W E L C ♠ M E
// My Illusions*
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Zwitter Zwitter Zwitter Zwitter........... Haha. I'm currently listening to "Zwitter" by Rammstein. Darn. I simply love that song. Nice. =D
Oh goodie. My mobile phone display is working and I really hope it'll work for good! =D I don't wish it to be like the other day. On and off kind of thing. Sheesh. It really bugs me when it's like that but I really hope it'll be fine. =) Anyway,I'm thinking of changing mobile phone but not so soon I guess. Have to thank god that it's fine and I really hope it'll be FINE.
Oh well... I'm spending my afternoon at home for today. The first two days of new year I'm like always not at home. So...Yeah. Today - at home. I still haven't completed my Maths homework yet. I'm left with four questions to do. Well? I'll be doing it later in the evening. =)
Darn it. There's school tomorrow. Oh boy. Then again,school start late for me but it ends late too. I finish school at about 3.25PM tomorrow. Hur hur hur! Boo hoo hoo! Oh well... I bet I won't get a chance to take a nap tomorrow as it ends late and by the time I've settle down it'll be like 6 something. Maybe to some it ain't anything but my mother doesn't likes it. Once it's like 6.45 onwards she'll nag. Haha. She says that I'll sleep very late after that. Oh well..........
No comments.
It's 3.25PM at the moment. Just took a shower earlier on. I woke up at about 1.30PM. =X I slept at about 3.45AM. Very late huh? The day before yesterday was like about 3 or 4AM and on Saturday I slept at about 4.30AM if I'm not wrong. Very late huh? It's not a good thing actually. I keep telling myself to sleep early but it seems like I simply couldn't. I keep falling away from the limited time that I've limit myself. Darn it. It's really a bad thing.
I don't think this year's collection is the best. Not much collection yet. Grandma's sick. What to do? Unlike last year. Oh well....... Let's not talk about it.
Last night I was chatting with my friends then one of them were like "What's your plan on Valentines?" I was like... "Ain't a big thing to me."
I'm simply not in the mood. I don't know why. Some worst! When I said I don't have anyone in mind they didn't believe me. They kept saying I'm lying but that's really the truth. I seriously don't have anyone in mind. I'm too tired for it. Besides,I'm afraid of getting hurt again. Anyway,there are much more important stuff than this stuff.
Some may always think that I'm someone who falls for someone easily. Well? It isn't quite true actually. Some may even think I'm someone who likes more than one boy at a time. Ok,that I admit but it'll always go back to square one. His the only one I like while the other one it's more like "Can we be friends?" kind of thing. Oh god... Let's drop the subject.
Besides,guys? Ha! I simply find it hard to trust them.
At the same time,some guys can be really nice and their very sincere but then again... Is it for real? I really don't know. I'm simply scared. This fear keeps coming back to me. Sometimes I wish I was a guy. The good thing about a guy is that they tend to hide their feelings very well. That's one thing I like most but then... It's hard to tell if the guy is serious or not. So well? There's good and bad but seriously I like that about a guy. They tend to hide their feelings very well.
Oh well... I guess I could be like that too. =D If I tell myself to be like that. Well? Let's see about it. =)
Alright. I'm off now. Later ya?
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:39:00 pm♠
La La LA! Hey hey! Happy Lunar New Year! 3rd day huh? Haha... =) Didn't have the time to blog these few days. =)
Oh well...
Hmm? Ain't got nothing much to do at the moment. Darn it. My mobile phone display is experiencing some problems! I hate it! Sheesh... Why must this happen?! It's really horrible. =( Hur hur hur... Sad me. Oh well... Currently using my brother's mobile phone. His using a flip phone. Sounds cool huh? Then again the buttons are a little difficult to press. Especially when smsing. Samsung!! Arghhh... I haven't been using Samsung phone for about a year or two already so I guess I've lost touch to it.
Gotta adapt to it! For the past year I've been using Motorola. I haven't been using Nokia for very long but I still can somewhat adapt to it if I were to use a Nokia phone. Darn it. Planning to get a new mobile phone. Oh goodie! Sounds great huh? Then again,I don't know what to get. Don't have to be the LATEST mobile phone but recent mobile phones will do. I like phones with expandable memory and camera. It's a turn-ON for me. Oh and not forgetting bluetooth. Infrared? It's a little troublesome. If given a choice,I'll choose bluetooth but then again why not both?
Oh well... I'll see how. Hmm? I don't know.
You know... This question keeps coming back to me again. How do I know if guys are serious? I find it hard to trust guys at times. They can be very good sweet talkers. They praise you and stuff like that but are they for real? Who can't talk? Everyone can but do they really mean it? Guys are sweet talkers. Especially if they want something they'll be really really nice to you but once they get it... That's another story after that.
I'm not saying all guys are EVIL. Get what I mean? I do feel a little awkward when a guy keep praising you. I mean one or two it may be flattering. It's nice that people say something nice about you but if it's too much I feel awkward. I don't know if it's for real or do they actually have intentions. That's why I sort of find it hard to trust guys.
Oh well... I've to solve that on my own.
Hey... I'm off now. I'm tired!
Peace.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:17:00 am♠
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Oh goodie! Lunar New Year is just SOON. A matter of time only. I've been quite busy these few weeks. Oh my... I think this is the only time I have time to blog. =D
Hmm? Let me see what this I got myself in the past week and including this week. Hmm? I got myself two pairs of shoes from Trancce. If I'm not wrong it's the same group/company as Everbest. Bought it at Suntec. =) I saved about $30 in total. Hmm? Maybe to some it's no big deal but hey... If you can save,why waste? SAFE! =) It cost me about $60 only. Compare $60 and $90. Which is better? Of course $60!
Hmm? I can't remember what did I got myself. Oh! Long sleeve tee while I was out with Xiaoqiang the other day. Hmm? Can't remember anymore.
I just got my hair cut on Monday. Monday evening went to Tampines,Jean Yip to cut. I kind of like my current hair style though most people say it seem like I didn't cut but hey... LOOK CAREFULLY! Look at my fringe! It's slightly shorter and my hair is also slightly shorter. Looks more straight now but then it's still not fully straight. Before I went to cut my hair,my hair is much more curlier. Now is more of wavy. The ends I mean. I think it's quite reasonable. It cost me $32.
Despite all those talking,some people think it's nice. =) Oh my... Thank you. They think it suits me. Now when I don't tie up my hair it seems to have more volume. Nice. =D
Oh well...
Hmm? NTUC's open till 2AM. It's 1.21AM now. Feel like going down to just well...? Shop around? Haha... On the other hand,it's very late. Besides,I went down earlier on so why go again? Haha...
Let me see... What stuff did I get this month.
Hmm?
+ Edusave Scholarship (Cheque)
+ Body Shop Shower Cream/Gel (Moonflower)
+ Body Shop Fragrance (Moonflower)
+ Polo Tees (Two U2,Two Bossini)
+ Two pairs of shoes (Trancce)
+ Guess Watch (A gift to me)
+ Guess Pencil Case (A gift to me)
+ Guess bracelet (A gift)
+ Long Sleeve Tee
+ + Hair Cut! =D
Hmm? Did I miss out anythingelse? Hmm? Oh well... Yawns! I'm tired. I haven't been eating quite a lot lately. Don't know why. Is it due to stress? (Stress = school) Hmm? I mostly eat twice or thrice only. Unlike other times which I normally eat at least three to four times and at times five times a day. Well? Twice or thrice is alright but I don't think that I've been eating that much lately. I'm wondering why. I sort of lost my appetite. Oh dear... Darn it.
Oh dear... I had a weird dream the day before yesterday. Erm... I mean on Thursday. I wonder why and what's it about. It's weird I'd say and it's someone I know BUT never really talk to.
Yawnssss... Really tired. Got back Science refresher test yesterday (Friday). I passed. =D Weeee~ 18 and a half out of 22. Yipee but then again I think it's not good enough. >_<" Have to work harder. =S
My eyes are getting heavier. I guess I better be going.
=)
Cheers!
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:30:00 am♠
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Yawns!! Haha... Hmm... Just got a haircut. La La LA... Went to Jean Yip earlier on to get a haircut. I sort of like my new hairstyle. =D Kinda nice. Haha... It cost me $32. I think it's reasonable. =)
So tired! Haha... I'll be going to bed after this. I'm really really tired. *yawns* Yeah... There it goes again. I like the service at Jean Yip but this time I went to the one at Tampines Mall. =) Why I travel all the way there instead of at White Sands? Haha. Well... Cause my mother wants to buy something so I think it'll be great to go there and get the things that we want and at the same time get my hair done. =D
White Sands branch is also good I'd say. Good service,friendly people. =)
Lunar New Year is just ahead. Oh dear... It's actually very near. Haha... It's nearing! This coming Sunday. =) La La LA... "Gong Xi Fa Cai!" =D
Orange orange and more orange. Red packets red packets...............................
Oh well... It' 12.28AM now. I think I better be going. I'm really tired. Yawns! Yup,there I go again. My eyes are heavy. I don't think I can take it anymore. I think I really need to sleep now.
Alright then... I'm off now.
Peace.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:28:00 am♠
Saturday, January 21, 2006
I guess it's a little tiring this week. I feel kind of tired. Went to the bank earlier on. Damn. So many people. *sigh* So just wait for my turn. Even the waiting at the ATM machine have lots of people but if ATM machine,my side here have too BUT unfortunately now only have one if you're unlucky,too bad - no money.
Met Xiaoqiang at 2.30pm but then ended up meeting her at about 3pm. Went to Bugis and shop a little. Went to Bugis Village with Xiaoqiang (Angie) then met Pearline. I didn't see her! I was looking at stuff then for all you know I felt that someone held my left hand. I turned to see Pearline. It's like the second time I met her at Bugis. Errr...? If I'm not wrong it's twice.
Went elsewhere as Xiaoqiang and I couldn't stand the heat. Went to look at clothes. Went to This Fashion to look around. I bought this white long sleeve tee. It caught my attention. Black is also nice but then white stands out more so I got the white. Was suppose to buy wallet but in the end decided not to. After that we headed down to Bras Basah Complex. Oops... Did I spell it correctly? I haven't been there for quite some time already. Pardon me if I've made a spelling mistake.
We went to the Popular as she wants to search for this book. Oh goodie. We found it. She bought it and while we were planning to head down to Suntec,it started raining! The rain held us back! Darn it. We went across to the Mcdonalds and grab a bite. After that we head down to Raffles Shopping Centre then to CityLink Mall. Thought of heading to Suntec but it was a little off the time limit. I've to go off by then so we just walk around CityLink Mall only.
Wanted to buy Rip Curl wallet but then not only it was a little pricey,it was also not the kind that I want. Saw the Billabong one but Xiaoqiang said it looked too boyish but I think it's nice. It's kind of cool though it may be a little boyish. Hmm...? I don't know. Then again,I thought of buying an OP wallet. Maybe tomorrow I'll take a look and see how. I want to buy shoes too. Those sneakers type. Hmm? Saw this Adidas one but it's pink! If I'm not wrong,that's the only colour. Aww....... Oh well... I see how.
