W E L C ♠ M E
// My Illusions*
Thursday, March 30, 2006
What is love?
What is forever?
Forever love?
Love forever?
Can someone define me the terms?
What does it really mean?
Do you mean it?
Or are you just a bean?
Hmm... Sometimes I wonder what do they really mean by "Forever". What is forever to you? Do you really mean it or do you just say it for the sake of it? To sweeten your words is it? Or is it sincere?
Sometimes I wonder,what are people thinking. I've to admit that I at times get myself into that kind of situation whereby I just talk without realising what I'm talking about. BUT -- I'm not going to make the same mistakes again. Learn from it. Be someone better. =)
What is love then? Can someone define "Love"? I really want to know what it really means. Is it just a four letter word? Is it something that you use it for fun as the word seems rather fun? Come on. Define the terms.
I wouldn't dare to use "Love" as it's a strong word and it has a strong meaning to it. I mean,that word is way to powerful though it may only seem to be just a four letter word. Sometimes when I look at some people's - erm? Let's say MSN nickname or Friendster profile. "Dear dear,I love you forever. I want to be with you forever!"
Hmm? Have you ever wonder if they ever mean it or is it just the feeling that they get? Feeling as in having that kind of feel to the extend that nothing else matters to you except your relationship. Hmm? How do I explain this in clearer terms? Oh well... Hope you understand what I'm trying to say.
I know how it feels. We're all humans right? At one time of a point or another,you'll feel that way. Even liking someone you'll be like talking about the person most of the times right?
Example:
"His so cute! I think I like him."
"She's so cute! I wanna be with her!"
"Ain't he hot?"
"She's hot."
You know that kind of taunts you'll give? It's natural. We're humans. Humans have emotions. We have feelings. What can I say after all? We're like these. We're created like this,so whatelse can we do or say?
BUT I can't stand flirts. Seriously. I mean,some people just go steady because they want status. In other words,copycat. You see what people have,you want. What is this?? Have you lost your mind or what? HELLO! EARTH TO ... wake up!
Ridiculous. Simply ridiculous. Tsk tsk. Shame on you. I know some of friends do. Don't know what their thinking but let's just hope they'll realise it. I don't want to comment. I could only advice but if you don't want to take it then,what am I suppose to do? Whack you? LOL. Can't be doing that right? What rights do I have to do such stuff?
Alright,moving back to the topic. Well,to some - going steady,in their own term means getting to know someone better. Hmm? I never really thought about it. Seriously.
Besides,being attached - have you ever ask yourself this question? "Am I ready?"
Hmm? Don't know but I guess it's the attraction that's why both of them agreed. I don't care what people want to say. Say like "Eh,don't have steady? Haha!"
You know that kind. *roll eyes* Oh please. Come on! Get real! Get a life ya? I mean,there are way more important things that this. To me,if only I'm ready then I'll go on but if I'm not,why waste time?
Don't force yourself. Even if you do,soon or later you'll go your own seperate ways. Isn't it a waste of time? Hmm... Yeah,just think about it. Reflect.
Don't know what their thinking. Oh well...
Darn. I get irritated easily today. Whenever someone irritates me I sort of like flare up? Hmm? Oh my but then,luckily it wasn't that bad. Just a little irritation like someone pushing me to do stuff or something. I simply can't stand it. But hey,look on the bright side - SMILE!
Oh goodie. Tomorrow's Friday but darn,there goes my Friday just like that. SPORTS DAY tomorrow. Hur hur! I don't know if it's a good thing or is it boring? Hmm? I wonder. Am I going to bring my Adidas cap tomorrow?
Hmm? I haven't used it yet. Only once when I was talking pictures and that's it. I still have the label attached to it. It's well? Untouched.
It's been around for months. Hmm? About four to five months. Oh well... I'll consider.
Anyway,I've to do my homework soon. Oh my,the wheather's really hot. The heat. Kept fanning myself. I simply cannot take the heat. Arghhhhh!! Too hot = Complain. Too cold = Leg cramp. LOL.
Let me see what homework I have. Oh,I haven't finish my Maths and English worksheet. English worksheet left with 1 page if not wrong. Oh goodie but that haven't include Elements of Office Administration (E.O.A). It's stupid. Darn,what to do but to do.
No choice. Oh,wait. There is. Don't do! Haha but then I can't just not do. I don't feel right. Unlike in Primary Six. Haha. Don't do Maths worksheet,blah blah.
I wasn't from the best EM2 class. In fact,the last EM2 class. LOL. B class. That's how my school system goes but I don't think it applies for now. My brother's in the F class. I have no problems with English. It has always been my favourite subject and I've never failed. The subject that I've always fail is CHINESE.
My Chinese simply sucks. I ain't good at it. That is why I usually speak English or should I say ALWAYS speak English and at times malay. Chinese? Hmm? I sound funny when I talk only those common words may not sound that funny but still,I feel I'm like a fool.
I've been studying Chinese since I was in K1. Hard to believe or shock? Still,I couldn't pick the language up. I feel English is easier than Chinese. Chinese is just isn't for me. TOO much? Hmm?
I still remember back then in primary school where my chinese teacher will always think that I'm malay and suggest me to study malay. What the...?! Are they blind? Can't they see my name? Oh. What's the LIM for? For fun? Interesting huh? Couldn't believe they still can think that way.
Of course I'm a CHINESE! IF not,tell me what's the LIM for? Sheesh. Haha. I still remember my primary five form teacher asking me if I'm malay. He was like "Your father malay,mother chinese?" LOL. I wanted to laugh but I held the laughter back. Come on!! Same surname yet you don't know? Fascinating.
Just because I can speak Malay,doesn't mean I'm a malay. Yes,my mother is a malay but her malay is just average. Then again,she's not 100% pure malay. My grandmother is a peranakan. Don't have to say about my mother's side. It's complicated. My great great great blah blah blah is Indonesian,blah blah blah. Yeah. Complicated. I'm mixed up. Haha.
Sometimes I wonder,what's the brain for? Since people ask such things,what is the brain use for then? Interesting huh?
Same surname,with such surname - Blah blah blah. What do you think? Forget Hokkien - which is my dialect. I can't even pick up CHINESE. Sheesh. Malay? Well,it's easier than Chinese I guess. I can't understand my grandmother as she's always speaking in Hokkien and I'm like so gong (blur). Don't quite understand her and my dad's like the interpreter.
Oh well,what can I say? Nobody's perfect.
Though I wish at times I am but just look at it this way,if everyone's perfect - what would this world turn out to be? Will it be peaceful or more competitive? Hmm?
Define that.
Alright,I guess I should be doing my homework. Don't want to sleep late. I'm already feeling a little tired.
As for now...
Peace out.
What is forever?
Forever love?
Love forever?
Can someone define me the terms?
What does it really mean?
Do you mean it?
Or are you just a bean?
Hmm... Sometimes I wonder what do they really mean by "Forever". What is forever to you? Do you really mean it or do you just say it for the sake of it? To sweeten your words is it? Or is it sincere?
Sometimes I wonder,what are people thinking. I've to admit that I at times get myself into that kind of situation whereby I just talk without realising what I'm talking about. BUT -- I'm not going to make the same mistakes again. Learn from it. Be someone better. =)
What is love then? Can someone define "Love"? I really want to know what it really means. Is it just a four letter word? Is it something that you use it for fun as the word seems rather fun? Come on. Define the terms.
I wouldn't dare to use "Love" as it's a strong word and it has a strong meaning to it. I mean,that word is way to powerful though it may only seem to be just a four letter word. Sometimes when I look at some people's - erm? Let's say MSN nickname or Friendster profile. "Dear dear,I love you forever. I want to be with you forever!"
Hmm? Have you ever wonder if they ever mean it or is it just the feeling that they get? Feeling as in having that kind of feel to the extend that nothing else matters to you except your relationship. Hmm? How do I explain this in clearer terms? Oh well... Hope you understand what I'm trying to say.
I know how it feels. We're all humans right? At one time of a point or another,you'll feel that way. Even liking someone you'll be like talking about the person most of the times right?
Example:
"His so cute! I think I like him."
"She's so cute! I wanna be with her!"
"Ain't he hot?"
"She's hot."
You know that kind of taunts you'll give? It's natural. We're humans. Humans have emotions. We have feelings. What can I say after all? We're like these. We're created like this,so whatelse can we do or say?
BUT I can't stand flirts. Seriously. I mean,some people just go steady because they want status. In other words,copycat. You see what people have,you want. What is this?? Have you lost your mind or what? HELLO! EARTH TO ... wake up!
Ridiculous. Simply ridiculous. Tsk tsk. Shame on you. I know some of friends do. Don't know what their thinking but let's just hope they'll realise it. I don't want to comment. I could only advice but if you don't want to take it then,what am I suppose to do? Whack you? LOL. Can't be doing that right? What rights do I have to do such stuff?
Alright,moving back to the topic. Well,to some - going steady,in their own term means getting to know someone better. Hmm? I never really thought about it. Seriously.
Besides,being attached - have you ever ask yourself this question? "Am I ready?"
Hmm? Don't know but I guess it's the attraction that's why both of them agreed. I don't care what people want to say. Say like "Eh,don't have steady? Haha!"
You know that kind. *roll eyes* Oh please. Come on! Get real! Get a life ya? I mean,there are way more important things that this. To me,if only I'm ready then I'll go on but if I'm not,why waste time?
Don't force yourself. Even if you do,soon or later you'll go your own seperate ways. Isn't it a waste of time? Hmm... Yeah,just think about it. Reflect.
Don't know what their thinking. Oh well...
Darn. I get irritated easily today. Whenever someone irritates me I sort of like flare up? Hmm? Oh my but then,luckily it wasn't that bad. Just a little irritation like someone pushing me to do stuff or something. I simply can't stand it. But hey,look on the bright side - SMILE!
Oh goodie. Tomorrow's Friday but darn,there goes my Friday just like that. SPORTS DAY tomorrow. Hur hur! I don't know if it's a good thing or is it boring? Hmm? I wonder. Am I going to bring my Adidas cap tomorrow?
Hmm? I haven't used it yet. Only once when I was talking pictures and that's it. I still have the label attached to it. It's well? Untouched.
It's been around for months. Hmm? About four to five months. Oh well... I'll consider.
Anyway,I've to do my homework soon. Oh my,the wheather's really hot. The heat. Kept fanning myself. I simply cannot take the heat. Arghhhhh!! Too hot = Complain. Too cold = Leg cramp. LOL.
Let me see what homework I have. Oh,I haven't finish my Maths and English worksheet. English worksheet left with 1 page if not wrong. Oh goodie but that haven't include Elements of Office Administration (E.O.A). It's stupid. Darn,what to do but to do.
No choice. Oh,wait. There is. Don't do! Haha but then I can't just not do. I don't feel right. Unlike in Primary Six. Haha. Don't do Maths worksheet,blah blah.
I wasn't from the best EM2 class. In fact,the last EM2 class. LOL. B class. That's how my school system goes but I don't think it applies for now. My brother's in the F class. I have no problems with English. It has always been my favourite subject and I've never failed. The subject that I've always fail is CHINESE.
My Chinese simply sucks. I ain't good at it. That is why I usually speak English or should I say ALWAYS speak English and at times malay. Chinese? Hmm? I sound funny when I talk only those common words may not sound that funny but still,I feel I'm like a fool.
