time. At times I do get sick of some things but if it's my favourite song? No,I won't. If I like something for very long,it's hard for me to get sick of it because I can like something for very and I mean very very long. When I like something,I'll put my heart and soul to it. Errrr? How do I say define this?

Ok,I mean - I'll just focus on it and stick with it.

Had English Mock Exam yesterday and tomorrow's Science test. Oh boy. Time flies very fast. Tomorrow's Friday! Gosh. Oh well,what can I say after all? I bet they'll be more test coming up but what to do? Like they say "Suffer now,enjoy later". So yeah,I guess I've to set my mentality to that. Nevermind,I think I'm able to bear the "pain". After that phrase,I guess I'll be as free as a bird.

Guess what I'm doing at the moment?

I'm actually listening to National Day songs at the moment. "We are Singapore,we are Singapore... We will stand together hear the lion roar........"

Yes,I'm listening to that song. It seems kind of nice to listen to the songs again. Anyway,National Day is just around the corner. Oh my. We have been independent for (soon-to-be) 41 years and I'm only like about 16 but not yet 16. LOL.

I'll have a stressful birthday this year. My N Level Science paper is on my birthday. Grrrrrrr! Arghhhhhh! Oh well? At least after the 6th,I'll be free. Nevermind,I can take it. I'm strong! Haha. Well? I have to be strong. Have to have a strong mentality and tell myself "Yes,I can!"

Oh well,I guess I'll listen to Trance later. Hmm? Or maybe I'll switch back to Rock again.

Oh my. 11PM at the moment. I took a nap at 5.15PM if not wrong and I woke up at about 9.30PM. I still haven't study for my test tomorrow but I'll do so soon. =) I slept at 3AM last night but I couldn't sleep so it must be like around 3 something that I managed to sleep. I was just trying to sleep as I was already sleepy but I simply couldn't sleep.

Oh well... Anyway,some people said that it isn't a good year this year. Hmm? I don't know but at least try to look on the bright side. So far mine's ok. Not much activities. Hmm? Low-profiled one. I used to be regarded as "high-profiled" to some friends or maybe to most friends but these few years,I've been trying to keep my profile low.

Too much experience? Hmm? I don't know but it somehow seems to be better when you're low but there's an advantage if you have a high profile. Well? It depends. There's advantage and disadvantage.

High profile

Advantages - People know you. Even people whom you don't know,knows you. I experienced that before and it was awkward but in a way,it's kind of flattering.

Disadvantages - People expect more from you. You're like a role model kind of thing.

Low profile

Advantages - You can do stuff at ease without anyone having expectations of you.

Disadvantages - People might not know you and it's hard to "get to make friends".

Well? It depends. Somehow in primary school,I don't know how people know me. They know me but I don't know them.

I had a different life back four years ago. Somehow I sort of miss those days. Seriously,I would like to have the life I have four years ago that is 2002 but if terms on attitude and mentality of course I would like to keep my current one but if speaking of life that I had,I wish I could have that life again.

It was fun and I'll never forget. My friends! Awww... The jokes,the stories,the laughter... Oh my. Arghhhh!!

I think I better not talk about it but somehow I've been thinking about it these few days.

The sad thing is - some people I know who were good people changed. I wish they could be like what they were before.

I'm still the same person actually. It's only my mentality is of course different. I'm actually the same person who loves to laugh and crack some lame jokes and stuff like that.

It's only I may appear more serious than last time? Sometimes you can't be too friendly. It doesn't pay off. Just like some boys in my class. When we treat them nicely,they tend to take advantage so it's better not to be too friendly.

I don't mind them saying whatever about me because I,myself,now myself better and if you were to ask my friends - I'm sure they say I'm someone who likes to crack some lame jokes and stuff like that.

I can be nice yet I can be mean. It depends how you treat me. I respect others but if they don't,why should I? I just feel that some guys are really really very childish. They say to others "Don't be childish" but they themselves are without them realising it.

Whereas some are really nice and they understand. Well? Doesn't mean older guys are mature. Some younger guys can be quite mature too. Haha! =X

Well,that's how I feel. Hmm? Ok,maybe most younger guys aren't mature enough but there's some who are quite mature and I'm impressed in a way.