Wanted to go to Hang Ten. The one at Suntec. The clothes there are quite nice. I like it but didn't have the time to drop by instead we went home. Just nice then we didn't have to wait for the MRT. When we were there,the MRT was there already. The door's open and it hasn't that signal of closing yet so we quickly ran in. Just nice. =D
I notice that it's like everytime I go out,I'll at least see someone I know. For instance I saw Pearline and oh... I saw someone that I didn't expect. Someone I've forgotten and I think that hate feeling is lesser but still I don't really like seeing him. The guy that I once said it'll be forever but the forever end. The guy that I was so into that time and finally let go of it. At that type it seems his the only longest guy I've ever like but that isn't true. He isn't the longest one. His only like for two years. About two years only while the longest would be about three and a half years but to be exact - Three years,four months.
This is crappy but hey,I'm picking up those pieces and refreshing my mind with a white blank page. As for now,I really don't have anyone in mind. The feeling isn't there. If I were say,I'd say I still think about him but hey... It's 2006. Forget it. I've been wasting my life like that. Oh dear... It's amazing that 2006 I don't have anyone in mind. Me,myself find it hard to believe too. =) Then again,I don't understand why people still think I'm still in to... "you know who" still. *sigh* Well? His the longest person I've ever liked,so what? Sometimes it's better to let it go and forget it. Anyway,I've been like wasting my life just like that by thinking of him? I don't want my 2006 to be like that.
I want my 2006 to be fresh,happy and a meaningful one. I want to learn and at the same time have fun and be happy. I hope those people will just cut that crap already and for some please stop saying his mine. His not! We never were. Ahhh sharks. Say whatever you want and if you tell tales to him,heck! I don't care already. I'm sick and tired of it. If he wants to believe it,up to him cause I never say anything at all. I mean,why would I?
I mean... He has a brain,he can think...... So........ It's up to him. I seriously don't care. He may have bad impression on me or whatsoever but I really don't care. If it were me,I see what I believe,I believe what I see. Those talking ain't worth anything. People can make it up. Sometimes people have nothing to do that's why they do that cause they got nothing to do.
I'm not saying I'm perfect. Nobody's perfect anyway. I'm just someone who also make mistakes. I know I've made a lot of mistakes in the past. It sucks. I've made a wrong decisions,I've been wasting my time. I've been in that kind of situation before. It isn't good. I was a dreamer back then. I didn't think that far to achieve what I want. Well? Maybe at times I do but most of the time I wasn't really serious with my work. It's only the last minute that I realise that I should have put in more effort as it wasn't that complicated or something.
=( It simply sucks. Looking back at the things at the past,I think now I'm better. Back then I was a little of those perfectionist type. I'm afraid to lose at times and when I fall for someone,I always expect him to always be in the best behaviour and does everything perfect. Stupid huh?
Things change. I don't have that habit already or should I say maybe a few percent left but I'm much better than last time. Back then I was so self-concious. As in whatever I do,I'll reflect and I'll make sure I must be almost perfect or at least good. I hate to lose and if I do,I'll give some excuse. Oh dear... I didn't know I was like that. Hmm... Now? Well? Maybe at times I don't want to lose but at times I give way. I'm also more mature in thinking. =D
I tell myself to look at things differently. I mean... It's your world,it's your choice. So yeah,think differently - be unique. I don't like copycats. I mean why copy?! Just be yourself. If you're you,you look more original. I'm simply me. Like it or not. I'm still Diane and I will always be Diane.
I'm currently trying to adapt that "relax" attitude. I keep telling myself to relax when I feel like flaring up. I don't wish to waste my energy on stupid stuff. Why waste it while you can use it for useful things? =) Unless you really can't help it.
I think my day was a fine one. =) Quite a number of cute guys at CityLink Mall just now. Haha. =) There were a group in front of me earlier on. O_O Haha... =D
Oh well... I'm off now.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:46:00 pm♠
Maybe I'll be going out with Xiaoqiang tomorrow. She wants to buy clothes. Speaking of clothes,I was looking at wardobe earlier on and I found this red mini skirt that was in my wardobe. That's like the only mini skirt I have. Mostly my skirts are knee length that is above the knee and not that type of mini skirt. Was thinking if I should wear it tomorrow but on the other hand I'm not sure as I'm not used to wearing that and it'll be like my first time.
Hmm? I guess I'm not wearing. I'll use the other skirt. =) I'm not used to wearing that short. Don't want to attract wrong attention so I guess maybe on certain occasion that I'll wear that mini skirt. Oh well.......
Well,I'm currently listening to "So beautiful" - Darren Hayes. I just like or should I say love that song? Haha. It's a nice song. His so "Insatiable" is also nice. Oh and not forgetting "Strange Relationship".
*sigh* I'm feeling weird now. I don't know what I want. I feel like there's something I want but can't figure what's it. Dang it! Hate that feeling. It's uncomfortable.
Feel like bringing along my digi-cam tomorrow when I go out with Xiaoqiang. =D Then we can take pictures! Hmm? See how first. She wants to go to Junction 8 so I guess I'm ok with it cause it's only like one bus to and fro. =D #53.
Hmm? Or maybe we go elsewhere. We haven't really decide yet but we may head down to J8. I was thinking of Bugis. Haha. Maybe I'll ask her later. It's like really a big deal when I'm like going to go with her cause we don't go out too often with each other. It's only like once a while.
Oh ok... I've got the answer already. I was actually away for a while. =X Ok,we decided to go to Bugis instead. Oh goodie. We'll be meeting at 1.40pm and hopefully she's punctual!
Yawns. Oh dear. I'm really tired. I was actually away for quite some time. Not just a while. =D I sort of forgotten about this. The part where I mention that we have decide was like few hours ago. LOL.
It's 1.35AM now. I guess I better be going. She's asleep already. I guess I should be too. Haha... =D
Alright,I'm off now.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:35:00 am♠
Friday, January 20, 2006
So I'm just left with ZzZzZzZzZzZz... Haha. Yeah. Hmm? On the other hand,maybe I'll grab some bites. =D *yawns*
Oh god. CPA's coursework is starting soon. I'm worried actually. Somehow I still have a little bit of problems with the beizer tool in Coreldraw. That's like one of my enemies! It's quite hard to control it. Arghhhh... Darn it. Hur hur hur... I've got to do well in it and I really wish I WILL do very well. Ain't got no time to fool around. *sigh* It's all work for now and no play. Work work work. Work till you're there.
It's only January yet I feel the pressure and feeling worried. I'm worried about my N levels. I fear that I may not do that well. I'm aiming for A1. Like they say,the best one wins. Hmm... So yeah. Ditto.
Had Maths statstics test earlier on and it was... Like wow! Easy. =D A big smile on my face. La La La... Yeah yeah but not evil smile. =) The only problem is I scared I'll make minor mistakes which I hope not. I want to score full marks! Am I able to do so? Why not? Haha.
It's already 2006. Pretty fast huh? Back then in 2002 when I was in primary six,I didn't care much. It was fun fun fun. Only when I was in secondary then I realised this is reality and I regret a lot. I took the wrong turn,end up somewhere which I didn't want to and oh well... Here I am. If only I was very serious and not just a little serious with my work. If only I was VERY FOCUS,I'm sure I'll be very happy with it but hey... Look on the bright side,it's not as if it's the end of the world or something. Life still goes on. Those regrets? Well... Let's open a new book and start over. I'm starting over. I don't want to make the same mistakes. It hurts to make the same mistakes and doing the mistakes.
Even if the sun ain't shining and the clouds are cloudy and no one is there to listen to you,always remember that there will be someone who cares about you and that is... GOD. His always lending you his ears. Though you may not see him but his able to see you. He can read you but you can't read him. When things go wrong and things start to change,god is always there to make for you the change if you give yourself another try and make a wise decision.
The choice is in your hands. Observe - thinking - processing - actions.
Think before you speak. Speak and choose wisely. Don't rush like a train and regret after that. Try to do stuff with no regrets. Nobody's perfect and I make a lot of mistakes back then but I'm willing to change. I'd like to be a better person than who I am back then. This is me. This is the new Diane but I'm still the same Diane.
This is my world,this is my choice. I do what I like,I like what I do BUT remember to make it a good one.
You have to be able to distinguish what's right and what's wrong and what not to do again. Don't repeat the past.
Oh well... I guess I've to well? Trust myself for this once and..... Ok,all the best to me! =) Oh and also to my friends.
Yawns! Ok,that's the signal. I better be going.
-sleeping in progress-
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:11:00 am♠
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Yawnsssssss!! Tired me. Oh well... I guess this might be my "time-table" which I hope not. Nooooo!!! I don't want that. Oh well... It's like these few days I'm always home later than usual and I'm like so tired but I couldn't take a nap. I've to finish some stuff up and by the time I finish it it's like about 7pm.
Hmm... It's exactly 12 midnight now. My eyes are tired. Darn. There's Maths test tomorrow. *sob sob* I think I'll past. =D Just have to read a little and look at the examples and oh yeah... It'll sort of refresh my memory and hopefully I'll be able to pass with colourful colours. =) My aim is to pass all class test. Well? Alright,TEST. The minute I hear TEST,it means EVERYTHING.
Oh god... I hope I won't become fatigue. It's killing me in a way as I've this and that yet at times I don't have the time to do. Arghhhhh!! Hate it when that happens. It simply sucks. =p Bleah!
Luckily school starts late today. If not,I think I'll be a zombie. At least I can sleep a little longer. One hour later than the usual time that I've to wake up but I woke up at about 7.30AM today. =D My alarm was like 7.15AM and I was suppose to get up but... I went back to sleep. Thank god my mum came in and woke me up. Sheesh. I don't know what will happen if it weren't for my mum. Aww....... Thanks mum! =D
Got to have confidence in myself and tell myself I CAN DO IT! Just like my composition. I didn't expect myself to only make a few mistakes which was less than five and it was like wow. Seriously,I didn't know what to write about I just keep telling myself to follow the article closely. As usual,I sort of stress myself a little in a way to write short and simple sentence. I used to write those long ones with like two commas. Well? That was in primary three. Not anymore. =) I feel that I've improved in my writing skills. I wasn't good in writing back then in Primary Three but as the years goes,I feel that I've improved in my skills of writing.
Weeeeeee~ That's an achievement too. I remember my composition was even publish in the composition book in primary school. It's a booklet of compositions. I didn't expect to see mine in it. I was really happy when I saw it. =) Well? It's something to me. =D Aww...but I couldn't find the booklet! =( I don't know where's it. I've been looking for it. I really want to keep it.
*yawns* Heavy eyes,tired me,yawning as usual. Oh well... I better be going.
So long and goodnight!
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:17:00 am♠
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Oh well... Today was alright. Darn it. Haven't finished my maths. The one in class. I only do like half only. That is,up to question 5. I guess I'll be doing it later. I have another five more questions to go. Oh dear... Anyway,had the English test earlier on. Oh goodie. I'm still not happy with it. Out of 120,I only score 86? How sad... I didn't really study for it. Oops. =D I forgot some actually. It's so lousy. 86? What the...... Arghhh... Will there be a retest? Can I take? I want to score full marks! =D Muahahaha...
