// My Illusions*
Sunday, March 12, 2006
My my... I haven't been updating my blog for quite sometime. Hmm? Let me see when was the last time I blog. ......Oh my. 1st of March? Today's the 12 of March. Gosh. It's been like 11 days I've not blog.
Alright,I'm here right now so and I'm blogging! =) It's finally the holidays but it's only a week. I'd be happy if it's a little more longer. =D Just finished my common test on Friday. Just finished my coursework (Part B) too. I'm worried. I was hoping to do well for my common test. Darn. My English results weren't what I expected. =( I'm disappointed.
At least something saved me or else I think I'll be feeling down. Awards,awards,awards!! Oh yes. Isn't it good to receive awards? I like the feeling of receiving it. =D
Recently just got an award for "Best Trainee Award" for my Elective Module. I was in the Digital Animation module. Oh my. I really didn't expect to get. What can I say after all? Expect the unexpected. Haha.
More awards on it's way. Yay! I'm so happy. I got for three subjects again for Speech Day. The thing is that I didn't expect to get for English again! It was quite shocking to see my name there. I mean last year my English results were like the lift where you go up and down that type. I didn't get my A1 which is 75 and above. It wasn't what I used to get. End of the year I manage to top the class by like half a mark. I was then like competing with Renny. Oh my.
That is why it's quite shocking as I really didn't expect it. Then again,I've to appreciate everything. Thank you. =)
I'm very happy to get for Computer Applications (CPA) again. =) Plus the new subject that I've just learnt last year. Elements of Office Administration also known as E.O.A. Happy me. I'll continue to work hard. Hmm? Work even harder I mean. =)
I'm aiming for FOUR 1s for my N levels. If not,ok... I'll aim for THREE 1s. That doesn't include Maths. I know my Maths isn't superb but I'll be happy if I get a 2. IF not 3.
Happy? Hmm... Well,to think about it... Sometimes the happy things just end like that. Sometimes the happy things in my life it just end like that due to obstacles. I'm really sadden by the fact of that. At times I wish the happy things will last. =( Everytime I wanted something to be that,it wouldn't be that. It's really sad. It hurts me but I think I'll get used to it though it might hurt.
With such people around,how can you prevent it? No use. No matter what they'll invade you leaving you with a mark. A sunny day will turned into a stormy one. I try to ignore the fact but I think I couldn't take it anymore. I finally came to a point and realise I wasn't going anywhere if such people exist. My happiness will never be a lasting one if there's such invasion. Why can't I just be happy all the way?
Everytime when I'm happy,soon or later something will sort of disappoint me or sadden me. Then again,this is life but I really envy those people who are always happy. Wishing I could like them.
I always see people get what they want. Be happy,people around them,supporting them,etc. Well,it's nice to see someone happy but why can't I be that happy too? When I look at them,that smile on their face is like never fading away.
Like what they say,people who seems to be happy are actually sad on the inside. Hmm? I sort of agree with that. People always think that I'm always happy but actually I'm not that very happy person. I maybe happy but I still have some sad side. As in like sometimes I feel like the pressure is pushing down,causing me to be unhappy. It's like the happiness is there but there'll be something causing it to be destoryed. =(
It hurts me when I were to think about it. I try to put it aside but sometimes it keeps coming back. Will these people just give me my space? Will I ever have peace? Hmm... I wonder. Well,all I can do is to hope that I have guidance from the above. That is god. =)
I can't do anything about. I'm not god. I guess there's many things in my mind but oh well... It's the holidays! I guess I should rest my mind and not think about it. =)
Actually,me,myself don't know what I'm thinking at the moment. There's so many things in mind. At times I wish I could just refresh my mind and start over. You think I'm what you've always thought that I am? Well,I'm not. Too bad I'm not a book that you could read to understand nor could you understand me fully but I'm happy even if there's a friend to listen to me and someone who I can joke with.
We all need someone to talk to. I'm always willing to listen and I'll try to help if I can. =) I know my own matters I can't solve but remember... In every situation,there's always a solution. Hmm...I guess it'll be solve as time flies. It takes effort too but I'll be happy to see a friend happy. That smile on their face can make a difference.
Hmm... Alright. I better be off now. I guess I'll take a shower now. Going out later.
Ok,I'm off now.
Peace.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠2:29:00 pm♠
// D: Illusionist

+ Diane
+ Anne, Ashley Kid, Silencer-D, D-Illusionist
+ 0ctober 4th 1990
+ Libra
+ Single and swinging, not looking - Likes making new friends
+ Mixed
(Chinese, Malay, Peranakan, Indonesian)
+ Park View Primary School (1997 - 2002)
+ Hai Sing Catholic School  (2003 - 2006)
+ ITE College East (Info-Comm Technology; 2007 - 2008)
+ Currently: Singapore Polytechnic (Digital Media)
BLUE IS THE COLOUR
// What does your sleeping position says about you?
What Your Sleeping Position Says
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You are calm and rational person with a good deal of balance in your life.
Friends consider you to be kind, caring, and truly loyal.
You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.
Open to the world, you are not afraid to be yourself.
If you don't get enough sleep, you are: Able to cope
It's hard to sleep next to you because: You're a bed hog
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// What's your love type
Your Love Type: ISFJ
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The Nurturer
In love, you are quietly intense, devoted, and tend too hold on too long.
For you, sex is a way to get closer - and a way to take care of your partner.
Overall, you are altruistic and eager to please your sweetie.
However, you tend to also be non-confrontational and secretly frustrated with relationship issues.
Best matches: ESTP or ESFP
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// Are you too picky when it comes to men?
You Are Picky When it Counts
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Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well.
But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right
You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating.
You probably have quite a few great guys you can date!
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// What kind of sexy girl are you?
You Are Fun Sexy
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You're funny, quirky, cute, and sassy.
Guys always have a great time with you, and that alone is sexy.
You've got an upbeat, optimistic spirit that totally shines through.
Any guy would be crazy to turn you down!
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// What kind of girl are you?
You are a Brainy Girl!
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Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.
You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.
For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.
A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!
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// Are you spoiled?
You Are 24% Spoiled
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You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head.
You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.
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// What flavour Pocky are you?
You Are Flan Pocky
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Your attitude: modern and offbeat
East meets west... sweet meets salty.
You're a pro at bringing unusual combos together!
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// Could you be violent?
There's a Chance You Could Be Violent
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Overall, you're a pretty chill person - and you have a good handle on your emotions.
Sometimes your anger gets the best of you, and end up regretting how you act.
Try to curb your temper more often. It only has to get out of control once to do some damage.
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// Speed test
95 words Speed test