(Younger as in a year or two younger than you.)

At times we tend to get confused. Just like today,I've been thinking about something. Sometimes I'm not sure how do I feel then again,I kept telling myself - "It's hopeless". I can't do anything about it. No point crying over a spilled milk. Even if we met and I have the urge to say something,it's pointless I guess.

Why pointless? I'm afraid. I'm just too scared. All my courage has scattered. I simply don't have the courage.

Then there's another,I just don't know how do I feel. Same thing again,I'm simply too scared. I simply don't want to be hurt again.

I somewhat had become "weak" in terms of courage. I just couldn't. Don't know when I'll regain that courage but at times I just have the courage but somehow they will always be something holding it back and yes,back to square one again.

Hmm...? Sometimes I wonder what's the thing that I'm missing. I somewhat feel that I'm missing something. Maybe it's the laughter that I was had with my good friend. Or... Maybe because my friends and I (I mean my good friends) don't hang out that often already. We're busy with our things and stuff like that.

I guess I missed that too much.

Currently listening to "Twisted" by DJ Johan Gielen and Svenson. Oh my. I didn't know I have the song. My friend asked me to download this song but I didn't know that I have. I went to search but I couldn't find and when I was looking through the songs that I have for Trance then I realise that I actually have the song. LOL. How silly of me?

Well? Maybe because I don't usually listen to it.

Oh well,I guess I'm off now.

Peace out.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:28:00 pm♠

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Laugh like nobody's business. Doing things your way. Hmm? What's next?

Have I got that laughing virus back or what? Ever since I woke up this afternoon - I sort of feel very relax and all but that virus has gotten into me again. Anything that I think is funny (EVEN LITTLE THINGS),makes me laugh.

I don't know what or how but it just comes to me naturally. I'll laugh and laugh. Feels like I'm in a laughing mood. Kept laughing like nobody's business but I think I'm healing at the same time. Like they say "Laughter is the best medicine" - So yeah,it cures me. I'm healing!

I've never felt this good for quite sometime already. It's nice to laugh without any limitations or whatsoever. My day is fine. Usually when I laugh,I laugh but never felt this good. The last time I felt really really good was like four years ago? Yeah,that is with my good friend - Pearline.

Oh my. Those memories. Ahhhhhh! I miss them all. It's nice to look back and laugh at it but I'll never forget those memories with Pearline. It was really wonderful. We laugh and laugh and laugh... Yes,LAUGH like nobody's business.

Oh well... Was teasing my friends just now. Even so,that makes me laugh too! Was sending them this link that says "You are Lame". Well,it was funny in a way.

Ok,let's not talk about that already.

Woke up at 2.15PM today. Oh my,it's really late. I could like sleep somemore! It was my brother and mother who woke me up. If not,I don't know what time I would wake up. I was in the toliet for one hour. Oh my. Just for a shower? Hadn't been showering for one hour for very long already. At the most 30 to 40 minutes. On average would be about half an hour and the shortest time would be 15 minutes. 15 minutes? That is if I'm in a rush.

Oh wait. The shortest time would be about 8 minutes. That was like once only when I was really running late. Rush like mad. LOL.

Ate my prata with mayonaise. LOL. Yeah,have been doing thata few times. I sort of like it. I know some might say "Eeeeww" but that's just me.

Oh well... Just eating,listening to music and chatting at the moment. Oh my. It's like one chat then everyone starts chatting with me. LOL. If it's business,ho ho! I'll definately make money. LOL.

My my my. I noticed that it's been weeks or months that I'll everyday try to find out what's happening at Chelsea. Oh my. I'm addicted. It's like my routine. Almost everyday I will check what's happening.

Football. Oh my. I know I have a lot to learn about it but it seems that I kind of enjoy it. Enjoy watching it,that is. It's quite exciting. Well? How do I say this? Well... It's the feeling that I get I guess. Hmm?

Chelsea's goalkeepers are cute. Too bad their 3rd choice goalkeeper as moved on. They were all cute. Petr (Cech),Carlo (Cudicini) and Lenny. =D

Oh well... At least the two still remains. Petr Cech is from Czech Republic and Carlo Cudicini's from Italy.