Can? Will there be another one? Hmm......... *wonderin'*
Oh goodie. Finally,my background music is working. Woohoo! Are the songs nice? Please comment! =D Haha... 1st track is a little slow. The 2nd one is German song - Rammstein's "Ich Will",the third is one of my favourite "Destination Sunshine"........and the list goes on. The first song is DJ Tiesto's "Battleship Grey" if not wrong and the last song if I'm not wrong is "Pieces" - Sum 41. =)
All the songs aren't so rock. It won't suit the theme. I mean,it won't go along with my blog. Well? Except for Rammstein's "Ich Will" and Sum 41's "Pieces" but it isn't like you'll go wild that type. =) The rest is mostly,either Dance/Trance or Pop + Dance. Those playlist songs are actually my favourites.
Oh well... I think about two or three of them are DJ Tiesto's song. In the playlist,it also includes Madonna's "Hung Up",Gorillaz's "Dare",Dido's "Honestly Ok",DJ Tiesto's "Sweet Misery"........... Erm... That's all I could think of for now.
Some might ask why I put this type of songs instead of rock and those pop rock type. Well? I feel that the songs goes along with my blog. =) It's easy-listening too. Pleasant to the ears. =D
Yawns yawns yawns. Tired tired tired... I slept at 1.45AM last night. Sheesh... Didn't know I could stay awake and have energy to do this kind of stuff without taking a short nap which I mostly do.
I don't think I upload lots of songs for the background music. I think it's only about seven only. I was actually afraid that it'll exceed the bandwidth. Oh well........
I guess I better be going. Take care and have a nice day!
"When the world gets in my face,I say,Have A Nice Day!" - Bon Jovi's "Have A Nice Day"
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠7:22:00 pm♠
Monday, January 16, 2006
It's one minute to nine. I'm about to do my homework now then watch TV. Yeah. "Dia",my favourite show. Goodie. Arghhh... There's PE tomorrow. Darn it. On top of that,there's English test too. This coming Thursday will be my Maths test. Oh well... Test,test,test. What can I say? It's for my own good? Hmm........
Got the yearbook today. Yearbook for 2005. Finally. Haha.
Oh well... Hmm? Yay! Chelsea won. Sunderland 1,Chelsea 2. Goodie! =D Chelsea chelsea chelsea!! Woohoo! Way to go!
La La LAAaAaAaaAa... =)
Well? I didn't suffer from Monday Blues but then again... I feel that something's sort of bothering me but I don't know what it is. It's like there's something but I couldn't figure what's it. Humph!! Hur hur hur......... *sigh* Drats!
I sort of feel a little pressurised. I'm still keeping my cool. Trying not to flare and take it easy. I know all this is for my own good. Well? It is but am I able to hang in there? I'm trying very hard to hang in there. I really wish to aim for distinction. It's my aim and I really want it but I've to pay a price by being extra hardworking. Pressure pressure and more pressure. Oh well... What to do? I must score a distinction for my English. It's my goal and I'll be really happy if I did. CPA and E.O.A too. I really want my distinction that bad. Three subjects that I'm quite certain that I'll be able to get at least A2.
Science? I'm a little worried. I must at least score an A2. I scared that I won't be able to get an A1 so I guess an A2 is good enough but if possible A1. Aim higher! Haha. =D Maths? I'm a little worried. I'm not really a genius or something. I'm somewhat around 55 to 60 something. I really don't wish to score 50 something. It's not good enough. At least a 60 something,that is a B makes me ease. At least not too much tension. =D
The only subject I'm really worried is my Mother Tongue. It's really the worst subject. I always score U for it. Only once I got 54 and I'm like so freaking happy. Oh dear... That's my biggest fear.
*sigh* Oh well... I've to work hard. I really want to achieve what I've always wanted so... yeah. That's the price to pay. God,please make a way for me where there seems no way. Show me the light and guide me through the dark cave. Lead me to the path of success and happiness. Give me the courage and determination.
With that,I guess it should be alright. The next thing is the right frame of mind. One goal,one hope. =)
Oh well... Alright,I better be going.
Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠9:15:00 pm♠
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Laughing again. Muahahaha. Didn't expect Xiaoqiang to call me. Arghhhhh... She trick me again. Haha. For a minute I thought it was who. I have caller ID but I was to lazy to check. I just pick up the phone like that. For a minute I was like... "who's this guy?" then when she started laughing I knew it was her.
La La LA... Chatting with her now. =D It's like 15 to 25 minutes already and counting.
Oh well... Currently just chatting on MSN and over the phone,surfing and well? Eating. =) Darn it. New timetable is kinda hmm? How do I say this? Well... Certain days,I don't quite like it but for certain days,it's quite alright. Hmm? I don't know. There's no English tomorrow but there's Maths. Darn it. It's like Tuesday to Thursday there's two periods of Maths. *sigh* Friday,no Maths! =D
It's like the oppsite huh? Hmm.........? Haha. Oh well...
Hmm? Should I change this skin? Jaclyn said it's a little hentai. Is it? Hmm? I don't think it is... Hmm? It's ok I guess. =D Hmm? Oh well... Maybe to some? Haha... Different people,have different views.... So yeah. =)
11.23PM now. Don't really feel that tired. Just a little I guess. Oh god... My phone is low batt again!! Arghhhhh!! Why does this always have to happen?!?! I hate it. Hur hur hur.... *sob sob*
Why can't my dad just get a new phone?! Arghhhhhh........... It's so irritating. Toot...... Toot..... Toot.... Yeah,yeah... That irritating sound. =(
So many stuff in my head. Darn it. Will it be cleared? I wonder........ Sometimes I guess I think too much. Oh dear... It's bad for health! Arghhhhh!! >_<" Gotta put that aside and be HAPPY! =D Worry-free! Wooooohoooo!! Yeehaw!
Hey! Haha... What a coincidence. Her phone is also low batt! Haha... Hi-5! *piang!*
*sigh* Tuesday have PE. Damn. Arghhhhhhh!!! Bleah.
Oh well........
Alright,I better be off. =)
Goodnight!
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:28:00 pm♠
Crazy people,crazy world... Crazy situations. All mixed up!!
Had a conflict with ... Erughhhh...!!! Don't want to mention who. Stupid stupid stupid!!! So angry yet I feel sad. Tears filled my eyes but not flowing down yet. Feeling angry and sad at the same time. Listening to my MP3. The volume's loud. Don't want to think about it. It makes my heart ache and head pain. Singing along to make myself better. >_<" It's ridiculous. Hate it. Arghhhhh!!! Just shut it. Stupid damn thing. Damn you.
Sometimes I feel a strong feeling of hatred in me. I simply hate it. I HATE EVERYTHING!! I've always wanted it to be smooth flowing but it's like everything whenever I'm HAPPY,soon or later there ain't no sunshine. Something will destory my happiness. THAT'S THE THING I REALLY HATE. Why must it always be this way?! Why can't I be happy? I want to be happy,I want to smile all day... I want my life to be filled with happiness and joy and LAUGHTER but this is crap. I guess life is always full of ups and downs but I really can't bare to take the downs. It's really hurting me.
It's killing me. Taking my breath away and making me breathless. Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm losing my head and sight. It's all black to me. At times nothing matters to me. I'm more like emotionless. I lose a part of me. I'm bleeding here with all my broken dreams and thoughts yet to be mend. I guess it'll never end. I've to give up and leave it as it is. An unfinished matter as usual. Sometimes I dare not dream. I scared my dream will be destroyed again. Once is enough. I don't want to make the same mistakes. It's like an arrow has pierce through my heart. That's how pain it hurts.
Or rather someone took out my heart out.
I hate everything!!!!
I hate that bitch! My brother just came home. He told me that he and my dad saw her. She keep yelling again. Oh well... What can I say? A retarded who has no brains. She yelled "Animal!!" but in malay. Ha! That bitch only knows how to speak in MALAY. If you talk to her in English,she'll keep repeating the same thing like a spoilt tape recorder.
She's really a bitch. Always finding trouble with my family. HEY! ASS. What's up with you? Always jealous. Did we disturb you? Ha! What a joke! Oh please... You're the one who quarrelled with us and find trouble and stuff like that. It's been like five years? What the hell is wrong with YOU,BITCH.
I really hope those evil people will just DIE. Why give them a chance to live?! I hate those idiots. We told the police about it already. She's digging her own grave. I really wish she'll go to JAIL. Why? She's also racist. She dislike Chinese. She also dislike some malays. Those nosy people like her and gossipers she LOVE them but if you're those who aren't she don't like. The reason why I called her "agar-agar" is because her butt is saggy. Seriously. The time when she hit her butt,the thing were like so saggy! JELLY. LOL.
Her daughter is really like a bamboo. Arrogant too. Thinking she's really GREAT. Bleah! Give me a paper bag. I feel like puking. She's gross. I still remember last time she always ask me to teach her English. She doesn't even know what's the difference of singular and pural. She also don't know past tense,present tense and future tense. Oh god. I wonder what is in her head.
Must be thinking of boys all the way. Sheesh. Last year at about 9PM my family and I saw her and a group of boys along with girls sitting under the void deck. Sheesh. Yucks. Those boys? Ewww... Really no taste. No class. Not up to standard. Sheesh. I don't see anything good in them. They don't look decent.
Are girls attracted to bad boys? I wonder... In a way,maybe yes but if you were to think about it. Hmm? Well? How bad? I won't go out with a teddy boy. (Gangster,i.e) I prefer the decent ones but of course not too nerdy. Haha. =) My friend once said that I like those too decent type. I sort of disagree. I don't think their that too decent. Decent,yes but not TOO decent. I think they have their sides too. Come on,human. What do you expect? You can't have them behave the way you want them to right? You can't control them.
Oh well... I'm feeling much better now.
I guess I'll go and do other stuff for now. Hmm? On second thought,maybe mapling. =D
Since I think my dad decided not to go out. =)
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:56:00 pm♠
Goodness. My eyes are sore I guess. I've been spending hours trying to fix my skin and wonder why it won't work. Sheesh. Finally I got this anime skin to work BUT there won't be the "Enter The Matrix" front page already. Oh well... I guess it's ok.
Have been trying to insert mp3 music to my blog but it's like it's able to work but only one song can play! Arghhhh!! I've uploaded like 10 songs and only one can play?! What the... What is this?! Hur hur hurrrrrrr =(
Oh well...
Hmm? How's my new skin? Did it yesterday. Well? Actually didn't know what to create. I guess I end up doing on anime. I was thinking of putting 3D graphic pictures or maybe like extreme sports or maybe soccer player but then I guess I finally made my decision. I actually wanted to have the pictures arranged like the ones in my Peacemaker skin. Hmm? Somehow I decided not to and try something different. Hmm? So I did. Is the pictures at the side ok? I've been wondering if it'll like irritate y'all. Somehow I kind of like it. =D Hmm? I guess that's why I arranged it that way. =D
I can't believe that I spent lots of hours just trying to get it right. Oh god... I bet other people will somehow give up. Well? I'm not saying ALL. I'm sure they'll be some who'll do the same. =D
Yawnssssss!!
Oh yeah... There it goes again. I just yawned. Oh god... I haven't do my homework yet! =( I guess it's this that drags me. Arghhhh!! How could this be?! Oh well... I think I'll do it in the morning. Luckily I'm left with like two questions. Phew! =D
I notice it's pretty fast for this year to past. It's like already 15 of January. Oh dear... Two weeks has past and only now I notice it? Hmm..... Well... I guess so?
