W E L C ♠ M E
// My Illusions*
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
+*Jaclyn wants me to do this.*+
So here goes...
seven things that scare me -
+ Frightening stuff
+ That "stuff"
+ Terrapin
+ Fish [Their Eyes]
+ Haunted house
+ Perverts
+ Psycho people
seven things that i like the most -
+ Computer + Internet
+ Peace
+ Mobile Phone
+ Family
+ Friends
+ Interestin' Novels
+ Food
seven important things in my room -
+ Oil Blotter
+ Mobile Phone
+ Fan
+ Computer
+ Bed
+ Hair Moisturiser
+ Lights
seven random facts about me -
+ I can be crappy and laughs like mad
+ I'm nice if you're nice
+ I can be mean. It's how you treat me.
+ I hate backstabbers,hypocrites,troublemakers
+ I love makin' friends
+ I love to eat chicken
+ I dislike walking under the rain
seven things i can do -
+ Rollerblade
+ Do a few things at a time.
+ I can walk long distance
+ I go crazy when I'm in a let loose mood
+ I can write poems if I'm in that mood to write
+ I can talk for quite some time without feeling thirsty
+ At times my gut instinct is accurate
seven things i can't do -
+ Make all my dreams come true
+ Sleep at all
+ Control my anger at times
+ Be force to hate a person if I don't find a need to do so
+ Give up everything [I can give up some stuff but not all]
+ Cycle
+ Draw that well
seven phrases i say the most-
+ It's for me to know and for you to find out
+ Do I look like I care?
+ Say whatever you want,I don't give a damn
+ You sicko
+ Toot toot toot...
+ You tooter
+ As If....
seven people i'd love to see do this survey -
+ Jaclyn [but she already did it,haha]
+ Angie [but she won't do this]
+ Maybe Pearline?
+ My friends
+ People who are bored
+ Anybody
+ Humans [LOL!]
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠4:15:00 pm♠
[ 29.11.05 ]
Awww.... I wonder what's it about.
These few days I've been having sweet dreams. Their so nice. Yesterday's dream was someone I don't know. Haha. Yeah. The previous ones is somebody I know. One used to be my classmate.
The weird thing is... I don't even have feelings for them. Haha. Seriously. Yes,I know them but I don't have feelings for them. Weird huh? Don't even know why they appear in my dreams.
Yesterday one was so sweet!
His like my dream guy. The guy that I've always wanted. His sweet,his more like a brother to me. Those buddy type. Awww... He always gives me advise,cares for me and so on. His so concern of me. The first time I met him,I feel quite comfortable with him. As each day pass,we became closer and closer. His really very understanding but his a little mysterious.
Haha. Don't know how he look like. Awww... It seems so real! I wish it was real. *sigh* Will it ever be real? Oh well.......
It's just a dream only. =(
IF I ever find that type,aww... I'll cherish him. Yes,that I promise.
My current mobile phone wallpaper is my boyfriend. Weee~ Guess who!
John Terry! Haha. =D
Oh well... Cut the crap already. I'll do the survey now.
Jaclyn wants me to do it. =)
Take care.
// illusionist*
Awww.... I wonder what's it about.
These few days I've been having sweet dreams. Their so nice. Yesterday's dream was someone I don't know. Haha. Yeah. The previous ones is somebody I know. One used to be my classmate.
The weird thing is... I don't even have feelings for them. Haha. Seriously. Yes,I know them but I don't have feelings for them. Weird huh? Don't even know why they appear in my dreams.
Yesterday one was so sweet!
His like my dream guy. The guy that I've always wanted. His sweet,his more like a brother to me. Those buddy type. Awww... He always gives me advise,cares for me and so on. His so concern of me. The first time I met him,I feel quite comfortable with him. As each day pass,we became closer and closer. His really very understanding but his a little mysterious.
Haha. Don't know how he look like. Awww... It seems so real! I wish it was real. *sigh* Will it ever be real? Oh well.......
It's just a dream only. =(
IF I ever find that type,aww... I'll cherish him. Yes,that I promise.
My current mobile phone wallpaper is my boyfriend. Weee~ Guess who!
John Terry! Haha. =D
Oh well... Cut the crap already. I'll do the survey now.
Jaclyn wants me to do it. =)
Take care.
// illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:59:00 pm♠
Monday, November 28, 2005
Portsmouth VS Chelsea. Who do you think win? Haha! Yeah! Chelsea! 2 - 0. =D
Grrrr... Can't get enough of Frank Lampard and...... John Terry! Terry is so cute! He melts my heart. Lampard too but I guess for now Terry melts my heart even more. Haha. Anyway,they're still hotties. Haha. Oh well... Chelsea rocks! I think I don't change anymore already. Support all the way! Haha.
Chelsea is good. Really good. They have good players and cute ones too. =D Haha. Well? Not only their 1st at the moment,they have good players too. It's the players that makes the team wonderful. Haha. =D Oh...and err... there's some cute players too. You just can't get enough of them. =X
Chelsea footballers John Terry, Scott Parker and Joe Cole. The three of them...cute! Haha. So... who's the cutest here? John Terry's the cutest! Not only that,tallest too! Haha. Too bad I can't upload the picture. I tried but it seems that it has problems. Maybe other times. I WILL upload it. Haha =D
HEARTS
+*+*+*+*+*+*+
// Frank Lampard
// John Terry
// Joe Cole
-They melt my heart-
Simply you you you! Haha. That's for Chelsea. =D
Favourite soccer players. ...
// Frank Lampard
// John Terry
// Michael Owen
// Joe Cole
// Wayne Rooney
They have skills! =D The talent is there.
Talking about soccer. World cup is next year! So... who are y'all supporting for? As for me... The usual. England!! Was disappointed with the Euro 04. England and Portugal. Darn it! They lost. Reason - P.K. Damn! It was so close. At first I was so fishy happy. I was like... "Yes,yes!" then last minute Portugal equalize. Arghhhhh! Heart ache. *sob sob*
I really want England to win. Their my favourite team. I have always support England. I never support any other teams before. Only England and their my favourite! Sheesh! Humph! So disappointed. Haha.
Oh well... That's about football. Haha. Well,I was out just now. About two hours ago I came home. Saw this cute guy. Haha. Gosh! He look at me too! Keep looking. Haha. When I turn,I saw him looking.So I look away. Haha. Bleah!
Oh well..... Let love find you. Haha. =) Terry Terry Terry!!!! Gosh... So into him. =D
Well... Surfing the net at the moment. Nothing much. 6.36PM at the moment. Yawns! Feel so tired. Couldn't sleep last night. Slept very late. Bloated me. Eat so much. =D Eat Fish and Chips. Still have my Chicken Pau. Haven't eat that yet cause there's no space available. Storage is full. Haha.
Hmm... Alright. I'm off now.
Later ya? Peace out.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠6:59:00 pm♠
Sunday, November 27, 2005
...Like I'm Right Beside You But Still No Word From You..............
Haha. Backstreet Boys "I still..." I just love that song. It's like stuck in my head for now. I can loop the song over and over without feeling irritated or sick of it. Love that song. Love that song! Love that song!!! Haha. =) Oh,I'm listening to the song at the moment. =D
The song reminds me of something. Oh let's not talk about it.
You know I've been wondering this few days if all those that they say were quite true. I sort of don't agree with some but it just comes back to mind. It'll bounce back to me and I can't help it already! It's like bugging me! Darn it. Hate it. Whatever. =)
For all these years have I close the door? Am I sort of insane in a way? Did I completely shut and stick to one? I choose to ignore and still for it? ....and so on.
I feel stupid at times. Why didn't I go through all this earlier on? Damn. It does make sense after asking myself all these. What I mean by going through is those questions.
There's lots of dudes out there,why ... ? One of my friend said something about this issue.
He said... "Why that person? Not worth it. So many guys out there,so.........?"
The other said... "I don't know what's so good about that person. There are others that are much better."
Well? It's not like I'm still into that person. I told them I give up on everything yet they wouldn't believe. I don't know whatelse to say or do. They still think I'm still into that person. Maybe last time. Now? Come on. Give me a break.
All this time,it's just an illusion. I give up. I'm tired of it. Why think of all this? There are stuff way important than this. Anyway,it's my problem if I want to fall for who or whatsoever. I don't know why all this comments appear.
Yes,maybe I was foolish. Even after hearing those "He said" stuff from some people I still refuse to react. I ignore the fact. I only believe in the illusion I guess. Thinking of all these,they're aren't worth my time.
I guess it's better off this way. I'm sick and tired of it. I need to catch my breath.
To think of it,I was a little selfish. All I could think of was simply that person. I try to forget,I try as hard as I could yet I can't. To some they may think I'm a player. Hey! I'm not. The reason is I just want to forget everything.
Some friends were like... "Hey,like so many guys. Play girl." I get a few of those same comments. Darn it! Why can't they just mind their own? Well,okay I don't have the rights to shut them up or whatsoever. Their free to comment but can they please understand the reason. Not all understand. A handful of them understands and I'm glad that I have some friends who understands me clearly.
#1 - I'm not a playmate. I don't go around flirt and ditching guys.
#2 - I don't like flirts nor flirting.
#3 - I don't wish to have a short relationship.
#4 - I like relationship that will last. (Long relationship,that is)
#5 - I'm quite a faithful person.
Hate it when people always judge people. Never underestimate a person. You'll never know what the person is capable of. He/She may have a skill that you don't.
LA La La...
Hmm? Should I cut my hair? Keep thinking if I should or not.
I'm confused! Help!!
Oh well. Later!
//illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠5:30:00 pm♠
Oh goodie! Didn't I mention I want to change the tag board? Well... I've changed it already! Tag tag tag!!
Haha. Hmm... 1.47AM. Am I tired? Hmm... Well? I guess so but I don't feel like sleeping but! I still have to rest or else I may turn out to be a zombie tomorrow.
Cut the crap already. Anyway,earlier on (26/11) went to Jurong point after that to Suntec. Spend money like nobody's business. Oh gosh. After spending it,my heartache. Haha. As y'all know I'm not that type who spends a lot. All those stuff aren't my money! It's my parents money! Haha.
So if I spend something that I've to fork out - heartache! Haha. I didn't buy anything at Jurong Point but spend a lot at Suntec. >_<" Darn it. Haha. I guess I should relax for once. Anyway,it's like always my parents fork out...I guess it's time I fork out a little too. BUT not too much! =D
Thrifty? Whatever. It's simply me. Why waste money while you can save and invest? Well? Ok,investing is also a risk. Hmm...? Ok,you can spend but my point is don't spend too much. What IF you're sick? You need money right? You can spend but not too much. Spend 10 percent save 90 percent. How's that? Haha.
Oh well...
Currently just chatting and surfing the net. As usual - surfing. =) In about few minutes time I guess I'll be off. My left eye - pain! Especially in the morning,whenever I wake up I notice my left eye is always red. It never happen to me but it happen to me before the school holiday. The last week before school closes but that week... Arghhh! I had sore eye. It's a bit of a on and off thing. Sometimes it seems to be getting better while sometimes it seems to be worst.
I don't have sore eye already but I have red eye. Sheesh. Simply hate it. Go away you red eye! Shoo! Go shoo scram! Haha. =p
Alright. I'm off now.
s w e e t * d r e a m s . . .
// illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:53:00 am♠
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Oops. Didn't blog yesterday? Hmm? I didn't have time.
Oh well... Here I am blogging! Haha. Ok,enough crap. Eating at the moment and also typing this of course. Going out soon. So it'll be a very short entry. Oh well.......
*sigh* Darn it. I can't make it on Tuesday. Tuesday is my OBS group gathering. Darn it!! Oh well... Other times then. =)
I couldn't sleep last night. Don't know. I keep turning and tossing myself yet I still couldn't sleep. After some time,I just don't know what happen. Well? I fell asleep! But... It's so hard!! Wondering why... Hmm?
Going to cut my hair this Monday. Going to Jean Yip to cut. Hmm...and I guess more shopping too! Haha. There's so many discounts now and it's really cheap. Worth buying them. Grab them ya? Haha.
Alright. I'm going to have a new tagboard (cbox). Soon to be up. Tag yeah? Tag!
Ok,I'm off now.
See ya!
Peace out*
=)
D-Illusionist-
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:45:00 am♠
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Oh well... Just an entry before I sleep. Like I said,I want to sleep early. Well? Have to wait for this pore strip to dry first.
Hmm... In the meantime,I blog! Hahaha. Oh well... Currently just surfing the net. Nothing much. Didn't I mention I want to take good care of myself? Yeah! I'm starting in now... Hopefully it might be my daily routine.
Hmm? I wonder why I'm so keen about it. Weird? What can I say? It's just me. Haha.
People,people. Thinking of it,sometimes it's better to be alone. I'm serious here. Sometimes you just need a break. You need a space of your own to think and calm. Even robots need a break if not they'll explode. Hur hur. So? We won't want that to happen to us right? We're not robots. We're HUMANS! Humans don't explode but we'll break down. Yes,break down and I mean emotionally.
Before anything happens. You should take care of yourself and make some limits to it. Don't over do it. Some people just simply think that they can do everything. Everything? Come on! You gotta be kidding. Even so,you have to have a break.
Don't know what are they thinking. Yes,I know it feels good to have glory,you know stuff like that but you can't have everything. This world works like this. You can have some and you can't have some. Don't get it? Nevermind. Go figure it out. It's part of life yeah? You can't change it. You can curse,you can swear but you can never change the things around. The only thing you can do is to APPRECIATE!
How I wish humans learn how to appreciate. Human beings can be greedy at times. Forgetting things around them and taking it for grunted. Such a pity for this people. Never think twice. *Tsk,tsk* Shame on you!
Hopefully this people wake up and realise that this is reality and not fantasy land. Some things you can take it as a joke but some you can't! You have to take it very seriously. Don't know what they think of it and how they look at it.
Time flies very fast. Sometimes I wish I was still a kid. Surprised? Wondering why? Well... Simple. When you're a kid,you get to do stuff and most of the time get away with it. Besides,you can play all day and have fun. You don't have to think of all those complicating stuff and crazy stuff. You don't have to care about crazy people and stuff like that. It's just FUN FUN FUN for you. Ain't that good? I miss those days! I wanna turn back time! =( If only I could. Too bad,this is reality so stop dreaming.