Ahhhh... Italians. Used to like Italians but I somewhat don't quite like Italians for now because of whatever happened during the World Cup but I guess I'll pardon Carlo Cudicini. =D

Oh well... Hmm?

Besides football,I feel that I've learnt a lot this year. I should be thankful of that. I would love to learn more. I'm glad that I have friends who have different interest and stuff like that. I learn something from them and I'm happy about it. It gives me more knowledge and at the same time they could learn something from me too! Exchange! Haha.

I don't know but it seems that I like chatting with intelligent people. Having intellectual conversation seems to be ok. Well? It depends but at the end of the day,I'll learn at least something from a friend or from the internet.

I feel that we should broaden our knowledge. Explore the world and be an explorer. Hmm? I think it's a good thing to be hunger for knowledge.

Oh well... I guess I'm off now. Time sure flies very fast today.

Ok.
Peace out.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:02:00 pm♠

Here I am with my eyes kind of sleepy,not sure if my brains are working well but the night isn't gone.

It's 3.15AM at the moment and here I am sitting in front of the computer with that sleepy look (Hmm? I guess) typing this. Well? Ok,I am sleepy but I want to blog. It's like "I HAVE TO BLOG" that kind of thing. Well? It's not me but my heart really wants it. LOL. Whatever.

Was out earlier on. Oh,I meant yesterday (Saturday). Window shopping is more of "shopping". Bought another pair of pump shoes but this time is that pointy tip kind. Oh my. It's like I have three pump shoes in all. Two bought it at Parco Bugis Junction and this - At Suntec. It was about $30 but well? I like it. Wanted the brown one but oh my,don't have my size! Oh well,the moss isn't that bad anyway.

It's a surprise I guess. People assume I have mostly sneakers but their wrong. I only own one pair only. The rest is sandals or pump shoes. Oh wait and one pair of track shoes - My Reebok shoes. That's all. People always assume this and that. They just don't know me.

I love Polo tees but you know what? I only own about four or five polo tees in all. I have tees and I also have blouse. It's just that I'm usually casual that I'm too lazy to get dressed and simply just spent 10 minutes at the most to find some stuff to wear. Example - Tee and jeans or tee and three quarter pants but hey,at times I feel like dressing up.

It's just that I do have that kind of "I don't care" attitude at times or should I say "Heck it!" attitude. At times I simply don't care about the things around me whereas sometimes I can be very very conscious about the things around me to the extend I kept telling myself I have to look good.

Oh well,it depends on my mood. It's not like I don't have clothes. Come on. You should see my wardrobe. I have to cupboards. One is for home clothes,whereas the other is for going out clothes. I have two waist pouch but I've never use the red one before. That is the G-shock one. I have some hand tone bags. Errr? Is that the name that you would use?

Anyway,I have bags. Different kind of bags I mean. I think my favourite is my white colour Charles & Keith one. I have sling bags. I have like... Hmm? Five or six sling bags. I can't really remember. I have quite a number of bags but too bad,I seldom use them all. I have one leather bag. Small sling kind of bag but well? It's leather,what do you expect? It's about $50 if I'm not wrong.

People assume they know it all but like they say "Don't judge it's looks by it's cover". I simply have to agree with it. What more can I say? I have like four watches. If I am going to be out and do outdoor activities,I'll use my black one. The G-shock watch. I've not been wearing my other two watches already. I don't know. It seems that after getting my current watch (Diesel),I sort of like this and I always wear it.

It's my favourite for now. May want to get Adidas watch but well? I think this is good enough for me. It's kind of unique to me and it's strap is leather. I'm very touched when there's this teacher came to me and looked at my watch and she was like "That's a very nice watch. Hmm? Diesel. Nice."

For a moment,I was speechless but I quickly replied "Umm... Thank you." And smiled at her.

I think you have to have good watch and nice shoes. I know - you would be like - "What about the clothes?" Clothes wise too. I mean,it doesn't have to be like designers clothes or whatsoever but at least a comfortable one and if you how to match your clothes,you'll be fine.