I've been studying Chinese since I was in K1. Hard to believe or shock? Still,I couldn't pick the language up. I feel English is easier than Chinese. Chinese is just isn't for me. TOO much? Hmm?
I still remember back then in primary school where my chinese teacher will always think that I'm malay and suggest me to study malay. What the...?! Are they blind? Can't they see my name? Oh. What's the LIM for? For fun? Interesting huh? Couldn't believe they still can think that way.
Of course I'm a CHINESE! IF not,tell me what's the LIM for? Sheesh. Haha. I still remember my primary five form teacher asking me if I'm malay. He was like "Your father malay,mother chinese?" LOL. I wanted to laugh but I held the laughter back. Come on!! Same surname yet you don't know? Fascinating.
Just because I can speak Malay,doesn't mean I'm a malay. Yes,my mother is a malay but her malay is just average. Then again,she's not 100% pure malay. My grandmother is a peranakan. Don't have to say about my mother's side. It's complicated. My great great great blah blah blah is Indonesian,blah blah blah. Yeah. Complicated. I'm mixed up. Haha.
Sometimes I wonder,what's the brain for? Since people ask such things,what is the brain use for then? Interesting huh?
Same surname,with such surname - Blah blah blah. What do you think? Forget Hokkien - which is my dialect. I can't even pick up CHINESE. Sheesh. Malay? Well,it's easier than Chinese I guess. I can't understand my grandmother as she's always speaking in Hokkien and I'm like so gong (blur). Don't quite understand her and my dad's like the interpreter.
Oh well,what can I say? Nobody's perfect.
Though I wish at times I am but just look at it this way,if everyone's perfect - what would this world turn out to be? Will it be peaceful or more competitive? Hmm?
Define that.
Alright,I guess I should be doing my homework. Don't want to sleep late. I'm already feeling a little tired.
As for now...
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠9:56:00 pm♠
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Here I am
Sitting here
In front of the computer
Sitting here
In front of the computer
Eyes looking at the monitor
Hands on the keyboard
Fingers typing to the beat
The sound of music keeps me alive
For I am alive
For the sound is energy
Eyes blinking
I'm thinking
Stars twinkling
They're winking
The ship is sinking
But I'm not sinking
I wonder what's next?
Wondering what's that about? Hmm? Haha. Was just an introduction for today's entry. I just wanted to start off with something different. Unlike the usual start off. Well? For a change,why not? =D
Oh well...
Anyway,just changed my blog's song few days ago. I sort of like it. I think it's suitable for blogs. Hmm? Don't know what y'all might think but TO ME. Well,at least to ME,I think it's ok. =)
I don't know maybe if I get tired of it I may change it but as for now,I think it's alright. It's actually Paul van Dyke's "Crush". =) Classified as Trance. I listen to almost all kinds of music and I like it. I think we should expose ourselves by listening to different type of music rather than sticking to your Rock or R&B.
I've to admit that I like Rock and Pop but R&B and Trance/Dance is also in my list. If it's nice and I enjoy listening to it,why not? Why just limit yourself to just the minimum? Expose it to maximum. Listen to it. Enjoy. No harm in listening to other types right? It's not as it you will die right? Then again,it's your choice. It's just my point of view only. That's how I feel.
Oh well... It's Tuesday. Nothing much today. My day is quite alright. I mean,I can't judge it yet as it's still happening. Ask me tomorrow and I'll judge. I'll give you 9! No. 7! No! Wrong. I mean,8! LOL. Ignore that crap. =D Was just kidding a little. Yes,lame. You can say that again but that doesn't stop me. =p
Had filing earlier on during Maths lesson. Oh my. I lost about five worksheets. Darn! How could this possibly be? *sigh* My fault. Shouldn't have put it in my file. The pocket I mean. It keeps slipping out! Darn. I think that's how I lost it. =( How sad. Hur hur!
I've to retrieve it someway or another and you know how I'm going to get it? Photocopy! LOL. Well? Yeah,I did that. Borrowed Wati's worksheets and yeah! Photocopied it. Luckily,I have a photocopier at home. =) Yeah,so it wasn't that bad. What a relieve huh? =D
It's a homework-free day today. Hmm? I don't know if I'll be adding another entry or an entry at the other blog. (http://fantasy-x72.blogspot.com) Hmm? I'm wondering. Then again,maybe not. Hmm? Maybe yes? Oh my. Haha.
Goodie. Chelsea beat Manchester City on Saturday. 2 - 0. Didier Drogba - MAN OF THE MATCH. Hand ball? It just happen to be but he didn't really touch with his hands. Almost? =) Even if they don't count,I'm sure Chelsea will still win. I mean,usually they win at home. If it's away then it's another thing but they usually win at home (Stamford Bridge).
Oh well... Let's not talk about that. Later some heated up conversations again. I simply can't stand those conversations. Often end up "quarrelling". It's ridiculous. Sheesh. Darn. Ok ok. Let's not talk about it before the wind really blows me away.
Destination Sunshine is current playing in my playlist. Simply love that song. =D - DJ Johan Gielen. I still prefer DJ Tiesto and Hmm? Paul Oakenfold and well? Maybe Paul Van Dyke. =)
Armin van Buuren is also not bad. =)
Hmm? 60 contacts only. So far highest target was about 80. I notice there's more people in the evening than during the day. Oh well... Currently chatting with "Mr WHAT IF,how" (Joel). LOL. His funny. I mean he'll ask questions with "WHAT IF" and ends with "How?" LOL. Always ask me to send him things. Bleah!
Besides that? Hmm... Not chatting with anyone at the moment but was earlier on.
Alright,I'm off now.
P e a c e * O u t . . .
Hands on the keyboard
Fingers typing to the beat
The sound of music keeps me alive
For I am alive
For the sound is energy
Eyes blinking
I'm thinking
Stars twinkling
They're winking
The ship is sinking
But I'm not sinking
I wonder what's next?
Wondering what's that about? Hmm? Haha. Was just an introduction for today's entry. I just wanted to start off with something different. Unlike the usual start off. Well? For a change,why not? =D
Oh well...
Anyway,just changed my blog's song few days ago. I sort of like it. I think it's suitable for blogs. Hmm? Don't know what y'all might think but TO ME. Well,at least to ME,I think it's ok. =)
I don't know maybe if I get tired of it I may change it but as for now,I think it's alright. It's actually Paul van Dyke's "Crush". =) Classified as Trance. I listen to almost all kinds of music and I like it. I think we should expose ourselves by listening to different type of music rather than sticking to your Rock or R&B.
I've to admit that I like Rock and Pop but R&B and Trance/Dance is also in my list. If it's nice and I enjoy listening to it,why not? Why just limit yourself to just the minimum? Expose it to maximum. Listen to it. Enjoy. No harm in listening to other types right? It's not as it you will die right? Then again,it's your choice. It's just my point of view only. That's how I feel.
Oh well... It's Tuesday. Nothing much today. My day is quite alright. I mean,I can't judge it yet as it's still happening. Ask me tomorrow and I'll judge. I'll give you 9! No. 7! No! Wrong. I mean,8! LOL. Ignore that crap. =D Was just kidding a little. Yes,lame. You can say that again but that doesn't stop me. =p
Had filing earlier on during Maths lesson. Oh my. I lost about five worksheets. Darn! How could this possibly be? *sigh* My fault. Shouldn't have put it in my file. The pocket I mean. It keeps slipping out! Darn. I think that's how I lost it. =( How sad. Hur hur!
I've to retrieve it someway or another and you know how I'm going to get it? Photocopy! LOL. Well? Yeah,I did that. Borrowed Wati's worksheets and yeah! Photocopied it. Luckily,I have a photocopier at home. =) Yeah,so it wasn't that bad. What a relieve huh? =D
It's a homework-free day today. Hmm? I don't know if I'll be adding another entry or an entry at the other blog. (http://fantasy-x72.blogspot.com) Hmm? I'm wondering. Then again,maybe not. Hmm? Maybe yes? Oh my. Haha.
Goodie. Chelsea beat Manchester City on Saturday. 2 - 0. Didier Drogba - MAN OF THE MATCH. Hand ball? It just happen to be but he didn't really touch with his hands. Almost? =) Even if they don't count,I'm sure Chelsea will still win. I mean,usually they win at home. If it's away then it's another thing but they usually win at home (Stamford Bridge).
Oh well... Let's not talk about that. Later some heated up conversations again. I simply can't stand those conversations. Often end up "quarrelling". It's ridiculous. Sheesh. Darn. Ok ok. Let's not talk about it before the wind really blows me away.
Destination Sunshine is current playing in my playlist. Simply love that song. =D - DJ Johan Gielen. I still prefer DJ Tiesto and Hmm? Paul Oakenfold and well? Maybe Paul Van Dyke. =)
Armin van Buuren is also not bad. =)
Hmm? 60 contacts only. So far highest target was about 80. I notice there's more people in the evening than during the day. Oh well... Currently chatting with "Mr WHAT IF,how" (Joel). LOL. His funny. I mean he'll ask questions with "WHAT IF" and ends with "How?" LOL. Always ask me to send him things. Bleah!
Besides that? Hmm... Not chatting with anyone at the moment but was earlier on.
Alright,I'm off now.
P e a c e * O u t . . .
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠8:42:00 pm♠
Friday, March 24, 2006
La La LA. D's here. As usual,blogging! Darn. I feel that today I'm a little blur. Oh my.
Hmm? My day was ok. I think yesterday is better. Hmm? Oh well... Life's like that. What can I say after all? Life is always full of ups and downs so we just have to be patient. Yes,I know that sometimes or should I say at times when you're in a situation where by you are too stressed out till you become impatient and trashing. Trashing as in foul.
Oh. Not that foul like in baseball or something. Haha. Well? You know what I mean. Alright,let's move on and drop this subject. Don't want to think about it already.
Pretty fast it's Friday and tomorrow's Saturday. Oh my. Time flies very fast and oh yes,it'll be Aida and Pearline's birthday. Ho ho! PEARLINE'S BASH! LOL.
Too bad I couldn't go out with her tomorrow. IF ONLY. =D Then that would be another story. That would be,"Get me the flour,eggs..............." Muahahahaha! Oops. La LA... "See no evil,hear no evil."
Oh my. It's been pretty hot this few days. I mean humid even though it rains,I still feel the heat. Hmm? But it isn't a bad idea to rain at times like this. It sort of makes it cooler. IF it doesn't rain,oh boy... I don't know if I could take the heat without a fan or fanning myself to keep myself cool.
24th of March. Hmm? Tomorrow's 25th. Speech Day's next month. World Cup is I think about 77 days more. England! England! England!! Oh yeah.
Simply happy that Chelsea won. Chelsea 1,Newcastle 0 (FA Cup 6th round). Errr? Is it 6th round? Yeah,if I'm not wrong. Hopefully,Chelsea will get the 3 points tomorrow at Stamford Bridge. Home. Oh yeah! Chances of them winning is quite high cause they mostly win at home.
It'd be Chelsea vs Manchester City tomorrow. CHELSEA! CHELSEA! CHELSEA!!
BLUE is the COLOUR! I like Chelsea's current jersey. Haha. Kinda nice. Compared to their previous ones,I feel that their current one looks cool. Last weekend,the media reported that Jose Mourinho (Chelsea's Manager) will not be with Chelsea next season. Gosh. That's FALSE! Jose Mourinho,himself,already say that he'll be with Chelsea next season. Anyway, he has a contract till 2010.