I've been having some weird dreams these few days. Scared? Well... I find it weird. Very awkward and I keep wondering what's it about. A little wild I guess.
Been looking magazine and stuff like that I notice quite a number of people done that. You know what. Don't know what are they thinking about. Even as young as 12 years old? Oh my. Don't they think ahead? Doing that at a young age? Oh dear. The world has gone crazy. I think it's because of too much exposure. Example: TV,Movies,Websites... Yeah,stuff like that.
Still don't know what I mean? Oh well... I mean sex.
Why on earth do that? Sheesh. Maybe at times it's against your will. Maybe at times you think of it as FUN. Hmm? I don't know what they're thinking but I hope they know what's right and what's wrong.
It's always like... "If you love me,you'll do it for me." Yeah,stuff like that. Crap. What is this?! Some guys are worst... "If you love me,have sex with me if you don't means you don't love me. Let's break off." That kind of situation. Oh dear... The girl don't want to lose her guy so she do it just for him and after everything... HE LEFT HER. Tsk tsk tsk... Guys guys guys... What can I say? When they want something,they'll be nice to you. Once they have it,they don't care!
Well? I'm not saying all. Some guys can be really nice to and some? Oh well... Scum.
Oh well... I think I better be off. I'm tired.
Maybe later. =)
Peace out...
[ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIAO PING!]
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:14:00 am♠
Friday, January 13, 2006
Just woke up. Took a nap earlier on at about 5.45PM. It's like two hours of nap. Oh well... At least I feel better now. =) I was reading LIME magazine just now and for all you know....... ZzZzZzZzZzzZzZzz... I sort of fell asleep! Arghhhh!! Again. *sigh* Oh well... Then when I woke up,I realised that I actually sort of doze off so I decided to put the magazine aside and take off my spectacles and... Yeah,go ahead zZzZzZzZz...... =D
I simply couldn't help it anymore. My eyes were heavy so I ZzzZzZzZzZz... Oh gosh... Time table changed. Darn it. Don't quite like the time table but then again... Friday's the best. =D At least there's no maths unlike the previous one. Let's say today (still using the old time table),I have Maths so it's like next week onwards every Friday there's no Maths. Hmm... How interesting. Then again there's always two periods of Maths the other days. Arghhhhh... Except Monday. If I'm not wrong Monday has only one period of Maths.
Oh boy... PE lesson is now every Tuesday. >_<" Not Thursday already. Which I was hoping it to be Friday. Hmm? Tuesday? Well,at least it's better than Monday. I don't like PE lessons to be on Monday. I'll sort of suffer Monday blues at times. Hmm? Let me see... Today I have...... Errr... Oh. Maths and Science homework. Oh well... It's pretty simple it's not as if something difficult or too much. I think it's ok. =) I'll do it tomorrow.
Hmm... Maybe I'll design some skins later for my blog since I'll be doing my homework tomorrow. Thought of changing my layout but on second thought I sort of didn't want to change. Well? I'll think about it. Should I change the background music? I'm not sure about this. At the moment,I think the background music is nice. It's Final Fantasy X 2's "Eternity". Or should I stick to the one before "Eternity"? Which is "To Zanarkand"? Hmm.......? How about the previous one? Mozart's piece? I think all are nice and easy-listening tunes. Quite relaxing too not too rowdy nor those type of heavy metal stuff.
Heavy metal? Hmm... Haha... Well? If it's for a blog,I don't think it's suitable. Instead of reading the blog,I bet you'll be distracted by the music and bang your heads like nobody's business. =X Bang as in shaking your head and not bang it with something. =D Don't get me wrong. =)
Do I miss something? I really don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm missing something but can't figure what is it.Don't know if it's a good thing to miss something or is it bad? At times I feel a little awkward and at times I'm simply comfortable. Weird huh? I think everything's fine. I can't be missing something right? Hmm..... *wondering*
La La LAaAaa.......
Alright,I guess I should be going now to do stuff.
Shouldn't be wasting time. Gotta get going!
"If you're wasting time,it means you're wasting money and that's just sick." - A quote made by Mr Krabs of Spongebob Squarepants.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠7:59:00 pm♠
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Brrr... My leg cramp just now as it's too cold. Too hot,I'll complain. Too cold,leg cramp. Oh dear...
My hands are cold at the moment and I didn't even on the fan. My feets are cold too. Brrrrr... I didn't know January rain so much. I thought it's November and December that rains a lot? Hmm? *Wondering*
La La LAaAaAaAa... Finally I have a leather watch strap. Haha. Hmm? It can have some funny smell at times but if you know how to take good care of it I'm sure there won't be that funny smell. One of my brown bag is leather. Sometimes it can be a little troublesome cause there are those pieces from the leather that comes out. Other than that I think it's ok.
Woke up at abt 7.10PM just now. Feel slightly better. Well? At least have some energy. =D Hmm? Haven't do my homework yet but soon I will. So fast it's already Thursday and tomorrow's Friday. Gosh... Weekends are just around the corner. Pretty fast huh? Oh dear... Meaning that exams are also quite soon. Humphhhhhhh... >_<
Sometimes I wish it was still the holidays. Yeah,so I can like relax and free my mind but hey... This is reality so get real. Well? If I understand my work and am able to achieve it,I think it's alright. All I have to do is to put extra hard work in other to achieve even better grades. Currently,some of my grades aren't that satisfying. 70 something isn't that satisfying at times. Times where you expected more than that. Hmm? Time flies,things change so I guess as for now... A 75 and above is a must thing to me and subject like Maths,I have to at least aim for a 60 and above . Hoping to get 75 for Science. I mostly get 70 but not 75. Well? I'm looking forward to do better in it.
All my other subjects have grades except my Mother Tongue. I always score U for M.T. >_<" Only once I passed my M.T and was reflected in my report book. Sheesh but hey... It was like a great achievement to me. 54 was something to me. Erm? Was it 54 or 52? Can't really remember but I know I passed. More than 50 but less then 55. Oh well...
Ok,I guess I should be doing my homework now.
Maybe later I'll blog again.
As for now... I'm off. =)
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠8:23:00 pm♠
Just came home about an hour ago. Yawnsssssss!! Arghhhh... Tired. Well? Currently eating my lunch and of course typing this. Well? Only doing this only. Not chatting nor listening to any music... Simply don't feel like at the moment. Hmm? Maybe at 5pm I'll take a nap then at 7.30pm do my homework,take a break then continue again. Hmm? Should I? It's 4.25PM at the moment. La LA LA...
School was ok for today. Had PE lesson earlier on. Thank god I didn't jump. Well? Actually,I was really nervous. My heart beats very fast when it's my turn. =S I don't know why too. Oh well... There's English and Maths homework today. For English we're supposed to finish up the worksheet that was given in class earlier on. Well? I'm almost done with it. Just the last page that I haven't completed. I guess I'll do Maths first followed by English. =)
Oh goodie... There's Maths test next week (Friday). Test test and more test. Science refresher test was yesterday. The upcoming test will be English which will be on Tuesday and Maths on Friday. Oh goodie... It has been raining for days alright. It's like a never ending thing. Hmm? I wonder when it'll stop.
The coldness makes me cold but then the whether is fine and cool so it's a good time to sleep. ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz... Yeah yeah. Sleep. Haha. =)
Hmm? I think my Guess watch suits me. Well? It'll be better if I get the other colour which is white. The white is nice but hey,this is also nice. Well? It's a gift so stop complaining. I should appreciate it. I actually wanted to buy but then if I really have one,why buy another or get more watches? I already have three and now adding this one. So that makes it four. =) Well? The colour ain't that bad. It's brown so I don't think it'll be a problem matching it with my clothes.
Hmm...? IF not,use my white one then. White matches all so I simply couldn't go wrong. I'll be like always right. =D I mean,right in a way that whatever you pair it up with you'll always match it.
Arghhh... My English teacher cut my fingernails. I don't think it's that long but oh well... Nevermind. It's like the first time a teacher cut my fingernails! >_<" Haha. =) Well? Don't make the same mistake in future. =D Oh well... I wasn't offended by it or whatsoever. It's like today I don't really take it that serious with stuff.
Especially this fella (Willy) who calls me name cause I didn't want to lend him something. His really too much. Always calling people names and thinking his great. Ha! When I say I'm better than him,his like my foot. Hey,it's fact. You can't change fact. Well? Tell in what way his better than me? Maybe there are a few things but I'm talking about attitude. His the type of person who'll be nice to you if he needs something and when he doesn't need it,his mean to you. It's not like I don't know his that type. Sheesh. When will he ever change? Maybe a little but I don't think change a lot.
Oh well... Not my problem. He can say what he likes about me. Like calling names and all those nonsense. *rolling eyes* Oh well... Why bother? I simply have to concentrate on my studies. La La LAaAaAaAaAaa......
I'm simply telling myself to relax and chill. Though at times I might flare up but well? Not to that EXTREME. Just a little. I'm trying to tell myself to relax. =) People can say what they want but you should know who you are and what type of person YOU ARE. You are you and nobody can be you because you're the only one in this world. If you want to be a better person then just be yourself. =D I mean... Be a better person. Be the person who you want to be as in GOOD and not mixing with those bad companies.
Then again... It's your choice. It's your life. What's your point of view? As for me... This is my world,this is my choice. This is my life,this is me. I do what I like,I like what I do. If you don't like it,let it be. Accept me for who I am as a person. I can be nice if you're nice. It depends on how you treat others but IF you're mean of course I'll definately treat you bad. Ill-treated? Hmm? If that's what you might think.
Never judge a book by it's cover. A cover is just a cover but what's in the content is more important.
A good person doesn't have to show that he or she is or admit that he/she is. A good person knows what is good and knows what he/she is doing. A good person will somehow prove that he/she is but not by looking like a good person.
Oh well... I'm off now.
Later!
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠4:39:00 pm♠
La La LAaAaAaa... Yes,it's very late now. 12.39AM. Well? I'll be in Fantasy Land after this entry. Well? Ain't got nothing much to do so I decided to blog. Hmm? Why can't I anyway? Haha. Oh well...
Goodie. The good thing is I got a new watch! Weeeeeeee! Yup. Guess watch! It's a gift. Woohoo! Finally I got a Guess watch and that's the most expensive one which cost nearing to $200. My second expensive would be my Casio G-shock watch which cost about $118 if I'm not wrong. The other two? Hmm... Can't be compared. Why? Well... Those that I've mention is about $100. No match to it. Haha. =)
Very cool huh? Very wonderful too. I guess I SHOULD be turning in. Was watching television just now. "Mencari Mimpi" or is it "Mercari Mimpi". Blah! Did I spell it correctly? My malay isn't good. I'm better in speaking than reading or writing it. Well? Pardon me if I made a mistake. Oh dear... But I know that if translated in English it's "Searching for a dream". Ahhhhh! Interesting title huh? Haha. Simply love the show. =)
Oh dear... I realised that I only watch English or Malay shows. What about Chinese shows? Haha. It's like I don't watch Chinese shows. Maybe once in awhile like Hong Kong Movies WITH English subtitles then I'll watch. Oh my... A Chinese who's more to English and Malay. Haha. Well,well... What can I say? Part of me I have Malay blood and Indonesian blood. My great great great? Errr... Not sure how many great is an Indonesian. Actually,my mother's father (i.e My grandfather) side is really very complicated. So many mix! Mix till I got mixed up. To be simple,let's put it this way... My grandfather is malay but not is not pure. His also mixed while my grandmother is a peranakan. Oh god... At times I get confused.