Most of my clothes are like from U2,Giordano,Bossini..... That kind of place. Well? That was just to name a few. There's others too. Then again,this is how I feel... Youngsters these days can be a showoff. They go for brands. I mean,I don't know why but I think to a certain extend that's nuts. To some a Hang Ten or Giordano tee is "cheap". Hmm?

To me the price is reasonable. Most importantly - Is it comfortable? I go for comfort. I just feel that teenagers these days have to open up more and not just be that stereotype of buying branded goods only. I mean,branded as in willing to pay $50 and above. I think that's expensive.

I would only spend $12 - $35 for a blouse or tee. At the most - $40. Not more than that.

Well? I'm not paying for any of my clothes. Oh wait. Yes,my mother pays for my clothes but the polo tees? I bought it myself and the last few shoes,I bought it myself. Other than that,it's my mother's money.

If it's school stuff,you know who's the person paying for it. It's none other than... My father! Tada! LOL.

Well? I should be fortunate. I should appreciate the things I have. Oh my. How lucky am I. Just look at those poor children. Oh my. I really pity them. If I have more,I would donate but I don't,what can I do about it?

I like helping others. It sort of makes me happy in a way. To see others smile,it sort of makes me smile too. Whatever it is,to help others isn't wrong at all. In fact,you have made a difference it somebody's life. It may not be a huge one but a little difference at least.

Peace - Love & Harmony. Where are all those? Where's the peace? Where is the love? Where's harmony?

All the powers in the world can't change the universe. Why? Well,simple - human beings think differently. If we all think the same then that I don't know. I guess we're more of a dumbo then. It's because we think differently,that's why there's evil people around,etc.

Well... We just hope they know what they're doing and know what they want. It's your choice anyway.

People think they know you but they simply don't know you actually. You know yourself better. God knows you.

Having a "tomboy" image doesn't mean you're like that. I have my girly side too! I'm a girl anyway. I like bears. I think they're cute. Especially Winnie the Pooh. I don't have short hair neither do I like long hair. I like to look stylish in my own way and unique in my own way. I can be quite friendly and I respect others but if you don't respect me - there's where I wouldn't even want to respect you at all.

I can be nice yet I can be mean. It's how you react towards me. I can be crappy,lame or whatever you call that yet I have a serious side too. I can be crazy - talking rubbish,trying to crack jokes and stuff but I can be serious when I have to be serious.

I can be approachable - Friendly yet I can be mean and cold. I am still a human. I make mistakes,I still have a lot to learn but whatever it is,I still have a heart. What makes us a human? To have a heart makes us a human. I may be mean and cold towards certain people but still,I have a heart. I am against people abusing others,war and violence.

Ok,maybe I tend to get violent when I'm angry but still,I hate that. Seriously,to speak the truth I really hate that. I'm trying to not be like that. Hmm? Then again,to think about it. I simply don't know why. I'm always weak on my knees when a special someone is present. LOL.

That's how I feel. Oh gosh. That's foolish huh? It's like when a special someone is there,I just couldn't be that violent. LOL. I'm weak in other words. I don't know but it seems true and that's what I've realise in the past few years. My my my. Sheesh.

Anyway,it's better to concentrate on my studies as for now. It's a heartache to think about this. It just confuses me and I was really foolish. Four years? Oh my. I could have done something with that but well? Come on,get on with it. Look ahead.

Nevertheless,I'm still trying to improve myself. I don't want to be a baddy nor would I say I'm a goodie. Definately,I'm not a baddy. I don't get into troubles. I mostly obey rules. Goodie? Well,nah. I'm stubborn. Most of the times,no one can change my mind. If I want something,I'll hold on to it and try to achieve it. At times I argue with my parents. I've disobey certain rules. I stand firm for what I think it's right but then again,it isn't that bad.

I do swear at times. I may have bad attitude at times when I'm in a bad mood. Well? Other than that,I don't think I'm that bad. Hmm? Well,ok - I may get competitive at times but sometimes I feel down. Especially if I don't achieve something that I want badly.

Oh well... That's just part of life. You give some,you take some.

Sometimes it's interesting to watch the world - to watch others. Sometimes I simply love that. You just sit at a corner with some snacks and just observe others. Look at how they respond. I think it's interesting. Study their body language,look at their expression... See how they react to the situation. It's interesting to me. It can be funny at times.