Well? The best we could do is to look ahead of us and plan what we should do. Thinking ahead in other words. There's no turning back. What's done,can't be undone.
Oh well... Let's just pray and hope that things will be getting better. Especially the war. I hate it. Why can't they learn to love? Is it hard to do so?
Hmm? Hope that the doors of their minds and heart will open and realise that they should stop all this once and for all. Since it's "people may change - change of hearts" so... why not this? How about that? Let's just see about it. Maybe someday ya? We'll never know. That will be a shocking news I guess. =)
Alright. It's dried already. I better be going.
Take care. Goodnight and sweet dreams!
Peace*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:54:00 am♠
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
"No Regrets"
Tell me a story
Where we all change
And we'd live our lives together
And not enstranged
I didn't lose my mind it was
Mine to give away
Couldn't stay to watch me cry
You didn't have the time
So I softly slip away...
No regrets they don't work
No regrets they only hurt
Sing me a love song
Drop me a line
Suppose it's just a point of view
But they tell me I'm doing fine
I know from the outside
We looked good for each other
Felt things were going wrong
When you didn't like my mother
I don't want to hate but that's
All you've left me with
A bitter aftertaste and a fantasy of
How we all could live
No regrets they don't work
No regrets they only hurt
(We've been told you stay up late)
I know they're still talking
(You're far too short to carry weight)
The demons in your head
(Return the videos they're late)
If I could just stop hating you
(Goodbye)
I'd feel sorry for us instead
Remember the photographs (insane)
The ones where we all laugh (so lame)
We were having the time of our lives
Well thank you it was a real blast
No regrets they don't work
No regrets they only hurt
Write me a love song
Drop me a line
Suppose it's just a point of view
But they tell me I'm doing fine
Everything I wanted to be every
Time I walked away
Everytime you told me to leave
I just wanted to stay
Every time you looked at me and Everytime you smiled
I felt so vacant you treat me like a child
I loved the way we used to laugh
I loved the way we used to smile
Often I sit down and think of you
For a while
Then it passes by me and I think of
Someone else instead
I guess the love we once had is
Officially dead
Nice song. I just like the song and the video. =)
Tell me a story
Where we all change
And we'd live our lives together
And not enstranged
I didn't lose my mind it was
Mine to give away
Couldn't stay to watch me cry
You didn't have the time
So I softly slip away...
No regrets they don't work
No regrets they only hurt
Sing me a love song
Drop me a line
Suppose it's just a point of view
But they tell me I'm doing fine
I know from the outside
We looked good for each other
Felt things were going wrong
When you didn't like my mother
I don't want to hate but that's
All you've left me with
A bitter aftertaste and a fantasy of
How we all could live
No regrets they don't work
No regrets they only hurt
(We've been told you stay up late)
I know they're still talking
(You're far too short to carry weight)
The demons in your head
(Return the videos they're late)
If I could just stop hating you
(Goodbye)
I'd feel sorry for us instead
Remember the photographs (insane)
The ones where we all laugh (so lame)
We were having the time of our lives
Well thank you it was a real blast
No regrets they don't work
No regrets they only hurt
Write me a love song
Drop me a line
Suppose it's just a point of view
But they tell me I'm doing fine
Everything I wanted to be every
Time I walked away
Everytime you told me to leave
I just wanted to stay
Every time you looked at me and Everytime you smiled
I felt so vacant you treat me like a child
I loved the way we used to laugh
I loved the way we used to smile
Often I sit down and think of you
For a while
Then it passes by me and I think of
Someone else instead
I guess the love we once had is
Officially dead
Nice song. I just like the song and the video. =)
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠7:51:00 pm♠
Simply just an entry. Got nothing much to do now. Going to bed soon. Oh well... I'll be a short entry. Just feel like writing one so here I am.
Anyway,just applied mask. Yellow soil mask. Now,waiting for it to dry. Once it's dried,I'll go and wash. Only then after everything I can sleep! Haha. Sleep,sleep,sleep.
Well? It's proven that sleeping heals. I've been thinking of sleeping early. Maybe I should. My mother is like keep bugging me to sleep early. It's kind of irritating if you were to hear that. Haha. On the other hand,it isn't a bad idea.
Since sleeping heals. I guess I should get MORE 'beauty' sleep. Haha. Hmm? Maybe I should start taking care of myself. Not just the usual taking care but taking very good care of myself. Haha. Yeah! Only then I'll heal. =D
These few days,I've been calculating a lot. I want to buy some stuff but I'm not really sure about it but I still am calculating. Hmm? Well? Let's just see about it. See how it goes and see the situation. Maybe I may change my mind,maybe not. Oh well...
The other day when I was shopping with my mother,I just couldn't make up my mind. First I want the yellow one then the red one then the blue one. Keep changing my mind till my mother got mixed up and a little confused. She was like... "You better make a good one cause I'm paying soon."
She even said she could need a panadol because shopping with me could be a headache. Haha. Flicker-minded me simply couldn't resist and always confused with the choice. Haha. I guess there's a lot of 'em so I'm spoiled with choice. Just like the watch the other day. Well? On Monday that is. I keep trying the guess watches but simply couldn't resist it as I like it but couldn't decide which one should I choose. I like the blue one. It's really nice but I was afraid it might get dirty as it's strap is made of cloth. Hmm? On the other hand,it was stylish. It looks good on me. =D
Oh well... I don't know about it. Let's just see about it. Hmm? How about Swatch? The one and red one looks nice. Oh well... I don't know. Some were suggesting I get Swatch,some suggested I get Guess while some ask me to go for other than those two brands. E.g: Fossil,DKNY....... Haha. Hmm? I don't know but Guess watch looks nice and so does Swatch. Hmm? On the other hand I might consider Fossil as another choice but most likely going with Guess or Swatch.
Arghhh... Let's not talk about all these watches. I can go nuts about it. I always think that a good and nice watch makes a good impression on people or rather a nice watch makes a good impression. =D Don't know about other people but to me that's it.
Nice watch,nice shoes. It'll be fine.
Seriously,watch and shoes are the most important thing to me. Don't tell me you wear very nice but your shoes simply sucks? Can't be right? It'll make a bad impression on others. Maybe some might not care but I will. Haha. It's just me. What can I say?
You have to look presentable. That is pleasant if not you'll make a bad impression. Like what they say,the first impression of you. If you make a good impression then you're safe. If not,forget about all those already. People won't even trust you. That's just human. Whatelse can I say? I can't change this world. Unless you look at it differently.
Well? Sometimes it depends. Sometimes it might not be the clothes you wear,you know stuff like that. It's the quality that you deliver. Ahhhh! That's more like it. Haha. =) Oh well... I've to cut it short.
Take care! I'm off to wash the mask and I'll be heading to Fantasy Land.
Peace out! Sweet dreams.
----x72
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:36:00 am♠
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
[ 22.11.05 ]
This is earth. Wish I'm in space? Hmm... How interesting.
Oh well... [Early] Good morning to all! Hahahaha.
Yesterday (21/11),I went out with my family. Went to Tampines. Just shop a little and went to look at watches at Century Square. Was thinking of whether to get a Swatch or Guess watch. Hmm? Any suggestions? I like the blue colour Guess watch. It's really nice and stylish. Just can't make up my mind. Hmm? Well? Let's see about it.
Bought a three quarter sleeve shirt. Well? I didn't pay of course! Yeah! Whoelse? My mother! So I was just looking at stuff,nothing much. Have a list of "want to buy" things but keep telling myself to relax. My clothes? I don't buy them. I simply choose and my mother pays it. The only thing I bought myself was... a yellow tee and skirt but that was like years ago. Recently? Nah... Nothing.
So it was kinda fun. Went to eat at the food court located on the fourth level of Century Square twice. At about four something I ate western food (Chicken Chop,that is). Then dinner I ate Sweet and sour sliced fish with rice. It was yummy! It was the first time I tried the sweet and sour sliced fish with rice. Normally I eat western food but decided to change. =D
Anyway,my day was a smooth flowing one. Saw Darlene,Melati and her friend at Tampines Mall. Didn't expect to see them. Haha. It's like everytime I go out I'll see at least someone I know. At least one. =) Amazing huh? Haha.
I was just wearing a light beige V-neck tee and green batik skirt along with my favourite beige silverline shoe and my small sling bag which my mother bought for me at Marina Square last week. Haha. Bought my silverline shoes at Parco Bugis Junction last month.
Nothing much at the moment. Just chatting,smsing and surfing the net. Oh well... Simply wearing my primary school camp tee (the grey one) and dark blue shorts. Simply like that shorts cause it's comfortable. =D One of my favourite? Hmm? Can say so.
Haven't do my homework yet! Well? There's still time but I guess I'll be doing it before December. I want to enjoy during December! Weeeee~ I'll be going out with friends then. =D
=) Should I go for spa? Relax myself. =D Haha. It sounds really interesting,maybe I'll be interested in it.
Oh well... I'm off. I've stuff to do.
Take care.
P e a c e - o u t . . .
D-Illusionist*
This is earth. Wish I'm in space? Hmm... How interesting.
Oh well... [Early] Good morning to all! Hahahaha.
Yesterday (21/11),I went out with my family. Went to Tampines. Just shop a little and went to look at watches at Century Square. Was thinking of whether to get a Swatch or Guess watch. Hmm? Any suggestions? I like the blue colour Guess watch. It's really nice and stylish. Just can't make up my mind. Hmm? Well? Let's see about it.
Bought a three quarter sleeve shirt. Well? I didn't pay of course! Yeah! Whoelse? My mother! So I was just looking at stuff,nothing much. Have a list of "want to buy" things but keep telling myself to relax. My clothes? I don't buy them. I simply choose and my mother pays it. The only thing I bought myself was... a yellow tee and skirt but that was like years ago. Recently? Nah... Nothing.
So it was kinda fun. Went to eat at the food court located on the fourth level of Century Square twice. At about four something I ate western food (Chicken Chop,that is). Then dinner I ate Sweet and sour sliced fish with rice. It was yummy! It was the first time I tried the sweet and sour sliced fish with rice. Normally I eat western food but decided to change. =D
Anyway,my day was a smooth flowing one. Saw Darlene,Melati and her friend at Tampines Mall. Didn't expect to see them. Haha. It's like everytime I go out I'll see at least someone I know. At least one. =) Amazing huh? Haha.
I was just wearing a light beige V-neck tee and green batik skirt along with my favourite beige silverline shoe and my small sling bag which my mother bought for me at Marina Square last week. Haha. Bought my silverline shoes at Parco Bugis Junction last month.
Nothing much at the moment. Just chatting,smsing and surfing the net. Oh well... Simply wearing my primary school camp tee (the grey one) and dark blue shorts. Simply like that shorts cause it's comfortable. =D One of my favourite? Hmm? Can say so.
Haven't do my homework yet! Well? There's still time but I guess I'll be doing it before December. I want to enjoy during December! Weeeee~ I'll be going out with friends then. =D
=) Should I go for spa? Relax myself. =D Haha. It sounds really interesting,maybe I'll be interested in it.
Oh well... I'm off. I've stuff to do.
Take care.
P e a c e - o u t . . .
D-Illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:59:00 am♠
Monday, November 21, 2005
[ 21.11.05 ]
Sometimes I don't understand what people are thinking. Don't know if they ever use their brains to think about it before doing it. They just go with the flow and that's just so wrong. No bloody brains of their own? Hmm? Haha. No comments.
Anyway,I don't really care about what they want to say. I know what I'm doing,I know who I am,I know what I want and that's fine.
First of all,if you don't know me that well,just shut. Don't act as if you know me and make stupid comments. Sickening and I mean very.
I can be anybody I want. I have my different sides. Split character? Hmm? You decide. I can be nice yet I can be nasty. If you treat me with respect,I'll treat you with respect too. If you're rude,I won't even entertain. IF I do,it means you're over my limits and I won't be very nice. A hot-tempered person but at times I can soften a little. Well? It depends on the situation.
Don't try to change me or ask me to do so because I'm simply me. Accept me for who I am and stop complaining. If you're not happy,that's your business. I ain't gonna care. I only care for people who care for me.
I can be goofy. Talking crap,whatsoever but I know when to be serious. If I'm in a serious mood,you better not provoke me. I flare up easily. It's not nice if I do that as sometimes I get a little carried away that result to violence.
Overall,I don't think I'm that unreasonable unless you're being unreasonable. I'm a fair person. I don't really take sides. I love chatting. That's just me but at times I can be very quiet. I can be quite deep in my thoughts and think of things differently. I'm not a good artist unlike my brother but I'm much better with words than him. I'm emotional but not to the extend that I'll like cry or something. That's just simply not me.
I don't cry easily but I get hurt easily at times. I find it hard to trust people but if I do,it means you're something to me. I'm not so easy to understand but you can somehow understand me if you know me quite well. To some they think that I always spill all but no. It's not true at all. My life is like a story? Hmm? I have some stuff that not everyone experience it. So I think that makes me unique in a way.
Everyone's unique.
I still haven't figured what am I good at. Last time my imagination was really superb. I can always imagine of all those things that aren't real. What I mean is something weird but fun. I used to dream and draw tree house. Not only that,I also dream that I'm in space. I can be weird at times. I used to hate afternoon naps but recently,I kind of like it.
I used to be so crazy over sports but now not really so crazy. I like floorball but hates it when everyone crowds around for the ball. I like rollerblading but I don't think I'm a pro but I'm okay with it. I don't know how to cycle. I always fall. To me rollerblading is much easier than cycling. Rollerblading isn't difficult at all.
I remember the first time I try it I was a little nervous but I fell in love with it. So I decided to buy. But... I got it as a birthday gift. It's been around for like five to six years I guess? Planning to get a new one. My brother's four years younger than me. His primary five this year. His fairer than me. My auntie and uncle are always saying his cute and always asking him to join a talent contest. Hmm? Just for your information,we don't look the same. Not even a little bit.