My father's side? Oh... Simple. Chinese chinese chinese... Haha. Great great great..... Of course from China. Well? I'm not saying I'm racist or whatsoever but I don't quite like China people. Not saying all yeah? But some. Some are quite rude and arrogant. >_<" What can I say? We're all humans! Nobody's perfect so well... Don't get me wrong. Anyway,I'm also a Chinese. Yet some people don't believe that I am. They say I don't quite look like Chinese. Arghhhh!! Some said I look a bit like Indonesian from certain angle! That's what my mother's friend said. Sheesh. Do I look like one? I don't think so.
Seriously,I think my brother's cute. Arghhhhh!! Can I be him? Haha. I bet the girls like him but well? Maybe too shy to admit that some even find fault with him without any reason. Hmm...? Interesting. Guess what? Most people wouldn't believe that his my brother! It's not only that his fair,I'm tanned that kind of stuff. Anyway,his sort of tanned at the moment but still... People always say that he look more Chinese! Well? My brother and I don't look the same. Unlike other people maybe the look like their sibling but my brother and I... Nah. We don't look the same. Hmm? Character? Well... Maybe a few points are the same but the rest are different. His like well? Almost the oppsite of me.
Well? Maybe the "Yo" thing is the same. Haha. Act cool? Oh boy... You can include that if you want. =D Oh... Not forgetting always styling his hair and having lots of body spray. My brother can be a body spray freak in a sense that he has a lot of them! He has some minus points in him too. Well? That's for you to find out. =D There's the good and there's the... "I think you can do better" side.
I'm saying I'm GOOD. I make mistakes too. I have my minus but definately I'll have plus too. =D It's not saying I'm proud or something. Hey,come on! Don't tell me you don't have some nice stuff about yourself? I think I can be a listener. I'm always ready to lend you my ears. I'll try to help whenever I can. =) Maybe the minus is that I could be too chatty at times. Oh well......
Anyway,it's your point of view. Your choice,your world. Be free,be yourself.
Alright. I guess I'll stop here for now.
So long and goodnight!
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:59:00 am♠
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Yawnsssssssss! HELLO WORLD!
Another long and rainy day. It makes me want to sleep. Well? Feel like sleeping as it's kind of cool at the moment and it'd be really nice if you take a nap now. Hmm? Should I? Or should I not? Hmm........ *wondering*
Feel like sleeping but the other half of me don't feel like. Oh gosh... Again can't decide? Fickle-minded me. Whatelse can I say?
Today is the start of the Computer Animation course. Oh goodie. It's kind of interesting. =D Thumbs up! Yes,thumbs up! =)
There was my Science Refresher test earlier on and oh goodie. It wasn't that difficult after all. =) It was quite simple. =D I thought it'll be a difficult one. Well? Thank god it wasn't. La La LAaAaAaAa... To speak the truth,I didn't study that much. I was more like flipping through and look at the ones that I'm not too sure about to sort of refresh my memory. I'm sure I'd be able to pass. =D
There's English test next week. Oh goodie. Darn! I musn't be late tomorrow. Have to be early or else I've to stay again to the Morning Worksheet and I don't want that! Arghhhhh... I hope I'm early. I really hope I will be early. Don't wanna be late and do it after school.
Yawns yawns yawns... Yes,more yawns. Frankenstein? Ha! Hmm...? I don't think I've reached that stage yet but if I do,what am I going to do? Kill someone? Stalk someone? Haha. Definately not but maybe I'll be in dream land by then. =D .....ZzZzZzZz.... Fantasy Land...ZzZzZzZzzZz... =D
No homework for today. Yipee! Means I'm able to sleep early today. =D Oh god,I always have this problem... I always say that I'll sleep early but you know what? I always can't make it! Arghhhh!!! >_<" End up sleeping at 1 something or 2AM. Sheesh. How horrible.
I think I have cough but I guess it's an on and off one. =S Oh godddd... Why must this always happen to me?!?! How could this happen to me?! Boo hoo hoo! Hur hur hurrrrrrr... Grrrr...
Oh well... Alright,I guess I'm off now.
Maybe later...
Peace out!
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠5:15:00 pm♠
Yawns yawns yawns! Going to sleep SOON. Yes it's late. It's about 1AM. Well? Maybe at least on a school day but school starts at 8.45AM. =D So well? At LEAST I get to sleep a little later. Besides,tomorrow there ain't any tiring subjects. Well? Maybe I do have something. Science refresher test. Boo hoo hoo! Well? At least it ain't that bad as high jump right? Can you imagine I sort of forgot how to jump? I'm nervous! Sheesh... Crap!
Anyway,was out earlier on (I mean Tuesday). Bought four polo tees. Oh yes! Haha... I've always wanted to get myself polo tees as I don't have polo tees. Well? I do but only a few. Hmm? So yeah that's the reason why I buy polo tees. Haha. Ok,it wasn't a good excuse. Well? Alright. I kind of like polo tees. So yeah. =) Four polo tees - Two from U2 and the other two from Bossini. Also got myself The Body Shop fragrance. Moonflower! Yup! Same as my shower cream. =D La La LaAaAaa... Simply love the smell. Ahhhhh! Nice.
Hmm? Oh gosh. I spent a lot. Let me see..... Hmm...........? Oh. Errr... $102. Oh my. I didn't realise. Well? Maybe to some it isn't a lot but to me,it is! I'm not that type who goes round spending like nobody's business. Oh? Well... Maybe if my mother or father is paying then that's another story. =D
Lots of money has been flying away from me. Will it come back? "Money! Where are you? Please come home to me." LOL!
What can I say? Money are like friends. Easy come,easy go. Only true friends will stay by your side no matter what. Their like birds I guess but if their birds as in a group I'll catch them all. Friends? Hmm? You can find all types of them. The liars,the cheaters,bitches,jerks,hypocrites,backstabbers,etc. What about true friends? Can you find them? It's REALLY hard.
Day 1 -- Make friends + Be friends
Day 2 -- Friends + Getting to know each other
Day 3 -- Getting to know each other better
Day 4 -- "Good friends?"
Day 5 -- Still "good friends"
Day 6 -- Friends
Day 7 -- Enemies
See the pattern? What I mean is... Yes,you can make friends in a day but anything can happen right? True friends? Well... It's hard to find true friends. You can have a lot of friends but true friends? Not that easy. Even my good friend we take time to know each other and stuff like that. Well? At least my good friends,I know them for at least three years or so. BUT I still remember back then in Secondary One. It's SO HARD. Friends? Who couldn't be friends? Good friends? Oh god... It was like hell for me.
Thank god I finally found a good friend in class. =) Yes and I'm glad. Our friendship is getting closer each day. =) So... Yeah... It takes time in everything that we do.
Sometimes even good friends can turn out to be enemy. Why did I say that? Well... I experienced it before. That's why I mention it. =( I know her for six years. Those memories,those laughter,those smiles and jokes. =( It hurts me. Six years and going on seven... She broke off with me. I knew that she'll ask for that because of SOMEONE!
I hate her and I can't seem to forgive her. WHY? Well... She hurt her. Well? She listen to that idiot whom I quarrelled with and she didn't even know what really happen between me and that idiot and there she goes. In the beginning I sort of can't accept the fact because I know her for six years and so far there weren't any problems or whatsoever. We were always fine and happy. As usual talking crap and laughing. Get the picture? Yeah and when this IDIOT told her something I couldn't believe she believe her! =(
Oh well... Few days later to a week I sort of accept the fact but I can't seem to move on. I still hate her. Both of them. Well? For now... I only hate that idiot. I don't have that hate feeling towards her but maybe angry. I'm angry because she trust her more than me and that's really sad. I feel like there's an arrow piercing through my heart or rather someone taking my heart out. Bleeding heart? Well? At least it isn't for now.
Hmm? Speaking of bleeding heart... It was already bleeding but that wasn't the only matter to it,there were more! For years my heart has always been bleeding. It can't seem to recover. No plaster or bandage is able to stop it. I tend to get emotionally upset at times don't know why either. Well? It's almost ending. My heart is in the healing process. I'm much emotionally stable. As in like I'm not that who at times get emotionally upset in just a tick.
Sometimes letting it go it's a good thing than holding it back. Holding it back actually brings pain to your heart only. It hurts you and it might kill you. The best way is to let it go. Be free and start anew though it might hurt but hey... It's better than you bleeding right?
I know that at times she asked those friends who know me about me. Asking how am I and stuff like that. Why ask? Regret? Ha! Too late. I don't think I'm able to accept her as a friend. EVEN IF I DO,I don't think it'll be the same. Seriously,if I were to accept her as a friend again,I don't think it'll be the same as last time. We're in different world and I don't think I'm able to keep it up and adapt to her world. I'm sick and tired of it. I wanna be me. I want to be free. I want it to be my way. It's my world,it's my choice. Like it or not. Be it that way and mind your own.
Anyway,I don't really care about it. If she doesn't want to be my friend that let it be. I'm not going care. Why care about stuff like that? Especially someone whom you've always trusted and have hopes on hurts you. It was a stupid mistake? Ha! Well? Everyone make mistakes but HELLO! Earth to C. You hurt me. I'm hurt and disappointed with you. How could you do such thing? I have plans and you DESTORY it.
I've always wanted to have us going out to do some stuff together and have fun BUT it never happen. It all ended the way I didn't want to and expect it to. It took me some time to sort of forget it and move on. I keep asking myself WHY and how did it happen this way.
Oh well... What's gone is gone. Look ahead,move on.
I can't figure why I couldn't solve my own issues while others I could like give them advise and stuff like that and well? Most of them worked. =( I wish mine was like that but it never seem to be like that. Complicated? I guess in a way it may be a little complicated. My issues only takes time to solve. Months to years. Yes,that's how long it is. =( Most of them are quite hurtful. I hate it. >_<"
Oh well... Then again,in every situation there's always a solution.
Alright. I'm off now. Yawns yawns yawns... Thinking of all those it made me type all those. Haha. Yeah and it took me some time to type it out. Including thinking/recalling those facts.
Ok,this is it.
Peace out!
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:29:00 am♠
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Well,well... Just got nothing much to do now. Watched "Dia" just now. Oh goodie! Ivan scold Fifi! Muahahaha! Hmm? I noticed lots of people like Ivan. Hmm? Must be his good looks right? BUT his ego is a boo! Well? Alright,gotta say he ain't that bad looking. In fact,good looking but his EGO is a BOO. Bleah! Rian also not bad. =D Aww...but his nowhere in sight as for now. Actually the guys in the show ain't that bad looking. LOL!
Aww... Poor Marcia being accused? =( That stupid Susi again! Arghhhhh!! She's always up to no good. She and her mother (Fifi). Hate them!
Not only that,I couldn't believe Eka believed Susi! Susi is always up to no good! That bitch. LOL. Yeah,she is don't you think so?