It's more like you watching television. In other words,it's like a entertainment thing.

Hmm? How entertaining will it be? It all depends.

Alright,I guess I better be going.

I'm off now.
Peace out.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:59:00 am♠

Monday, July 17, 2006

I don't why but it seems that these few days I seemed to be sleepy. I don't know why. Can anyone tell me why? Usually,it's after eating I'll feel sort of sleepy. Oh my.

Hur hur hur! How horrible is that?

Well,there's school tomorrow and I have Science test. It was supposed to be on Friday but was later postponed,so it's tomorrow. Yes,I've studied those two but there'll be another part tomorrow. Gosh. Meaning to say I've to study another one too! Oh well,might as well study all three of them.

I think it'll be better that way. Hmm? Yeah. I guess I'll look at my notes and well? Maybe my workbook.

Well,was studying a little early on. I almost fell asleep.

Was writing testimonials just now and surfing the net plus chatting. Was reading my notes. I mean Science notes. Don't know if I can remember or not but well? I hope I can remember! Yawns! I really want to do well for the test.

I'm try to remember it,hopefully I'm able to! Was typing this entry earlier on but half way I stopped only now then I continue and oh my,I'm very sleepy now.

Guess my bed's calling me and it's asking me to and sleep. It's 12.18AM at the moment and oh boy,I kept yawning. It's just a matter of time before I'm shut. My eyes are getting heavier. Oh well... Guess I'll continue this other times.

Now isn't the right time to blog. I totally forgot about this entry. LOL. I was typing halfway then I did some other stuff and after that,I went to study for awhile and for all you know... I forgot about it and now when I'm closing the windows one by one,I came across this! Oh well,I should go and sleep I guess. Anyway,there's school tomorrow. Or should I say later?

Alright,I'm off now.

Yawnsssssssss! I'm really tired.

Sleepy D's off now.

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:19:00 am♠

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Yawns! It's 3.08AM and I'm still awake. Attended my school carnival yesterday. Well? There were some parts that may be boring but there were some quite fun. Then again,look on the bright side. It wasn't really that bad anyway.

Well? At least something sort of added a little sparkle to my day. That makes it interesting.

Oh well...

I'm getting a little sleepy already. Well,just feel like filling the space here. I mean typing. Was surfing the net just now and oh boy,I simply love the internet. I guess I simply couldn't live without computer and technology. It simply makes life easier and much more exciting. I mean you can do all sort of stuff with the computer PLUS! Internet. Dial-up internet is a NO NO. It's better to get a BROADBAND.

BROADBAND is way faster than dial-up. Dial-up is connected to the phone line and oh boy,it's slow and sometimes while connecting to the internet,your modem will get hang at times. Not only that,there's a risk too. Sometimes if you get disconnected,it'll reconnect but it'll dial to an overseas number and my my my. When you receive the bill at the end of the month,you will definately be SHOCKED.

There were such cases and the person has to pay $1000 or so. Shocking huh? Sure is shocking. You may use maybe like twice a week and for all you know,at the end of the month - $1000?? So I guess the better option would be broadband. You can use as much as you want and you don't to worry about those but there's a disadvantage too. Spyware and stuff like that is more likely to happen BUT if you are protected with those applications like anti-spyware,anti-virus,etc. It'll be fine.

Well? Both have advantages and disadvantages but in my own opinion,I would prefer broadband. I'm using Maxonline 4000. I think it's ok for me but if you're those who doesn't use the internet that often,you may want to opt to those pay-per-use service that kind of thing. Maxonline (Starhub) offers that kind of thing. If I'm not wrong it's $2 per day or something like that. You choose how many days you would want to use then you just pay the amount that you use.

Let's say you pick three times a week. That sums up to $6. Well? That's just an example. I can't remember the actual price. I think it's either $2 to $2.50 but there's a minimum of number of days and maximum. Well? It's your choice. You may want that or simply just Maxonline 4000. Well? That's just the basics. If you want something more then get Maxonline Unlimited. Well? For more details you may want to visit Starhub website at www.starhub.com

Hmm? Oh my. Feels like I'm promoting Starhub. Well? I do like Starhub service but well? Seems like I'm sounding like I'm promoting it. Oh well.......