Some of my friends got shocked when I say it's my brother. Some even thought I was lying and said "Your neighbour or cousin?" As usual,I'll laugh it off and say "Crazy. Ask him."
My father's a chinese and mother's a malay. My mother's mother is a peranakan and my mother's father is a mixed. Mixed of Javanese,Bugis,etc. I just don't know whatelse to say. So many mix. Haha. Well? That's my grandfather.
People often ask me "Malay or Chinese?" My usual reply is "You guess"
Back in primary school,people often get confused with my race. I'm tanned and my chinese is horrible. So it's like everytime the chinese teacher will often mistaken me as a malay and say "Malay girl,why study Chinese? You don't know,don't study lah. Study malay."
I often get pissed off after those words. I still remember the time when I speak chinese and people just can't stop laughing and some even make fun of me. That's the reason why I hate speaking chinese and I hate Chinese class. What's the big deal? I don't understand why people have to make a big fuss of it.
I remember some even said "IF like that,you go EM3". Ha! Oh please. I'm in EM2. Moron! It's not like I fail everything. I know I'll pass my English but not too sure about Maths. Nevermind that. You know what? Some even said "Your Chinese weak. You know U-grade you'll retain?" I was like shut it already. I'm not dumb. So did I retain? Sometimes people just say without thinking. Always thinking that others aren't capable of it.
Thank god in secondary schools not much of Chinese lessons. I hate it back then in primary school. Two lessons of Chinese. THREE's the worst and one's the best. Why one? Well? Mostly people will make noise then teacher scold,stuff like that. You know wasting time? Yeah. So that's it.
Haven't you say enough about me? Malay,chinese - weak...
Anyway,why would I be lying about my race? I'm a chinese. It's just that I'm tanned. I'm a chinese but not pure 100%. I'm mixed. REMEMBER! I speak English at home and with friends and sometimes malay to mother. My dad can't really speak chinese. He either speaks English or dialect - Hokkien.
Oh well... What can I say? Let it be it.
I can like something for very long. I can be crazy at times. I love to laugh. I like making my friends laugh. Well? When their laughing,I'm laughing too. Sometimes even the minor things that I say to my friends make them laugh so at the same time,I feel happy too.
I like making friends and hate making enemies. People often don't quite understand my situation. How about you being in my shoe for a day and see how's it. I can be happy at this moment and angry the next minute. It just depends on situation.
If you don't disturb me,I'm fine with it. If you do,I'll be very angry and that goes it.
I'm a human so remember that! Humans have emotions,feelings. So always remember that. I can't be perfect but I'll be unique. I make mistakes and often regret at a time of point but I'm willing to accept my mistakes and not make them again. I learn from mistakes and try to be a better person.
Arrogant? Often people say that. I don't really care. I'm not all of that actually. Sometimes I'm just competitive and I didn't mean anything. I never look down on people unless people don't value themselves. I can be blur at times when my mind's not there yet I can be very serious and pushy at times.
When I'm serious. It's all work,no play but maybe just a laugh or two only. When I'm in the let loose mood. I can be very carefree. I just shoot anything that comes to my mind and often people get the wrong idea. It's alright. You're free to say anything but don't think I'm always the same.
I choose who I want to be. I have different characters. It's more like acting. Ain't acting fun? It is indeed. You'll never know what's behind my smile. I may not be very good at hiding my feelings at times but I'm able to hide my emotions. Sometimes if I feel like crying,I just try not think about it and think of happy things. Feelings? Sometimes I just say without thinking twice.
I can be friendly if you're friendly and I can be "arrogant" if I find that you're not worth to be respected because of bad attitude and whatsoever.
Well? What can I say? I'm just a normal human being. I'm not as if something special lets say... Gold or something. We're god's children. =)
I don't like guys who thinks highly of themselves. I like a humble guy yet funny. Somebody who'll makes you feel comfortable when you're with him. Sometimes guys can be too cocky. Well? That's what the guys are thinking of some girls.
Guys who are humble. Have a good sense of humor. Understanding and caring is just so sweet. Patient? Aww... That just melts my heart. It's hard to find guys like that. Somebody who can be your buddy? That's nice.
1) Humble
2) Have good sense of humor
3) Understanding
4) Caring
5) Patient
6) Intelligent/Unique
This six. Awww... If there's someone like that. It'll just melts my heart. It's hard to find somebody like that.
I dislike cocky guys. I like the humble type. I like someone who have a good sense of humor if not it'll be very boring. Understanding! That's sweet. Caring is also sweet. Patient? I'll respect him! Haha. Intelligent/Unique? I like someone who can tell me stuff that I never know or make me see things in a different way. That would be great. =)
Oh well... As for now. Let's not think about it. =)
Never underestimate a person by just judging by it's cover.
Oh well... Alright. I'm going to bed.
Take care! Goodnight.
D-Illusionist*
Sometimes I don't understand what people are thinking. Don't know if they ever use their brains to think about it before doing it. They just go with the flow and that's just so wrong. No bloody brains of their own? Hmm? Haha. No comments.
Anyway,I don't really care about what they want to say. I know what I'm doing,I know who I am,I know what I want and that's fine.
First of all,if you don't know me that well,just shut. Don't act as if you know me and make stupid comments. Sickening and I mean very.
I can be anybody I want. I have my different sides. Split character? Hmm? You decide. I can be nice yet I can be nasty. If you treat me with respect,I'll treat you with respect too. If you're rude,I won't even entertain. IF I do,it means you're over my limits and I won't be very nice. A hot-tempered person but at times I can soften a little. Well? It depends on the situation.
Don't try to change me or ask me to do so because I'm simply me. Accept me for who I am and stop complaining. If you're not happy,that's your business. I ain't gonna care. I only care for people who care for me.
I can be goofy. Talking crap,whatsoever but I know when to be serious. If I'm in a serious mood,you better not provoke me. I flare up easily. It's not nice if I do that as sometimes I get a little carried away that result to violence.
Overall,I don't think I'm that unreasonable unless you're being unreasonable. I'm a fair person. I don't really take sides. I love chatting. That's just me but at times I can be very quiet. I can be quite deep in my thoughts and think of things differently. I'm not a good artist unlike my brother but I'm much better with words than him. I'm emotional but not to the extend that I'll like cry or something. That's just simply not me.
I don't cry easily but I get hurt easily at times. I find it hard to trust people but if I do,it means you're something to me. I'm not so easy to understand but you can somehow understand me if you know me quite well. To some they think that I always spill all but no. It's not true at all. My life is like a story? Hmm? I have some stuff that not everyone experience it. So I think that makes me unique in a way.
Everyone's unique.
I still haven't figured what am I good at. Last time my imagination was really superb. I can always imagine of all those things that aren't real. What I mean is something weird but fun. I used to dream and draw tree house. Not only that,I also dream that I'm in space. I can be weird at times. I used to hate afternoon naps but recently,I kind of like it.
I used to be so crazy over sports but now not really so crazy. I like floorball but hates it when everyone crowds around for the ball. I like rollerblading but I don't think I'm a pro but I'm okay with it. I don't know how to cycle. I always fall. To me rollerblading is much easier than cycling. Rollerblading isn't difficult at all.
I remember the first time I try it I was a little nervous but I fell in love with it. So I decided to buy. But... I got it as a birthday gift. It's been around for like five to six years I guess? Planning to get a new one. My brother's four years younger than me. His primary five this year. His fairer than me. My auntie and uncle are always saying his cute and always asking him to join a talent contest. Hmm? Just for your information,we don't look the same. Not even a little bit.
Some of my friends got shocked when I say it's my brother. Some even thought I was lying and said "Your neighbour or cousin?" As usual,I'll laugh it off and say "Crazy. Ask him."
My father's a chinese and mother's a malay. My mother's mother is a peranakan and my mother's father is a mixed. Mixed of Javanese,Bugis,etc. I just don't know whatelse to say. So many mix. Haha. Well? That's my grandfather.
People often ask me "Malay or Chinese?" My usual reply is "You guess"
Back in primary school,people often get confused with my race. I'm tanned and my chinese is horrible. So it's like everytime the chinese teacher will often mistaken me as a malay and say "Malay girl,why study Chinese? You don't know,don't study lah. Study malay."
I often get pissed off after those words. I still remember the time when I speak chinese and people just can't stop laughing and some even make fun of me. That's the reason why I hate speaking chinese and I hate Chinese class. What's the big deal? I don't understand why people have to make a big fuss of it.
I remember some even said "IF like that,you go EM3". Ha! Oh please. I'm in EM2. Moron! It's not like I fail everything. I know I'll pass my English but not too sure about Maths. Nevermind that. You know what? Some even said "Your Chinese weak. You know U-grade you'll retain?" I was like shut it already. I'm not dumb. So did I retain? Sometimes people just say without thinking. Always thinking that others aren't capable of it.
Thank god in secondary schools not much of Chinese lessons. I hate it back then in primary school. Two lessons of Chinese. THREE's the worst and one's the best. Why one? Well? Mostly people will make noise then teacher scold,stuff like that. You know wasting time? Yeah. So that's it.
Haven't you say enough about me? Malay,chinese - weak...
Anyway,why would I be lying about my race? I'm a chinese. It's just that I'm tanned. I'm a chinese but not pure 100%. I'm mixed. REMEMBER! I speak English at home and with friends and sometimes malay to mother. My dad can't really speak chinese. He either speaks English or dialect - Hokkien.
Oh well... What can I say? Let it be it.
I can like something for very long. I can be crazy at times. I love to laugh. I like making my friends laugh. Well? When their laughing,I'm laughing too. Sometimes even the minor things that I say to my friends make them laugh so at the same time,I feel happy too.
I like making friends and hate making enemies. People often don't quite understand my situation. How about you being in my shoe for a day and see how's it. I can be happy at this moment and angry the next minute. It just depends on situation.
If you don't disturb me,I'm fine with it. If you do,I'll be very angry and that goes it.
I'm a human so remember that! Humans have emotions,feelings. So always remember that. I can't be perfect but I'll be unique. I make mistakes and often regret at a time of point but I'm willing to accept my mistakes and not make them again. I learn from mistakes and try to be a better person.
Arrogant? Often people say that. I don't really care. I'm not all of that actually. Sometimes I'm just competitive and I didn't mean anything. I never look down on people unless people don't value themselves. I can be blur at times when my mind's not there yet I can be very serious and pushy at times.
When I'm serious. It's all work,no play but maybe just a laugh or two only. When I'm in the let loose mood. I can be very carefree. I just shoot anything that comes to my mind and often people get the wrong idea. It's alright. You're free to say anything but don't think I'm always the same.
I choose who I want to be. I have different characters. It's more like acting. Ain't acting fun? It is indeed. You'll never know what's behind my smile. I may not be very good at hiding my feelings at times but I'm able to hide my emotions. Sometimes if I feel like crying,I just try not think about it and think of happy things. Feelings? Sometimes I just say without thinking twice.
I can be friendly if you're friendly and I can be "arrogant" if I find that you're not worth to be respected because of bad attitude and whatsoever.
Well? What can I say? I'm just a normal human being. I'm not as if something special lets say... Gold or something. We're god's children. =)
I don't like guys who thinks highly of themselves. I like a humble guy yet funny. Somebody who'll makes you feel comfortable when you're with him. Sometimes guys can be too cocky. Well? That's what the guys are thinking of some girls.
Guys who are humble. Have a good sense of humor. Understanding and caring is just so sweet. Patient? Aww... That just melts my heart. It's hard to find guys like that. Somebody who can be your buddy? That's nice.
1) Humble
2) Have good sense of humor
3) Understanding
4) Caring
5) Patient
6) Intelligent/Unique
This six. Awww... If there's someone like that. It'll just melts my heart. It's hard to find somebody like that.
I dislike cocky guys. I like the humble type. I like someone who have a good sense of humor if not it'll be very boring. Understanding! That's sweet. Caring is also sweet. Patient? I'll respect him! Haha. Intelligent/Unique? I like someone who can tell me stuff that I never know or make me see things in a different way. That would be great. =)
Oh well... As for now. Let's not think about it. =)
Never underestimate a person by just judging by it's cover.
Oh well... Alright. I'm going to bed.
Take care! Goodnight.
D-Illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠4:16:00 am♠
Sunday, November 20, 2005
[ 20.11.05 ]
Yeehaw! Guess what? Weeee~ Chelsea won! Was watching the match just now on ESPN (Chn 23). Aww... but Frank Lampard got a yellow card.
But hey... Chelsea won! Chelsea vs. Newcastle United. 3 - 0.
Well... Chelsea didn't do that well for the first half of the match. Newcastle was giving pressure to Chelsea and it was a little disappointing but I didn't give up on them! I was hoping that they'll score for the second half of the match. Newcastle almost scored for the first half. Phew! Luckily they didn't. They were good I'd say. Chelsea?? Their good too! Haha.
John Terry got a yellow card too. Aww... You know. John Terry ain't that bad looking actually. His kind of cute in a way. Frank Lampard too! My eyes O_O on him. Haha. Awww.... But Frank Lampard is engaged. Darn it. Haha.
Oh! Not forgetting Chelsea's manager. Always looking serious? I find him cute. Haha. Oops. =)
Blue is the colour. Football is a game. ..............................Cause Chelsea,Chelsea is our name.
Haha. That song "Blue is the colour".
Oh well. It was a good game anyway. 2.15AM now. I'm still awake. =D Just surfing the net and looking at songs. Was over the phone just now. Xiaoqiang (Angie) keep miss calling me so I decided to call her back. Haha. Guess what was her respond? She was like... "Crazy. I was sleeping then you call me."
Lying again? Isn't it obvious. Haha. No hard feelings. We were always joking but if people who don't know might think we're rude in a way or something but nah. It's just us. We're always joking and crapping. Haha. =X Hey... If we're always serious and no jokes or laughther,life would be so boring. We got to joke a little and relax a little. We can't be so serious all the way right? We're not robots. Even robots need a break or else.... *boom!* There it goes.