Well... It's a nice show but can be heart aching at times. =D To those who doesn't know what show and might like to know/watch it's on Suria channel. Every Monday,9.30PM. Oh! Don't worry... There's English subtitles. =)
Yawns yawns yawns. Hmm... It's 2.45AM now. Simply taking quizzes and listening to Rammstein "Mein Teil". I guess I'll be sleeping very soon. =) Well... Here are the results that I got. How bad can it be? Haha. Well... You decide.
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You Are a Reserved Rookie
You tend to be somewhat reserved when it comes to flirting. You are fairly shy in nature and you usually don't approach people you find attractive because you are afraid of rejection. You prefer to wait for others to approach you first as it helps you to relax and come out of your shell. When you do flirt, you do so because you are interested in someone, often someone you have met before. You take a conservative and subtle approach to flirting, such as smiling a lot or making casual conversation. Unfortunately, your potential mates may not get the hint that you are interested. You may need to be a little more direct in order to get what you want.
You Are a Great Date
Congratulations, you know what you're doing. You have a flexible attitude and can react to different situations in a way that will make both you and your date feel comfortable and have a great time. You're able to open up and make a great impression without coming on too strong. Keep it up and there will be many more dates to come.
You Are a Balanced Beauty
You spend a reasonable amount of time attending to your appearance. You can take time out to look good without panicking about it. Making yourself look good makes you feel pampered and boosts your self-esteem. However, you can go with or without all the makeup and still feel good about yourself. You don't feel competitive about your appearance,which makes you ultimately all the more comfortable with yourself and that much more attractive. Way to go!
You Are Not Just a Girl in the World
Why should you feel confined by stereotypical gender roles? Can't a woman like a football game and also enjoy getting jewelry from a lover? A millennium woman seeks to have and enjoy it all, from leather to lace to a sharp suit. You wear makeup and dresses when you're in the mood and sneakers when you want to feel comfortable. You love being a woman, but you are not defined by your femininity. Congratulations on finding a nice balance!
Well... That's the results. Oh well... I'm off now.
Yawnssssssssss! Yes,you heard that so... Yeah. ZzZzZzzZzzZzz
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠2:58:00 am♠
Monday, January 09, 2006
"When the world gets in my face,I say,Have A Nice Day!"
Well... Listening to Bon Jovi's "Have A Nice Day" at the moment. I love that song. =D "Complicated" is also nice.
Not forgetting my favourite - "It's My Life" and "Bounce". Well... Bon Jovi songs are nice. What do you expect? =D Bon Jovi fan here! =p
The next song on my list is "Imagine" - which is actually a John Lennon's song but it's Jon Bon Jovi's version. Yup. Jon Bon Jovi and Richie Sambora. =) Imagine all the people... Living for today........ Ohhhhhhh....
I didn't suffer Monday blues. Yipee! It was quite ok. Yeah. =D I'm earlier than Xiaoqiang today. Haha. The bus came at 6.51AM today unlike last week which is about 6.55AM like that or so. I reached class at 7.12AM. =) Early me! Haha. Well? At least earlier than Xiaoqiang. Hmm? 7.12? About there. I was like "wow! I'm earlier than her!" =D
All we are saying... Is give peace a chance...... All we are saying is give peace a chance..... ALL WE ARE SAYING IS GIVE PEACE A CHANCE...............
=D Hmm? School's alright. Had assembly just now. Yawns yawns yawns. La La LAaAaaAa... Yeah yeah. Hmm...? Tomorrow is a holiday. Hari Raya Haji and oh I have some homework. Hur hur hurrrrrrrrrr... What to do? Well? Just do it! Not only that,I have Science refresher test on Wednesday! >_<" Arghhhhhh!! Oh well.......
Don't you agree that Darren Hayes songs are quite nice? I like his song "So beautiful". "Insatiable" and "Strange Relationship" is also nice! Why do they (Savage Garden) have to break up? Their songs are quite nice. =) S Club too and... Spice girls!! Their my favourite! =( Boo hoo hoo~!
Yeah! Chelsea won! Chelsea 2,Huddlesfield 1. Woohoo! You rock! Go chelsea go! Go!!
150 days to World Cup. England!!! Yeah! England all the way! Hmm? Haha... I used to support France and Brazil too but then was back then. Now it's only England all the way! France - I like Zinedine Zidane! Yeah! He rock! Brazil? I like Ronaldo! England? =D John Terry,Frank Lampard,Michael Owen,Wayne Rooney,Joe Cole!! =D Muahahaha. Well? Alright,I used to like David Beckham. =p David Beckham is my brother (Danish) soccer idol. His so inTO D.B!
I still remember when last time David Beckham was still in Manchester United. That time I was supporting Manchester United and at the same time Liverpool (when Michael Owen was still playing for Liverpool) and my brother was like arguing with me saying D.B rock to the max! LOL. It was kind of funny when I think of it. =D Haha.
First it was Manchester United then Liverpool and now... Chelsea!! Yes! Chelsea! <3 You rock! =D Go go go!! Ole ole ole ole! Ole! Ole! Haha...
Now listening to Mandy Moore's "Cry". Like that song. Nice song. =D I used to like Mandy Moore but now not quite. Hmm? I wonder why?
...all your feelings so deep inside..... Deep inside... Haha... Yeah that part.
Forever was in your eyes. The moment I saw you cry.
I also like her song "In Your Pocket". I like that so very much. =D
Haven't really eaten my lunch yet. Only ate Chicken Pau. Don't feel like eating yet. Hmm? Maybe not yet but soon I guess I'll be like "Give me all!!!" Haha. =X
Alright,I'm off now.
La La LaAaAaAaAaAAa
PeAcE OuT-----x
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠4:30:00 pm♠
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Weird stuff? Crazy stuff? Stupid stuff? Whatever!
Seen it,heard it or done that. It's just that some of them I find it funny. Love it,hate it? Read on... Well,this is crap but then... Just read on. Haha.
+ Comparing mobile phones (see who has the better one)
+ Comparing brands (the famous ones,wins)
+ Comparing boobs (some girls do that BUT not me... Haha)
+ Comparing their girl/boyfriend (bragging to see who is BETTER... Hmm?)
+ Looking at those "figure" and see how nice/big/firm (E.g: Their butts,their body,size?)
+ Touching them? (LOL!)
+ Smell them (To smell how good or bad they are)
+ Staring at them (STARE STARE & STARE)
+ Flirt with them (To see how many you can attract)
+ Talk about dirty stuff (To see who is the daredevil?)
+ Mixing with lots of guys (For girls)
+ Mixing with lots of girls (For Boys)
+ Dreaming? (Fantasies? LOL.)
+ Sleeping with someone (Oh? Does that makes you famous?)
+ Lying (A way to make people like you?)
+ Scolding someone for nothing (Hmm? Maybe because you don't want to show that you care?)
+ Wearing too revealing (To attract?)
+ Behaving like a b**tard or slut (Maybe it's cool to you?)
+ Colouring your hair with rainbow colours (To show that you're STYLO)
+ Have big assets (To flaunt that you have those)
+ Touching their stuff (I want "you"! = Your body only,not you)
+ Unbuttoning your clothes? (You're hot! Be mine?)
+ Kissing your neck? (Can I have more surprise?)
+ Taking dirty pictures of yourself (And you go... "I'm HOT" LOL!)
+ Talking rubbish when drunk (Look at me,I'm cool huh?)
+ Kissing and touching the same sex as you (Oh baby... I want yours. LOL)
+ Hugging you everytime; every few minutes (Don't go,I want you! I miss you!)
+ Claim that you like/love someone without meaning it (I'm confused/Let's see how many hearts can I break?)
+ Talking behind your back (I'm a devil in disguise,can you feel the heat?)
+ Making weird noises constantly (Can we do that?)
+ Talking to yourself ("Hey there! I have my imaginary friend you know?)
+ Laughing for nothing (I want to be happy)
+ Smiling for nothing (I have plans)
+ Shouting at nothing (Am I imagining? BUT hey! Someone make me angry!)
+ Writing the person's name that you're so INTO everywhere (I'm crazy over you!)
+ Pinching people for nothing (I love to see red marks on people)
+ Hitting people (I'm angry at someone)
+ Crying for nothing (I need help)
LOL!
Alright. This is totally crap. Haha... What a crappy entry. I didn't mean anything actually. Haha! It was plain crap.
Alright. I'm off now.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:31:00 am♠
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Rain rain go away. Come again another day.
Another rainy day again. It's been raining for like the whole day? Yeahhh... Wanted to blog last night but I was too tired! So I went to bed instead. Yawns yawns yawns. Yes,that's how I was like yesterday. Half way chatting with my friends then there my eyes were like shutting so I stopped and ....... ZzZzZZzzZz. Yup,Fantasy Land. =D
Didn't know my friend sms me. Well? I was already too tired. I simply couldn't take it. Oh well...
Hmm... Didn't go shopping today. It's raining! Yesterday morning went to the bank to cash in my cheque. Oh gosh... So many people! No choice but to queue. Hmm? There was this guy behind me he look kind of cute. Haha but oh well... I keep telling myself,"No no... What are you doing?!". Well? I just think that his cute. That doesn't mean "wo yao ni!". (Meaning: I want you) Oh please... I don't even know him. =)
I saw some friends who I didn't expect to see! Well? Ok,I saw those who I used to like. It's like I just turn and oh! That's him! So it was like a 2 to 3 seconds thing. We looked and we looked away. I don't how to react. For a minute when I saw L,I was stunned. Don't know what to do or react. I felt like my heart just stopped. Memories came back I guess? I have been thinking of him lately even dreamt of him. Don't know why? Are there feelings? Hmm... I don't think so. Came home to eat lunch and change my clothes then after that went out again. Went to Yishun then to Marina Square then to Suntec. Oh yes,as usual. =D Well... My favourite place. Went to the The Body Shop at Marina Square to find the Raspberry shower gel or is it cream? Raspberry? Errr? Oh is it Strawberry? Can't remember. Well... Couldn't find it. Darn it! All the other types aren't my favourite scent so my mother and I left.
I really like that smell. Saw the Raspberry soap. I used to use that but I feel that soap is slippery. I also remember the time where it slipped off my hands and it almost when "you know where". That's why I haven't been using it for quite some time. Hmm? Can I say about two years? Or is it three? About there. Anyway,I find shower cream/gel is much easier and faster especially if you're in a hurry. =D Oh yes. People like me. Haha. Yeah,especially in the morning.
Went to Suntec and went to the The Body Shop to look for it but couldn't seemed to find it so decided to ask the SA. She told me that there were no stock. Arghhhh!! Disappointed? Maybe. She introduced to me the Moonflower one and I smell it. Hmmmmm.... It smelt good. So I decided to buy but the smell is quite light. I prefer a stronger type actually. Well? It got me "addicted" to it so whatelse can I do? Haha. =)
I feel that yesterday the stuff that I'm looking for I can't seem to get it. Was a little disappointed when I wanted to buy the Reebok jacket but there's no M! Only S! =( How sad? I like that colour and I think it'll suit me. Even my dad thinks it's nice. Hur hur hur........... Oh why,oh why?!
Oh well... Thought of getting a new wallet but I really cannot make up my mind now. I've also thought of getting sneakers. =D I think it looked nice. I guess I WILL be getting soon. =D As for now... I'm just looking around to see if any fits me. I saw the Puma one. Gosh... It's so nice. Brown colour. =D But I think it's a little to expensive. $129. Same price as my Reebok track shoes but my Reebok shoes,I didn't pay for it! See the difference? Haha. My dad paid for me but this time I'm buying my own! Saw the Adidas one at the Adidas shop. Goshhhh... It's kind of nice and it cost $59 only BUT it's pink. I think that's the only colour. Arghhhh... I think brown will look nicer.