Hmm? Anyway,Premier League is going to start soon. Yes,the English Premier League (EPL). In about 34 days time if I'm not wrong. CHELSEA!! I would like to see Chelsea win more. I'm looking forward to it. Go Chelsea GO!

Hmm? There were rumors stating that Ashley Cole may go to Chelsea. Oh,by the way he just got married yesterday (Saturday). I heard that Arsene Wenger wasn't even invitied. Hmm... Oh well,there's another saying Roberto Carlos may be moving to Chelsea. Well? I'm not sure if it's going to be that way. Anyway,I just visited the Official Site of the Premier League and it says that "Cole is staying" - says Wenger.

Oh well... All I've got to say,let's just wait and see what happens next. Ruud van Nistelrooy will be leaving Manchester United and Christiano Ronaldo staying. Middlesbrough has drop interest in Robert Huth but I heard Portsmouth are interested with Huth. Another one was,Valencia wants Chelsea's Asier Del Horno. Hmm... I'm not sure if his going.

Well? I would really like to see Chelsea score more goals. Michael Ballack and Andriy Shevchenko. Oh my. They're really good players and I mean very.

Oh well... I'm hoping that they will get Back-to-back titles again.

As for now... ...................... That's it,I'm outta here.

Peace out~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:27:00 am♠

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Currently listening to "Adagio For Strings" - DJ Tiesto. Was listening to "No Promises" by Shayne Ward quite a number of times just now. Darn. Simply addicted to the song. Hmm? Songs can make you addicted then why are people still taking drugs?

At least music,won't harm you but if drugs - it'll harm you.

Oh well... Anyway,haven't been listening to Trance for quite sometime. Was listening to Rock and Pop for the past week or so. I guess that's why I decided to switch to my Trance playlist. Currently,I'm listening to "Naked Angel" - Armin van Buuren.

I think Trance is quite nice to listen. Techno is abit too hardcore. Hmm? Oh well...

Yawns! I'm tired. I've stopped listening to music already. It's quite late now. Have to go to school tomorrow. School Carnival. Have to be there by 7.45AM. The carnival starts at 8.30AM and ends at 2PM. Yawns yawns yawns!

I only bought one coupon that's worth $5. I think most people buy either one or two only. I don't know how's it gonna be like. I've not experienced it before but will it be enjoying? Gosh,the whole school. My my my. Plus! Public! So many people huh?

We're given a carnival tee. It's black in colour and oh my,will the weather be hot tomorrow? If so,I think we can be fried. LOL. Ok,was just kidding.

Hmm? Ahhhh... Philipp. He simply melts my heart. Yes. Philipp Lahm. He has quite a charming smile. Oh well... World Cup may be over but the English Premier League's gonna kick off soon. Next month! Go CHELSEA Go CHELSEA!

La La LA... Gosh,starting to feel sleepy now. Just finished eating supper. I guess I'll sleep soon. Thank god my mobile is full batt meaning to say I'm able to use it tomorrow. Yesterday I receive so many calls,oh my and it's like I was away from my mobile. I didn't hear my ringtone. When I check to see what did I received and stuff like that,my mobile was just dead. I mean,battery went flat.

Charging time's quite fast. I'm impressed. Some of my friends their phone takes about four hours to charge and some even up to seven hours?? Oh my. Mine's only like two hours. My previous phone takes about three to four hours and can last up to three days. Sometimes four. Depending on your usage. My current mobile phone can last for two days. Usually every two and half days I've to charge but it ain't that bad.

Charging time is fast and I think it's alright. Sony Ericsson battery drains easily. I used to use Sony Ericsson and I feel that almost everyday I have to charge my phone. At the most is one and a half days. Charging time? Hmm... I can't remember. Didn't take down the timing but one thing is for sure - battery draining fast! Though their phones can be quite fun and stuff like that but one thing turns me off and that is the battery part.

Nokia phones? Hmm... One of my previous ones that I've used - 6680 takes about two hours to charge only and the battery can last up to four days? Yeah,about there. Then againm,depending on your usage but I think it's really good and ringtones are heard loud and clear.