The media sometimes talk rubbish and that's really sad. They make up stories and stuff like that to have something to talk about but hey! Do you know you're hurting people by doing that? Oh my. Don't they have brains to think?? Sometimes I wonder if they ever think about the "What IF" questions. I bet they don't. The only thing that's in their mind is to make up stories and have something to talk about.
I think it's stupid. Like the recent one also about Ruud van Nistelrooy. The media say that he'll be leaving United. What the hell? He still has a contract with United till 2008. He still has two more years. What is wrong with them? This is all LIES. Instead of making something for people to read and know the facts,they make up stories till sometimes people don't know if it's for REAL or NOT. Sheesh.
I hope they bloody wake up. WAKE UP! What's up with that? What are you? Tsk tsk. Shame on you.
I have no comments but to say it's stupid. Seriously. I mean,don't they have anything better to do than this? Time is precious,if you don't have anything to talk about,do some other stuff with your time. You're simply wasting your own time. Why waste it?
I don't want to. Time is precious. Their like water. If you waste it,you can't get it back. It's limited. It's not like it's unlimited. IF only it was but that? Ha! It'll never happen.
Ok,I really hope they know what their doing. Let's just pray and hope that they use their time wisely and make wise decisions. Sometimes,words can get you into trouble. I suggest that at times we should just mind our own. Don't be a hero even if you have the urge to just help in a way.
Use your brains ya? I hope you know what you're doing. Sometimes you can't look at it as a one sided thing. You have to understand why such things happen and what are the reasons. Though sometimes we don't think about it or maybe some NEVER thought about it. Think again. Study it,think through -- get through. It'll be fine. You'll be fine and not be in hell.
Whatever it is. It's your world,it's your choice. Just think about it. Be free,think freely -- be wise. What's your point of view?
Everyone has their own opinion,everyone has their own views. Be yourself and be unique in your own way. =) What I really mean is CREATE YOUR OWN ID. Don't be a copycat.
Hmm? Alright. I'll be mapling for now.
Maybe later.
Peace out.
Hmm? My day was ok. I think yesterday is better. Hmm? Oh well... Life's like that. What can I say after all? Life is always full of ups and downs so we just have to be patient. Yes,I know that sometimes or should I say at times when you're in a situation where by you are too stressed out till you become impatient and trashing. Trashing as in foul.
Oh. Not that foul like in baseball or something. Haha. Well? You know what I mean. Alright,let's move on and drop this subject. Don't want to think about it already.
Pretty fast it's Friday and tomorrow's Saturday. Oh my. Time flies very fast and oh yes,it'll be Aida and Pearline's birthday. Ho ho! PEARLINE'S BASH! LOL.
Too bad I couldn't go out with her tomorrow. IF ONLY. =D Then that would be another story. That would be,"Get me the flour,eggs..............." Muahahahaha! Oops. La LA... "See no evil,hear no evil."
Oh my. It's been pretty hot this few days. I mean humid even though it rains,I still feel the heat. Hmm? But it isn't a bad idea to rain at times like this. It sort of makes it cooler. IF it doesn't rain,oh boy... I don't know if I could take the heat without a fan or fanning myself to keep myself cool.
24th of March. Hmm? Tomorrow's 25th. Speech Day's next month. World Cup is I think about 77 days more. England! England! England!! Oh yeah.
Simply happy that Chelsea won. Chelsea 1,Newcastle 0 (FA Cup 6th round). Errr? Is it 6th round? Yeah,if I'm not wrong. Hopefully,Chelsea will get the 3 points tomorrow at Stamford Bridge. Home. Oh yeah! Chances of them winning is quite high cause they mostly win at home.
It'd be Chelsea vs Manchester City tomorrow. CHELSEA! CHELSEA! CHELSEA!!
BLUE is the COLOUR! I like Chelsea's current jersey. Haha. Kinda nice. Compared to their previous ones,I feel that their current one looks cool. Last weekend,the media reported that Jose Mourinho (Chelsea's Manager) will not be with Chelsea next season. Gosh. That's FALSE! Jose Mourinho,himself,already say that he'll be with Chelsea next season. Anyway, he has a contract till 2010.
The media sometimes talk rubbish and that's really sad. They make up stories and stuff like that to have something to talk about but hey! Do you know you're hurting people by doing that? Oh my. Don't they have brains to think?? Sometimes I wonder if they ever think about the "What IF" questions. I bet they don't. The only thing that's in their mind is to make up stories and have something to talk about.
I think it's stupid. Like the recent one also about Ruud van Nistelrooy. The media say that he'll be leaving United. What the hell? He still has a contract with United till 2008. He still has two more years. What is wrong with them? This is all LIES. Instead of making something for people to read and know the facts,they make up stories till sometimes people don't know if it's for REAL or NOT. Sheesh.
I hope they bloody wake up. WAKE UP! What's up with that? What are you? Tsk tsk. Shame on you.
I have no comments but to say it's stupid. Seriously. I mean,don't they have anything better to do than this? Time is precious,if you don't have anything to talk about,do some other stuff with your time. You're simply wasting your own time. Why waste it?
I don't want to. Time is precious. Their like water. If you waste it,you can't get it back. It's limited. It's not like it's unlimited. IF only it was but that? Ha! It'll never happen.
Ok,I really hope they know what their doing. Let's just pray and hope that they use their time wisely and make wise decisions. Sometimes,words can get you into trouble. I suggest that at times we should just mind our own. Don't be a hero even if you have the urge to just help in a way.
Use your brains ya? I hope you know what you're doing. Sometimes you can't look at it as a one sided thing. You have to understand why such things happen and what are the reasons. Though sometimes we don't think about it or maybe some NEVER thought about it. Think again. Study it,think through -- get through. It'll be fine. You'll be fine and not be in hell.
Whatever it is. It's your world,it's your choice. Just think about it. Be free,think freely -- be wise. What's your point of view?
Everyone has their own opinion,everyone has their own views. Be yourself and be unique in your own way. =) What I really mean is CREATE YOUR OWN ID. Don't be a copycat.
Hmm? Alright. I'll be mapling for now.
Maybe later.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠8:45:00 pm♠
Here I am. TYPING of course. LOL. Ain't it obvious? Haha.
Oh well...
Yawns yawns yawns. Yeah,yeah. I'm a little sleepy but I refused to go to bed yet as I haven't heard it calling me. =D LOL. Crap again. I'm just in a mood to crap around. Well? At least for now.
La La LA...
Sometimes you just have to take things lightly and enjoy! Oh yeah! ENJOY! Have fun! If you know me that well,I'm actually someone who likes to laugh and crap a lot. Hmm? Well,maybe that violent girl that you know when I'm angry but hey! I don't like it. In fact,I hate it. You think I like being that? Of course not.
I like to have fun. Be happy! Laugh! Yes,more laughter! Be with friends. Talk about anything lame. LOL. Definately more crapping.
Of course when you have to be serious,you be serious. I don't know why people always say I look serious and stuff like that. Do I really look that serious? Tsk tsk. Haha. Hmm...? I wonder.
I'm a person who likes chatting. I like to talk to someone who I can talk to about anything. Well? Anything but not....... Ahem. You know. I like to crap around. Sometimes I can b a little lame. Some of my friends can even laugh at certain things that I say. Sometimes I wonder if I am that funny? Haha.
Hmm? Ain't a bad thing to be funny. Why not? Haha! =X If you can make someone laugh or even smile,hey! That's an achievement. Seriously,I feel that to make someone happy is something. To make a person's day is even better.
Sometimes I wonder,do I really pay much attention to myself? Sometimes even I'm feel not the usual,I still try to make people happy. In a way,it sort of makes me happy too. Well? Ok,make me smile even if for a while.
At times I even forget about my sadness for a bit. It sort of put those aside. I mean,everyone has some sadness in them. Well? What I'm trying to say is,at times you may feel sad too. Get my point? Nobody's like that SO HAPPY person.
Sometimes I don't know what's in my mind. Too many things till I don't know where or when to start. Hmm? But I guess blogging is cool. In a way,I can sort of express myself. Problems are always there. The obstacles are always blocking us and we have to overcome it. In every situation,there's always a solution. When there's a will,there's a way.
So if you're hardworking enough and willing to overcome it,I'm sure you will. Don't just give up just like that. Do the right thing! Be smart,be wise. Make a wise decision.
I admit that I make a lot of mistakes. It's horrible when I look back at those things that I've done. My mind isn't there. I wasn't thinking ahead. It was just more like a short term thing but hey,I've learnt my lesson and I'm not going to repeat it again.
Why repeat it when you've been there and done that? I'm sure you don't want to make the same mistakes again. What to do? What's done,can't be undone. Unlike computer applications where you can just click on the undo button or (Ctrl Z). Too bad we don't work that way.
IF only we do. Hmm? Ain't that be great? But hey,this is reality. So nah. Dream on. That's all I can say.
Yawns. Alright,I think I better be off. My eyes are getting heavy. My bed's calling me. I better be going. Don't want to disappoint my precious pillow,bolster and wonderful,comfy bed.
"Sleeeeeeeppppp! Sleeeeeepppp! Diane!! Come on! Go to sleep will ya?"
D: "Hooooooo! Wait up! I'm coming!"
"Quick! If you don't,I'm going to be very disappointed." *Feeling angry*
D: "Okay! I'm going. Chill ya? I love you! Don't worry!"
"Umm.. S-s-s-u-r-e?"
D: "Of course."
LOL. Crap again. Haha. Ok,sleep ya? It's late and I hate. Shouldn't have ate.
Dang! Okies... That's all!
So long and goodnight!
Peace.
Yawns yawns yawns. Yeah,yeah. I'm a little sleepy but I refused to go to bed yet as I haven't heard it calling me. =D LOL. Crap again. I'm just in a mood to crap around. Well? At least for now.
La La LA...
Sometimes you just have to take things lightly and enjoy! Oh yeah! ENJOY! Have fun! If you know me that well,I'm actually someone who likes to laugh and crap a lot. Hmm? Well,maybe that violent girl that you know when I'm angry but hey! I don't like it. In fact,I hate it. You think I like being that? Of course not.
I like to have fun. Be happy! Laugh! Yes,more laughter! Be with friends. Talk about anything lame. LOL. Definately more crapping.
Of course when you have to be serious,you be serious. I don't know why people always say I look serious and stuff like that. Do I really look that serious? Tsk tsk. Haha. Hmm...? I wonder.
I'm a person who likes chatting. I like to talk to someone who I can talk to about anything. Well? Anything but not....... Ahem. You know. I like to crap around. Sometimes I can b a little lame. Some of my friends can even laugh at certain things that I say. Sometimes I wonder if I am that funny? Haha.
Hmm? Ain't a bad thing to be funny. Why not? Haha! =X If you can make someone laugh or even smile,hey! That's an achievement. Seriously,I feel that to make someone happy is something. To make a person's day is even better.
Sometimes I wonder,do I really pay much attention to myself? Sometimes even I'm feel not the usual,I still try to make people happy. In a way,it sort of makes me happy too. Well? Ok,make me smile even if for a while.
At times I even forget about my sadness for a bit. It sort of put those aside. I mean,everyone has some sadness in them. Well? What I'm trying to say is,at times you may feel sad too. Get my point? Nobody's like that SO HAPPY person.