Well? Blue is my favourite colour but then you have to see what stuff are you buying and will it suit you? Hmm... Usually they say black and white matches all but then I guess brown is also nice. I have to say I like brown pants. I guess I like brown too. Haha.
Yellow/White and brown do match but depending what shades. Dark or light? =) I guess I'll be getting a Brown Guess Watch. It's a gift. Weeeeee~ Meaning I don't have to pay! LOL. I actually wanted to get the blue one but oh well... Since I'm going to get it as a gift,I guess I should keep that money and buy something else.
Currently I have three watch. I'm always wearing the white one. I only use my black G-Shock watch when I'm camp or if I have to do some outdoor activities. Other than that,I'll use the white one. I have two white watch and one black. =D I can go crazy over watches. If it's nice,unique and for everyday use I'll consider it. =D
La La LAAaAaAaAa...
Still raining! Hmm...? There's good stuff and bad stuff. Haha. Figure it out your own. =D
I guess I'll be sleeping earlier tonight. Oh well...? I hope so. I don't want to sleep at 1. I'm afraid I'll be sleepy after that. That happened to me so I guess I'll be sleeping by 12.30. =D How's that? Cut down by half an hour. I think it's a good idea. Haha. =D See no evil,hear no evil...
I've to do my maths homework later. Oh dear... But hey,it isn't a LOT so I guess I should be happy with it. At the most it takes me about 15 to 20 minutes to do. Including the first question (redo). Well? That's AT THE MOST. Maybe 10 minutes I'll be able to finish already. Hmm...? Haha. =)
Oh well... Tomorrow's Monday. I wonder if I'll have Monday blues? Which I hope not. At least Tuesday is Hari Raya Haji so tomorrow I'll be able to sleep late BUT only for tomorrow. =) Tuesday I've to sleep early. Haha. Hey... Wait. Wednesday school starts at 8.45AM. Hmm? So I guess I could stay up till 1. =p Oops. =D Well? I still think I should sleep early.
Be fresh,be EARLY. Haha.
Hmm...? Thinking of changing my blog layout. Should I? I guess I should but I don't think it'll be soon. Maybe next week? Well? I see how.
Alright. I'm off now.
Later ya?
P e a c e . . .
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠7:34:00 pm♠
Thursday, January 05, 2006
I HATE YOU!
It's crazy and it's STUPID. Damn this world. Seriously,this world is full of crap.
I just reached home at about 4PM and there goes that STUPID bloody crap. Sometimes I hate my brother. I'm so tired and I have stuff in mind. Expect me to be happy? What's there to? THEY don't understand!! There's why I sort of "break down". It's not because of anything it's just that I feel that like AS IF I'm in the wrong which I'm NOT! In other words accusing. You FISH idiot.
Sometimes I wish I come home a little later. Why? Well because I don't want such thing to happen. I think this is where I can rely on. THE WORLD HAS GONE CRAZY I guess. Stupid. I hate it!!
Damn!
The sad thing is... It's like no one cares! What the ... !! It's like THEY (My family!!) are against me! That's why I say it's SAD! Morons.
Guess what I did? I hit the wall. DAMN IT! What's gotten into you?!?! Why can't you just understand?!?! YOU ARE SIMPLY INCONSIDERATE!
Just because I... Well? Alright... Scratch my brother they make a lot of noise?! HEY! HELLO!! He said stuff about me and it's irritating. Cursing me. Sort of threatening me and what am I suppose to do? Just shut? How can I?! His my younger brother yet his behaving like a devil at times and if you don't teach him,he won't bloody LEARN!
Arghhhhh!!!! CRAP!
When I was in school with my buddy,Xiaoqiang,I feel better but when this crap comes along... It just spoils my mood!
One more thing... Does cute equals to like that person? What the hell! It's crazy. Of course not!! So what? I just think his cute... Big deal? Mind your own. I don't think I like anyone. Sheesh. Haven't I said I need my heart to heal? Alright,maybe at times I feel a little awkward in a sense that I'm a little confused but alright... Let's get things straight. To be frank,I'm still into.......
Well? Yes,that fella. I know it's stupid but I'm healing. I simply don't understand why it always hurts for me. =(
Always see that smile huh? Happy? Ha! At times I am but of course I'm not ALWAYS HAPPY everyDAY. There are ups and downs and sometimes it hurts me alot. I just keep it to myself. I do stuff to make me happy. I don't want to think of all this crap but sometimes it's avoidable. That's one thing I hate the most.
I simply don't understand. It's like when I think someone is cute,the next moment they will be like "That girl likes me" and there you go. Sheesh! Hey,hello! PLEASE WAKE UP! Cute doesn't mean I LIKE THAT PERSON! You idiot! It was just a compliment. I just think that that person is cute. So what? Like you're so good like that. Oh please... Wake up from your STUPID world and welcome to the GET REAL world.
Say whatever you want. Flirt? Playmate? Just shit it. I just think so only. NO BIG DEAL. So don't make a big fuss of it. Just shut it you idiot. Why is this world is just a pain in the ass at times? It doesn't make sense. By just one person's stupid thinking... It makes the world STUPID.
I think the world could be better if there's more peace and people thinking widely instead of being that stereo narrow minded fellow. Sheesh! Get real will ya?
What can I say after all? Guys are suckers. Seriously,at times I find it hard to trust guys. Guys tend to change. Well? Human beings are like that but guys are like clocks. Always changing their minds very fast. I'm not saying all guys are but well? It's just them I guess?
Guys always think they always have the power.
Guys always think that they are always the best.
Guys are suckers.
Oh... Whatelse can I say? Then again,I'm not saying ALL so get that straight to your HEAD!
Just let it be,let it go... Whatever happens... Yes,it's crap. As usual.
*shrugs* Oh well... It's better off alone at times. Sometimes the reason why I'm mean it's because you're MEAN and I don't trust you! You gotta look at yourself yeah?
Shitty world? Haha. What can I say? Life's like that. Just live with it.
Oh god... I have English homework and Maths homework. Ahhh sharks! Hur hur hur... Was one to two minutes late for today's MATHS morning worksheet and had to do it after school which is like about 2.50 - 3PM. What a day... Oh well... Maybe I'll be taking an one hour nap then after that wake up and do my homework. Let me see... I think my homework will take me at the most one hour. Hmm? So maybe at 8.30 or 9PM I'll do my homework. =)
=p *sighs* I simply don't know how I feel... but certainly I'm not happy at the moment.
Is the world falling apart? Hmm...... I wonder...
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠4:51:00 pm♠
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Goodie.
2nd day of school and school starts late today. I think Wednesday is great. Well? Maybe for the last two lesson which is boring. Yes,boring. Why? It's Mother Tongue! That's why! Haha. Hmm? Oh well...
It was raining earlier on. Oh great... Want to know what? No iron for now. Thank god my mother iron my uniforms before hand so at least I can use the other one. I still have two more pair of uniform. I was quite frightening yesterday at about 12 something while I was ironing my uniform. Out of the blue there's this sound and the next minute my whole house was black out! Sheesh. It came from the iron. I saw some sparks. Thank god I didn't dropped the iron or else I don't know what's next. It was scary as it never happened to me before!
Oh well... I think every Wednesday I should take the earlier bus. Seriously. Well? I reached class at about 8.42 I guess. Three minutes left before I've to serve P.C? Hmm? I pass the school gate at about 8.39AM if I'm not wrong. Well? There's so many people coming at that time too. Well? I guess I'll play safe.
Oh goodie. PE tomorrow. Sheesh. Some things that I don't like about PE is that sometimes we have to do stuff that I don't like. How horrible. If it's like floorball I bet it'll be enjoyable. Muahahaha~ =) Well? I guess cause that's my favourite. =D
Hmm? I think I'm beginning not to think TOO much about . . . Errr? Well? Certain stuff. I think my day for today is great. Unlike yesterday I had those weird feelings and I wasn't feeling comfortable with it. I don't know why but that feeling has gone and I hope it'll never come back again. =D It's not really a nice feeling. Don't like it. Arghhh... Have Maths lesson tomorrow. Sheesh. Not only that,we have MATHS morning worksheet too. How interesting?
Maths isn't my favourite but what to do? Have to force myself to "like" it but I know that will not happen. Sometimes I wish English lessons were abit longer. Only then I can learn more things. Seriously,I don't mind having English class. I enjoy English lessons and it's the oppsite for Maths and Mother Tongue. Oh god... I really want to do well in my N levels. I've to put that worry aside for awhile but I can't totally like forget it.
I think today is quite enjoyable. I had fun with my usual pal,Xiaoqiang. =D
Well well... I think I was a little tired just now that I fell asleep! I didn't even expect that. I was just lying on my bed for awhile... The next thing you know... ZzZzZzZz... Yeah,there goes it. Woke up at about 8PM. Hmm? Maybe later I'll go to bed before 1. =)
Was watching TV earlier on. From 9.30 to 10.30PM. Just one hour of television only. I don't think I have much time for the computer now. I think mostly evening and nights then I'll have time but with stuff I have to do I think I'm only available during night times and well? I won't be able to use that LONG. Reached home at about 4.30PM. Was really tired but keep telling myself that I won't sleep. Guess what? In the end,I fell asleep.
Oh well... Hmm? Currently listening to "Far Away" by Nickelback. Nice song. Haha. Not bad. =) Darren Hayes "Beautiful" is also nice. I sort of hear that tempo for that song in my head! Yeah! Ever since this morning. Hmm? I wonder why...
Oh well... Alright. I've to go now.
Yawns yawns yawns. Yes,that's how I feel today. Hmm? But why?
..........
Peace out~
2nd day of school and school starts late today. I think Wednesday is great. Well? Maybe for the last two lesson which is boring. Yes,boring. Why? It's Mother Tongue! That's why! Haha. Hmm? Oh well...
It was raining earlier on. Oh great... Want to know what? No iron for now. Thank god my mother iron my uniforms before hand so at least I can use the other one. I still have two more pair of uniform. I was quite frightening yesterday at about 12 something while I was ironing my uniform. Out of the blue there's this sound and the next minute my whole house was black out! Sheesh. It came from the iron. I saw some sparks. Thank god I didn't dropped the iron or else I don't know what's next. It was scary as it never happened to me before!
Oh well... I think every Wednesday I should take the earlier bus. Seriously. Well? I reached class at about 8.42 I guess. Three minutes left before I've to serve P.C? Hmm? I pass the school gate at about 8.39AM if I'm not wrong. Well? There's so many people coming at that time too. Well? I guess I'll play safe.
Oh goodie. PE tomorrow. Sheesh. Some things that I don't like about PE is that sometimes we have to do stuff that I don't like. How horrible. If it's like floorball I bet it'll be enjoyable. Muahahaha~ =) Well? I guess cause that's my favourite. =D
Hmm? I think I'm beginning not to think TOO much about . . . Errr? Well? Certain stuff. I think my day for today is great. Unlike yesterday I had those weird feelings and I wasn't feeling comfortable with it. I don't know why but that feeling has gone and I hope it'll never come back again. =D It's not really a nice feeling. Don't like it. Arghhh... Have Maths lesson tomorrow. Sheesh. Not only that,we have MATHS morning worksheet too. How interesting?