My current Samsung phone... Hmm? It's actually quite good and the quality is good but when it comes to ringtones,sometimes it's just not loud enough but you vibration is really good and battery life is ok. It doesn't take long to charge either.

Oh well,enough phones for now. Aww man. My eyes kind of hurt. I guess I'm going to bed soon. Yawns! Have to wake up early tomorrow. Hur hur hur! I dislike waking up early on a Saturday morning but what to do? I don't have a choice. Everyone of us (Haisians) have to attend. Darn. Yawns yawns yawns. Oh well,I guess I better put the coupon in my bag first,scared later I forget to bring then I've to buy again!

Darn. Seems like today I seemed to be tired. I mean FRIDAY. Better get some rest. What's more important than the computer is health. Health is vital. Not only that,I better take care of my eyes. Sheesh.

=D Alright,I'm off now.

So long and goodnight!

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:46:00 am♠

Thursday, July 13, 2006

It's been about a week or so I've not been updating my blog. Oh well? At least I'm writing it at the moment!

Currently listening to "No Promises" by Shayne Ward. Gosh,I simply like that song. One of my favourite songs.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time..
No promises
I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love
No promises
I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms...

I like those lines. Well? It's a nice song. There was this time whereby I was quite addicted to the song that I kept listening to the song non-stop. Sheesh. Can you believe it? Oh well,I simply can't help it.

Anyway,had English oral yesterday. Gosh,I think the conversation part worries me the most. Some might say "Oral? What's there to worry about?" Well,then again... It's N level oral. How can I not be worried??!? I definately would want to do well. Aim high!

Yes yes,maybe some might be like "What? Again?" but hey,that's me. I've made a mistake four years ago and I musn't make the same mistakes again. I don't know but to some when they see students from the normal course they'll be like "What?" and eye brows raised.

I just don't know what to say about this kind of people. Seriously,they shouldn't be entertained. I've known of some experience - Express students looking down on others. I'm not saying all of them are like that. Don't get me wrong. A minor group I mean. Simply don't know what's in their mind. Then again,why bother about such people?

Then again,heard of that quote? - "Don't judge it's looks by it's cover". In my version it's more of... "Don't judge a book by it's cover,read the contents first". Oh well,some people like to compare themselves and stuff like that. Thinking that their so great and stuff that.

Oh well... That doesn't mean we're stupid. I don't think I am stupid nor would I say smart but I would say average. I still lots of stuff to learn. I may only know a small portion or maybe not even a quarter of it but a one-eighth of it. There's so many things in this world that's yet to be explored.

Are we able to explore everything? Hmm... I don't think so but we can try to learn as much as possible. =)

World Cup has finally ended. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? I sort of miss it. Now we just have to win for four years. Hmm... Two years from now will be "Euro 2008". Hmm... I guess I'll be looking forward to that. The FIFA World Cup may be over but soon - it'll be back to English Premier League (EPL)! Chelsea!!!

=D I'm sure some people can't wait to see Michael Ballack and Andriy Shevchenko to play in the English Premier League. They're not the only players,there's some others too but I think these two are quality class players. They play well and their world class. I'll be looking foward to watching it.

Had Maths test yesterday and tomorrow will be Science test. On Saturday,it'll be my school carnival day. Oh well... Have to wake up early on a Saturday morning. Arghhhhh!! Yawns yawns yawns! That's how I'll react I guess. Have to be in school by 7.45AM and we're only dismissed at 2PM. Oh darn. Hmm... I wonder what it'll be like on that day. Fun or boring?

Oh well... Xiaoqiang (Angie) had just turned 16 yesterday. I actually last minute wrapped her gift but I guess she liked it. That's a good sign. =D

Alright,I have a test tomorrow and should be studying and well? Sleep early? Quite a number of friends are like... "Sleep early!" but I simply can't. Darn. Have to practice it. Sleep early. Sleep early. Sleep early!! Hmm? I think it ain't a bad idea. At least I can dream of Philipp Lahm!

Ahhhhhhhh!! Yes. The thought of him,makes me smile in a way but makes me smile even wider when I look at his pictures or see him playing. Though some might not agree that his cute,well? I think his cute. He plays well too.

Oh well,I'm off now.

Peace out!