Sometimes I don't know what's in my mind. Too many things till I don't know where or when to start. Hmm? But I guess blogging is cool. In a way,I can sort of express myself. Problems are always there. The obstacles are always blocking us and we have to overcome it. In every situation,there's always a solution. When there's a will,there's a way.
So if you're hardworking enough and willing to overcome it,I'm sure you will. Don't just give up just like that. Do the right thing! Be smart,be wise. Make a wise decision.
I admit that I make a lot of mistakes. It's horrible when I look back at those things that I've done. My mind isn't there. I wasn't thinking ahead. It was just more like a short term thing but hey,I've learnt my lesson and I'm not going to repeat it again.
Why repeat it when you've been there and done that? I'm sure you don't want to make the same mistakes again. What to do? What's done,can't be undone. Unlike computer applications where you can just click on the undo button or (Ctrl Z). Too bad we don't work that way.
IF only we do. Hmm? Ain't that be great? But hey,this is reality. So nah. Dream on. That's all I can say.
Yawns. Alright,I think I better be off. My eyes are getting heavy. My bed's calling me. I better be going. Don't want to disappoint my precious pillow,bolster and wonderful,comfy bed.
"Sleeeeeeeppppp! Sleeeeeepppp! Diane!! Come on! Go to sleep will ya?"
D: "Hooooooo! Wait up! I'm coming!"
"Quick! If you don't,I'm going to be very disappointed." *Feeling angry*
D: "Okay! I'm going. Chill ya? I love you! Don't worry!"
"Umm.. S-s-s-u-r-e?"
D: "Of course."
LOL. Crap again. Haha. Ok,sleep ya? It's late and I hate. Shouldn't have ate.
Dang! Okies... That's all!
So long and goodnight!
Peace.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:27:00 am♠
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Tuesday! Oh my. Pretty fast huh?
Got back test papers yesterday. Hmm? It wasn't that bad. =)
I'm actually pleased with my Common Test results but not for English. I feel I can do much better but maybe my overall marks would pleased me. I don't know my overall marks for English yet. So far the only overall marks I know is for Maths. Yipee! Happy me. Got 81. =)
Mother Tongue? Hmm... Surely fail.
Oh well... Let's not talk about it.
Darn. I'm so disappointed. Chelsea lost on Sunday. Hur hur hur!! BUT I bet they'll win the next time round. Nevermind about that but poor thing,William Gallas got red card. Darn. Two players can't play! One of them is my favourite player. Arjen Robben. Damn! If Fulham say Chelsea players are this and that,hey... What about Fulham players going for Damien Duff? Sheesh.
Oh well... Football is a game of passion. What can I say? Let's not talk about it. BECAUSE of that,I had an arguement with a few people. Darn. Oh like what the hell...
"Chelsea,boys in blue, Chelsea Chelsea we love you. Chelsea our love is true. No one can stop us now." - "No One Can Stop Us" - Chelsea FC. Listening to that song now. Haha.
Oh well... I have Science homework to do. Darn. There's PE tomorrow. Rain! Rain! Then we don't have to run. Haha. =X I prefer to have PE on Friday. I just don't know why but I kinda like it. Hmm? Haha.
One thing I envy about guys is that they're good at hiding their feelings. I think that's cool.
Haha. I'm out of love I guess. I don't have that feeling. My last strong feeling was........ Errr... You know who. Let's not talk about him.
What's in the past,is past. Look ahead. Be free,think free.
Hmm... Speech Day's coming. Oh goodie. Next month on the 21st if not wrong. =) La La LA... I don't,I seem happy I guess but my mind has a lot of things. I mean,I have a lot of things in mind. Sometimes I don't know whether I should be happy or just simply neutral.
Oh well...
Had lunch with Angie (Xiaoqiang) earlier on at Burger King. Ate BK fish burger. Haven't eaten that for quite sometime already. Hmm... Darn. Saw Rashidi and his pal,Lakhan. Darn. Why always see Rashidi?? Arghhhhh! LOL.
Rashidi,Sushi,Ashidi,Rash... LOL. He may be small size but tell you what,his fit and I mean really fit. No comments. Haha but one word,envy. I envy his strength. Haha. The ability to do such stuff. No wonder NCC but why NCC? LOL. Hmm? I wonder.
I think I saw Luqman's sister. I mean that girl that I saw in the bus really look like her. Is it her? Kept looking at her. I don't but in a way,I find her quite pretty. It just catches my attention. Haha. Oh my. Lesbian? Oh yes. I love my dearest Angie. She's the one. Haha! Of course,I'm not but I can be that "lesbian" at times. Haha.
But nah. Don't worry. I'm straight. =)
Darn... Xiaoqiang missed called me. Haha.
I don't feel like typing much today. I guess it's up to here then. Maybe tomorrow.
Alright then. Till here as for now. I'm off now.
Peace out.
Got back test papers yesterday. Hmm? It wasn't that bad. =)
I'm actually pleased with my Common Test results but not for English. I feel I can do much better but maybe my overall marks would pleased me. I don't know my overall marks for English yet. So far the only overall marks I know is for Maths. Yipee! Happy me. Got 81. =)
Mother Tongue? Hmm... Surely fail.
Oh well... Let's not talk about it.
Darn. I'm so disappointed. Chelsea lost on Sunday. Hur hur hur!! BUT I bet they'll win the next time round. Nevermind about that but poor thing,William Gallas got red card. Darn. Two players can't play! One of them is my favourite player. Arjen Robben. Damn! If Fulham say Chelsea players are this and that,hey... What about Fulham players going for Damien Duff? Sheesh.
Oh well... Football is a game of passion. What can I say? Let's not talk about it. BECAUSE of that,I had an arguement with a few people. Darn. Oh like what the hell...
"Chelsea,boys in blue, Chelsea Chelsea we love you. Chelsea our love is true. No one can stop us now." - "No One Can Stop Us" - Chelsea FC. Listening to that song now. Haha.
Oh well... I have Science homework to do. Darn. There's PE tomorrow. Rain! Rain! Then we don't have to run. Haha. =X I prefer to have PE on Friday. I just don't know why but I kinda like it. Hmm? Haha.
One thing I envy about guys is that they're good at hiding their feelings. I think that's cool.
Haha. I'm out of love I guess. I don't have that feeling. My last strong feeling was........ Errr... You know who. Let's not talk about him.
What's in the past,is past. Look ahead. Be free,think free.
Hmm... Speech Day's coming. Oh goodie. Next month on the 21st if not wrong. =) La La LA... I don't,I seem happy I guess but my mind has a lot of things. I mean,I have a lot of things in mind. Sometimes I don't know whether I should be happy or just simply neutral.
Oh well...
Had lunch with Angie (Xiaoqiang) earlier on at Burger King. Ate BK fish burger. Haven't eaten that for quite sometime already. Hmm... Darn. Saw Rashidi and his pal,Lakhan. Darn. Why always see Rashidi?? Arghhhhh! LOL.
Rashidi,Sushi,Ashidi,Rash... LOL. He may be small size but tell you what,his fit and I mean really fit. No comments. Haha but one word,envy. I envy his strength. Haha. The ability to do such stuff. No wonder NCC but why NCC? LOL. Hmm? I wonder.
I think I saw Luqman's sister. I mean that girl that I saw in the bus really look like her. Is it her? Kept looking at her. I don't but in a way,I find her quite pretty. It just catches my attention. Haha. Oh my. Lesbian? Oh yes. I love my dearest Angie. She's the one. Haha! Of course,I'm not but I can be that "lesbian" at times. Haha.
But nah. Don't worry. I'm straight. =)
Darn... Xiaoqiang missed called me. Haha.
I don't feel like typing much today. I guess it's up to here then. Maybe tomorrow.
Alright then. Till here as for now. I'm off now.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠10:10:00 pm♠
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Just had my breakfast at West Plaza's Kopitiam. Ate 3 pratas. Two eggs,one plain. Yum yum! Hmm... Going to iron my clothes soon. Will be going on later. Hmm? I wonder where. Haha. Haven't decide where actually.
Oh well...
Gosh. I didn't realised I have lots of miss calls yesterday. My phone was set to silent mode actually. I don't know too! It's only around 11PM then I realised it was in silent mode and I have about 8 missed calls. Oh my.
Darn. Then before I went to sleep last night,I saw 3 missed calls from 3 different people. I wonder why so many calls yesterday and it's like I didn't realised that there were calls! Oh boy. Oh boy. Darn.
Anyway,it's Saturday. Gosh. This coming Monday school reopens. Arghhhhhh! Well,at least I've done my homework already. I did it yesterday. Phew. Luckily it was Maths only. Two Maths worksheets. I simply don't really like Maths but what to do? Still have to do.
I'm full! Haha. Then again,I thought of having some snacks but I don't think I should. Bad idea huh? Haha.
Chelsea's match will be tomorrow. Tonight is Arsenal's match. Fabregas? Oh yes! Haha. Ok,enough of that. Darn. Oh why,oh why? Haha...
Hmm? It seems that I'm like in a happy mood. Am I? =) I wonder.
Alright,I guess I better be ironing my clothes. Later!
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:05:00 pm♠
2AM! Oh boy. I'm still awake. Oh! Don't worry. I will be turning in soon. Just waiting for my bed to call me. =D "Oh bed! Do you need me?"
Oh well... I'm just in a mood to blog I guess. So here I am! =D The day before yesterday or was it the day before yesterday's yesterday I slept at about 4AM if I'm not wrong. Hmm? Or is it these few days? Haha. Gosh. I know it's really bad BUT! Have no fear. I'll sleep early tonight. Erm,as in compared to those days. =D I must make a point to sleep early on Sunday. I don't want to be sleepy on Monday.
Darn. Simply hate the new timetable which will be effective on this coming Monday. Oh darn. Oh why? Oh why?? How could this be?? How could this happen to me? Haha... Sounds more like Simple Plan's "Untitled". LOL!
Drats! First period of the day is guess what? BORING MATHS. Hmm? Well,ok,it's not as bad as Mother Tongue. Mother Tongue is really boring. I'm not interested. Chinese lesson is so boring. Yawns yawns yawns! Yeah,yawns.
Hmm,let me see how many contacts are online at the moment. If I'm not wrong,earlier on at about 8.45PM there were about 60 over contacts if I'm not wrong. I think yesterday or was it the day before yesterday there were a lot of contacts online. About 80. Maybe to some it isn't but for my experience,the highest it goes is about 70.
I have about nearing to 300 contacts in my contact list. I think other people has more than me. It really isn't a big deal to me. Anyway, the contacts usually goes on at different timing. Some only goes on in the afternoon or evening whereas some are like always on. Hmm? Ain't that me? Haha. Well,I'm not really always on but once I'm on,I'll be on till my bed's calling me. Some people on their computers 24 hours but I don't. At the most it'll be like half of the day only.
Hmm? If it's my living room computer,well that's another story. =D That computer is always on 24/7. It's like never off. Or should I say it's rarely switched off. Only like twice if I'm not mistaken it's off but other than that? Nah. It's always on.
Oh my. Were looking at my pictures earlier on and I feel that I look better when I'm younger. Aww... If only I could stay like that forever. =D
Darn. I'm having some problems uploading those pictures here. Hmm? Maybe other times.
Looking at my Primary 1 picture and now. Even some of my friends don't believe it's me. Or should I say most of my friends were shock actually. It's really me! Why would I admit something that's not real? I know it may look different and yes,I think I look better back then.