Feeling kind of tired but don't feel like sleeping yet. Well? Not just yet but maybe in a while more if I still can hang on. If not soon but not too soon. =)
Feel like buying G-shock watch (white colour). Oh boy. I have like three watches already. Two white,one black and I'm going to get white? Hmm? What can I say? I just like the colour. Haha. But my two white watch is for casual use while my black one is for outdoors or when I go to camp. It's tough and I really mean damn solid. Well? I don't know if I should get G-shock. Maybe I get guess or maybe some others. Hmm? See first. =)
So fast it's already November 20th. Six to seven weeks time school reopens. Pretty fast huh? Taking my major exam next year. Darn it. I'm so worried. Oh well... I guess I should be having fun now and taking care of stuff next year. Next year I musn't play too much. Gotta work extra hard. Maybe for the first one and a half months, I can relax a little but after that,I've to work hard already. Oh well... Let's not talk about it already or else I'll be getting stress!
Arghhhhh! Oh no! Noooooooo!!
Oops. Too much drama already. Ignore that. Anyway,I've plans. Can't tell my plans. =D It's a secret.
You know I notice that people are falling in love this month. Quite a number of them are like so in love. I just look at their MSN nicknames and I knew that their in love. Hmm? Is this a love month or something? I just don't feel the heat. I'm out of love. Simply not in love. Hey,hey! I'm serious here. Everytime when I tell someone that,they just wouldn't believe me and they'll start to laugh and say "You? You got to be kidding. I don't believe."
I just got nothing to say. Why don't believe? Hmm........ I think I know why. Cause of the past right? I say I don't like but actually I still do,am I right? Ditto. But why can't you people just believe for once? I seriously give up. I've been trying to put it to an end but for the past two months it didn't really stop. It's more like pause but I guess finally it stopped. =)
Simply happy. I don't care what you want to say or whatsoever. I know some people will be like... "sure or not?" Well? What am I? I'm serious and I mean whatever I've just typed. So I don't care about what some think. I feel better this way.
It's better to let love find you than you finding love. Simply not worth it. Wasting your own time. You're just chasing an illusion. Yup. Nothing but an illusion. Well? Ok,sometimes illusion can turn into something big but I don't think mine's like that so I stopped chasing after an illusion. Anyway,the truth is just right in front of me and I did the right decision to stop. If only I wouldn't ignore the truth,I could have been feeling much better.
I guess I've finally awoken from the dream and stepped into this 'world'. It's nice stepping into this 'world'. It's less complicated. More freedom. More like kingdom? Haha.
Love ain't a bad thing actually but being hurt? Can you take it? I don' think I can take that. It's really painful and I hate that. Oh well... Not really interested at the moment. =)
Though I'm single and happy with it. I'm just not looking. =) Wondering why? I just don't want to. [Single,and not looking] It's just me. Some might have notice my status [Single,not looking] already while some [who's reading this now] knows it for now.
Errr? What am I talking about? I mean those who doesn't notice my single was actually [Single,not looking] now you know already because I've just mention! Haha. That way it's simpler to understand. =)
Bah! Sometimes I,myself,got confused too. =D
Hmm? Alright. I better be going. =)
Take care and goodnight.
P e a c e . . .
D-Illusionist*
Yeehaw! Guess what? Weeee~ Chelsea won! Was watching the match just now on ESPN (Chn 23). Aww... but Frank Lampard got a yellow card.
But hey... Chelsea won! Chelsea vs. Newcastle United. 3 - 0.
Well... Chelsea didn't do that well for the first half of the match. Newcastle was giving pressure to Chelsea and it was a little disappointing but I didn't give up on them! I was hoping that they'll score for the second half of the match. Newcastle almost scored for the first half. Phew! Luckily they didn't. They were good I'd say. Chelsea?? Their good too! Haha.
John Terry got a yellow card too. Aww... You know. John Terry ain't that bad looking actually. His kind of cute in a way. Frank Lampard too! My eyes O_O on him. Haha. Awww.... But Frank Lampard is engaged. Darn it. Haha.
Oh! Not forgetting Chelsea's manager. Always looking serious? I find him cute. Haha. Oops. =)
Blue is the colour. Football is a game. ..............................Cause Chelsea,Chelsea is our name.
Haha. That song "Blue is the colour".
Oh well. It was a good game anyway. 2.15AM now. I'm still awake. =D Just surfing the net and looking at songs. Was over the phone just now. Xiaoqiang (Angie) keep miss calling me so I decided to call her back. Haha. Guess what was her respond? She was like... "Crazy. I was sleeping then you call me."
Lying again? Isn't it obvious. Haha. No hard feelings. We were always joking but if people who don't know might think we're rude in a way or something but nah. It's just us. We're always joking and crapping. Haha. =X Hey... If we're always serious and no jokes or laughther,life would be so boring. We got to joke a little and relax a little. We can't be so serious all the way right? We're not robots. Even robots need a break or else.... *boom!* There it goes.
Feeling kind of tired but don't feel like sleeping yet. Well? Not just yet but maybe in a while more if I still can hang on. If not soon but not too soon. =)
Feel like buying G-shock watch (white colour). Oh boy. I have like three watches already. Two white,one black and I'm going to get white? Hmm? What can I say? I just like the colour. Haha. But my two white watch is for casual use while my black one is for outdoors or when I go to camp. It's tough and I really mean damn solid. Well? I don't know if I should get G-shock. Maybe I get guess or maybe some others. Hmm? See first. =)
So fast it's already November 20th. Six to seven weeks time school reopens. Pretty fast huh? Taking my major exam next year. Darn it. I'm so worried. Oh well... I guess I should be having fun now and taking care of stuff next year. Next year I musn't play too much. Gotta work extra hard. Maybe for the first one and a half months, I can relax a little but after that,I've to work hard already. Oh well... Let's not talk about it already or else I'll be getting stress!
Arghhhhh! Oh no! Noooooooo!!
Oops. Too much drama already. Ignore that. Anyway,I've plans. Can't tell my plans. =D It's a secret.
You know I notice that people are falling in love this month. Quite a number of them are like so in love. I just look at their MSN nicknames and I knew that their in love. Hmm? Is this a love month or something? I just don't feel the heat. I'm out of love. Simply not in love. Hey,hey! I'm serious here. Everytime when I tell someone that,they just wouldn't believe me and they'll start to laugh and say "You? You got to be kidding. I don't believe."
I just got nothing to say. Why don't believe? Hmm........ I think I know why. Cause of the past right? I say I don't like but actually I still do,am I right? Ditto. But why can't you people just believe for once? I seriously give up. I've been trying to put it to an end but for the past two months it didn't really stop. It's more like pause but I guess finally it stopped. =)
Simply happy. I don't care what you want to say or whatsoever. I know some people will be like... "sure or not?" Well? What am I? I'm serious and I mean whatever I've just typed. So I don't care about what some think. I feel better this way.
It's better to let love find you than you finding love. Simply not worth it. Wasting your own time. You're just chasing an illusion. Yup. Nothing but an illusion. Well? Ok,sometimes illusion can turn into something big but I don't think mine's like that so I stopped chasing after an illusion. Anyway,the truth is just right in front of me and I did the right decision to stop. If only I wouldn't ignore the truth,I could have been feeling much better.
I guess I've finally awoken from the dream and stepped into this 'world'. It's nice stepping into this 'world'. It's less complicated. More freedom. More like kingdom? Haha.
Love ain't a bad thing actually but being hurt? Can you take it? I don' think I can take that. It's really painful and I hate that. Oh well... Not really interested at the moment. =)
Though I'm single and happy with it. I'm just not looking. =) Wondering why? I just don't want to. [Single,and not looking] It's just me. Some might have notice my status [Single,not looking] already while some [who's reading this now] knows it for now.
Errr? What am I talking about? I mean those who doesn't notice my single was actually [Single,not looking] now you know already because I've just mention! Haha. That way it's simpler to understand. =)
Bah! Sometimes I,myself,got confused too. =D
Hmm? Alright. I better be going. =)
Take care and goodnight.
P e a c e . . .
D-Illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠2:35:00 am♠
Saturday, November 19, 2005
It's really late now. Or rather "early" morning. Or should I say wee hours?
Just surfing the net and blogging. Was chatting earlier on but don't feel like chatting at the moment.
So I decided to blog. Darn it. My poem blog is having some problems with the skin. Normally it's okay but I don't know what happened out of the blue. Going to fix it real soon but not so soon. Maybe next week I'll try to fix it. Hate it when that happens. See D-Illusionist on my skin? Yes,I design my skin. =) Pretty cool huh? I like to create something that feels more me. I feel proud of it as it sort of represents what type of person you are.
Haven't been writing poems lately. Didn't have any ideas lately but I guess I feel like writing one so here it goes.
In the darkness
In the mist of everything
There's a light that will be my guide
Guiding me throughout the journey
Always being there for me
Lending me a helping hand
And somebody whom I can trust
We all make mistakes
But can we be forgiven?
Somebody will always forgive us even if we're wrong
Forgive us if we make a sin
Forgive our mistakes
Forgive us and love us no matter what
We are always a somebody to 'somebody'
Somebody is a respectable one
Somebody always cares for you
And will make a way
And somebody is
GOD
Haha. Hmm? How about another one?
Here goes...
You make me smile
You make me happy
You make me laugh
We joke
We laugh
We quarrel
We celebrate
We party
We do everything together
We go through everything together
Through thick and thin
The good times and the bad times
The happy and the sad
Precious memories will always be there...
When you're with me
The memories of you and I
Will always be kept in a safe,warm place
It will remain till the end of time...
Our friendship is like the river that flows smoothly
Just you and me
And "us" memories
Together,forever...
Remember...
You are always my friend
"Friends Forever"
What can I say? Without friends. You're a loner. You feel lonely. With friends,you feel much better. You feel loved. You feel that you're worth. It's better to have more friends than enemies. Appreciate your friends. Never treat them like an object. Remember! Humans,not property or object that you use it for your own use. Humans = Feelings,emotions.
God = Love,Peace,Harmony. God always loves you. God is always guiding you. His the light. His the mighty one. Love him because he loves you more than anything. He loves everyone. He forgives everyone. =)
Somtimes people forget this things. Some don't believe in god. His always there except you don't see it. Friends? Friends you can see it right? So appreciate them! Choose your friends wisely. If it's those that take advantage of you,I suggest you ditch them! Dump them in the rubbish! They aren't worth your time.
It's hard to find true friends but once you find,cherish them! If it's gone,it's hard to find it back.
Sometimes I don't know what people are thinking. I hope they know what they are doing. Teenagers these days,they only want to have fun but do they know what is the meaning of fun?
Lots of teenage pregnancy these days. Why? Well? It's because of this "fun" thing. They just do it before marriage. They don't care.
To them is... "What's the big deal of sex?" People are doing it in the United States so why can't I? That's what I bet some will say.
Those jerks! Or rather b**tards.
Some girls are in the wrong too. They want it that bad. Those horny bitches. *sigh* I don't know what they are thinking. Why can't they just wait and do it properly? I mean like what they say - After marriage. Yeah. To some it might be old-fashioned but hey! It's safer that way. Not so much problems.
If it's before,oh dear. You see... People going for abortions. You know,stuff like that. Cheapy? Haha. No comments.
No point crying. Why allowing yourself like that? You can say NO if you want to but why just go with it? I know some girls will say "stop it right now" but they won't do anything. They just say but their like allowing them to go further. So who's in the wrong? If you say NO but he still insist,kick his ass! LOL! I didn't really mean kick his ass but I mean do something about it.
Girls,girls. They're always the victim. How I wish girls are powerful. I envy guys. They have that much energy but I can't stand their egos. That spoils everything. They have much strength that girls but I hate their egoness. You guys should just stop being so ego! It's really sickening.
Always wants to be in control. Always thinking that their the boss. Always thinking their cleverier. Always showing off. It's really sick,you know?
Well? I'm not saying all guys are like that but some guys are just ego.
Just like girls. Some girls are really very proud. Very proud till they don't even look at you. Sheesh. This kind of bad behaviour. I read in the magazines that some guys are complaining that girls are arrogant. Well? Not all. =)
What can I say? We're humans! It's natural. Not only the guys but the girls. It's just we classify them according to gender. If you don't,their simply human beings!
Oh well... It's their choice yeah? I'm not going to waste my time. I'm just saying how I feel about it and my point of view.
Hmm?
Alright. I'm off now. I think my eyes are gonna shut soon.
Take care and goodnight!
Sweet dreams.
D-Illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠2:56:00 am♠
"I Still..."
Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on,
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you
...
Backstreet Boys "I still...". It's really a nice song. Like the music video. It's nice. =)
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:22:00 am♠
Friday, November 18, 2005
D,myself and I. Yes. Simply me. Just me. Diane.
Oh well... It's Friday. 3.40PM. "Crazy baby (remix)" is in my playlist now - Playing. Feel like doing something but don't know what should I do. Earlier on had my lunch and was reading magazine. Read and read like don't know what. Haha. I really wasn't aware of the surroundings. I didn't take note of the time. I was simply eating,reading and chatting plus listening to music at the same time. Nothing much. =)
Woke up really late actualy. Guess what time? About 12.50PM. The other time I woke up at about 2PM. I slept at abt 3.30AM. The other time I slept at... Hmm? Oh! About 5AM. =X Couldn't take it so I was off to Fantasy Land. La La LA~
Was thinking of cutting my hair but not really sure. I usually go to Jean Yip to cut my hair. People there are quite friendly. Haha. I have a list of "want to buy" things but I keep refraining myself from being that crazy shopper. Shopoholic? Haha. I can get addicted so I always control myself before I turn to that. Anyway,I didn't really like to spend lots of money. Especially if it's my own! If it's my mother who wants to buy for me... Oh haha. I don't mind.
Feel like going out but don't know if I should. It's like a half thing. Can't decide. Haha. Half as in like half of my heart wants,while half of it don't feel like. =) Oh well..........
Hmm... Fort Minor's album "Rising Tied" will be release soon. Next week if I'm not wrong. =) Mike Shinoda!! His cute. Haha. Clever and creative too!