Maths isn't my favourite but what to do? Have to force myself to "like" it but I know that will not happen. Sometimes I wish English lessons were abit longer. Only then I can learn more things. Seriously,I don't mind having English class. I enjoy English lessons and it's the oppsite for Maths and Mother Tongue. Oh god... I really want to do well in my N levels. I've to put that worry aside for awhile but I can't totally like forget it.
I think today is quite enjoyable. I had fun with my usual pal,Xiaoqiang. =D
Well well... I think I was a little tired just now that I fell asleep! I didn't even expect that. I was just lying on my bed for awhile... The next thing you know... ZzZzZzZz... Yeah,there goes it. Woke up at about 8PM. Hmm? Maybe later I'll go to bed before 1. =)
Was watching TV earlier on. From 9.30 to 10.30PM. Just one hour of television only. I don't think I have much time for the computer now. I think mostly evening and nights then I'll have time but with stuff I have to do I think I'm only available during night times and well? I won't be able to use that LONG. Reached home at about 4.30PM. Was really tired but keep telling myself that I won't sleep. Guess what? In the end,I fell asleep.
Oh well... Hmm? Currently listening to "Far Away" by Nickelback. Nice song. Haha. Not bad. =) Darren Hayes "Beautiful" is also nice. I sort of hear that tempo for that song in my head! Yeah! Ever since this morning. Hmm? I wonder why...
Oh well... Alright. I've to go now.
Yawns yawns yawns. Yes,that's how I feel today. Hmm? But why?
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Peace out~
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:05:00 pm♠
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Arghhhh!!! I'm really very tired! I don't know why too. Well... It's back to school again. Yesterday went to collect my Edusave Scholarship Cheque. $500. =D Nice. Haha.
Oh god. I was appointed as class secretary! I don't want!! Awww... What to do! I've been appointed. =( Hate it. I feel a little pressure already. I'm worrying too much I guess. Teachers talking about N levels. Me, thinking of getting distinction. Well... I was thinking of getting most subjects distinction. I really want to and I must get distinctions. Ahhhh! Oh well...
Well? There's good and bad I guess. I find that the lessons are boring. Seriously,I find it's missing something. Well? Not of pupils but something but I couldn't figure out what is it. For a minute I was happy,for a minute I was worried. I really don't know what I'm feeling actually.
Well... School was OK I guess. Yawns yawns yawns! Tomorrow school starts at 8.45 BUT will end at 3.25PM! So LATE! =( Humph! What to do? This is what you get if you're going to school late. Sheesh. Oh well... Just have to get used to it. I don't know if it's a good thing or bad. I'm still wondering. I don't feel quite happy to be back to school. I don't know why either.
So fast it's 3rd of January. Oh god... Time flies really fast. So sad! I wish I have more time. Seriously... I wish I could have more time. Yesterday things happened kinda fast. I was didn't feel like attending the ceremony but somehow I just go. Oh well... It was ok. It ain't that bad. Well... Hmm........? Haha... *Deep In My Thoughts;wondering*
La La LAaAaaAa...
Beep! Cut!
Alright. I'm really tired. I guess I better be going. Well... I'm off to watch TV!
Yeah... "Tiramisu". =D His so cuteeeeeee! Haha. Who do you think it's cute? Well... The cutest one,yeah...that's the one. =D You go and figure it out! Haha but then Marcus ain't that bad looking. Besides,his harmless! Haha. =X Oops...
Alright. Toodles!
Peace out!~
[ The heart reasons,the reason does not understand ]
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠8:30:00 pm♠
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Happy New Year everyone! =) It's finally 2006. Hmm? Let me see when was the last time I updated my blog? Oh... 29 of December 2005 huh? Haha. It means I've not been blogging for about two days? Yeah.
Anyway,it's a new start for everything and I really hope I don't screw anything up. That's my only HOPE!! Haha. =) My hand is pain at the moment yet I'm still blogging. Well? I really want to blog! Why is my hand pain? Well... You guess! =D
Well... Ok,I've been writing testimonials to people and have been wishing people. I really have to stop this soon! Or else... I guess I won't be able to use the computer!! Haha. Oh well...
Anyway,was out yesterday. Was at suntec. So many people there but I didn't stay till that late. =D I was home before 12. So I was like wishing everyone at 12. =D Well? As in on MSN. I always encounter this problem of sending SMS. So far this year ain't that bad... Well? At least managed to send at least three. Oh well...
Slacking at home today. I'm tired! It's raining anyway. Slept at about 4.30AM and woke up at about 2PM. =D Goodie,I have to sleep earlier tonight as I'll be attending the ceremony tomorrow. Erm... I mean Edusave Scholarship Award Ceremony. I'm feeling a little nervous and worried. Have to be there by 10.30. It'll start at 11 to 11.30. It's half an hour. Oh well... What to do. =) Mr Teo Chee Hean will be the guest of honour to present the award. Last year was also him. Haha. Last year my row were all boys. I'm the only girl. I feel so small. Haha.
Oh well... C 25. Yes,that's my seat number. Last year was F 22. Nervous! At least last year still can see the rest go first. =X =D
Oh well... Tired me. Yesterday was at suntec,the day before yesterday was at Orchard then to Suntec. Haha. Suntec again. What can I say? I mostly go there. If not Suntec then Marina Square. =D I didn't head down to CityLink Mall yesterday. Was at Suntec then to Marina Square then back at Suntec again. I sort of like the toliet at Suntec. It's quite clean unlike other places. Takashimaya's toliet is clean. =D
Goodie. I hate yesterday's dream. It's scary!! =( First time I have a very super weird and scary dream. I hope tonight's dream will be the usual sweet ones. =D
Oh well... 2006 is here so may this year be a good one. 2005 was OK for me. Nothing to exciting happened. Well? Not much exciting stuff. Quite alright so far but I was heartbroken a few times. Sheesh. What a year. Have to stop my habit. =D Well... I know what habit,maybe you might not know. But oh well... You don't have to know.
When I reflect back at the past,I'm sort of stuck to this question. "Am I a timer?" It's like I can like three to four guys at one go. Oops. Playmate? No no. Don't get me wrong. Well? Alright. I used to like three to four guys at one go but hey... I'm getting over it! Getting rid of that. Whatever the number is,I can ensure you that it'll be back to square one and one of my goals this year is to erase that square one and forget everything.
Seriously... I want to start a new life. I want a new beginning. The chapter has unfold. I must make sure I won't screw it and have fun!
Maybe I was a timer but not for now. As for now,I'm simply not in to it. My heart needs to heal. That flow of blood keeps bleeding like nobody's business. Even the plaster can't help to stop it. I'm losing a lot of blood already and it has shattered into tiny pieces but I'm picking it up. At times I fear of falling deeply as the end result will bitterly hurt me. It's time I colour my pages with rainbow colours and fly like the bird in the sky.
What can I say? Move on! Look ahead! Be ahead! =)
Alright. I'm off now.
It's just the beginning... A beginning of a NEW year. A chapter has unfold and it's yet to be running freely.
Trust your heart,follow your dreams... Be free,think smart.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠5:00:00 pm♠
// D: Illusionist
// What's your love type
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// Speed test
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BLUE IS THE COLOUR
// What does your sleeping position says about you?
What Your Sleeping Position Says
Friends consider you to be kind, caring, and truly loyal.
You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.
Open to the world, you are not afraid to be yourself.
If you don't get enough sleep, you are: Able to cope
It's hard to sleep next to you because: You're a bed hog
// What's your love type
| Your Love Type: ISFJ |
 In love, you are quietly intense, devoted, and tend too hold on too long. For you, sex is a way to get closer - and a way to take care of your partner. Overall, you are altruistic and eager to please your sweetie. However, you tend to also be non-confrontational and secretly frustrated with relationship issues. Best matches: ESTP or ESFP |
// Are you too picky when it comes to men?
| You Are Picky When it Counts |
 But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating. You probably have quite a few great guys you can date! |
// What kind of sexy girl are you?
| You Are Fun Sexy |
 Guys always have a great time with you, and that alone is sexy. You've got an upbeat, optimistic spirit that totally shines through. Any guy would be crazy to turn you down! |
// What kind of girl are you?
| You are a Brainy Girl! |
 You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more. For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests. A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either! |
// Are you spoiled?
| You Are 24% Spoiled |
 You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have. |
// What flavour Pocky are you?
| You Are Flan Pocky |
 East meets west... sweet meets salty. You're a pro at bringing unusual combos together! |
// Could you be violent?
| There's a Chance You Could Be Violent |
 Sometimes your anger gets the best of you, and end up regretting how you act. Try to curb your temper more often. It only has to get out of control once to do some damage. |
// Speed test
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// —The Voice Within—
// Other Illusionist♠
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CeMTA (Drama) Blog
Ms Angeline
Class Blog - 1A/03 ['o9]
Meet The Illusi♠nist:
Adib
Aiba
Aidyl
Amelia
Andrew
Atiiyah
Azizah
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Berwin
Belson
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Chloe
Clara
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Darlene*♦
Dickson (Snoopy)
Donn
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Elvis
Eugene
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Faezzah
Faezzah [2]
Faiz
Faizal (Bear)
Fiqah♦
Fyeqa
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Gabriel
Gary's Lover Den
Gillian
Gladys
Grace
Guan Ting (GT)
Guo Wei
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Hafiz Y.
Haziyah
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Irsyad
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Jaclyn♦
Jamie
Jason
Jia Hao
Jiekie
Jian Sheng
Jiayi
Jun Rong (JR)
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Ken
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Lee Ying
Leon
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Marcus
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Pei Jun
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Radhi
Razin
Ratna
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Sani
Sarah
Shakila
Sherin (Yi Xin)
Shikin
Shi Min
Shu Min
Sya
Syakirah
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Wei Wei
Wendy
Weng Hon
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Yi Xuan (Shiin)
Yue Han
Special links:
CeMTA (Drama) Blog
Ms Angeline
Class Blog - 1A/03 ['o9]
Meet The Illusi♠nist:
Adib
Aiba
Aidyl
Amelia
Andrew
Atiiyah
Azizah
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Berwin
Belson
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Chloe
Clara
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Darlene*♦
Dickson (Snoopy)
Donn
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Elvis
Eugene
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Faezzah [2]
Faiz
Faizal (Bear)
Fiqah♦
Fyeqa
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Gabriel
Gary's Lover Den
Gillian
Gladys
Grace
Guan Ting (GT)
Guo Wei
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Haziyah
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Irsyad
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Jaclyn♦
Jamie
Jason
Jia Hao
Jiekie
Jian Sheng
Jiayi
Jun Rong (JR)
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Ken
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Lee Ying
Leon
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Marcus
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Naqiah*
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Pearline♦
Pei Jun
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Radhi
Razin
Ratna
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Saiful
Sani
Sarah
Shakila
Sherin (Yi Xin)
Shikin
Shi Min
Shu Min
Sya
Syakirah
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Wei Wei
Wendy
Weng Hon
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Yi Xuan (Shiin)
Yue Han
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