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:00:00 pm♠

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

I'm back! It's been quite sometime I've not blogged. Let me see when was my last entry? Hmm... If I'm not wrong it's on the 24th of June. 11 days?

Oh well... Anyway,time flies very fast. Next week's my N level oral. Oh gosh. Time flies very fast. I used to think that a year is "long" but the truth is,it isn't. It's actually quite short. For all you know,it's end of the year and you're plus one. Plus one = one year older.

Like they say "Older and Wiser" but how true is that? I feel that some people don't change. They're still living in denial. They're like in the own world. Come on,this is reality. Then again,we're humans. Humans tend to get carried away at times. I know because I experience that at times but let's face it. We've got to snap back to reality.

Living without emotions? There may be good but it's also bad at the same time. How do you look at it? Do you think it's good or bad? Then again,life won't be the same without our emotions. Life is just like a roller coaster ride. Sometimes it's up and sometimes it's down. Whatever it is,we still have to be strong and get through with the obstacles.

Nevertheless,we all make mistakes. No matter how perfect we try to be,we will never be perfect. Maybe near perfect. Anyway,humans make mistakes. I am not perfect. I am still human. I admit that I make mistakes and at times I can be foolish but one thing I'd like to make it clear - I will learn from my mistakes and try to be a better person. Learn from experience.

Nothing wrong in making mistakes. Humans can be blind at times. They don't see the things that "they should see",whereas they only see the false things. Things that actually make them "blind". What can I say? The decision is in your hand. Make the wise choice. Act wisely.

Oh well...

Anyway,my form teacher is absent. Two periods of Maths we did not much. We're only given one worksheet to do. Well? Nothing much actually. Had lunch with Xiaoqiang (Angie) after school at Downtown East. Haven't been eating lunch with her for quite sometime. I think we had "early" dinner before. Well,that was during the holidays.

Later at 3AM or should I say tomorrow - Germany vs Italy. Who do you think will win? Seems like both are good but I would have to say Germany. Go Germany! Was quite disappointed that England were out. =( I just don't like Portugal. I was hoping that France would trash them. At least one of my favourite team is still in and that was quite shocking I guess. Brazil against France. Oh my. Brazil were the favourites to win but they lost.

Brazil 0 - France 1. It was a nice match. Joga Bonito? Well,it was a beautiful game. They played well. England were playing well too but they lost to Portugal during Penalty Shootout. I just don't like the idea because England aren't good in Penalty Shootout. Worst was,Wayne Rooney got sent off. They claimed it was Ronaldo who made Rooney got sent off. He protest to the referee to give Rooney a red card but he said it wasn't true at all.

Hmm? I wonder. Anyway,was really sad to see Wayne Rooney got sent off. His my favourite player but I don't quite like his attitude. He sure do have skills and plays well but I feel that he isn't playing that well after recovering from the broken foot but I'm sure he will playing what he always plays soon.

Hopefully Euro 2008 they'll beat Portugal. I really hope so. =) Some people were blaming Frank Lampard and stuff like that. Come on. Give him a break. I still think his good. People are like that. When you don't score,they criticise you but when you do - they praise you. Sheesh.

Humans are always like that. Always want the good ones but not the bad ones. In other words,if you're good - you always have to be good or else people will start criticising you and stuff like that. I feel that it's nonsense to an extend. Like I've just mention,we're humans! We're not superhumans right?!

I don't know people are thinking at times. They just talk without even reflecting. Ridiculous. People can say whatever they want about me. I'm this,that,blah blah blah but then again,I know myself better. I'm not like that. I'm still human. I have emotions. I still have a heart and I still feel for others. I'm not heartless! Gosh,for god sake. That's the problem with people. They don't know you well but they act AS IF they know you well. Interesting huh?

So many weird people nowadays. Are we in Mars?

Hmm... Alright,I think I'll stop here for now. I've got stuff to do. I only slept for like 3 hours yesterday. 3AM then at 6AM it's time to wake up and get ready to go to school. Though I sleep at 3AM,I don't really feel that tired today but at about 7pm,I feel a little sleepy so I took a nap. Slept for like an hour and a half. =D

Alright.

Peace out~

♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠10:59:00 pm♠