My dad's at home today. He didn't went to work. His feeling unwell. He keeps sleeping. He has sore throat if not wrong and now I'm not too sure what is it. I guess the wheather's really bad. I can't stand the heat. At times it can be really hot. Hate it when it's so hot. Hot? Hmm? Well... At least it isn't like in the desert. Don't know how is it like if I were in the desert. Haha.
Feel like travel. I mean going overseas. I have not gone to Australia in life. Hoping to go there. My cousins are there. They live in Sydney,Australia. That's my father's side. My mother's side - My cousin is getting married next year. Guess what? On Chinese New Year! Yeah. So CNY I won't be in Singapore. I'll be Malaysia. Maybe I'll be going on Friday evening or maybe Saturday morning and leave Malaysia,Monday morning. That's just a maybe. Not too sure yet.
Haven't been to Malaysia for like 10 years? Yeah. Very long huh? The last time I went to Malaysia was like when I was only 4 - 5 years old. I bet everything changed. I want to hang out at the mall. I want to buy something at least. Malaysia is cheap,I guess I may be shopping for stuff. Haha. =) I'm really looking forward to go to Kuala Lumpur but too bad my auntie is staying in Johor Bahru. If I'm not wrong,my mother's relative is living in K.L. Hmm? Maybe someday I'll go there.
Oh yes. I must say this. You know you can't U-turn in K.L? You're not allowed to U-turn. You'll be fine if you're caught.
I still rememeber I fell in to the drain when I was in Malaysia visiting my auntie. Haha. I was climbing with my cousin (who is the same age as me) then all of a sudden I think I lost balance that I fell and I'm all wet!
Ouch. It hurts. I didn't cry but I was like "ouch". I'm all wet. My cousin was like in cold sweat already as it was his idea to climb. He quickly ran inside and inform his parents. My mother heard it. She was shocked. Haha. It was funny I tell you. This is what you get for being too playful and naughty. Haha. Before that,we were playing catching. Running around. He live in a private house. Hmm? Yeah,if I'm not wrong.
That I'll never forget. I have no clothes already! Darn it. Have to use his. =X Haha.
Oh well... Those were the days. =)
I've to go now. I have stuff to do.
Later!
D-Illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠3:59:00 pm♠
[ 18.11.05 ]
La La La~ Hmm? Awww... I miss those days! Those days back in primary school!
Earlier on when I was in the toliet washing my face,I was thinking of the friends and those memories back in primary school. They were like so fun! Darn it. Miss 'em all! Looking back at it,it wasn't that bad at all. Besides I did have some achievements in primary school.
Hmm...? Let me list the things that I've achieved. That way I can remember it. Haha. =)
+Skit competition - 2nd
+Novice Race - 2nd
+Social Studies Quiz - 1st
+Inter-house floorball competition - 3rd
Ahhhh! Yes. Now then I remember all this. Haha. So it wasn't that bad. At least I achieved something and I should be proud of it. Oh! Now then I remember this! Back then in Primary 4 my composition was published in the school's composition book. I was surprised. I didn't expect it. I was really happy but that was like five years ago back in 2000. =)
Those are just achievements only. Let's talk about friends now.
Oh goodie. I miss my friends. Thinking of it,I just wish I could turn back time and freeze it. IF only there was such thing. Haha. Wouldn't it be great? It will! =D
I miss the group that I usually hang out with during recess. That group which once used to be my favourites! But too bad something happened and things change but I'll remember those memories. Oh I mean the good ones not the sour ones. Oh yes! Miss Pearline! Haha.
I remember back then when I was in Primary 6... Yeah! The chatters. Haha. Pearline and I are always talking in class and teacher always caught us for talking but it was really fun. It's like for one whole term,Pearline and I just keep talking and stuff like that but soon our form teacher have to stop us. Ahhh yes. Mdm Jorah. Haha. How can I forget that?
Though we were caught many times and even seperated. We will find a way to get together and talk like nobody's business. I miss that a lot! We talk,we joke,we laugh. I still remember that I laughed so hard that I can't stop laughing. I was laughing like mad! But hey! What can I say? It was hilarious. It was funny and so fun! On top of that,I'd be like always using my favourite quotes.
Such as...
"Hmm... Very interesting"
"Ohhhhh... That thing right?"
"You know what I mean"
"Ahhhh... That one ar? *cheeky laugh* Hmmm...."
"I whack your bloody face then you know" (That's when I get angry with someone)
"Idiot"
"Ahem! Ahem! That thing... You know... Something"
Haha. Can't think of anymore already but that's what I used to say and I love to say. Some even call me pervert. LOL! I still remember that. Well? Cause sometimes I ask if they ever look at somebody's butt and see how nice it is. LOL! I just can't help it. Haha. I was crazy. Did crazy stuff but at times very serious.
Especially when in a bad mood. I hate it when I'm in a bad mood. I scold anyone anyhow. I shout. I smack. I bang the table. As usual with the "I whack your bloody face then you know" followed by that finger pointing at someone. What can I say? It's just me. People who thinks that I'm always the same,you're wrong. Back then I was even worst. Thankfully,I'm slightly much better now. =)
Looking at people's butt? Haha. Oops. I spilled the beans. Oh well... Not only spying on dudes. I can even stare at them. O_O. Stalker? Nah. Maybe to some I am! But hey! I'm not. Looking at butts? I don't know how but my eyes just seems to wonder elsewhere and I always happen to look. Hmm? I notice some dudes have nice butts. Solid. Simply firm. Just wearing their school shorts you can see the shape of their nice butts. =X
What other crazy stuff did I do? Hmm... Oh! Staring at dudes. Stare and stare and stare. I could just stare at it if I find the person kind of attractive. Oh. Those little thoughts starts to appear in my head. Haha. What I mean is those "little" thoughts. Sometimes my friend talks to me I just could simply at those dudes and listen to my friend at the same time but of course I understand what they were talking about but my eyes were ... "You know"
Whatelse?
Oh ya. If I like the person's hairstyle,I could just look at their hair for quite some time before doing other stuff. My eyes are just meant to look at spiky hairs only. Haha. So those center-parting I won't really take notice unless other stuff can make me notice 'em. LOL! =X
In a way,some thinks I'm a stalker. Wondering till now if I am but I don't think I am. I just have some helping hands around me to know more about the person. The craziest part about me is I can be so crazy over a person. But there was once where I never really showed my true colours. Meaning to say,I keep denying whatever they say and always being "nasty" to him. Well? Not like finding fault with him or whatsoever but I try not to be too friendly. Friendly but not too friendly.
The time when I told him about his hair. Oh yes... It was funny. I told him about his hair. It looked really weird and so not nice. He got really mad! Can you believe it? I keep asking him to change his hairstyle as I sort of miss his usual hairstyle. His usual hairstyle is more suitable for him than that comb to the back hairstyle. I don't know why but when this word "Funny memories" comes to my mind. I start to recall those funny memories with him. I know that sometimes I can be a little mean to him but the truth is he isn't that bad actually. His quite nice actually but at times he choose to be the oppsite.
I actually didn't mean all those. Ok. The truth is that I'm quite shy to speak to him actually. I always acted like as if I hate him or something. Well? To some might think that way but I never mean anything. I just don't know how to react. I too don't understand why. I still remember that at times I still try to look at him. But if he looks back,I'll quickly look away or pretend to do other stuff. I still remember that at times he give those friendly smile but I just looked away. Me,proud? I hope he don't get me wrong. I don't know if I should smile back or not. I just don't know what to do. Haha. I guess everything is really a very long story. I can only just tell a little but that I can't seem to forget.
Hmm...? I'm wondering now. How come do I think of him out of the blue,just like that? I guess that was really memorable and it's like I always remember it. It makes me smile when I think of it and it calms me. I'll laugh at it at times. Hmm...? Haven't seen him for very long already. Wondering if his fine. =) Well? I bet his fine because I believe that he will be fine. Haha. Giving him nicknames like LL. Well? One of my friend used to like him and I know that. What can I say? My friend too knows that I... Haha.
His smile can make you smile. That I'll never forget. I sort of miss his smile. Haha. That Mr Smarty pants. But I'll never admit it in front of him that he is. =X
Oh boy. I miss my primary school friends! I miss my class! I'll always remember you!
[Not my class // Sister!]
Jaclyn - Yo girl! You rock! Oh by the way,she's the one who reads LIME and it got me influence. Haha.
[My class]
Pearline always making me smile!
Aida - the good listener! Thanks girl! Haha.
Darlene - Hey girl! I envy your compositions.
Naqia - Clever girl! Especially in Maths.
Shila - Haha. Sometimes we talk about that "Topic". Aww... She's in Malaysia. Sort of miss crapping with her. Wondering how's she. Haven't seen her for like three years? About there.
Han Wei - That funny dude. Oh at times he can be violent but his funny. Haha.
Elvin - Oh you!! Idiot! Always write my name on the board. Haha. But quite fun to disturb. Haha.
Daniel - Hey you! Haha. Sometimes I like to disturb him. His attached you know?
Weng Hon - We're mostly competing our English marks.
Gary - Oh. Just love to disturb him. Gay Gary? Oops! Sorry! Haha. Remember K? Haha! =X
Ryan - Sometimes talk to him. Oh! Is it about neogeo? Haha.
Meria - Hey you! Haha. Sorry I always disturb you. She's okay. Friendly girl. =)
Carolyn - Hey! Haha. Saw her recently.
Qastalani - Haha. His brother is kinda cute. Qasta? Hmm... His quite nice.
Saiful - Saw him before school holiday. I still remember last time in Pri 1 he always got scolded by the teacher because his always fooling around. He's really slim now.
Haha. Still have somemore but don't think that I didn't mention their name means I hate them or something. No no. I still remember them. Don't know if they still remember me or not? *wondering*
But I can't stand one fella. Whoelse? Those who know me or who are my classmates should know who I dislike. The sight of her makes my heart pain. Mentioning her name even makes my heart pain. Talking about her I just can't stand it. Luckily she's not in my school but in Jaclyn's school. Phew! But the feeling of that heart ache isn't so strong like last time at least now not so bad. Last time... Gosh! Hearing her name or anything to do with her can make me really mad that I flare up easily.
Oh well... Let's not talk about that already.
I miss PARK VIEW! I miss my friends! Haha. Love y'all! =)
Oh well... It's really late now. I guess I should be going to bed. Miss you!
I'm off now.
Goodnight!
D-Illusionist*
La La La~ Hmm? Awww... I miss those days! Those days back in primary school!
Earlier on when I was in the toliet washing my face,I was thinking of the friends and those memories back in primary school. They were like so fun! Darn it. Miss 'em all! Looking back at it,it wasn't that bad at all. Besides I did have some achievements in primary school.
Hmm...? Let me list the things that I've achieved. That way I can remember it. Haha. =)
+Skit competition - 2nd
+Novice Race - 2nd
+Social Studies Quiz - 1st
+Inter-house floorball competition - 3rd
Ahhhh! Yes. Now then I remember all this. Haha. So it wasn't that bad. At least I achieved something and I should be proud of it. Oh! Now then I remember this! Back then in Primary 4 my composition was published in the school's composition book. I was surprised. I didn't expect it. I was really happy but that was like five years ago back in 2000. =)
Those are just achievements only. Let's talk about friends now.
Oh goodie. I miss my friends. Thinking of it,I just wish I could turn back time and freeze it. IF only there was such thing. Haha. Wouldn't it be great? It will! =D
I miss the group that I usually hang out with during recess. That group which once used to be my favourites! But too bad something happened and things change but I'll remember those memories. Oh I mean the good ones not the sour ones. Oh yes! Miss Pearline! Haha.
I remember back then when I was in Primary 6... Yeah! The chatters. Haha. Pearline and I are always talking in class and teacher always caught us for talking but it was really fun. It's like for one whole term,Pearline and I just keep talking and stuff like that but soon our form teacher have to stop us. Ahhh yes. Mdm Jorah. Haha. How can I forget that?
Though we were caught many times and even seperated. We will find a way to get together and talk like nobody's business. I miss that a lot! We talk,we joke,we laugh. I still remember that I laughed so hard that I can't stop laughing. I was laughing like mad! But hey! What can I say? It was hilarious. It was funny and so fun! On top of that,I'd be like always using my favourite quotes.
Such as...
"Hmm... Very interesting"
"Ohhhhh... That thing right?"
"You know what I mean"
"Ahhhh... That one ar? *cheeky laugh* Hmmm...."
"I whack your bloody face then you know" (That's when I get angry with someone)
"Idiot"
"Ahem! Ahem! That thing... You know... Something"
Haha. Can't think of anymore already but that's what I used to say and I love to say. Some even call me pervert. LOL! I still remember that. Well? Cause sometimes I ask if they ever look at somebody's butt and see how nice it is. LOL! I just can't help it. Haha. I was crazy. Did crazy stuff but at times very serious.
Especially when in a bad mood. I hate it when I'm in a bad mood. I scold anyone anyhow. I shout. I smack. I bang the table. As usual with the "I whack your bloody face then you know" followed by that finger pointing at someone. What can I say? It's just me. People who thinks that I'm always the same,you're wrong. Back then I was even worst. Thankfully,I'm slightly much better now. =)
Looking at people's butt? Haha. Oops. I spilled the beans. Oh well... Not only spying on dudes. I can even stare at them. O_O. Stalker? Nah. Maybe to some I am! But hey! I'm not. Looking at butts? I don't know how but my eyes just seems to wonder elsewhere and I always happen to look. Hmm? I notice some dudes have nice butts. Solid. Simply firm. Just wearing their school shorts you can see the shape of their nice butts. =X
What other crazy stuff did I do? Hmm... Oh! Staring at dudes. Stare and stare and stare. I could just stare at it if I find the person kind of attractive. Oh. Those little thoughts starts to appear in my head. Haha. What I mean is those "little" thoughts. Sometimes my friend talks to me I just could simply at those dudes and listen to my friend at the same time but of course I understand what they were talking about but my eyes were ... "You know"
Whatelse?