Oh well... Those were the days. The memories are still there. Oh yes. I still remember acting on the stage back then when I was Primary 1. Skit competition and I acted as Hansel and Gratel's witch. That,I'll not forget. My teachers were supporting me. They gave me lots of encouragement. The unique thing was for my class skit,I'm the only one acting. =D
The only person to represent my class and oh! 2nd prize for that. =D I still remember the lines. I still have to laugh like a witch. Oh,it sound like one. Haha. "I'm the witch,from Hansel and Gratel. I will eat them and put cockroaches and lizards." Errr? I think something like that if I'm not wrong.Haha. Then I go laughing again. Haha.
I think there's a few more lines but I don't think I could recall it. That was like in 1997 and now it's 2006. Wooooooo! About ten years huh? Haha. Oh well... Time files really fast. I wish I could turn back time but nah. You can't do that. If only.
Oh well... Stop dreaming. My bed's calling me. Hmm? Maybe in a little while more I'll go to bed but oh well... I guess I'll end here for now.
Y a w n s ! Oh yup! I'm yawning.
Ok,peace out peeps!
I'm outta sight...
Oh well... I'm just in a mood to blog I guess. So here I am! =D The day before yesterday or was it the day before yesterday's yesterday I slept at about 4AM if I'm not wrong. Hmm? Or is it these few days? Haha. Gosh. I know it's really bad BUT! Have no fear. I'll sleep early tonight. Erm,as in compared to those days. =D I must make a point to sleep early on Sunday. I don't want to be sleepy on Monday.
Darn. Simply hate the new timetable which will be effective on this coming Monday. Oh darn. Oh why? Oh why?? How could this be?? How could this happen to me? Haha... Sounds more like Simple Plan's "Untitled". LOL!
Drats! First period of the day is guess what? BORING MATHS. Hmm? Well,ok,it's not as bad as Mother Tongue. Mother Tongue is really boring. I'm not interested. Chinese lesson is so boring. Yawns yawns yawns! Yeah,yawns.
Hmm,let me see how many contacts are online at the moment. If I'm not wrong,earlier on at about 8.45PM there were about 60 over contacts if I'm not wrong. I think yesterday or was it the day before yesterday there were a lot of contacts online. About 80. Maybe to some it isn't but for my experience,the highest it goes is about 70.
I have about nearing to 300 contacts in my contact list. I think other people has more than me. It really isn't a big deal to me. Anyway, the contacts usually goes on at different timing. Some only goes on in the afternoon or evening whereas some are like always on. Hmm? Ain't that me? Haha. Well,I'm not really always on but once I'm on,I'll be on till my bed's calling me. Some people on their computers 24 hours but I don't. At the most it'll be like half of the day only.
Hmm? If it's my living room computer,well that's another story. =D That computer is always on 24/7. It's like never off. Or should I say it's rarely switched off. Only like twice if I'm not mistaken it's off but other than that? Nah. It's always on.
Oh my. Were looking at my pictures earlier on and I feel that I look better when I'm younger. Aww... If only I could stay like that forever. =D
Darn. I'm having some problems uploading those pictures here. Hmm? Maybe other times.
Looking at my Primary 1 picture and now. Even some of my friends don't believe it's me. Or should I say most of my friends were shock actually. It's really me! Why would I admit something that's not real? I know it may look different and yes,I think I look better back then.
Oh well... Those were the days. The memories are still there. Oh yes. I still remember acting on the stage back then when I was Primary 1. Skit competition and I acted as Hansel and Gratel's witch. That,I'll not forget. My teachers were supporting me. They gave me lots of encouragement. The unique thing was for my class skit,I'm the only one acting. =D
The only person to represent my class and oh! 2nd prize for that. =D I still remember the lines. I still have to laugh like a witch. Oh,it sound like one. Haha. "I'm the witch,from Hansel and Gratel. I will eat them and put cockroaches and lizards." Errr? I think something like that if I'm not wrong.Haha. Then I go laughing again. Haha.
I think there's a few more lines but I don't think I could recall it. That was like in 1997 and now it's 2006. Wooooooo! About ten years huh? Haha. Oh well... Time files really fast. I wish I could turn back time but nah. You can't do that. If only.
Oh well... Stop dreaming. My bed's calling me. Hmm? Maybe in a little while more I'll go to bed but oh well... I guess I'll end here for now.
Y a w n s ! Oh yup! I'm yawning.
Ok,peace out peeps!
I'm outta sight...
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠2:18:00 am♠
Friday, March 17, 2006
I hope it won't disappear again! Oh, what am I talking about? Well, yesterday while I was blogging and I mean blogging a really long entry and out of the blue it just disappears just like that! Humph! I was upset with it as it's really a long entry. Drats. I decided not to blog after that so I hope this entry will be fine.
Sheesh. Really can't stand it. I was like "Noooooooo!!!!" Want to cry? Hmm... Haha. I mean it's a long entry and such things happen. Oh god. HEARTACHE.
Anyway, today I think I'm feeling better. Yesterday I was quiet. I just don't feel like talking that much. Well, maybe on MSN. It's like yesterday I spent my time advising my friends. Hmm... It's like yesterday they start a conversation with me and ask for advice. Like I say, I'm always willing to listen. So whatever I could do to help, I will try. =)
Everyone needs someone to listen to them. That's how I feel. I mean, you can't just keep everything to yourself right? Maybe some might prefer keeping it to themselves but I think that's not right. When you speak out, you sort of ease a little but nevermind. I don't blame those who doesn't want to speak out. Maybe their problems are really huge but whatever it is, I feel that we all need someone to talk to.
I'm not god or someone with magical powers that will solve everything for you but the least I could do is to listen and advice them and oh, not forgetting cheering them up and make them feel better. =)
What can I say after all? We can't read people like we read a book. They're unpredictable and our minds are like clocks. Constantly changing. Different people have different thinking. Different point of view. That's the meaning of uniqueness. We are all different. Tell me which person is the same? Nobody! We have our own trademarks and stuff like that.
Sometimes I wish I could read them like a book. Reading a book is simple but reading people's body language and mind? That's another story.
Guys and girls are very different. Girls often show their affections whereas guys they're good at hiding it. Guys can be very egoist. Something that I don't like. Hmm? Girls can be that too. I don't like abusive people. I don't respect them. Why respect someone like that?
Sometimes I'm afraid of guys. Afraid of those abusive ones. I don't wish to meet that type. I really respect those who knows how to treat others with respect. Someone understanding,funny and someone whom I can trust and confide. I think that's really sweet. Why be abusive? Why not we whack them? Haha! Oops. =D
Seriously. If they're so violent as in always abusing others,why not we whack them? I've to admit that at times when I'm angry I get a little violent but I'm not to that extend! It depends on the situation but I won't really go and abuse someone badly. If that person hits me,I'll hit that person back. Isn't that being fair? I won't whack someone till someone bleeds. I know it isn't good to be violent. I know I'm a hot tempered person but I'm trying my best to take things lightly. I think I did improve. Compared to last time,I think I'm better now.
Then again,you think I like to be like that? Of course not! I just want to be happy all the way. I simply want to be happy. When you're happy. Happy = Happiness,Joy,Laughter.
Ain't that good? I love to laugh and have fun. Why be angry? Relax. Be happy! Be free. Think free. =)
This world there's no such thing as happy all the way. I know they'll be obstacles and stuff like that. Things that will make us upset and unhappy. Angry,etc. I know I'm like a monster when I'm angry. You think I like it? Definately not. Tell me who wants to be angry? Nobody! What I mean is life is always full of ups and downs.
It's like a rollercoaster ride. You go up,you go down. Up again. Down again.
Sometimes I wish I didn't have emotions. Emotions are just disruptions and their the cause of those heated conversations and arguements. Emotions make us react to certain issues. We get angry,upset,disappointed and so on. Hmm? Then again. I wonder. If we don't have emotions,I think it'll be boring.
Oh well... I don't know. I guess we have to have patience. Be calm and think postively. =)
Love? Ha! Let's not talk about it. I'm outta love. There are much more important things than that. Family love,friends love. With that, it'll be fine. Special someone? Hmm... At the moment,nah. I'm afraid of getting hurt. I don't want to hurt myself. That's the reason why I'm afraid of falling for someone.
Like they say,once is enough. So yeah. Enough of it.
Alright,I want to watch television now.
Maybe later ya?
Paece out.
Sheesh. Really can't stand it. I was like "Noooooooo!!!!" Want to cry? Hmm... Haha. I mean it's a long entry and such things happen. Oh god. HEARTACHE.
Anyway, today I think I'm feeling better. Yesterday I was quiet. I just don't feel like talking that much. Well, maybe on MSN. It's like yesterday I spent my time advising my friends. Hmm... It's like yesterday they start a conversation with me and ask for advice. Like I say, I'm always willing to listen. So whatever I could do to help, I will try. =)
Everyone needs someone to listen to them. That's how I feel. I mean, you can't just keep everything to yourself right? Maybe some might prefer keeping it to themselves but I think that's not right. When you speak out, you sort of ease a little but nevermind. I don't blame those who doesn't want to speak out. Maybe their problems are really huge but whatever it is, I feel that we all need someone to talk to.
I'm not god or someone with magical powers that will solve everything for you but the least I could do is to listen and advice them and oh, not forgetting cheering them up and make them feel better. =)
What can I say after all? We can't read people like we read a book. They're unpredictable and our minds are like clocks. Constantly changing. Different people have different thinking. Different point of view. That's the meaning of uniqueness. We are all different. Tell me which person is the same? Nobody! We have our own trademarks and stuff like that.
Sometimes I wish I could read them like a book. Reading a book is simple but reading people's body language and mind? That's another story.
Guys and girls are very different. Girls often show their affections whereas guys they're good at hiding it. Guys can be very egoist. Something that I don't like. Hmm? Girls can be that too. I don't like abusive people. I don't respect them. Why respect someone like that?
Sometimes I'm afraid of guys. Afraid of those abusive ones. I don't wish to meet that type. I really respect those who knows how to treat others with respect. Someone understanding,funny and someone whom I can trust and confide. I think that's really sweet. Why be abusive? Why not we whack them? Haha! Oops. =D
Seriously. If they're so violent as in always abusing others,why not we whack them? I've to admit that at times when I'm angry I get a little violent but I'm not to that extend! It depends on the situation but I won't really go and abuse someone badly. If that person hits me,I'll hit that person back. Isn't that being fair? I won't whack someone till someone bleeds. I know it isn't good to be violent. I know I'm a hot tempered person but I'm trying my best to take things lightly. I think I did improve. Compared to last time,I think I'm better now.
Then again,you think I like to be like that? Of course not! I just want to be happy all the way. I simply want to be happy. When you're happy. Happy = Happiness,Joy,Laughter.
Ain't that good? I love to laugh and have fun. Why be angry? Relax. Be happy! Be free. Think free. =)
This world there's no such thing as happy all the way. I know they'll be obstacles and stuff like that. Things that will make us upset and unhappy. Angry,etc. I know I'm like a monster when I'm angry. You think I like it? Definately not. Tell me who wants to be angry? Nobody! What I mean is life is always full of ups and downs.
It's like a rollercoaster ride. You go up,you go down. Up again. Down again.