Oh ya. If I like the person's hairstyle,I could just look at their hair for quite some time before doing other stuff. My eyes are just meant to look at spiky hairs only. Haha. So those center-parting I won't really take notice unless other stuff can make me notice 'em. LOL! =X
In a way,some thinks I'm a stalker. Wondering till now if I am but I don't think I am. I just have some helping hands around me to know more about the person. The craziest part about me is I can be so crazy over a person. But there was once where I never really showed my true colours. Meaning to say,I keep denying whatever they say and always being "nasty" to him. Well? Not like finding fault with him or whatsoever but I try not to be too friendly. Friendly but not too friendly.
The time when I told him about his hair. Oh yes... It was funny. I told him about his hair. It looked really weird and so not nice. He got really mad! Can you believe it? I keep asking him to change his hairstyle as I sort of miss his usual hairstyle. His usual hairstyle is more suitable for him than that comb to the back hairstyle. I don't know why but when this word "Funny memories" comes to my mind. I start to recall those funny memories with him. I know that sometimes I can be a little mean to him but the truth is he isn't that bad actually. His quite nice actually but at times he choose to be the oppsite.
I actually didn't mean all those. Ok. The truth is that I'm quite shy to speak to him actually. I always acted like as if I hate him or something. Well? To some might think that way but I never mean anything. I just don't know how to react. I too don't understand why. I still remember that at times I still try to look at him. But if he looks back,I'll quickly look away or pretend to do other stuff. I still remember that at times he give those friendly smile but I just looked away. Me,proud? I hope he don't get me wrong. I don't know if I should smile back or not. I just don't know what to do. Haha. I guess everything is really a very long story. I can only just tell a little but that I can't seem to forget.
Hmm...? I'm wondering now. How come do I think of him out of the blue,just like that? I guess that was really memorable and it's like I always remember it. It makes me smile when I think of it and it calms me. I'll laugh at it at times. Hmm...? Haven't seen him for very long already. Wondering if his fine. =) Well? I bet his fine because I believe that he will be fine. Haha. Giving him nicknames like LL. Well? One of my friend used to like him and I know that. What can I say? My friend too knows that I... Haha.
His smile can make you smile. That I'll never forget. I sort of miss his smile. Haha. That Mr Smarty pants. But I'll never admit it in front of him that he is. =X
Oh boy. I miss my primary school friends! I miss my class! I'll always remember you!
[Not my class // Sister!]
Jaclyn - Yo girl! You rock! Oh by the way,she's the one who reads LIME and it got me influence. Haha.
[My class]
Pearline always making me smile!
Aida - the good listener! Thanks girl! Haha.
Darlene - Hey girl! I envy your compositions.
Naqia - Clever girl! Especially in Maths.
Shila - Haha. Sometimes we talk about that "Topic". Aww... She's in Malaysia. Sort of miss crapping with her. Wondering how's she. Haven't seen her for like three years? About there.
Han Wei - That funny dude. Oh at times he can be violent but his funny. Haha.
Elvin - Oh you!! Idiot! Always write my name on the board. Haha. But quite fun to disturb. Haha.
Daniel - Hey you! Haha. Sometimes I like to disturb him. His attached you know?
Weng Hon - We're mostly competing our English marks.
Gary - Oh. Just love to disturb him. Gay Gary? Oops! Sorry! Haha. Remember K? Haha! =X
Ryan - Sometimes talk to him. Oh! Is it about neogeo? Haha.
Meria - Hey you! Haha. Sorry I always disturb you. She's okay. Friendly girl. =)
Carolyn - Hey! Haha. Saw her recently.
Qastalani - Haha. His brother is kinda cute. Qasta? Hmm... His quite nice.
Saiful - Saw him before school holiday. I still remember last time in Pri 1 he always got scolded by the teacher because his always fooling around. He's really slim now.
Haha. Still have somemore but don't think that I didn't mention their name means I hate them or something. No no. I still remember them. Don't know if they still remember me or not? *wondering*
But I can't stand one fella. Whoelse? Those who know me or who are my classmates should know who I dislike. The sight of her makes my heart pain. Mentioning her name even makes my heart pain. Talking about her I just can't stand it. Luckily she's not in my school but in Jaclyn's school. Phew! But the feeling of that heart ache isn't so strong like last time at least now not so bad. Last time... Gosh! Hearing her name or anything to do with her can make me really mad that I flare up easily.
Oh well... Let's not talk about that already.
I miss PARK VIEW! I miss my friends! Haha. Love y'all! =)
Oh well... It's really late now. I guess I should be going to bed. Miss you!
I'm off now.
Goodnight!
D-Illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠2:54:00 am♠
Thursday, November 17, 2005
[ 17.11.05 ]
Oh goodie. Just switched off the television. Well? To be exact,about fifteen minutes ago that is. Haha.
Ok,the actual thing was... After I switched the television off,I went to my room to use the computer and check if there were any message then after that went to read Jaclyn's blog entries. Her layout is kind of fascinating in a way that her entries were in the center instead to side. It's big and you'll be able to read it clearly. Haha.
I like the way she put the pictures. It's like slideshows. I still haven't figured how to get it right. Well? I'm learning! Well? If you would like to see some pictures,you may want to view Jaclyn's blog. Go to my links section,you'll see her name. Click on it. Tada!
It's one minute to 1AM. I'm thinking if I should do something tomorrow. Maybe like watch DVDs or VCDs. Do some workouts. Rollerblading. Or maybe do my homework. I have 3 Maths worksheet and that's my holiday homework by the way. It's the only one. Cool huh? Hmm...? I think I have a list of to do list already. It's all in my mind. Hmm...? Wondering what's in that mind of mine? Haha! I bet you can never guess. Ok,I'll name a few things that I've considered doing.
*Reading more magazines/books (To widen my knowledge)
*Watching VCDs or DVDs/Movies
*Do some workouts
*Trying new stuff out
*Planning
*Level up my Maple character
*Go out with friends
Well? I still have some more but the first three that I've mention is more like MUST do thing. I want to keep fit. I envy those people with nice bodies. Their so hot. You can see those muscles. Very firm. Very solid. Haha. Oops...
Well? I have to say this. I like guys with some muscles and tanned. They look great.
A list of guides.
*Guys with spiky hair just turns me on.
+Guys with center-parting just turns me off.
*Guys with good and nice personality just makes me comfortable.
+Guys with bad personality is a big NO-NO.
*Guys who have good sense of humor is fun to be with.
+Guys with no sense of humor are boring.
*Guys who are very understanding and caring are so sweet.
+Guys who are control freaks are horrible.
+Guys who go for looks are suckers.
*Guys who like you for who you are,aren't suckers.
+Guys should treat girls with respect. Those who do,they're so sweet.
*Guys who treat girls like an object. You should just ditch them.
LOL!
Seriously,it's hard to find those that matches your expectations. I like guys who are smart,have good personality,have a good sense of humor,treats you with respect and understanding and likes you for who you are. I don't know about other girls but I like someone who I can joke and laugh with. A little bit of that buddy type. Understanding is a must thing. I like those understanding type. Hmm...? Deep in thoughts? That's like wow. That way,you can look at things differently but not too deep,yeah? =) Guys who treat girls like object and abuse you aren't worth it. You should just ditch them! Haha. I hate guys who abuse girls. They're so evil. I pity those girls.
Hmm...? That's about guys. What about girls?
Well? I'm quite a fair person. I don't take sides. Girls? Some girls can be very bitchy. I hate them.
The list of good and baddy. [Girls]
*Girls who thinks highly of themselves are actually trash.
+Girls who are treats everyone equally. Way to go! That's the way.
*Girls who go after guys money are bitch!
+Girls who are faithful. I like you!
*Girls who thinks their very pretty are actually afraid that no one wants them.
+Girls who aren't a copycat simply rocks!
*Girls who act cute in front of guys are actually making a fool of themselves.
+Girls who fight for their rights are wonderful. I support you!
*Girls who only knows how to cry are cry baby.
+Girls that can take jokes are the best.
*Girls who can't take jokes are boring.
Haha. That's what I think. You're free to object. Nobody's right or wrong here. It's how you feel and how you think about it. =)
You just be yourself. I don't like wannabes. You are you. Remember that. Nobody can be you! Only you! So those wannabes. Stop it. It's not very nice.
Hey! Today's 17 of November right? Oh sharks! Now then I remember about my community! Yes. My MSN community. I've not been like updating it for quite some time. Darn it. I forgot. Too busy with stuff till I forgot about it. How could this be? I guess there are too many things in my mind. It's like when I look at the time and see the date again. I finally remembered that it was my community's anniversary.
Oh~ Ashley Kid World is 4 years old! Weeee~ I'm gonna log in and post something. Ok,I make a point to reorganise my community and make it better but it might not be now but soon. =) This I have to do! Haha.
I started my community back in 2001 and now is 2005! Time flies really fast. Checking at those message board. The last message I post was I think early this year and that's it. If I'm not wrong. The last pictures I post was like March and now is like November. Only now then I realise it. Darn it.
Anyway,let's just see what's next. =)
My world,my life.
Ok,cut it short. I'm off.
D-Illusionist*
Oh goodie. Just switched off the television. Well? To be exact,about fifteen minutes ago that is. Haha.
Ok,the actual thing was... After I switched the television off,I went to my room to use the computer and check if there were any message then after that went to read Jaclyn's blog entries. Her layout is kind of fascinating in a way that her entries were in the center instead to side. It's big and you'll be able to read it clearly. Haha.
I like the way she put the pictures. It's like slideshows. I still haven't figured how to get it right. Well? I'm learning! Well? If you would like to see some pictures,you may want to view Jaclyn's blog. Go to my links section,you'll see her name. Click on it. Tada!
It's one minute to 1AM. I'm thinking if I should do something tomorrow. Maybe like watch DVDs or VCDs. Do some workouts. Rollerblading. Or maybe do my homework. I have 3 Maths worksheet and that's my holiday homework by the way. It's the only one. Cool huh? Hmm...? I think I have a list of to do list already. It's all in my mind. Hmm...? Wondering what's in that mind of mine? Haha! I bet you can never guess. Ok,I'll name a few things that I've considered doing.
*Reading more magazines/books (To widen my knowledge)
*Watching VCDs or DVDs/Movies
*Do some workouts
*Trying new stuff out
*Planning
*Level up my Maple character
*Go out with friends
Well? I still have some more but the first three that I've mention is more like MUST do thing. I want to keep fit. I envy those people with nice bodies. Their so hot. You can see those muscles. Very firm. Very solid. Haha. Oops...
Well? I have to say this. I like guys with some muscles and tanned. They look great.
A list of guides.
*Guys with spiky hair just turns me on.
+Guys with center-parting just turns me off.
*Guys with good and nice personality just makes me comfortable.
+Guys with bad personality is a big NO-NO.
*Guys who have good sense of humor is fun to be with.
+Guys with no sense of humor are boring.
*Guys who are very understanding and caring are so sweet.
+Guys who are control freaks are horrible.
+Guys who go for looks are suckers.
*Guys who like you for who you are,aren't suckers.
+Guys should treat girls with respect. Those who do,they're so sweet.
*Guys who treat girls like an object. You should just ditch them.
LOL!
Seriously,it's hard to find those that matches your expectations. I like guys who are smart,have good personality,have a good sense of humor,treats you with respect and understanding and likes you for who you are. I don't know about other girls but I like someone who I can joke and laugh with. A little bit of that buddy type. Understanding is a must thing. I like those understanding type. Hmm...? Deep in thoughts? That's like wow. That way,you can look at things differently but not too deep,yeah? =) Guys who treat girls like object and abuse you aren't worth it. You should just ditch them! Haha. I hate guys who abuse girls. They're so evil. I pity those girls.
Hmm...? That's about guys. What about girls?
Well? I'm quite a fair person. I don't take sides. Girls? Some girls can be very bitchy. I hate them.
The list of good and baddy. [Girls]
*Girls who thinks highly of themselves are actually trash.
+Girls who are treats everyone equally. Way to go! That's the way.
*Girls who go after guys money are bitch!
+Girls who are faithful. I like you!
*Girls who thinks their very pretty are actually afraid that no one wants them.
+Girls who aren't a copycat simply rocks!
*Girls who act cute in front of guys are actually making a fool of themselves.
+Girls who fight for their rights are wonderful. I support you!
*Girls who only knows how to cry are cry baby.
+Girls that can take jokes are the best.
*Girls who can't take jokes are boring.
Haha. That's what I think. You're free to object. Nobody's right or wrong here. It's how you feel and how you think about it. =)
You just be yourself. I don't like wannabes. You are you. Remember that. Nobody can be you! Only you! So those wannabes. Stop it. It's not very nice.
Hey! Today's 17 of November right? Oh sharks! Now then I remember about my community! Yes. My MSN community. I've not been like updating it for quite some time. Darn it. I forgot. Too busy with stuff till I forgot about it. How could this be? I guess there are too many things in my mind. It's like when I look at the time and see the date again. I finally remembered that it was my community's anniversary.
Oh~ Ashley Kid World is 4 years old! Weeee~ I'm gonna log in and post something. Ok,I make a point to reorganise my community and make it better but it might not be now but soon. =) This I have to do! Haha.
I started my community back in 2001 and now is 2005! Time flies really fast. Checking at those message board. The last message I post was I think early this year and that's it. If I'm not wrong. The last pictures I post was like March and now is like November. Only now then I realise it. Darn it.
Anyway,let's just see what's next. =)
My world,my life.
Ok,cut it short. I'm off.
D-Illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:39:00 am♠
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Let's just look at things this way. I think it's better to put it this way.
I feel that sometimes people aren't aware of people's changes. You can be the way you are but you will change in a way or another somehow,somewhat. It's a metamorphosis. Be it looks,your thoughts and thinking,the way you view things,anything!
Sometimes I don't know what people thinks of things. You can't read people's mind but you can roughly tell but it's actions. Nevertheless,people do judge people by it's cover or some by what they hear or see. Sometimes people can behave in a certain way but you don't know if the person is really like that. What I mean is people may behave like an idiot with you but is he or she like that with other people? Not everyone behaves the same way as what you might think. Another thing is comments. I can't stand comments that should be kept to yourself. You comment about others but what about yourself? If you aren't any better,you should just shut. I'm not saying if you're better you should say. Don't be silly,use your brains! If it's something that you really want the person to change for the better and you really want to voice out. REMEMBER! Pick the right words. Don't hurt the other person.
I can't stand people who judge people thinking highly of themselves. Everyone make mistakes you silly fool! I bet you made a lot of sins. [Oh,I'm not saying you (readers). I'm talking about those people who thinks highly of themselves.]
Be it poor or rich. We shouldn't look down on others. Instead,we should appreciate what we have. If you have a little more,do your part by giving some to those people who needs it more. I know some people make such rude comments which will hurt the other person. Ever asked yourself the "WHAT IF" questions? Nothing last forever. Thinking that you will have it forever is simply wrong thinking. God is still the most powerful one and is somebody who we cannot defeat. Remember that! So stop thinking you're so good.
I've to admit that at times I get a little ego but whatever I did,I actually didn't have any intensions. Everyone does at a point of time. It maybe a little hard to understand me to some but if you know me well,I'm not that difficult to understand. It's a simple logic. If you're nice,I'm nice. If you're mean,I'm mean. What goes around comes around. It's how you treat others. Sometimes I have mood swings. I can be happy at this minute,the next minute - angry. The way I talk to you could sometimes be because something caught me up. So it's like a side effect. Sometimes I can't control myself. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you in a way.
Anyway,talking about all this. What can I say about life? Life is always full of surprises. There are lots of good things and bad things out there. Sour memories and those lovely memories. Whatever it is. You still have to get on with life. This world can be shitty at times. All the shitters will be giving you problems but hey! This is life. It's reality not like in the fairytales.
Moving on can be something difficult as you're not used to it. Trust me,soon or later you'll get over it. It's a matter of time. I know how's it as for the past year I was trying to move on and not think of something. I guess it's time I start moving on. Don't think of it. =) Pleasant things are waiting for you in store so go on and leave the past behind you.
Sometimes even talking to people who are very deep in their thoughts can be really interesting. I like those kind of people. You get to learn something new and at the same time exchange ideas. To some it may be complicating as they'll never understand what their trying to say but to me,I find them interesting. It's one of the best way to learn. You'll expand your knowledge. You learn and be smart. Score As but knowledge? You can't learn knowledge except to gain it. It's universal. Even your daily life you can actually learn something from there.
Friends and family are important. Friends and I mean true friends will always be by your side no matter what. You can have many friends but true friends? It's hard to find. Friends are like money actually. Easy come,easy go but if you treasure them they will go away just like that.
Choose your friends wisely. Some friends can be a good influence while some can be bad influence. Just like decisions in life. If you choose the wrong one,you'll go wrong. Get it? =)
Whatever it is. Fight for your rights! Don't let others take advantage of you. I know some people love to take advantage of people. Those people should just be ditch. Haha. Oops. But really,I think you should. You are you and nobody should take advantage of you. So speak out! Don't be afraid to do so if not you're always the victim.
Being nice is a good thing but you mustn't let people take advantage of you.
Alright. Take care of yourself and your health! Stay happy all the way and don't think too much. It's not good for your health.
Peace out.
D-Illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠10:17:00 pm♠
[ 16.11.05 ]
Coming out with new stuff to blog so to make it interesting! Haha.
I'm thinking out of the box. If possible I want it to be different. Hmm? It could be pictures,poems,anything. Sometimes all text can be a little eye straining so I'm thinking maybe some pictures can brighten it up. Haha.
Well? I'm just considering it only. 1.36AM. Gosh. No wonder I'm starting to yawn and yawn. I guess I should be thinking of all those already. It's time I speed up and lose everything. Sometimes it's best losing everything. You'll never know what's in stores for you. You can't have everything in this world and to think about it sometimes it's sad but what can I say? Don't be greedy. If it's meant to be yours,it's yours. Greedy people end up with nothing in the end. Ha! How 'bout that? So is it good to be greedy or what? Well? That's my own opinion. I think that the greedy will lose a lot in the end. Just like when you're on top and if you fall,people will laugh at you for your failure. It's natural. It's fact and it's happening around us.
If they don't like you,they can say anything. No matter how good you are,they will never admit that you're good. You're always "bad" to them. It's hard to make people to like you but if you have such talents to do the things that you can excel,why worry about all these idiots? They aren't important to you at ALL. Just go ahead and trust your heart. Don't let little things get into your head. If they have a mouth,you too have a mouth. So if they want to mock you,make sure you'll never make them forget. Oh... If not,ignore. It depends. =)
Everyone thinks differently. We all have different thinking. WE are never the same. Maybe sometimes we think alike but we are totally different people. You are you,I am ME. Always remember that you're the one and only one. You're special,you're unique. You're you! No one can be you! That's what I'd say if people thinks highly about themselves.
I'll just go... "Do I even look like I care? You are you,I'm ME. I'm unique. We're different."
Anyway,just do what you like. Don't let stupid people get in your way. =) They're just blocking your sunshine from you and that's so bloody horrible. Don't care about this morons. They're just a pain in the ass. Make sure you kick their ass real hard when they find trouble with you or they'll never learn their lesson.
Alright,I want to go to bed now. Eyes are shutting and my brain's shutting too. If I hang on any longer I guess I'll burst like the fireworks. Haha. Enough crap already.
Take care.
Oh. That's pictures of me with weird pose. Haha. What can I say? Some people thinks I'm weird! Heck! Oh well... Have a nice day! =)
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠1:48:00 am♠
Is life a joke or for you to suffer?
You know sometimes I just don't understand how the other person interprets it as. I just simply don't understand people at times. Well? Neither do people understand me I guess. Whatever the issue is,it's really hard to understand the other. Aww man. Darn it. I'm starting to have foul mood again. I hate it! Sucks!!! Oh fish. Whatever...
Anyway,I'm hurt. First I got a little jealous now hurt. Looking at "those stuff",I'm hurt!! =( I think I really need someone to talk to. Someone to make me feel comfortable. Console me in other words. ='( Sounds like a baby? I can't help it. I'm hurt. I guess I never got over the truth that's in front of me. It has been in front of me for so long yet I choose to ignore it and still go for it. How foolish. Indeed very. I try and try yet I still fail. Well? Almost successful but half way failed. Oh god. I wish god will give me courage and determination to really get it to 100%. I'm halfway there but I ........ It's complicated.
Oh. 12 midnight already. Oh well......
You know.......
We watch television. We see those shows. We are entertained. We get excited. We're happy. More like a win-win situation but................ REALITY ISN'T at ALL. Sometimes I don't understand why do I still hang onto it? I'm such a foolish person. I knew that we can never work things out yet I believe in the illusion. Oh great. Tell me what's next? What other foolish things am I going to commit? What other worthless thing am I going to go after? Sometimes I asked myself why - why I can give advise to others and try to give them solutions but why can't I solve my own?
I feel crushed when I think about it. I feel hurt. I feel stupid about it. It's like I'm so bloody foolish! FOOLISH FOOLISH FOOLISH!!! Am I that [so] wrong? I don't think so. Yes,I make mistakes. I did stupid things. I was foolish. I admit that I'm wrong. I'm not perfect. Nobody's perfect. We all learn from mistakes. If there's you & me,there's I & we. Everybody is god's children. Tell me who never make mistakes in your whole entire life? If you admit that you never,you are obviously LYING.
I know and I realise. My past behaviour was a little ... To some I'm a player. To some they dislike me because I'm noisy. To some they think I'm action. Ha ha ha! Oh right. What a joke. Noisy? Maybe I am. I talk a lot and I love to laugh a lot. Player? I don't think I'm a player because there are other players who are really players. I don't play people out. What my hearts wants to say,it decides. Forget it. All this shitty things are making me going nuts. I give up all this shit. It's time I 100% move on.
I'm evolving. Things change,people change but the names and face will never change. So why can I be myself? I can't always be the same forever. I've to experiment a little but to the extend.
Alright,I'm off before this complicated world gets upset.
Bah! Whatever.
D-Illusionist*
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:17:00 am♠
Sunday, November 13, 2005
"Set Me Free (Trance Remix)" makes you feel like dancing. Haha. It's by Paul Oakenfold. I like Paul Oakenfold's "Ready Steady Go" and "Hypnotised". "Children" also not bad. =D
Ok ok. Enough talking about that.
Well? I listen try to listen to almost all kinds of music. So far I've only listen to Rock,Pop,R&B,Dance/Trance,a little of J.Pop. Haha. Oh and Techno too and also a little of Hip-Hop but I mostly listen to Rock & Pop.
Music,music,music. Gosh,I better stop it now before I get carried away. =)
It's 2.28PM. Few days ago while I was surfing the net,I came across some blogs and well? I didn't read all of them,just a few. Oh boy,oh boy. It was terrific. The way they blog is just so cool. They don't use short forms,they use standard English. The way they describe things are just fascinating. Even if it's just little things,it brings life to it by making it interesting to read and it makes you feel like reading more of it. Ain't that cool? I'm fascinated by it. On top of that,the words they use to describe it - cool! I wish I could make mine something like that. We are all different but we can make it something like that with our own style. Make it something more unique and different from others. =D
For some blogs I've read,they're blog are just a little boring. Not much content. It's all about them and I mean totally.
Erm... Be right back.
I go and eat my lunch first.
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠2:32:00 pm♠
Friday, November 11, 2005
[ 11.10.05 ]
What's the purpose in life actually? Seriously,I don't understand. Why are there wars? Why can't there be peace? World peace,where is it??
*sigh* Let's not think of all this already.
I want to be happy. Therefore,I've to think of the happy things and look on the bright side of life and SHINE!
Hmm... I sort of miss Inuyasha. Feel like buying the VCD but can you imagine $29.90 x 13? That cost a lot.
I'm currently listening to "Change The World" by V6. Haha. That opening for Inuyasha. The first opening. I like that song. =) Second on my list is Inuyasha Half Demon Theme. I can just play that song over and over again. Haha. Crazy? Nah... I just love it. Yeah! Here it is. I'm listening to it now. If I have school or if I have to wake up early,my morning alarm would be that song. =D
Before that song,my morning alarm used to be "Aika". One of Inuyasha's song too. Oh. I remember. You know the part when Inuyasha ask his mother what is a half demon? Something like that. The part where he recalls about the past. Yeah,that song.
Japanese animations are nice to watch but some are just ....... Haha. "Too over" Like Love Hina,Godannar and so on. Haha. "You know" Well? If you watch the show you'll know what I mean. I bet "those people" *ahem* If you know what I mean loves watching it. Or rather enjoys watching it. I never really watch Godannar but Love Hina is nice. =) But hey,don't get me wrong. Haha. I remember watching Godannar first episode. Damn. ...huge,bouncy,you can see it. =X Too much details already. Haha. Afer that I didn't watch it.
Diamond Dust Drops is nice. I like that show. Let me see... Today is episode what. Hmm...? If I'm not wrong is episode nine. Aww... Gonna finish soon. DDD only have 12 episodes. I wonder what would be next.
I wish to watch more Japanese animation. So far I only watch Inuyasha,Cardcaptor Sakura,Akazukin Chacha,Dual,Peacemaker Kurogane,Scrapped Princess,DDD... Can't think of anymore already. Haha. That's what I can think of.
8.53AM. "Destination Sunshine" is on my playlist. It's by DJ Johan Gielen but the song is DJ Tiesto Powermix. Anyway,it's nice. Especially songs by DJ Tiesto. Their so nice. It'll make you feel like dancing. Haha. What can I say? It's trance/dance.
Alright,that's it for now.
D-Illusionist----x
*sigh* Let's not think of all this already.
I want to be happy. Therefore,I've to think of the happy things and look on the bright side of life and SHINE!
Hmm... I sort of miss Inuyasha. Feel like buying the VCD but can you imagine $29.90 x 13? That cost a lot.
I'm currently listening to "Change The World" by V6. Haha. That opening for Inuyasha. The first opening. I like that song. =) Second on my list is Inuyasha Half Demon Theme. I can just play that song over and over again. Haha. Crazy? Nah... I just love it. Yeah! Here it is. I'm listening to it now. If I have school or if I have to wake up early,my morning alarm would be that song. =D
Before that song,my morning alarm used to be "Aika". One of Inuyasha's song too. Oh. I remember. You know the part when Inuyasha ask his mother what is a half demon? Something like that. The part where he recalls about the past. Yeah,that song.
Japanese animations are nice to watch but some are just ....... Haha. "Too over" Like Love Hina,Godannar and so on. Haha. "You know" Well? If you watch the show you'll know what I mean. I bet "those people" *ahem* If you know what I mean loves watching it. Or rather enjoys watching it. I never really watch Godannar but Love Hina is nice. =) But hey,don't get me wrong. Haha. I remember watching Godannar first episode. Damn. ...huge,bouncy,you can see it. =X Too much details already. Haha. Afer that I didn't watch it.
Diamond Dust Drops is nice. I like that show. Let me see... Today is episode what. Hmm...? If I'm not wrong is episode nine. Aww... Gonna finish soon. DDD only have 12 episodes. I wonder what would be next.
I wish to watch more Japanese animation. So far I only watch Inuyasha,Cardcaptor Sakura,Akazukin Chacha,Dual,Peacemaker Kurogane,Scrapped Princess,DDD... Can't think of anymore already. Haha. That's what I can think of.
8.53AM. "Destination Sunshine" is on my playlist. It's by DJ Johan Gielen but the song is DJ Tiesto Powermix. Anyway,it's nice. Especially songs by DJ Tiesto. Their so nice. It'll make you feel like dancing. Haha. What can I say? It's trance/dance.
Alright,that's it for now.
D-Illusionist----x
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠8:54:00 am♠
Dealing with [very] emotional people is a heartache I tell you. Yes,I am emotional but not to the extend. I have my ups and downs. You too have it. What can I say after all? This is life. Live with it. Like it or not,you still have to move on in life as it goes on everyday. You can't freeze time. How interesting if there's such thing.
Oh well...