Sometimes I wish I didn't have emotions. Emotions are just disruptions and their the cause of those heated conversations and arguements. Emotions make us react to certain issues. We get angry,upset,disappointed and so on. Hmm? Then again. I wonder. If we don't have emotions,I think it'll be boring.
Oh well... I don't know. I guess we have to have patience. Be calm and think postively. =)
Love? Ha! Let's not talk about it. I'm outta love. There are much more important things than that. Family love,friends love. With that, it'll be fine. Special someone? Hmm... At the moment,nah. I'm afraid of getting hurt. I don't want to hurt myself. That's the reason why I'm afraid of falling for someone.
Like they say,once is enough. So yeah. Enough of it.
Alright,I want to watch television now.
Maybe later ya?
Paece out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠5:05:00 pm♠
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Oh goodie. It's one minute to 2AM. I'm still awake. La La LA.
Yawns yawns yawns!
Oh my. I'm in a crazy mood but I guess I'm better now. =) I was in a crazy mood earlier on. Darn. Hmm? At least I'm better now. Hmm? Should I add pictures? Hmm... Let me see. Alright,I've decided not to. I've changed my mind.
Hmm... Even minds are like clocks huh? Amazing but oh,after all we're humans right? So yeah. We're like clocks. Guys are like clocks too. Some can be very unfaithful. Sheesh. I'm faithful ok! =D Well,those who know me should know this. Though at times I may have that impression of like "changing clothes" target but hey! If I'm really very serious with that person,I can go crazy! Darn. As crazy as years. Hmm... Thinking about it,I feel stupid. Oh well... It's in the past.
THIS IS 2006! HELLO! Wake up girl!!
Hmm... It's like that. When you fall for someone deeply,it's hard to forget someone but sometimes it's better to forget. Well,let god do the job. I mean,if it's meant to be yours,it'll be yours so why worry? Sometimes I feel that I'm on the Anti-Love side. LOL. Oh my. It's only now then I realised.
Well,it's how you look at it. Sometimes I wish I was a guy. Seriously. I feel that guys are good at hiding their feelings. Darn. That's so cool! The thing that I don't understand about guys is do they mean it or not? It seems that guys are unreadable. You won't know what their thinking. Their unpredictable but at times you sort of can guess what's in their mind but MOST of the TIME,nah.
Guys can be very ego. They always want pride. They dislike losing to a girl. They always want to be in control. It's like they want to be BOSS. "You,listen to me!" LOL. Yeah,something like that.
Why are guys like that? I mean why do you always want to be the boss? Always be in control. Darn. Their strong too. I want that!! Drats! Why can't I be as strong as them?
It's like they get most of the things. What about girls? Sheesh. Some of them treat girls as if it's an object. What the...? Hey! HELLO! We're humans!!! I don't respect that kind of guy. Their just an idiot. A he-bo. LOL. New word. Haha. Hmm? Or should I say Himbo. Haha.
Some guys they only have the looks but they have no BRAINS. Sheesh. How sad huh? Ha! Some act smart. Thinking that their smart,they're good looking and stuff like that. Oh pleaseeeeee... You don't have to brag!!
As usual,I'm not saying all guys are like that. Some guys are nice. I look upon them and I have confidence in them but some? Oh my. Buncha morons. Thinking highly of themselves. Sheesh. What a fool.
...But you know what? Haha. There's a certain thing where they share in common. *winks* Something that will get them craving I guess. Hmm? Is that a little bit too detailed? Ain't it obvious to what I'm refering to? =X "See no evil,hear no evil" Hmm? Is it that evil? La La LA...
Too much of it. It makes them very EVIL. =X A very EVIL DEVIL. Haha! Too much of it makes them sick. Oh my! Save them! Then again if you were to think about it. Tolerance is the word to it. Are you able to tolerate? As in like control yourself? I know some can't. It's like their medicine. They really need it badly.
I can't stand the "sick". Their way too far. Are they in Cloud 9 or something? Sheesh. I think they can't take it. Theirs is too high already. While some of them is too low. They're not interested. So which one do you like? The high one or the low one? Haha! =X I bet you'll choose the high one if you really like action and I really mean "ACTION". Low? Hmm... I'm not sure. Haha.
All I have to say is... "You naughty creature. Make sure you're safe. *ahem!*" Haha. Oops. Too much already.
Alright. Enough of guys already. If I continue any longer I think I'll drift away. LOL.
Hmm? I did some quiz just now. Well,ain't got nothing much to do so I did. Anyway,here are the results.
WHAT IS YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
+*you are a mixed kind of person*+
// Hmm? Me? Haha... I don't know but I know I can behave differently in front of different people. //
WHAT TYPE OF GIRL ARE YOU?
+*Very funny, you are comical and have great friends. You don't care about the popular group; you just care about you and your friends, though you sometimes get a trouble-making reputation.*+
// Hmm? Haha... Can say quite true as I don't really care if my group is popular ot not... I just want to have fun! =) //
WHAT/WHICH INUYASHA HERO ARE YOU?
+*YOU ARE KAGOME! A kind,loving and sensitive person who inspires others.*+
Yawns yawns yawns!
Oh my. I'm in a crazy mood but I guess I'm better now. =) I was in a crazy mood earlier on. Darn. Hmm? At least I'm better now. Hmm? Should I add pictures? Hmm... Let me see. Alright,I've decided not to. I've changed my mind.
Hmm... Even minds are like clocks huh? Amazing but oh,after all we're humans right? So yeah. We're like clocks. Guys are like clocks too. Some can be very unfaithful. Sheesh. I'm faithful ok! =D Well,those who know me should know this. Though at times I may have that impression of like "changing clothes" target but hey! If I'm really very serious with that person,I can go crazy! Darn. As crazy as years. Hmm... Thinking about it,I feel stupid. Oh well... It's in the past.
THIS IS 2006! HELLO! Wake up girl!!
Hmm... It's like that. When you fall for someone deeply,it's hard to forget someone but sometimes it's better to forget. Well,let god do the job. I mean,if it's meant to be yours,it'll be yours so why worry? Sometimes I feel that I'm on the Anti-Love side. LOL. Oh my. It's only now then I realised.
Well,it's how you look at it. Sometimes I wish I was a guy. Seriously. I feel that guys are good at hiding their feelings. Darn. That's so cool! The thing that I don't understand about guys is do they mean it or not? It seems that guys are unreadable. You won't know what their thinking. Their unpredictable but at times you sort of can guess what's in their mind but MOST of the TIME,nah.
Guys can be very ego. They always want pride. They dislike losing to a girl. They always want to be in control. It's like they want to be BOSS. "You,listen to me!" LOL. Yeah,something like that.
Why are guys like that? I mean why do you always want to be the boss? Always be in control. Darn. Their strong too. I want that!! Drats! Why can't I be as strong as them?
It's like they get most of the things. What about girls? Sheesh. Some of them treat girls as if it's an object. What the...? Hey! HELLO! We're humans!!! I don't respect that kind of guy. Their just an idiot. A he-bo. LOL. New word. Haha. Hmm? Or should I say Himbo. Haha.
Some guys they only have the looks but they have no BRAINS. Sheesh. How sad huh? Ha! Some act smart. Thinking that their smart,they're good looking and stuff like that. Oh pleaseeeeee... You don't have to brag!!
As usual,I'm not saying all guys are like that. Some guys are nice. I look upon them and I have confidence in them but some? Oh my. Buncha morons. Thinking highly of themselves. Sheesh. What a fool.
...But you know what? Haha. There's a certain thing where they share in common. *winks* Something that will get them craving I guess. Hmm? Is that a little bit too detailed? Ain't it obvious to what I'm refering to? =X "See no evil,hear no evil" Hmm? Is it that evil? La La LA...
Too much of it. It makes them very EVIL. =X A very EVIL DEVIL. Haha! Too much of it makes them sick. Oh my! Save them! Then again if you were to think about it. Tolerance is the word to it. Are you able to tolerate? As in like control yourself? I know some can't. It's like their medicine. They really need it badly.
I can't stand the "sick". Their way too far. Are they in Cloud 9 or something? Sheesh. I think they can't take it. Theirs is too high already. While some of them is too low. They're not interested. So which one do you like? The high one or the low one? Haha! =X I bet you'll choose the high one if you really like action and I really mean "ACTION". Low? Hmm... I'm not sure. Haha.
All I have to say is... "You naughty creature. Make sure you're safe. *ahem!*" Haha. Oops. Too much already.
Alright. Enough of guys already. If I continue any longer I think I'll drift away. LOL.
Hmm? I did some quiz just now. Well,ain't got nothing much to do so I did. Anyway,here are the results.
WHAT IS YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
+*you are a mixed kind of person*+
// Hmm? Me? Haha... I don't know but I know I can behave differently in front of different people. //
WHAT TYPE OF GIRL ARE YOU?
+*Very funny, you are comical and have great friends. You don't care about the popular group; you just care about you and your friends, though you sometimes get a trouble-making reputation.*+
// Hmm? Haha... Can say quite true as I don't really care if my group is popular ot not... I just want to have fun! =) //
WHAT/WHICH INUYASHA HERO ARE YOU?
+*YOU ARE KAGOME! A kind,loving and sensitive person who inspires others.*+
WHAT SONG REPRESENTS YOUR LIFE?
+*That's What I Get by Nine Inch Nails"just when everything was making sense.you took away all my self-confidence.now all that i've been hearing must be true.i guess i'm not the only boy for you."*+
WHAT ROCK SONG ARE YOU?
+*Blue and Yellow by The Used*+
LOL. Oh well.. That's what I did. I was a little bored so I got nothing left but to some errr? Lame quiz. =X Haha...
Hmm... Alright,I'm off now.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠2:29:00 am♠
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
I just realised something. I feel that I've matured in the way of writing. I was just looking at my older entries earlier on and I'm like, "Wow... I've grown up to write better."
Comparing the older entries when I first started blogging back then in 2003,I feel that I'm much better now and I'm definately not going back to the way I used to write. Using short forms and stuff like that. I mean this is my blog. Write properly. Create an identity and have it my own way.
I'm simply happy with the way I'm blogging now. I think I was bad in it back then but hey,at least I learnt something and realised something. =) It's a lot of improvement and yeah,I should be getting better. =D
Alright,it's back to pictures again!
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+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+
Francesc Fabregas
Comparing the older entries when I first started blogging back then in 2003,I feel that I'm much better now and I'm definately not going back to the way I used to write. Using short forms and stuff like that. I mean this is my blog. Write properly. Create an identity and have it my own way.
I'm simply happy with the way I'm blogging now. I think I was bad in it back then but hey,at least I learnt something and realised something. =) It's a lot of improvement and yeah,I should be getting better. =D
Alright,it's back to pictures again!
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+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+
Francesc Fabregas
Henry & Fabregas
(Fabregas = cute)
- Francesc Fabregas!* Oh my. His in my list as for now. Haha.
- John Terry*
- Joe Cole*
- Frank Lampard*
- Steven Gerrard*
- Michael Owen
- Arjen Robben
- Ruud van Nistelrooy
The one with * are my favourite or should I say hot favourite. Haha. =D
La La LA... Alright,later! I think I'll blog my poem blog later.
Ok,peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠8:29:00 pm♠
Cute soccer players.
Frank Lampard & Steven Gerrard(A Chelsea player & Liverpool player)
Lampard & Gerrard (Liverpool's captain)
John Terry(Cute!)
John Terry(Chelsea player! Chelsea's captain)
Francesc Fabregas
(Cute huh? Arsenal player) =D
Joe Cole
(Chelsea player! =D Cute huh?)
Steven Gerrard
(Liverpool player)
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠5:19:00 pm♠
Francesc Fabregas! Oh my. I'm addicted? Noooooo!! Please say it isn't so. Darn. I've been searching his pictures on the internet. Oh my,oh my. Darn.
After watching the match on Sunday. Arsenal vs Liverpool. I sort of think of Fabregas. Hmm? I was also eyeing on Steven Gerrard. Haha. Well? Ok,I was actually eyeing on Gerrard but darn... I think I'm into Fabregas. >_<"
After watching the match on Sunday. Arsenal vs Liverpool. I sort of think of Fabregas. Hmm? I was also eyeing on Steven Gerrard. Haha. Well? Ok,I was actually eyeing on Gerrard but darn... I think I'm into Fabregas. >_<"
I think his cute. Oops. Haha. Gerrard's cute too. =D
Oh and not forgetting my John Terry,Frank Lampard,Joe Cole,Michael Owen......... =D Oh my. Haha. Having a crush on football players? Hmm? Haha. My idols. =D
The match on Saturday was really a close one. Phew! Woohoo! Chelsea won! =D Chelsea 2,Tottenham 1. Tottenham played very well. I was hoping Chelsea to get all 3 points and oh yes! They did. William Gallas scored the 2nd goal (92 minutes). =D Phew! If it wasn't for the extended time,I don't know what to say.
Alright. Enough of the cuties. Haha.
Darn. I've been wondering if it's true. A few of my friends and even my parents think my butt is big. What the ... -_-" Arghhhhh! So irritating you know! Bleah! I'm not gonna care cause I don't think so. Sheesh. *roll eyes*
It's crazy huh? When one people say and for all you know the others follow. Then again,I should know if it is or it isn't. Well... I don't think so. So I guess let it be. It's just an opinion anyway but it's a little irritating. Oh well........
Hmm? Currently listening to "Boys Boys Boys" by E-Rotic. Weird song. I like the song but not the lyrics. Haha. The tune is quite catchy. Just like "Do It All Night" then again I don't quite like the lyrics. =)
Hmm... I guess I'll listen to Tiesto after this. Hmm? Or maybe Mew first followed by Franz Ferdinand. I like Mew's "Special". It's quite a nice song. It's not really a very rocking song or something like that but it's nice to me. Finally I got the song! =D
I think I'll be changing either one of my blogskin soon. I think I'll change the skin for my other blog. That is the poems one. Anyway,just added a few poems during the wee hours. I really would like to learn more on poetry. I have some interest in it. I know it's not easy but I'd like to learn more.
I find it interesting. I think it's cool. I think guys who likes poems are so cool.
Plays guitars. Write poems. Listen to almost all kinds of music. Good sense of humor. Sporty and adventureous. Aww... Ain't that cool? Oh but hey... Come on. This is reality. Get real girl!
Oh well... I'm dreaming. There's no Mr Perfect. Nobody's perfect. Hmm... Thinking if there's such dudes. I think it'll be nice. I think I won't get bored of them.
Dang! Let's not talk about that anymore.
Sometimes if I were to think about it,I think being in a relationship could be very complicated. I've never gotten into a relationship yet but just look at my friends. It's always after their 3rd month onwards where all the complication starts. I'm not saying all will have problems after their 3rd month. I envy some. They really could hold till about a year or so. That's really nice. =)
Well,as long as their happy.
I think being in a relationship involves:
Love,Trust,Honesty,Understanding and Communication.
Oh and not forgetting my John Terry,Frank Lampard,Joe Cole,Michael Owen......... =D Oh my. Haha. Having a crush on football players? Hmm? Haha. My idols. =D
The match on Saturday was really a close one. Phew! Woohoo! Chelsea won! =D Chelsea 2,Tottenham 1. Tottenham played very well. I was hoping Chelsea to get all 3 points and oh yes! They did. William Gallas scored the 2nd goal (92 minutes). =D Phew! If it wasn't for the extended time,I don't know what to say.
Alright. Enough of the cuties. Haha.
Darn. I've been wondering if it's true. A few of my friends and even my parents think my butt is big. What the ... -_-" Arghhhhh! So irritating you know! Bleah! I'm not gonna care cause I don't think so. Sheesh. *roll eyes*
It's crazy huh? When one people say and for all you know the others follow. Then again,I should know if it is or it isn't. Well... I don't think so. So I guess let it be. It's just an opinion anyway but it's a little irritating. Oh well........
Hmm? Currently listening to "Boys Boys Boys" by E-Rotic. Weird song. I like the song but not the lyrics. Haha. The tune is quite catchy. Just like "Do It All Night" then again I don't quite like the lyrics. =)
Hmm... I guess I'll listen to Tiesto after this. Hmm? Or maybe Mew first followed by Franz Ferdinand. I like Mew's "Special". It's quite a nice song. It's not really a very rocking song or something like that but it's nice to me. Finally I got the song! =D
I think I'll be changing either one of my blogskin soon. I think I'll change the skin for my other blog. That is the poems one. Anyway,just added a few poems during the wee hours. I really would like to learn more on poetry. I have some interest in it. I know it's not easy but I'd like to learn more.
I find it interesting. I think it's cool. I think guys who likes poems are so cool.
Plays guitars. Write poems. Listen to almost all kinds of music. Good sense of humor. Sporty and adventureous. Aww... Ain't that cool? Oh but hey... Come on. This is reality. Get real girl!
Oh well... I'm dreaming. There's no Mr Perfect. Nobody's perfect. Hmm... Thinking if there's such dudes. I think it'll be nice. I think I won't get bored of them.
Dang! Let's not talk about that anymore.
Sometimes if I were to think about it,I think being in a relationship could be very complicated. I've never gotten into a relationship yet but just look at my friends. It's always after their 3rd month onwards where all the complication starts. I'm not saying all will have problems after their 3rd month. I envy some. They really could hold till about a year or so. That's really nice. =)
Well,as long as their happy.
I think being in a relationship involves:
Love,Trust,Honesty,Understanding and Communication.
If you don't have love is nothing,why stay together? If there's no trust,it's hopeless. If you're not honest,how are you going to trust each other and know if he/she is telling the truth? If there's no understanding,you'll end up quarreling. One last one. Communication. If there's no communication,the whole thing won't work. Why force yourself to be together if you don't have those? For fun? Sheesh. How could you take it lightly?
If it's me,I won't. Unless I'm serious and ready. If you're not ready,why waste time?
People often think of short term. Maybe at times I'm also one of them but I keep reminding myself to think long term. It brings no harm to think long term right? I think it's good to think of the long term. Planning ahead is a good thing actually. At least you know what you want to achieve.
What are your targets? What do you want to achieve? What's your point of view?
I just hope people know what their doing. I have no power. I can't change them but I could only talk to them. Only they,themselves could change themselves and make their own decisions.
Hmm... I guess I'll stop here. My neck's aching already. It's been aching since last night. I guess I should be paying more attention to my health than the computer.
What can I say after all? Health is vital. So yeah,later ya?
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:24:00 pm♠
Sunday, March 12, 2006
My my... I haven't been updating my blog for quite sometime. Hmm? Let me see when was the last time I blog. ......Oh my. 1st of March? Today's the 12 of March. Gosh. It's been like 11 days I've not blog.
Alright,I'm here right now so and I'm blogging! =) It's finally the holidays but it's only a week. I'd be happy if it's a little more longer. =D Just finished my common test on Friday. Just finished my coursework (Part B) too. I'm worried. I was hoping to do well for my common test. Darn. My English results weren't what I expected. =( I'm disappointed.
Alright,I'm here right now so and I'm blogging! =) It's finally the holidays but it's only a week. I'd be happy if it's a little more longer. =D Just finished my common test on Friday. Just finished my coursework (Part B) too. I'm worried. I was hoping to do well for my common test. Darn. My English results weren't what I expected. =( I'm disappointed.
At least something saved me or else I think I'll be feeling down. Awards,awards,awards!! Oh yes. Isn't it good to receive awards? I like the feeling of receiving it. =D
Recently just got an award for "Best Trainee Award" for my Elective Module. I was in the Digital Animation module. Oh my. I really didn't expect to get. What can I say after all? Expect the unexpected. Haha.
More awards on it's way. Yay! I'm so happy. I got for three subjects again for Speech Day. The thing is that I didn't expect to get for English again! It was quite shocking to see my name there. I mean last year my English results were like the lift where you go up and down that type. I didn't get my A1 which is 75 and above. It wasn't what I used to get. End of the year I manage to top the class by like half a mark. I was then like competing with Renny. Oh my.
That is why it's quite shocking as I really didn't expect it. Then again,I've to appreciate everything. Thank you. =)
I'm very happy to get for Computer Applications (CPA) again. =) Plus the new subject that I've just learnt last year. Elements of Office Administration also known as E.O.A. Happy me. I'll continue to work hard. Hmm? Work even harder I mean. =)
I'm aiming for FOUR 1s for my N levels. If not,ok... I'll aim for THREE 1s. That doesn't include Maths. I know my Maths isn't superb but I'll be happy if I get a 2. IF not 3.
Happy? Hmm... Well,to think about it... Sometimes the happy things just end like that. Sometimes the happy things in my life it just end like that due to obstacles. I'm really sadden by the fact of that. At times I wish the happy things will last. =( Everytime I wanted something to be that,it wouldn't be that. It's really sad. It hurts me but I think I'll get used to it though it might hurt.
With such people around,how can you prevent it? No use. No matter what they'll invade you leaving you with a mark. A sunny day will turned into a stormy one. I try to ignore the fact but I think I couldn't take it anymore. I finally came to a point and realise I wasn't going anywhere if such people exist. My happiness will never be a lasting one if there's such invasion. Why can't I just be happy all the way?
Recently just got an award for "Best Trainee Award" for my Elective Module. I was in the Digital Animation module. Oh my. I really didn't expect to get. What can I say after all? Expect the unexpected. Haha.
More awards on it's way. Yay! I'm so happy. I got for three subjects again for Speech Day. The thing is that I didn't expect to get for English again! It was quite shocking to see my name there. I mean last year my English results were like the lift where you go up and down that type. I didn't get my A1 which is 75 and above. It wasn't what I used to get. End of the year I manage to top the class by like half a mark. I was then like competing with Renny. Oh my.
That is why it's quite shocking as I really didn't expect it. Then again,I've to appreciate everything. Thank you. =)
I'm very happy to get for Computer Applications (CPA) again. =) Plus the new subject that I've just learnt last year. Elements of Office Administration also known as E.O.A. Happy me. I'll continue to work hard. Hmm? Work even harder I mean. =)
I'm aiming for FOUR 1s for my N levels. If not,ok... I'll aim for THREE 1s. That doesn't include Maths. I know my Maths isn't superb but I'll be happy if I get a 2. IF not 3.
Happy? Hmm... Well,to think about it... Sometimes the happy things just end like that. Sometimes the happy things in my life it just end like that due to obstacles. I'm really sadden by the fact of that. At times I wish the happy things will last. =( Everytime I wanted something to be that,it wouldn't be that. It's really sad. It hurts me but I think I'll get used to it though it might hurt.