You may be wondering why I blog so early in the morning. Yeah,for those who knows that I usually wake up late must be wondering what caught me up. Earlier on at about 6.20AM,I was awake because I feel hot. I turn to my left and saw the fan was off. I was irritated by it so I decided to switch it on without realising my mother was actually sweeping the floor. So I switched it on then she started nagging. Damn,it was noisy I tell you. She then talk about yesterday. It wasn't even me! I'm not involved in whatever thing she was caught up with yet she doesn't care she continues with the same old thing. The thing that makes me mad was "For what call me mother? Don't ask for me anything. Go,go and ask from the person who you're so nice with yesterday."
I was like... "what the ----" but I didn't say that.
It makes me mad. I mean I didn't offend her at all yesterday and yet she said that?! It doesn't make sense. It's crap! Oh... Not only that. She goes on I don't know what. Imagining that I have ill intentions towards her. Oh pleaseeeee....... *rolls eyes* What would I? No matter how angry I am towards her or so whatever,I don't have that kind of stupid intentions. Anyway,it's a waste of time. Only dumb people or people who is TOO BLOODY FREE has that kind of intentions. Not me. No matter how angry or unsatisfied,I won't ever have that kind of intentions. So to those IDIOTS OUT THERE: If you think that I'm that type,get out! I'm not. And to those idiots who doesn't like me as a person,you back off and stop reading my blog. You busybody. Mind your own,you freako!
I'm so pissed off. Damn it.
To those of you who thinks that you know me that well. Sad to say,you don't. Yes,I can share my stuff with you but it just isn't ME yet. It's just a minor me. I can be complicated,I can be easy to understand. It's how you look at it. Like it or not,I'm Diane. I'm unique,I'm me and no one can be me because I'm the one and only one. If you think I'm those noisy type and whatsoever. Judge for all you want. I know what type of person I am so keep your comments to yourself. Anyway,before you comment,have you ever look at yourself first? Are you that ****-- great? I never said I'm very good nor did I say I'm innocent. I'm not what you think I am.
Yes,I talk a lot. So? What's the big deal? Ever seen me very quiet? Well? I can be both,it just depends who I'm with and who am I talking to,and also the situation. I can be emotional at times. I have lots of thoughts and some just can't be express. I can be a listener. I do give advise. Whatever it is,I try to understand.
1) IF you think that I'm "very" emotional. You just don't know how emotional is my mother.
2) IF you think I'm unreasonable. How am I going to rate my mother than?
3) IF you think that I'm that type who only talk about ownself and never understand others. Are you saying my mother is ego?
4) IF you think that I don't have that little patience in me and I mean not even one bit. You just don't know my mother.
5) IF you think I flare up easily. Then what is my mother being labelled as?
You just don't know my mother. Never say I am the same as my mother because I'm not. I & her are never the same. Well? We can be close but we are never the same. I feel that I'm not so bad as her. She sometimes don't have that patience and she flares up easily. Sometimes worst,I & my brother talk about other stuff,she suspect we're talking about her. She likes to pressurize people. You just don't know her because you're not me and she's not your mother.
Things I like about her is that sometimes she can be very nice and caring but I hate it when those stuff happens. (Those that I've mentioned)
It definately sucks. Arghhh... because of that,I can't sleep. Tears keep flowing after that conflict I had with her. I don't know if I'm angry or sad but those tears have stopped and I've washed up already. Darn it. I slept for four hours only. Maybe later I'll take an afternoon nap. Those tears aren't because I feel guilty or something. Those tears that are flowing is actually tears of anger. Sad? Maybe abit. I have feelings. We all have feelings but she does couldn't be bothered. She never say sorry even if it was her fault. She's stubborn yet calls me stubborn. Yeah. I am stubborn but not as stubborn as her. Sometimes I give way. For her,it's like all the way she doesn't wants to lose.
Actually,it's not about losing or winning. You know that crap. If it was your fault,an apology won't hurt or harm anyone. We live in this world. We can't be like always winning all the time. At times you lose too. This world is a small world. Life is short. We age everyday. Every minute,every second,every hour. We are all god's children. Sometimes I just don't understand what people are thinking. If only I can read those minds of theirs.
Oh well. I better not go on. It's worthless talking about it.
I'm simply sick and tired of it.
-D-Illusionist-
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠8:20:00 am♠
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Oh well... What can I say? Life is a roller coaster. It isn't good for me this days. I don't know what's gotten in to it. I wish it wasn't like this. I simply hate it.
Well? Had pizza earlier on. Damn,it was good but dealing with emotional people around is definately not good. What can I say? Life's like that. You just have to live with it. I'm also emotional but I'm not to that extend. This is sort of too much. Had conflict with ... again. Arghhh! It sucks! Why does it have to happen? If only this people aren't that too emotional.
Definately I'm not like that. Yes,I'm emotional but not too over like that. This is crap! Why is it like this? I'm pissed off. Hopefully it turns out to be better tomorrow. *Hopefully!*
Oh heck. Later ya? I want to watch Diamond Dust Drops.
Peace out.
D-Illusionist------x
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:29:00 pm♠
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
...I heard that song but I won't play it. It's alright,it's okay....... Haha. I'm addicted to Bon Jovi's "Complicated". Nice song. =)
I can't wait to get my hands on Bon Jovi's "Have A Nice Day". I can buy the album but I just don't want to fork out my money yet. =D Maybe December or January I'll buy. Well? Ok,I still can wait. Well? But maybe just a little while more. Haha. Bon Jovi just keeps getting better. Bon Jovi rocks!
I guess this is better than their "Crush" album which is my all-time favourite album. Their "Bounce" album is okay but not as good as the "Crush" album or this one. ("Have A Nice Day")
This is really great. The first time I hear their first single I was already "Yeah!" Haha. I knew that Bon Jovi will come out with good songs.
I still have some things in mind to buy. Have to get it one by one. Haha. Oh - Have no fear,I'll find a way to get it. =D
The Body Shop's Fragrance just smells so good. I think I'll get one. Everytime I walk pass The Body Shop,I just got hooked to the smell. It smells terribly good. =D Ahhhhh! Haha.
So fast it's already Wednesday,November 9. Time flies really fast.
Hmm... "Spell It Out" by Fort Minor is not bad. I don't really listen to Hip-hop that much but I have to say that Fort Minor just attracts me. I love their songs. Their album "Rising Tied" is soon to be out in stores but I'm not sure when as I forgot the dates but it'll be out this month. Mike!! =D Haha. His cute and so does Jon Bon Jovi. Haha.
Past few days I was surfing the net looking at forums on the Motorola ROKR E1,I heard it isn't that good. Is it true? Just for your information,my Motorola E398 looks exactly like the ROKR E1. Yeah,no kidding. Yes,normally the Motorola E398 is black in colour but mine's the same colour as ROKR E1. Cool huh? Anyway,I'm glad I got the white one. I love white! Haha. Hmm... But mine can't listen to iTunes. Oh well... Don't know whether to get that phone or not. Well? It's the same as my phone except that one can listen to iTunes while mine can't. One thing I like about the phone is that it has expandable memory. That way,I can keep lots of stuff in it.
Oh well. Alright,I've to go now. I want to watch Diamond Dust Drops.
Peace out.
D-Illusionist-----x
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠11:29:00 pm♠
Hmm... It's 11.50PM now. Oh well...
You know sometimes when I think about it,I think that being single rocks! =) You don't have to have someone to be happy and enjoying life. I mean... Come on ya? Even if you don't have that "someone",you can be happy and enjoying life too.
Some people feel bad about being single. To them,it's like being unwanted and lonely. In my own opinion,that's so wrong. Unwanted? Lonely? What about your friends? Your family? I bet your family cares for you. So you're not all that. Well? At least there's someone who cares for you. So stop thinking that way. I just can't stand some people thinking that way.
To be honest,I don't have a steady before. Virtual steady? Haha. That's crap ya? I was just trying out only but that doesn't count. Anyway,to me at this age it's just puppy love. For some it's more like monkey see,monkey do. You see people have one,you too want to have one and that's like so wrong. You're a human without brains if you're just following the crowd. They always say majority wins but you know what? It doesn't have to be right all the time. I mean,you have a brain so use it wisely. Those brains of yours that god has given is something to be use wisely and not to keep it and let the brain cells die off like that.
Being heartbroken. Being hurt. Confused? Who doesn't go through all that? I bet everyone does at a point of time. In this world,you can't have everything. You take some and give up some. Life's like that. What can I say?
Well? It's not like I've never like anyone before. I ever and it can be painful at times. Hoping the person will feel the same way to... You know stuff like that. But the truth is,you can never force love. If it's yours,it's yours. If it isn't,you can't do anything about it. Well? You can't make someone to like you but... You can try to make someone like you. Well? In a way that is. You can try win the person's heart but the person still doesn't like you,that's it. Move on. You can't do anything about it. Sometimes it's better to be friends than more than that. Oh well... I guess love is complicated. Well? It is actually. Ok,I advise you not to find love BUT let love find you. I think it's better that way. Unexpect the unexpected. When you expect something very much,the end result will be a pain in the heart and it can affect you at times. Well? Depending on the person.
WE human beings have feelings and it's not wrong to have feelings towards someone. I have no objection because I too was a sucker for it. That's one thing I hate about myself. I am always so weak towards the person I like. It's like I'll soften and melt. Unlike the person I dislike or my friends I can firmly decide and say whatever I want to but towards the person I like....... Aww man. I'm just so weak to do anything. Hopefully that doesn't happen again.
I want to be someone stronger and not weak when it comes to stuff like that. That's why I've decided not to think of guys because it could a pain in the ass. Especially guys who likes to talk nasty stuff about you. That's just sick. You have no rights to judge people so keep your comments to yourself. I'll appreciate it very much.
Hmm...? What can I say? Guys just go for looks only. Like it or not. That's fact. Some guys are just blind. They just haven't seen prettier girls yet but I feel that guys should stop doing that. One example that I envy for a guy is my brother. My younger brother who is four years younger than me has that mentality to think this way.
He once told me this,"You see the girls heart not the face. IF she's pretty and sexy but has a bad heart,she's bad. One more thing,I hate gold diggers."
I was amused by his sentence.I was stunned. Haha. Yeah,who would have thought a kid brother of mine to think that way. Alright,so he prove me wrong about guys going for looks only. His good friend thinks the same way as my brother. That's like "wow". Haha. Well? But I still have to say that most guys go for looks. Ok,to be fair... Girls go for looks too. But hey,not all okay?
You know,sometimes I wonder what does LOVE means to people. Is it saying "I love you" every single moment to each other? Being there for one another. Is it that feeling? Or to some to get closer to each other. (If you know what I mean) *ahem*
Anyway,whatever it is. I wonder if they know the true meaning of it? Even I till now don't really know what it really means. Does true love exist? It looks really easy in the movies. People falling in love........ Living together,happily ever after. I wish life is like in the movies. So easy and so sweet. Hmm...? And romantic? Haha. IF only it was. Or like in the fairy tales. The princess and her prince charming. Dancing together.Riding the horse together. Watching the sunset together. And when the prince kiss the princess,it's like everything around them is just turns out to be fine. They get married and oh...... What a happy ending. I guess all this will never happen. I can only dream about it in my dreams.
*sigh* Just now a friend of mine was talking about love matters. He was telling me that he had confessed his feelings to this girl and he doesn't know what to do. I'm surprised that this is his third time confessing.
Compared to me. I only confessed once but it was stupid. I didn't really express how I feel. I don't know how to confess it actually. Some of it was tales. I just make up some. I really don't know if I should tell everything how I feel and all. I just find it a little stupid and embarrassing so some it I make it up. I find it all dumb. I should just keep it all to myself. Oh well. That was over already. I can't turn back time. I wish I could. All those mistakes I've done and my stupidity. I wish I could take it all back. *sigh* What to do? It's over already. Well,I guess I can learn from those mistakes and not make the same ones.
Sometimes I'm afraid to fall deeply for someone. I'm afraid that I'll be hurt again. I don't want to be hurt again. It's a sour experience and it gives me heartache. Thinking of all this isn't worth it. There are things way more important than this. I shouldn't be thinking of all this complicating stuff. I should just enjoy life and have fun while I still can! =)
So those of you who is single and thinks that it's miserable. Think of it this way,if I'm happy with it,why can't you too be happy about being single? Anyway,it's less stress and you have more freedom. I know sometimes the feeling is just too strong but some things you just have to put it aside for awhile and think of other stuff. Other stuff that makes you smile instead of worrying. IF only everyone in this world will just stop the war and smile. Be happy and love each other. Love,Peace,Harmony.
That would be great. I just don't know what are all this people thinking. We are all god's children. If we can't have peace,we can't have love and this world will be forever like that. We can't change the world nor the people around but if people will think of it differently,I bet this world is very loving and peaceful.
I guess it's meant to be like a puzzle for you to solve. What can I say? Life is a roller coaster ride. There's always something everyday but are you ready for the challenge?
Ok,before I get carried away I'll stop here.
Give peace a chance.
D-Illusionist-----x
♥Ashley Kid♥ × ♠12:44:00 am♠
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| Your Love Type: ISFJ |
 In love, you are quietly intense, devoted, and tend too hold on too long. For you, sex is a way to get closer - and a way to take care of your partner. Overall, you are altruistic and eager to please your sweetie. However, you tend to also be non-confrontational and secretly frustrated with relationship issues. Best matches: ESTP or ESFP |
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| You Are Picky When it Counts |
 But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating. You probably have quite a few great guys you can date! |
// What kind of sexy girl are you?
| You Are Fun Sexy |
 Guys always have a great time with you, and that alone is sexy. You've got an upbeat, optimistic spirit that totally shines through. Any guy would be crazy to turn you down! |
// What kind of girl are you?
| You are a Brainy Girl! |
 You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more. For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests. A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either! |
// Are you spoiled?
| You Are 24% Spoiled |
 You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have. |
// What flavour Pocky are you?
| You Are Flan Pocky |
 East meets west... sweet meets salty. You're a pro at bringing unusual combos together! |
// Could you be violent?
| There's a Chance You Could Be Violent |
 Sometimes your anger gets the best of you, and end up regretting how you act. Try to curb your temper more often. It only has to get out of control once to do some damage. |
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