With such people around,how can you prevent it? No use. No matter what they'll invade you leaving you with a mark. A sunny day will turned into a stormy one. I try to ignore the fact but I think I couldn't take it anymore. I finally came to a point and realise I wasn't going anywhere if such people exist. My happiness will never be a lasting one if there's such invasion. Why can't I just be happy all the way?
Everytime when I'm happy,soon or later something will sort of disappoint me or sadden me. Then again,this is life but I really envy those people who are always happy. Wishing I could like them.
I always see people get what they want. Be happy,people around them,supporting them,etc. Well,it's nice to see someone happy but why can't I be that happy too? When I look at them,that smile on their face is like never fading away.
Like what they say,people who seems to be happy are actually sad on the inside. Hmm? I sort of agree with that. People always think that I'm always happy but actually I'm not that very happy person. I maybe happy but I still have some sad side. As in like sometimes I feel like the pressure is pushing down,causing me to be unhappy. It's like the happiness is there but there'll be something causing it to be destoryed. =(
It hurts me when I were to think about it. I try to put it aside but sometimes it keeps coming back. Will these people just give me my space? Will I ever have peace? Hmm... I wonder. Well,all I can do is to hope that I have guidance from the above. That is god. =)
I can't do anything about. I'm not god. I guess there's many things in my mind but oh well... It's the holidays! I guess I should rest my mind and not think about it. =)
Actually,me,myself don't know what I'm thinking at the moment. There's so many things in mind. At times I wish I could just refresh my mind and start over. You think I'm what you've always thought that I am? Well,I'm not. Too bad I'm not a book that you could read to understand nor could you understand me fully but I'm happy even if there's a friend to listen to me and someone who I can joke with.
We all need someone to talk to. I'm always willing to listen and I'll try to help if I can. =) I know my own matters I can't solve but remember... In every situation,there's always a solution. Hmm...I guess it'll be solve as time flies. It takes effort too but I'll be happy to see a friend happy. That smile on their face can make a difference.
Hmm... Alright. I better be off now. I guess I'll take a shower now. Going out later.
Ok,I'm off now.
Peace.
Like what they say,people who seems to be happy are actually sad on the inside. Hmm? I sort of agree with that. People always think that I'm always happy but actually I'm not that very happy person. I maybe happy but I still have some sad side. As in like sometimes I feel like the pressure is pushing down,causing me to be unhappy. It's like the happiness is there but there'll be something causing it to be destoryed. =(
It hurts me when I were to think about it. I try to put it aside but sometimes it keeps coming back. Will these people just give me my space? Will I ever have peace? Hmm... I wonder. Well,all I can do is to hope that I have guidance from the above. That is god. =)
I can't do anything about. I'm not god. I guess there's many things in my mind but oh well... It's the holidays! I guess I should rest my mind and not think about it. =)
Actually,me,myself don't know what I'm thinking at the moment. There's so many things in mind. At times I wish I could just refresh my mind and start over. You think I'm what you've always thought that I am? Well,I'm not. Too bad I'm not a book that you could read to understand nor could you understand me fully but I'm happy even if there's a friend to listen to me and someone who I can joke with.
We all need someone to talk to. I'm always willing to listen and I'll try to help if I can. =) I know my own matters I can't solve but remember... In every situation,there's always a solution. Hmm...I guess it'll be solve as time flies. It takes effort too but I'll be happy to see a friend happy. That smile on their face can make a difference.
Hmm... Alright. I better be off now. I guess I'll take a shower now. Going out later.
Ok,I'm off now.
Peace.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠2:29:00 pm♠
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Darn. I can't believe I'm in the same class as Zi Kai for like eight years? I know him since Primary 2 and now Secondary 4,we're in the same class. I've known him for like 9 years. He was very innocent back then. Haha. Kind of cute and funny. Hmm? As usual,his that joker.
Oh well... Those were the days. Hmm? I think this week is quite a smooth flowing week. =)
School was ok. Darn. I have test tomorrow. Monday would be the start of common test. *sigh* Arghhh!! I'm worried. How? I'm abit in the mood of fooling around. Oh my. I guess I've to stop it soon and concentrate. I really must do well. =) That's my aim. That's just me.
Went to Downtown East after school to eat. Yum yum. Zinger! Oh yes... My favourite. Yup,KFC. Crap a little with Xiaoqiang (Angie). It was funny. I sense there's a good forthcoming. I wonder what's it. I've been quite happy lately. I wonder why. Well? Ok,we're humans. Things come unexpectedly and we start to change our mood easily but then I feel that everyday at a certain time of point,I feel happy. Simply happy. Don't know why. Hmm........? I think I may know the answer to it. Err? I guess so. =D
I've to take things slowly for now. I don't want to rush things through. I've got to see how it works and I hope god will guide me through the journey. =) Every minute,every moment is precious. Cherish the things that you have cause you'll never know when you'll lose it. Once lost,it's difficult to find replace for it. Even if you did,it won't be the same.
What can I say after all? The world works this way ya? We could only tell ourselves to be ourselves. To be a better person. To do something good and unique and make yourself proud instead of like getting into endless trouble and stuff like that.
Anyway,humans think differently from one another. We don't have the same mind,same thinking but we could try to work things out by being a little patient. You have to have some tolerance. Well? I know at times I don't have the tolerance but hey,at times I do have. Maybe sometimes I was a little too over reacting but then again... Nobody's perfect dude! The only one perfect is god. His the mighty one.
I don't know what to say now. All those happy things makes me speechless till I'm out of words to say. There's like lots of good stuff lately but I simply couldn't type it as I guess I'm too excited and that maybe the cause of my tongue-tied.
Yawns! Tired me. Didn't take a nap. Planning to sleep early tonight. Yeah,yeah. I know I'll usually sleep around 1 to 2AM but hey,I'm trying to sleep earlier! I'm trying my very best so don't you say I did not! It's Wednesday. Pretty fast huh? Tomorrow's Thursday then followed by Friday. Woohoo! Hmm? On the other hand,I think it's a Boo hoo! Want to know why? COMMON TEST! Remember?
Hmm? Maybe after the common test would be a woo hoo as it'll then be the holidays! =D La La LA... Awww... One week only. Oh well... At least it's better than nothing right? At least for the one week I could like wake up later. Unlike school days where I have to wake up at 6AM just for school. Sheesh. 6AM? Yawns yawns! Sleepyyyyyyy... At least today I didn't feel that sleepy. I woke up at about 7.20AM. Reached school at about 8.30 if I'm not wrong. Or was it before 8.30? Hmm? I think it's about nearing to 8.30AM but it isn't 8.30.
It was sooooo hot! We've like to sit under the sun? Yes,I know the sun gives you vitamin D but too much of it isn't good! It can give you skin cancer! Arghhhh... So many illness these days. Sheesh. That is why we've to take care of ourselves. Take really really good care of yourselves. Don't just rot there and do nothing ya?
Yawnnsssss... Hmm? Alright,I think I better be revising. I'm a little sleepy though and I keep (kept) yawning but then I've to revise. Oh dear......
So........ Ok peeps. I'm off now.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠10:24:00 pm♠
Nowadays I feel that people can be very daring. They do all sort of stuff or to satisfy their needs. Hmm? I wonder what's in their mind and what were they thinking. Some may regret for their actions while some may not. Whatever the thing is,I really hope they know what they really want and what they really need.
Girls are very daring these days. They do all sort of stuff and I mean wild and crazy stuff. Ahem. If you know what I mean by that. Guys? Guys can be suckers at times. Well? Some I mean. Not all. Don't get me wrong. What can I say about guys after all? When they want something from you,they'll be really sweet to you but once they got it,that's a different story.
I wonder if they are telling the truth or not. Sometimes I find it hard to trust guys. Do they mean what they say? Guys can be sweet talkers and that scares me cause you'll never know when they'll talk behind your back and I mean talking really very nasty about you. Sometimes they say they care for you,they want to be with you blah blah... Do they really mean it?
Guys can be sick. They have this "wonderful and colourful" mind. Hmm? Interesting huh? Ok,I understand but that doesn't mean to the extend where they do not respect others. As disgusting as it may be at times,sometimes it's an open topic but don't get yourself carried away.
Hmm? Speaking of it. I too sometimes get carried away. Especially today. Oh I mean yesterday. I was like talking to Charlynne and I was like "You should see the body. Nice or not? Then touch it." LOL.
It's only later on then I realised. Oops. I got a little carried away. =X
Hmm? Oh my. Talk too much about gays,guys and stuff today. Oh,I mean yesterday. LOL. I think it was kind of cool and oh my. I'm scared of my hands! Thank god I didn't swing too fast or I'll hit Tony's.................. Ahem. Phew! Luckily I didn't hit the "jackpot".
I don't want to hit another "jackpot". It's enough. It was kind of embarrassing. I once hit my IT trainer's........... I don't wish that to happen. The reaction was funny I tell you. He told the class to walk faster. I know he was behind but I didn't expect he would walk past. I was walking towards that direction to where he was walking and he repeated again. I did as what we were told and oh my. My right hand swinged too fast and oh...! He was like so shock and at the same time a little angry like that. I got so shocked too!
I apologised. At the same time I was shocked! I didn't expect it! I was like... "Sorry sorry!" With that shock look on my face. He was like mute. He didn't seem angry after that but it was awkward you see. So it's like we take it as if nothing happened though there's something! Haha.
Oh well... After all we're humans ya?
Alright. I think I better be going.
Oh. Must have a birthday bash today! Muahahahaha! RENNY!
Renny turns 16 today. Muahahahaha. Gotta whack him. Oops. =X
"See no evil,hear no evil."
Yawns! There goes it.
Peace out.
Guys can be sick. They have this "wonderful and colourful" mind. Hmm? Interesting huh? Ok,I understand but that doesn't mean to the extend where they do not respect others. As disgusting as it may be at times,sometimes it's an open topic but don't get yourself carried away.
Hmm? Speaking of it. I too sometimes get carried away. Especially today. Oh I mean yesterday. I was like talking to Charlynne and I was like "You should see the body. Nice or not? Then touch it." LOL.
It's only later on then I realised. Oops. I got a little carried away. =X
Hmm? Oh my. Talk too much about gays,guys and stuff today. Oh,I mean yesterday. LOL. I think it was kind of cool and oh my. I'm scared of my hands! Thank god I didn't swing too fast or I'll hit Tony's.................. Ahem. Phew! Luckily I didn't hit the "jackpot".
I don't want to hit another "jackpot". It's enough. It was kind of embarrassing. I once hit my IT trainer's........... I don't wish that to happen. The reaction was funny I tell you. He told the class to walk faster. I know he was behind but I didn't expect he would walk past. I was walking towards that direction to where he was walking and he repeated again. I did as what we were told and oh my. My right hand swinged too fast and oh...! He was like so shock and at the same time a little angry like that. I got so shocked too!
I apologised. At the same time I was shocked! I didn't expect it! I was like... "Sorry sorry!" With that shock look on my face. He was like mute. He didn't seem angry after that but it was awkward you see. So it's like we take it as if nothing happened though there's something! Haha.
Oh well... After all we're humans ya?
Alright. I think I better be going.
Oh. Must have a birthday bash today! Muahahahaha! RENNY!
Renny turns 16 today. Muahahahaha. Gotta whack him. Oops. =X
"See no evil,hear no evil."
Yawns! There goes it.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:29:00 am♠
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